4 stars
Lovely beginning of a new series.
Vinnie is a hockey player about to retire, he's a skilled defenseman, ruthless, scary and cocky, but he's also a funny prankster, he's 36 and it's time for him to move on wih his life. He hasn't made any plan, he just wants to return to his hometown, where there are still his father and his best friend Ronnie's family.
Nolan, Ronnie's younger brother, is 35, he owns the family restaurant and also he helps his brother with a hockey program. Nolan is gay and out since he was in college.
Vinnie, Ronnie and Nolan have spent their entire childhood and teenage years together, they know each other very well, they played hockey together and Vinnie has always been considered a member of the Moore family: it was actually Ronnie and Nolan's dad who introduced and pushed him towards hockey and loved him like a son.
But since Vinnie left for college and then he was drafted by a NHL team, he focused only on his career and he basically ghosted everyone else, except for phone calls and short visits.
He hasn't set foot in town since 7 years before, but when he comes back everyone still welcomes him like a hero. The only one holding a grudge is Nolan: he's pissed because of Vinnie's behaviour towards his brother (who had to face a lot of problems in the past) that made him a terrible friend:
"You got a taste of the sweet life, experienced some fame and fortune, playing the game our dad taught you to play, and you never showed up for him." [for Ronnie]
Vinnie is determined to make up for his past mistakes by helping them with the hockey program, but while Ronnie is very easygoing and forgiving, Nolan doesn't trust him to not abandon them again. That doesn't prevent him to start a sexual "relationship" with Vin, who finally admits (19 years after their first and only time fooling around) to be bisexual.
What prevented me from giving 5 stars:
The story is a little predictable: Nolan says so many times that he doesn't know what Vinnie's plans are at the end of the summer that the reader is waiting for the inevitable third act breakup.
Moreover, 19 years are a very long time to be in love with someone and never try to make things work. Vinnie said that he always thought about that night with Nolan (when they have their first sexual experience and, then he dismissed it like it was nothing important) and it's very obvious that he was in love: there are a lot of little details that he confesses that made me swoon (their numbers, the night at the hotel when he heard Nolan has come out, the jealousy, the game tickets).
But for all those years he kept that love (and the scary thought of being bisexual) locked away by completely focusing on hockey (and sex with women, apparently). He didn't even support him when he came out with a simple thing like a phone call.
"It was easier thinking you were like me... than to imagine you with..."...
"You have no idea how much I needed to hear that... It's nice to hear I wasn't alone, but Jesus, I could have used it years ago."...
"I just wasn't ready to-"
"I know. You didn't have to come out for me... You could have just said 'Hey, Nol. It was a god thing, bad timing.' Or something, anything."
Then, when he comes back, he suddenly finds himself still attracted to Nolan and wants to experiment with him. And Nolan agrees.
I believe he should have groveled way more to deserve Nolan's forgiveness, instead it was like he didn't have to make any efforts. He could have been also more assertive with his agent and Sienna, tough: it was insensitive still treating her like a girlfriend in front of the whole town and press, even if Nolan knew the truth. It broke my heart seeing him having to stay in the background during such a important moment: once again, Vin wasn't brave and Nolan got hurt.
"I'm losing myself by hiding in the shadows like a dirty secret... Vinnie, I'm the dirtiest secret you've ever had."...
I'd been here before. Always keeping secrets, always hiding in the shadows,... he'd put his name on this burden and carried it like a suitcase for years. And I'd let him.
I love Vin, though, he's funny and spontaneous, he's also a little bit of a mess about his own insecurities and I appreciate that, on that matter, he never hold back from Nolan, but he always communicated with him.
Their sex scenes are very well written, they're a mix of hotness, funny banter and love.
"You have to go slow. It's been a while, and you're kinda big."
"Kinda big? I'm huge," I bragged, hoping to add a smidge of humor and calm my frazzled nerves. My hand was shaking so hard...
Next book, Next Season, will be about JC, Nolan's ex and now dear friend, and Trunk, Vinnie's former teammate and I'm very curious about it.
In the meantime I definitely recommend this book.
I received an ARC of this book from Gay Romance Reviews and this is my honest review.