I walked into this blind. I knew a bit about the blurb and that it was romance, but I've read other works by this author and I felt confident that I'd enjoy it to some degree, so blind it was. I wanted the story and the characters to do all the work for me. I'm not a that much of a romance reader at the moment (but I've read a fair whack in my time), nor do I really read open door romances or erotica.
This is so much more than a simple 'open door romance.' The scenes involving the spice were spicy indeed, but this is truly a love story.
Right, so lets start with the premise:
Liliana has escaped from a toxic relationship and for the moment, has found solace working as a stripper in an illegal club (I did not realise strip clubs were illegal in Canada, so this was interesting.) It's perfect for her as she can work without ID to compromise her anonymity. Perfect until her colleague's leery boyfriend decides she's no good and kicks her out. She starts the novel really vulnerable and walking the streets looking for somewhere safe to stay.
This was a good start and I am so very glad that this was in third person, not first like a lot of contemporary romance these days. I was in Liliana's head enough to be able to get what her issues were without having to listen to every single thing that crosses her mind. She is in defence mode, she is broken, she sees dancing as the last thing she has that she is in complete control of. I love that the author chose to distance us in third, so we can see for ourselves what her world is like.
I also feel that seen as this is a polyamorous love story (because it is a love story through and through) the author did an amazing job of introducing us to all three main characters in this story (again, by using third person POV!) and helping the reader see why these men are so bloody delightful and wonderful and come to think of it, Liliana is quite selfish here. Man hog. If Trovao had gone 1st on this, we would have missed out on so much of the story, and the characters within it. I am therefore incredibly grateful.
But anyway, she throws herself into this situation where she could have friendship--real friendship. She could be a role model to other vulnerable people. She finds herself around children and people from all walks of life. She is welcome, and she really struggles with that to begin with. Again, I'm really glad we only got a peppering of Liliana's self doubt and not some first person swan song about her pain.
We see everything she feels, and we see how she appears to the characters around her. I thought Trovao's portrayal of her vulnerability and her experience of being an abuse victim was sensitively handled.
As for Ambrose and Iseul- they are two clearly distinct characters and each offers something different. One is more reserved, great in the kitchen, smaller in frame, but he is kind and an excellent dancer. The other, Ambrose, is also kind (of course, they both run a hostel for goodness' sake) but is more of a night owl, plays his guitar and reads epic fantasy. I've never read a book about a polyamorous relationship and if I'm being honest, I wasn't sure how it was going to work, but when you learn about how these characters love and depend on each other, you see that no one is going to come between them (well, unless it's between the sheets).
For a lot of the book, it's a really slow burn before the confessions of feelings and truth about pasts come along, but I don't think it was a disservice to the story. Liliana works on herself, and flourishes like the garden she so desperately wants to grow at the hostel.
There was a massive turn in the story which honestly had me worrying for the outcome. I was shocked at how severe the abuse had been, and not because Liliana finally talked about it. There's a part of the novel where things progress and Liliana realises she's attracted the wrong attention and she won't get away. Marcus is an exceptional portrayal of a romance villain. He had my skin crawling. What was all the more horrifying about the abusive ex is that this is reality for so many people out there. Not once did I feel the author forgot that. Even the new relationship and the happy ending was so real, and so down to earth with its authenticity. This was about trust, it was about vulnerability and when making yourself vulnerable is the way to loving and accepting love from another.
Again, I'm not really a romance reader nor do I ever really think about polyamorous relationships, but I thoroughly enjoyed this world and the story that developed within it.
Now, coffee and brownies anyone?
Thank you to Book Sirens for the ARC.