"Summer, the things I want with you ..." I stroke my thumb over her cheek, wishing I could do so much more than that. "If only you knew."
I finished this book and just kind of sat there for a minute staring at nothing, like my brain and my heart both needed time to catch up. You know when a story doesn’t just end—but drops you off somewhere emotionally and drives away without you? That was me. 😭😭 Jaw on the floor. Mildly unwell. Fully attached.
I think I’ve officially accepted that friends-to-lovers might be my forever trope now, 🙂↕️🤚🏼because you’re telling me it took nearly three decades of subconscious pining, buried feelings, and emotional muscle memory for them to realize they were each other’s person the entire time? I will never recover from that kind of slow-burn destiny. 😭😭
Summer absolutely wrecked me in ways I didn’t expect. Learning more about her past and her family situation put this ache behind her optimism that made her kindness feel so earned. 🥹 She chooses warmth anyway. She chooses hope anyway. I was furious on her behalf more than once—especially with the parental betrayal thread (I actually hate her dad😝😑). Watching her slowly come back to herself, particularly through surfing, felt like watching someone breathe color back into their own life. 😌
And Parker. I don’t even know where to start with him. From the beginning there is this steady devotion in the way he moves around her—the kind that hides itself as normal. Part of me kept thinking there is no way she doesn’t see this, but then again, he didn’t fully see it himself. 😭😭 That somehow made it better and more honest. His emotional realization hurt in the best way. That dawning panic when you realize the person who has always been there is actually the person. His regret, his determination, the way his world tilted when things broke between them all landed hard. 🤭🤭
Their falling out physically pained me. I was stressed. I was so sad. And I will admit… (the only part of the book I didn’t like) I got irritated with Summer for how long she held onto her anger. I understood it emotionally, but I still wanted to sit her down and say, “You know this man would never intentionally hurt you.” AND DENNY?! LOL 😀🤚🏼 Zero grace. If fictional characters could catch consequences, I would volunteer to deliver them personally. The urge to reach into the book and punch him in the face was oh so very real. 🫠🫠
The emotional tension once Parker stops suppressing his feelings is ridiculous in the best way. The banter shifts. The awareness shifts. Every look and joke and accidental touch suddenly has voltage. 🥵 They know everything about each other—habits, history, weaknesses—and yet this new romantic layer makes it all feel risky and electric. That contrast is delicious. 🤌🏼🤌🏼
And the spice??? Goodness 😭 It went from slow burn to immediate switch flipped. No gentle easing in, no soft transition, just suddenly we are there and it is intense. It felt like all that buried tension finally kicked the door open. Seeing the hidden side of Parker’s desires after him being presenting as the steady, sweet, dependable guy for so long? 😧🤚🏼 I was stunned in the best way. That contrast hit hard and made every scene twice as electric. I did not see it coming, and I ate it up. (If you’re a fan of dirty talk… you won’t be disappointed 😭)
One of my favorite parts was how consistently Parker builds Summer back up after she has been worn down by other people’s voices and expectations. He speaks life into her without trying to reshape her. His support is loud, intentional, and unwavering—he makes sure she hears it, believes it, and feels it. 🥹🫶🏼 It felt healing to read. And his own growth??? 👏🏼 🙌🏼 It’s just as satisfying. He starts reaching for more because he wants to be right for her, then realizes he needs to do it for himself too.
This book feels like emotional payoff in its purest form. It’s about timing, fear, emotional courage, and the terrifying risk of changing a relationship that already means everything. It was a story about love, longing, and growth. Everything about it… “worth getting out of bed for.” (iykyk) 💛💛💛
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”I’d known then, without a doubt, that Summer Prescott is my soulmate.”
“And then she looks for me, probably out of habit, but it's enough to cast a spotlight of warmth on me. I'd known I was cold without her, but it takes her looking at me to know just how frigid I've been.”
“l've never known jealousy like this. It claws at me, nearly gutting me of my sanity, and for a wild moment I truly consider shoving my own sister out of the way to have that smile all to myself.”
“I am absolutely, unequivocally, categorically in love with my best friend.”
“It's so addicting, watching him watch me.”
"Summer, love, if you think there's even a second of the day when I'm not obsessing over you to a near-debilitating degree, then you're not paying attention at all."
“I am in love with you. Be here. Be across the world. Love me. Hate me. I don't care. You are what I want. You are where I belong. I'll keep crawling back to you, no matter where you go."
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things to know about the book ↓
🏄🏼♀️ friends → lovers
🏄🏼♀️ childhood best friends
🏄🏼♀️ he fell first
🏄🏼♀️ emotional healing
🏄🏼♀️ only one bed (in one scene)
🏄🏼♀️ forced proximity
🏄🏼♀️ dual POV
A huge thank you to Netgalley, Atria Books, and Ellie K Wilde for allowing me to read this arc. These are all my honest opinions in this review.
spice rating:【 🔥🔥🔥 】
swearing: yes
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pre-read
“childhood best friends Parker and Summer agree to matchmake each other, to disastrous results, all while fighting the fact that they've been each other's soulmate all along”
IM SAT. this sounds SO GOOD and i’ve been in such a friends to lovers trope mood (ESPECIALLY CHILDHOOD BESTIES)
🤭🤞🏼i lovedddd the book prior to this one so my hopes are pretty high