I do not know what to say about this book, except that it definitely deserves the one star rating.
I will admit, the premise was very interesting, hence why I picked it up; I mean, the reviews I saw on booktok and the blurb told the story of a badass FMC who, despite all that has happened to her, still believes in fairytales, some of which even come true.
So yeah, reFrEShiNg.
Except, about one eighth of the way in, the cons overtook the pros:
1) The horrible grammar
If I had to guess, this is a self published book with absolutely no editing and retakes done on it and/or picked up from Wattpad with no actual English applicability. Honestly I would've tolerated this if the story still made sense despite it, but God did it not. Sometimes the grammar failed so spectacularly I had to read the same line thrice and fill in the blanks myself to make sure it was still following the plot, and not a random addition of words found in the thesaurus.
2) The writing style
At first (like I said, the first one eighth of the book ONLY), the writing style was awesome. Taylor made me despise the town (Holleberg) and empathise with Amelie enough to show the potential of a good author. But then things went south.
Right in the middle of Kiaran's first POV, the clarity of thought seemed to dissolve. I had absolutely no clue what she was doing with the story (and not in the good, OH MY GOD way, more in the bad, UGH WTF way).
The beginning showed great promise, with a direction-although unpredictable-you could see it going in. Then it went a hundred ways to hell, because, and this is just one of the most splendid examples, one moment the High Priestess is another woman entirely and then it's suddenly the MMC's mother?
I feel like she couldn't even do the reveals properly; it was so messy. I didn't even realise what she was pointing straight at (or so she thought) until she had to spell it out for us poor confused readers (again, not in the good way).
Also, throughout the book there were these great secrets unraveled about the FMC's lineage and powers and whatnot that were either, a) never revealed and left in enough unnecessary mystery that my interest evaporated, or, b) revealed in such a roundabout and pointless way that it felt like a joke someone tells you that only they find funny and you don't really know what to do with.
Basically, I still have no clue what Amelie can do, and how the hell she trained herself to do it in such a short time.
All of it really had me pulling my hair out and just hoping Taylor didn't waste the hugely creative idea she had brought into existence, but alas, my hopes were crushed.
3) The characters?!?
Ok so look, I get the need to humanise a character and give them real growth and character arcs throughout the story; makes it more relatable and realistic, because no one's perfect right?
But I feel like this book tried so hard to do just that, that it forgot what the characters were actually supposed to be in the first place.
For example, let's start with out "awesome, badass FMC" Amelie.
I get that the abuse and SA was background to give her the right trauma and make her grow (highly disagree with the thought that a woman must prove herself capable of surviving shit like that to be a worthy FMC but whatever, you do you).
But that would make anyone highly traumatised and untrusting right? WRONG.
This girl seemed to have the emotional memory of a pea and immediately forgot that she had lived her whole life never trusting anyone, the moment she set foot into her little cottage in the middle of the woods. I feel like the author had to keep reiterating the fact that she was reserved after her experiences, because her actions completely negated this entire idea.
One moment she's a broody, hardened character and the next she supposedly reverts back to her usual sunshine personality (but still stays untrusting because obviously, telling is better than showing), that, by the way, should never have existed given that she lived in a bleak world since literally the moment she was born?
Which brings me to the next point, because if she truly was raised in a dull, hopeless, traumatic village where women are forced into such submissiveness that even her own mother doesn't object to her being raped, how the hell did she develop a stubborn, hardy personality?
Because the way she behaves right up until the moment her knight in shining armor rescued her---ahem, ahem, hello uncle---she was absolutely uninterested in helping either herself or her family? Which reminds me that this supposedly super responsible and caring individual completely forgot about her family for four freaking months. WOW.
Anyways, her character was so flawed that I could keep going forever, so before that happens, let's move on to our supposed fairytale Prince with a capital P (for emphasis of course, and I'm not even kidding that every single time this word is used in this book it's in capital...like why? Just, why?).
Like what was going on with this dude? One moment he's all broody and dark and mysterious, and the next he's literally baking 72 muffins for a dinner, being clingy and caring out of nowhere?
Unbelievable.
4) The romance
I felt like the "love" came out of nowhere. Like I get the concept of fated mates and all, but in my opinion it just does not happen that fast even if they are mates. Letting it happen on its own time is also a skill, and one that was sorely missing here.
Then there's the spice. I felt like this ruined the whole vibe of the book. Not that I'm against spice mind you, but the moment it was brought up, it felt like the entire book redirected towards it, leaving the romance and fantasy aspect out of it completely. It made it seem like the whole point of the book was for the FMC to get over her SA trauma by using the MMC, which she did, and at weird times, like when a huge secret plan was due to be revealed, what are the main characters doing instead? Why, each other, of course. Ugh.
Anyway these are just my thoughts and I would like to make it clear that this book COULD HAVE BEEN GREAT. *Sighs in aggressively disappointed bookworm*