The Infiniteness of Yesterday

by Micalea Smeltzer

An angsty, love triangle romance from bestselling author, Micalea Smeltzer

He was my first love, but it doesn’t mean he’s my last.

I fell in love with Spencer when I was only a teenager. He was the sun, the moon, and the stars in my young eyes. But our lives were turned upside down when I got pregnant. A baby wasn’t part of the plan. Neither was him becoming one of Hollywood’s hottest young actors. Suddenly, he wasn’t mine anymore. He belonged to the world and I was his past and just the girl he had a child with.

He’s my present, but it doesn’t mean he’s my future.

I didn’t expect Jameson, but life works in mysterious ways, giving you what you need when you least expect it. He picked up the pieces of myself that were shattered in the aftermath of Spencer. I’m older now, not blinded with stars in my eyes like I once was. Jameson is my safe harbor in all of life’s storms.

But just like the twinkling stars in the sky, love soars, changes and burns with the passage of time.

When my past returns to collide with my present, only my forever love will remain…

Genres: Second Chance, Romance, Celebrity, Contemporary Romance, Contemporary

498 pages, Kindle Edition

First published October 14, 2025

About the author

Micalea Smeltzer is an author from Northern Virginia. Her two dogs, Ollie and Remy, are her constant companions. As a kidney transplant recipient she's dedicated to raising awareness around the effects of kidney disease, dialysis, and transplant as well as educating people on living donation. When she's not writing you can catch her with her nose buried in a book.

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[TwinreadsandReds · Rating 5 out of 5]

Michaela Smeltzer is quickly becoming of of my favorite authors. The way she writes such beautiful love stories 🥹🥰 this was a love triangle done RIGHT. This book made me cry and laugh, had good spice and I absolutely fell in love with the characters!

[Alyssa Haigood Brutlag · Rating 3 out of 5]

This book WILL be for some people, but it was NOT for me. I originally wanted to read it, because I saw it was based in Hollywood and that it was a love triangle, but unfortunately the cheating trope didn't work well for me.

This book follows three main characters:

Harlow (FMC) - Single mom and overall an ungrateful twenty something who needs therapy
Spencer (MMC) - Hollywood star/model and Harlow's ex BF/baby daddy
Jameson (MMC) - Tech bro/nerd and Harlow's current BF

You can imagine that with the three main characters, the love triangle unfolds.

This book was LONG for a romance- almost 500 pages. However, Micalea is a great writer and I loved the shorter chapters. I really didn't feel like the plot got interesting until about 50% in. I understand that the back story was needed and I enjoyed the two timelines and dual POV, but I'm not sure that they wrapped well together at the end.

If I'm being 1000000% honest with you guys (which I always try to be), I HATED Harlow. She quite frankly is an ungrateful B**CH who doesn't deserve either of the guys. I know she was going through post partum depression, but she did nothing to help herself in the process. Micalea wrote in the acknowledgements that she knew Harlow wouldn't be favorable with everyone and she is correct - not for me. I am sensitive to the cheating trope as well and should have known to avoid the book.

MONROE IS THE GOAT THOUGH, IYKYK.

This book is different. Would I recommend it? Probably not, but I do think there are some people out there who could relate.

Thank you to Valentine PR and Micalea Smeltzer for the advanced reader's copy of "The Infiniteness of Yesterday" in exchange for an honest review.

[Megan Coggins · Rating 4 out of 5]

This was my first book by this author, I’ve got a lot of her books on my TBR but finally took the plunge here.
And dear god.

I love messy, angsty, tension filled books.
And this one was that.
I wanted to chuck my kindle at the wall at one point. Rage.

Love triangle ⚠️
Cheating…
Hollywood
A baby daddy and a new love
Hollywood actor situation
Single mom

Harlow & Jameson & Spencer
And spunky little Monroe

I definitely had one guy I was rooting for.

Harlow angered me at times… see above.
But a teen mom and being only 22 now…
Postpartum depression.
Experienced that. And I remember what I was like at 22 🫣

The set up of chapter POVs was interesting. I liked it.

This isn’t a cute and wholesome book. This is more I guess “real”, there’s a lot of emotions and a lot of struggles. Temptations and heartbreak. Drama and like a car crash where you don’t want to look but you just have to.

Arc review ✨

[Jessica's Book Review · Rating 3 out of 5]

I really wish I could say I loved this book. I really wanted to love this book but I didn’t. The Infiniteness of Yesterday by Micaela Smeltzer is an angsty, emotional love story that does involve cheating. Be warned.

Written in duo POV between Harlow & Spencer. They were high school sweethearts that became pregnant while Harlow was only 17 and now are young parents. The story is written in present time (their daughter is 6 years old) but throughout the book has chapters of their young love/history of their relationship.

Spencer is now a hot young actor and maybe that was part of the problem. I am just not into celebrity theme reads. I find them cheesy and this one was. Spencer and Harlow broke up years ago but he still loves her but Harlow is with her boyfriend Jameson who is perfect. This is where the cheating occurs. Harlow still loves Spencer too.

I guess I was just expecting more from this book but found all the characters immature and frankly annoying. Harlow irritated me beyond belief and Spencer just what pined for her for YEARS. Not being with anyone else. I just don’t believe it. I needed more emotional angst and I wasn’t given it. I don’t mind the cheating. I actually enjoy love triangle books. Yet I was left disappointed. Jameson became like a doormat to me. I wanted more from his character as well.

Unfortunately this was not a winner for me. I give The Infiniteness of Yesterday by Micaela Smeltzer 3 stars.

[Capt.]

tbr: want to read this but from the reviews, the guy i would most likely root for isn't the endgame...saving this book when i want to get hurt🤩

[Anca A · Rating 4 out of 5]

#Review: *The Infiniteness of Yesterday* - Micalea Smeltzer - ARC [18+]
4/5✨
3/5🌶️

The blurb of this book made me curious about it, so I ended up signing up for an early copy🤭. Thank you so much Micalea and Valentine Pr for this opportunity!

Harlow and Spencer had a sweet love story in their teenage years. But it wasn't that easy for them because Harlow got unexpectedly pregnant at 17 and it was a pretty big shock for them at such a young age (he was 19). Things pilled up after Spencer's career blown up and, somehow, they ended up going on different roads but still remaining good friends.

Years have passed and Harlow was now enjoying her life with a new man, Jameson. She was happy with him and loved him but she realized that she was still feeling something different towards her baby daddy, Spencer. How will Harlow decide with whom she will spend her life with, when she loved two men at the same time?

This was a pretty complicated love story, which followed the struggle of a young couple who didn't know how to properly handle things back then. That had a consequence in the present because things remained unfinished between Harlow and Spencer, both still having stong feelings for one another. I didn't like how Harlow approached this problem, being a bit impulsive and jumping without thinking too much, often deciding only based on her feelings. Something else that bothered me was the way their daughter, Monroe, was acting up sometimes, being a bit too spoiled and thinking that she could do anything without repercussions. Jameson was a man who loved Harlow and Monroe, always being super considerate and sweet with them. But the confusion Harlow was in affected both men, Spencer and Jameson, putting them in a very delicate situation.

A love triangle filled with so many complicated feelings, where decisions weren't that easy to make. Please be aware that this story has a cheating segment, so it's not recommend for readers who might get triggered by types of books.

✨Tropes
#LoveTriangle
#SingleMom
#Cheating
#Angst
#Celebrity
#FirstLoveVsNewLove

[a🧚‍♀️ · Rating 2 out of 5]

I’ll treat u better Jameson

[Whispering Chapters · Rating 3 out of 5]

“You still consume me. You owned my heart when I was seventeen and I’ve never gotten it back. I don’t want it back. It’s yours and it’ll always be yours, even if I’m not.”

The angst in a love triangle romance is unmatched, and I will die on this hill! I am pleasantly surprised at how Micalea handled this trope, because I COULDN'T DECIDE WHO TO PICK!

Harlow and Spencer met as teenagers. When Spencer experienced a devastating loss, Harlow was there to help him through it. Their friendship blossomed into a beautiful relationship that led to a surprise pregnancy. Spencer was all in; he even goes into modeling and acting to provide for Harlow and their daughter. Unfortunately, Harlow's insecurities started to rise, and instead of communicating them, she broke things off with Spencer.

Now in her twenties, Harlow is in a stable, loving relationship with Jameson. Still, Spencer has never fully left her heart, and when he suggests they become friends again, Harlow starts to question everything.

Okay, so hear me out. I'm usually the one who roots for the second chance romance. I fully expected to be on Spencer's side. But then Jameson came along and completely stole the show for me! This man deserves his own story! He's perfect in every way: from the way he loves Harlow's daughter, to how he takes care of Harlow, to that deliciously dirty mouth that had me sweating! GET THIS MAN HIS OWN BOOK, PLEASE!

Despite the emotional mess, this book still read like a cozy romance, with its low-stakes and realistic in both situations and emotions.

All that said, I did have a few issues and negative feelings.

Harlow irritated me to no end. I couldn't understand why she refused any help from the father of her child—her first love. She wouldn't even accept child support from her very famous and successful actor/model baby daddy. Her stubbornness toward both Spencer and Jameson had me wanting to throw my kindle against the wall.

I also ended up skimming several of the past chapters. Many of them felt repetitive and didn't add much to the story. While I usually appreciate when authors show, not just tell, all these scenes did was rehash what we already knew instead of pushing the plot forward. It dragged the story, slowed down the pacing, and pulled me out of the present timeline.

I do love Micalea's writing, and I'm surprised this turned out to be my lowest-rated book of hers. There was potential, but it needed another round or two of developmental edits to remove unnecessary details, even in the present timeline that added nothing to the story.

It's still an enjoyable read. As I said, it's a cozy, low-stakes, angsty romance.

- love triangle
- second chance
- single mom
- hollywood star mmc
- dual timeline

I received an eARC for free from Valentine PR in exchange for an honest review. This does not affect my opinion of the book or the content of my review.

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[Amber (Amber Reads Romance) · Rating 3 out of 5]

⭐⭐⭐
🌶️🌶️

The Infiniteness of Yesterday is an angsty love triangle between a single mom, her ex, and her current boyfriend. This is a tough one to review because I really struggled with the heroine but loved both of the heroes.

Harlow and Spencer fell in love in their teens, but they both had to grow up real fast with a teen pregnancy. Harlow was only 17 when she became pregnant, and she had a difficult time adjusting to being a young mom, especially with post partem depression. She ended things with Spencer after his acting career blew up, and he became a huge Hollywood star. Now she is in a serious relationship with Jameson, who is a supportive boyfriend and so helpful with her 6 year old daughter.

Things get complicated when Spencer wants to start spending more time with her and reconnect as friends. He is very active in his daughter's life, but he is also still in love with Harlow. She starts getting confused with who she really belongs with, and she has to come to terms with things she has been avoiding.

I had a lot of issues with the heroine's choices when it came to ending things with Spencer and the lies around the cheating. It was very difficult to feel empathy for her when she had multiple opportunities to be honest. I can give her a little leeway because they were very young, but she treated both men badly.

I also thought this book was way too long and dragged on. I also did not love that she did not finally get with her choice till the very end of the book. I did appreciate how Harlow really took the time to get therapy and work on herself before making her choice, though.

Thank you to Valentine PR for providing the ARC.

[Elijah · Rating 5 out of 5]

----- I received this as an ARC -----

let me just start by saying, this was probably my most anticipated release of the season and I have been counting down the days until I could devour this story. and I was NOT disappointed at all. Im convinced Micalea cant write a bad book, and everyone I read is somehow better than the last (in the best way)

but let me get into this. Im pretty sure I cried, laughed, smiled, kicked my feet, and felt broken hearted all over the course of this story. It is messy, it's real, its fate embodied. Now this book does have tropes that aren't for everyone, so always make sure to check those before diving in. But I ate them up. The blending of the past, present, and future was done soooooo well. It was a story about first love, true love, and the love of ones life... I am in awe of how well done this was, and how drawn in I was from page one.

When You learn that Spencer, Harlow's first love, is still there, that he is so involved with his daughter, but that their relationship is strained... you start to root for them to reunite. But then you meet Jameson. And he shows how loved she is now, and how he sees them and loves them... you root for him. And as much as you're torn as the reader... she's more tormented between her past and present.

Of course add in some drama, the press, a sassy child, and a little bit of cheating... and you'll find yourself just as messed up as Harlow in trying to make decisions that she will have to live with for the rest of her life. And in the end she chose with her heart knowing that there was never any other option than to be with the man she truly loves with her whole being. Even if there was a lot of tears and heart break... as well as letting go of the past... to get to her new happy.

But over all by the end I was cheering and rooting for Him just as much as she realized he was the only future she needed. and even though my heart did break and tears were shed when she broke the others heart for the final time... she truly ended up with the one for her.

This book is easily one of my favorites by Micalea and I will DEFINITELY be recommending this book to all my friends just like TCOW. I cant wait to see what's next from her, but in the meantime, I will not shut up about this one!

[Readerofbooks0205 · Rating 1 out of 5]

This reminded me why I hate love triangles. I don’t want to read a million sex scenes with the guy she doesn’t end up with. It’s a waste. Flashbacks were pointless and both men deserved better. Spencer is rich and of course she’d rather struggle than accept child support or any help. She’s screwing both of them and gets engaged to one. Then she screws them both again and doesn’t choose … she’s outed by the paparazzi. I’ve never disliked a heroine so much. Completely toxic. The whole thing was a mess. Also, this book had a lot of typos.

[Cynthia · Rating 3 out of 5]

Edit: After sitting on this one for a while, I think a solid three is more fitting. One star for how it ended, but three for the emotional turmoil.

Original Review:

Nothing will ever top 11:11 for me, but this one sure did stir up a lot of emotions 🙃🙃

I hope Jameson gets his own book bc his HEA is the only one I care about. This couple, on the other hand, can fk all the way off 😭

[Laurenreadingrecs · Rating 5 out of 5]

4.5⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

Tropes:
💜single mom
🩵Hollywood actor
💜its always been you vibes
🩵cheating
💜love triangle
🩵emotional
💜dual timeline
🩵mental health rep
💜dual pov

If Micalea Smeltzer writes it I will always read it. She’s been one of my favorites for years and this book is no exception. I knew going into the book it was gonna be a doozy of heartbreak and an emotional roller coaster ride. Harlow Hansen and Spencer Shaw’s story is one of Micalea’s best.

These characters meet while in high school. This book takes us on their a journey with the choices both characters have to make. Both personally and professionally.

This story is broken up into a dual timeline. 8 years ago in high school and current and Harlow is dating her current boyfriend, Jameson and is a single mom to her six year old daughter.

There was parts of Harlow I completely understand and other parts I just didn’t like. That being said she portrayed something that we all deal with flaws, love and acceptance, but not only that mental health can hit anyone at anytime. Having the support is key.

I will say I never really like cheating, but this one was written good and the back and forth was spot on.

The book deals with a lot of tough topics including pregnancy and mental health so please go forward carefully.


Micalea wrote a beautiful story so add this to your tbr

[ellen · Rating 5 out of 5]

5 ✨

Where do I even start with this review? This book left the biggest mark on me and that's why it's taken me days to write this review.

Harlow has become one of my favorite characters I think. She's real, brutally honest and doesn't try to hide when she's made a mistake. That's the kind of FMC I adore. One's that not polished and proper all the time but one you would likely meet in the real world.

Yeah this is a love triangle romance and TW for cheating if you don't like to read about that topic in a book. I usually don't read that trope too much, but there's a few authors I would read anything by just because I know they will handle topics like these with serious consideration. And Micalea is one of those authors for me. I thought she wrote it as humanly as possible.

To me this is totally a story of finding yourself. Harlow was only a teen when she became a mom and dealing with postpartum depression, so she had to grow up pretty fast. And at the time of the book was she also only 22, so she obviously still had a lot of growth to do. I won't spoil who Harlow ends up obviously but for me the book had a clear message of who Harlow's forever person was.

And her daughter? Monroe? The clear star of the show. I both loved Spencer and Jameson in their own ways and they were definitely good for Harlow in different ways. But I'll always be a Spencer girlie myself, I was from the very first page. (Made me feel like a teenager again and I had to choose between Edward and Jacob lol)

With all that said, this book isn't cute nor wholesome. It's an emotional romance with realistic and flawed characters and a lot of struggles. Heartbreak, anger, sadness and a lot of temptations. And a ton of drama, so much it feels like a car crash you can't seem to look away from. But such an amazing book and unreal storytelling.

Thank you @micaleasmeltzer for my ARC!

☀️ What to expect:
— love triangle
— hollywood
— single mom
— high school sweethearts
— new vs old love
— cheating
— unbelievable angst
— second chance?
— will they or won't they
— postpartum depression rep
— flashback chapters

[Kaelea Babner · Rating 4 out of 5]

I have so much to say yet can’t find my words to voice it. I absolutely love Micaela’s writing. She gives you all the yearning, angst, spice, and emotions in every book I’ve read of hers. But going into this one, I knew I was going to hate the FMC, and I was right.

It actually makes me laugh because in the authors note she writes that many people won’t like her. She’s messy, chaotic, and just can’t make a good decision to save her life. It’s evident the entire way through this book.

With it being a love triangle and cheating trope I can tell you this book isn’t for everyone. I felt so strongly about both men. They were so devoted to her and it drove me NUTS.

I will say 100% Monroe was the BEST character and gives you so many laughs throughout the heavier moments. This book needed it. The relationship both men have with her is so dang cute. I was swooning so often.

I loved that the author gave us the younger years. Her relationship with Spencer in highschool was so important to understand the deep rooted feelings. It’s definitely a slow burn but it’s worth it!!

And let me just say…I was NOT expecting Jameson to be so filthy in the bedroom 🥵 it’s always the smart guys…I’m telling ya!!

If you love a messy, angsty, slow burn of a romance, add this one to your tbr!

[Sweet treats and Smutty reads · Rating 5 out of 5]

Is your first love ever your true love? This question is answered for Harlow in The Infiniteness of Yesterday by Micalea Smeltzer.

Truly I feel Spencer’s mom was spot on when she told Harlow, “we can’t truly love another person until we’ve found ourselves.”

Throughout this story, you see Harlow struggle with not only confidence in herself and her choices, but who she should be with. Spencer was her first love, but Jameson is her now love.

Micalea doesn’t write perfect, and let’s be honest, no one wants to read perfect. We want flawed and real, and that’s what we were given with this book. Harlow had to sift through her feelings for both men (who may I just say are both phenomenal choices).

But she couldn’t make a true choice until she learned to love herself first. She was so young when life hit her hard. Parenting is not for the faint of heart at any age. Micalea does a wonderful job discussing mental health and the importance of it in this book.

My heart broke for the men in this book. My hope for the one she didn’t choose is that they find their fictional HEA too.

Be kind to yourself before reading this book and check the triggers.

[Courtney · Rating 5 out of 5]

I love my romances a bit messy and real - and this story nails that!

Not all love stories are roses and rainbows. Yes, this story is a love triangle. Yes, there is cheating. So if none of that is for you - tread carefully and don't get mad that you weren't warned. But this story is damn good and well worth the emotional damage.

I never read anything by Micalea til earlier this year and when I had the opportunity to read this, I did not hesitate one bit. And I am so glad for that. I am not your typical romance reader where everything has to be pretty the entire time. I like my books to have grit; I love when the characters make me question their decisions but later redeem themselves.

Harlow isn't perfect and that is what I love most about her. She is authentic and real and the decisions she makes are tough. She finds herself loving two men and knows no matter who she chooses, someone will get hurt.

TIOY is a rollercoaster of emotions but it's worth the ride til the end.

[Kylee · Rating 4 out of 5]

Warning: this is definitely not a book you should read if you are having any thoughts of texting your ex or any feelings of missing them 😂

I literally love being on Micalea’s ARC team 🥺 I get this babies before release, but thank you again to Micalea & Aurora for the arc copy & ofc Emily for another one of her beautiful cover 🫶🏼

Going to start this off with this book won’t be for everyone because there is cheating & it is a second chance/love triangle but that said, I loved it. I am not a big fan of second chances but this was so good. It was between her first love who’s her kids father & someone new. I was always team first love because I am such a ‘go back & make it work 27 times’ ex girlie 😅 but just the chemistry & past history she had with her ex ofc he was always the one. The other guy was also good but it’s one of those situations where she was never going to love anyone else like she did him.

[Melissa Kerestes · Rating 4 out of 5]

Thank you PR valentine for this ARC! I’m a big fan of Micaela Smeltzer’s writing and i was so excited to dive into this book!
I really adored this story and the characters. While Harlow may be difficult to understand, she struggled so much and it was so easy to feel for her and her struggles and get a bit more of an understanding for such controversial moments in her life and relationships. Micaela did a great job of making all the characters lovable, which made picking a side difficult and rooting for everyone. I would have been interested to read Jameson’s side for a few chapters as well! ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

[Brittany Unley · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book is an absolute ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ read for me. So many emotions throughout. Happiness, grief, heartbreak, and some laughter. It will put at your heart strings a bit. I felt so bad for Harlowe, Spencer and Jameson throughout the book, and I loved all of the characters. Micalea writes each character with so much personality you can't help but love them all and they will stay with you for a long time. Grab this book, it was amazing!

[Zenny · Rating 5 out of 5]

The way this book had me completely hooked, pulled at my heartstrings, with all the sexual tension, PLUS the countless times Micalea made me drop my jaw!

I'm officially in a book slump. 📚🔥😭

It's hard to say for sure just yet, but this might be my favorite book by Micalea.

[McKenna Dailey · Rating 2 out of 5]

Ugh. Really like this author but I truly didn’t like this. I was gonna do a 3 but I cannot condone cheating so I gave a 2. I truly felt for the main character because she had been through a lot but it just felt weird to me and repetitive and meh. Not my favorite sadly

[Melissa Campbell · Rating 2 out of 5]

Spoilers **

I’ve read all of Micaela’s other books and loved them, but this one was just not for me. I couldn’t stand Harlow. She was constantly putting herself down that it just got so repetitive. And the way she treated Spencer till pretty much the last 15% was terrible. I was glad they did end up together but at the same time also didn’t think either him or Jameson deserved her uncertainty.

[Brandy Lemire · Rating 3 out of 5]

3.75 stars.

[Arceli · Rating 5 out of 5]

This is such a good book. I loved it A lot. It contains tropes I normally don’t read but it’s done really well

[Neve · Rating 5 out of 5]

Wow so that destroyed me 😀

[nicole ⋆ ✦ ⋆ · Rating 3 out of 5]

Micaela writes the messiest fmc’s

[Lisa · Rating 4 out of 5]

I liked the way this was written, and the different perspectives. I liked both Spencer and Jameson, which was so hard. A love triangle where I just didn't want anyone to get hurt! And up until nearly the very end, with having never read this author, I started to get nervous for some sort of happy ending. She really makes you wait for it lol. But it was a good story and I'd read more by her.

[Gianmccall •(Kaz Brekker's Version)• · Rating 5 out of 5]

*lucha con las emociones para no ponerse a llorar mientras reseña porque -no, Dios- la ortografía*


Como siempre y más importante, gracias a Valentine PR y a Micalea Smeltzer por la increíble oportunidad de ser arc reader nuevamente. Me sentí la persona más feliz del planeta cuando recibí mi primera copia con The Wildflowers Duet, y la historia de Caleb. Ahora, haber sido seleccionada una segunda vez para esta nueva aventura...pues ciertamente me dejó sin palabras 🥹

(pues sí fui muy insistente con lo mucho que quería leer TIOY así que perdón por los mil mails 🫠)

Cómo debería empezar a describir lo mucho que amo a esta autora? Es que siempre me termina sorprendiendo con sus libros, incluso cuando creo ya conocer sus idas y venidas.

Pues creo que la mejor forma es diciendo que, si hay una persona que puede convencerme de leer una historia que va muy al contrario de lo que suelo leer, hacerme sentir todo y más del catálogo emocional que mi corazón produce, y luego dejarme hecha pedacitos...es Micalea Smeltzer. Simple y sencillo.

En este punto, podría escribir sobre hojas secas en un parque que se enamoran, y yo VENDERÍA MI RIÑÓN PARA LEERLO.

Nunca trata de estar siempre de acuerdo con lo que los personajes hacen para sentir que disfrutaste o entendiste la historia. Y lo digo enserio, a veces solo quieres caerle a cachetadas a ciertas personas porque "Qué carajos hiciste ahora??".

Se trata de dejar que un libro te lleve de estar súper tranquila a gritar de la rabia, de la emoción, de la intriga, de...de todo, por los aires hasta que los pulmones duelen.

Por eso amo TODO lo que he leído de esta autora hasta ahora. No existe un punto en el que sea indiferente, o me aburra, o no sienta nada mientras leo. No hay, no pasa. Siempre, siempre, siempre me conmueve y a los diez segundos me hace enojar y de la nada me deja una lección de vida que no esperaba.

A todo esto -porque la reseña ya va pareciendo un discurso de graduación más que una reseña en sí-, The Infiniteness of Yesterday fue así.

Micalea dijo (y cito) "Habrá muuuuucho angst". Y pues claro. Casi me ahogué de la rabia un par de veces con Harlow porque el engaño para mí es de lo peor...

*espacio publicitario dada la ocasión para recomendar leer los tw antes del libro mismo*

...Pero también estaba ese lado de mí que veía su mente en plena crisis y sus sentimientos más revueltos que en mezcla de pastel.

Ser mamá adolescente, con un futuro medio incierto, depresión, tantas dudas y miedos que hasta a mí me dió estrés...no es algo que entre en la categoría de: "Lo tengo bajo control" Y aún así, asumió su rol de madre y está criando a una pequeña espectacular que tuvo a mi útero al borde de la imprudencia.

No digo que sus decisiones fueran de premio. PORQUE NO. Pero venían de ese oscuro lugar de su cabeza en el que nunca pudo perdonarse los errores del pasado, así que los arrastró con ella, pensando que se irían solos.

(No fue así, solo se llenaron de lodo y ensuciaron la alfombra)

No creo que el objetivo fuera que dijeras 'Oh, pobrecita. Pero no es su culpa'. Y en muchos aspectos, quizá no. En otros, hasta ella reconoció que pudo ser más sensata.

Me dió paz mental, no voy a mentir.

Como diría Shrek, es una cebolla con capas. Y todas fueron interesantes de ver y aprender. Su proceso se sintió como caminar por una calle llena de baches en los que caes constantemente, pero amé que eso no le impidiera intentar levantarse de nuevo.

Y luego está Spencer...aaah este tipo de hombres son ficticios hasta en la propia ficción! aish.

Y me gustó conocerlo, ver su versión de todo. OBVIAMENTE NO SE SALVA DE CIERTAS COSAS. Su relación -y luego no relación- con Harlow y entonces su carrera de actor y los medios y nunca saber si estaba haciendo las cosas bien o en realidad mal, muy mal.

Claro que me molestaron sus elecciones en ocasiones. Aunque no puedo juzgar en varios aspectos, porque qué carajos?? No sé de qué estará hecha su fuerza de voluntad que pudieron afrontar todo lo que pasaron.

En resumen: The Infiniteness of Yesterday es crudo, confuso, frustrante. También es resiliencia, perder el camino, hallarlo, perderlo otra vez, mandarlo a freír papas, llorar y cambiar de dirección, hasta dar con el camino una vez más.
Es improvisar con lo que no se debería y nunca perder la esperanza.

Pero sobre todo, es amor.
Amor de una madre a una hija.
Amor de hermanas.
Amor de amigos.
Amores viejos.
Amores nuevos.
Amores que nunca se terminan.
Amor a ti mismo.

Y si un libro puede sacar todas esas palabras de mi mente, entonces para mí no es solo un libro. Es una experiencia. Y esas son mis favoritas.

No puedo esperar a ver más de Micalea. No por nada es mi auto-buy author 💕✨

5★


Playlist


★ It Must Have Been Love
★ Ain't No Sunshine - Bill Withers
★The Astronaut - Jin feat. Coldplay
★Life Goes On - BTS
★This Town - Niall Horan
★Deep End - Birdy
★Paradise - Coldplay