Love creates art, pain creates strength and acceptance creates healing. Just two broken souls trying to give you all three! Me and my partner have always both been artistic in our own nature and we have found a way to blend those pieces of us together and create something magical.
Here I am once again raving about my little gays and their little story because I haven’t stopped thinking about them since I arc read this book.
HAYLO: my reason for breathing (Yes that’s the new definition)
🌻 Sapphic Novel (masc x fem) 🗝 Nemesis to lovesick 🌻 St0ckholm syndr0me 🗝 Forced proximity 🌻 HEAVY slowburn 🗝 Masked MFMC 🌻 Grumpy x sunshine 🗝 Corruption 🌻Virgin & experienced 🗝 Trauma bond 🌻 Second chance 🗝Disability and mental health representation 🌻 "I will never love you back." 🗝 Bittersweet ending
Angst and emotional turmoil 🤝 Me
Also I’m so in love with this alternate edition the way Shade and Redd are so talented I am completely in AWE. Blown away. I can’t wait to have it in my hands 😭😭
Review for Collateral Damage: Hays version: I’ll update when the bonus chapters are read!!
♾️ ⭐️/5 🌶️🌶️🌶️.5/5 (different than my own scale for now)
☆ Sapphic Romance ☆ Extreme slow burn ☆ Grumpy x Sunshine ☆ Enemies to lovers ☆ Trauma healing main characters ☆ Kidnaping ☆ Stockholm Syndrome ☆ Disability and Mental health representation ☆ Age gap (11 years) ☆ Virgin FMC x Experienced MFMC ☆ Masked MFMC ~~~~~~~ I have zero words to describe how absolutely beautiful, heart wrenching, well written, beautifully executed, agonizing, bittersweet, and straight up sad this book was. (Those are a lot of words to describe how beautiful this book is but it left me absolutely speechless)
The story: I had originally paused this book back in February due to how slow burn it was. I needed a bit more action at that time, but then I talked with Shassii and she convinced me to pick it back up again and I have never been more grateful. This dark romance plot was new to me. Usually it is a masked stalker who finds the FMC captivating, however in this story it’s so different. The captor doesn’t know what on earth is happening, and why she is overtaken by this unintended twist in her plan. But when I tell you that this story had me on the edge of my seat, MY GOSH!! The setting, the vision, the descriptive language, the whole story and plot line, it was just so amazing!! I can’t even begin to explain how many times I ran to Shassiis’ DMs screaming about her book and how much I was loving it. If you need to be convinced to read it, here are three words to help you out. Masculine woman captor. Here’s another three: Muscle daddy Lesbian. Why not one more set? Tattooed, hard, WOMAN!! SO EFFING GOOD!! Also, this book got me to the point of sobbing hard enough to literally show my face (I’m anonymous online) to Shassii because of how much she shattered my heart. She ripped it out, cut it into pieces, glued it back together, and shoved it back into my chest. THAT is how this book made me feel, and I need everyone to know that it was practically perfect!
The characters: Aloura and Hays… my loves. My Les beans, my shaylaaaaaaas!! 😩 They were so opposite they canceled each other out perfectly. With Alo being a ray of sunshine and Hays just being all broody and mean, it made the perfect duo for en epic enemies to lovers dynamic. But the hatred and conflicting feelings between the two of them is what I thought was absolutely amazing. Hays didn’t know wtf was happening when she came across Alo, and Alo was just as confused but equally scared. And how Shassii wrote those emotions through metaphors, comparisons, and personifications was incredible. She also expressed the confusing feelings of a baby lesbian trying to find her sexuality and coming to conclusion after conclusion while also still not fully understanding what is going on. As a baby bisexual, I’m still trying to figure stuff out! Anyway, but the way their relationship and hate-ship bloomed was just SO GOOD 😭 there was humor, hatred, and reluctant acceptance to each other and there were plenty of times I laughed out loud. I was just stunned at how deep these characters were too! The loreeeeeeee!! The historyyyyyy!! The backstory!!!!! THE SECRETS!!!!!!! Just everything added up into a perfect jumbled (organized) mess and I loved everything about it.
The spice: I rated this a 🌶️🌶️🌶️.5 on the spice scale. Although there were about 9-10 open door scenes, I find that the amount of scenes was insignificant to the amount of plot and pages there were. With over 400 pages, only a sliver of them had spice. Don’t get me wrong, the spice was spicier than a California reaper pepper smothered in spicy buffalo sauce and jalapeño pepper bits. It was amazing! There were so many kinks and so many beautiful words exchanged throughout these scenes that it made my heart flutter. Hays was the experienced one, and Alo lived under a fuckin rock lmao But I loved how Hays treated her, and opened her to new experiences throughout this whole book. I will never look at a kitchen island or cookies the same again 🤭
I will also never look at sunflowers, Orion’s belt, or corona beer the same ever again. I will never be able to listen to M83 music (Wait, and Outro) without sobbing, I will forever question my existence if I don’t live this out (minus the murder and stuff lol), and I will never ever forget how this book made me melt.
This. Book. Broke. Me.
PS: The US national suicide hotline is 988 and there is a website that shows other countries hotlines as well:
PSS: you deserve to be treated with kindness, and deserve to be listened to. When others don’t have a voice, be their voice. You also deserve to feel heard, seen, and validated in all of your experiences. You are loved.
As someone who read this in December, this is truly one of those novels that will change your life. I am not being hyperbolic when I say this. To give a brief summary, the two main leads, Hays (Hayden) Moore and Alora Blackthorne, are both characters tossed together by events outside their control and slowly they both come to terms with their surprising shared past as well as break past their own mutual prisons that have trapped them. Books ultimately are mirrors that reflect both the world around them as well as become mirrors for which we can examine our own life. When I read this novel, my mental health was not good and I was spending so much time waiting to break free from my own prisons of mind. Hays and Alora helped. They changed my life. Their character development takes you on a journey with them as well, you’re left speechless with the depth of their raw emotions, so vividly and beautifully written by the author. The prose is haunting, striking in its precision to tear you apart. They end up becoming your home and safe space where you can also flower and bloom and start to take space as well as find your voice. They become your way to speak out against injustice. A wonderful novel that has forever gripped me heart and soul to the end of my days. The love both Hays and Alora (aka Haylo) have for one another is incomparable especially given their history and the circumstances binding them together. The lit chemistry was so richly built and the slow burn is exquisite. The spice when it got there hit so wonderful and left me utterly bereft. A bittersweet ending that stays with you along with its message that there is redemption and if happiness is denied to you, if it always howls at you never “then never I’ll wait”
🌻 Sapphic Novel (masc x fem) 🗝 Nemesis to lovesick 🌻 St0ckholm syndr0me 🗝 Forced proximity 🌻 HEAVY slowburn 🗝 Masked MFMC 🌻 Grumpy x sunshine 🗝 Corruption 🌻Virgin & experienced 🗝 Trauma bond 🌻 Second chance 🗝Disability and mental health representation 🌻 "I will never love you back." 🗝 Bittersweet ending
If I had to sum this book up in one word, it would be insanity but the most beautiful, emotionally devastating kind. I mean that in the best way possible. I went into it from a tiktok suggestion not expecting to be completely wrecked, but here I am, thinking about it forever and ever like it personally ruined me (again, in the best way).
The way Hay’s trauma is handled?? So raw, so intricate, so real. Never seen anything like it. I felt every inch of her pain, confusion, and healing like it was carved into my own chest. I was breaking with her. And don’t even get me started on Alora. She’s such a cutie patootie and the perfect contrast to Hay’s jagged edges. Their dynamic made me physically clutch my heart. Like I had to pause and breathe multiple times. It was like a storm and a warm hug at the same time; tender and brutal and so so beautiful.
Now, normally books that dive this deep into character pain and internal struggle aren’t really my go-to… okay, I lied. That’s actually my favorite part. But the dark romance element? Definitely not my usual thing. Still, the fact that it was sapphic cracked me open in a way I didn’t expect because let’s be real, I will read literally anything in the woman loving woman category. So I gave it a shot, and I’m so glad I did.
Something about seeing queer women written with such care, complexity, and depth just made everything hit harder. It felt honest. It felt like it was written for us. Maybe I’m biased, but I don’t care. I was holding onto every word like it was a lifeline, rereading lines just to feel them again.
This story gave me everything I didn’t know I needed. Plus, it hit all the best trope marks for sure!! It was tender, brutal, healing, and unforgettable all at once. It honestly felt like I lived through something reading this. This book gave me everything I didn’t know I needed: grief, healing, love, softness, rage, vulnerability. I don’t even know how to fully express how much I loved it. It’s the kind of story that lingers. The kind you carry with you. I truly couldn’t ask for anything more.
And goodness, the ending?? I swear I seen it coming but I didn't see it all.
Shassii, thank you for ruining me in the best way. I’ll be thinking about this one for a long time. It’s perfect. I'm in love. I’m obsessed. 5 stars, tears on my pillow, re-reading soon.
Where do I even start with this?... This book was an emotional rollercoaster ride, that crushed me in the end. But in a beautiful way. Some parts of this book hit me straight in the heart, because they were relatable to me. This book was written so well and I devoured it. The tension, the hate/love, the mental health of the characters, the spice, the heartbreak and of course..the soul crushing, bittersweet ending. I'm here for it. This book instantly jumped to my top 3 books. Get ready to cry during the last parts of this book. Hays and Alora will stick to my brain for a long time to come.
If you're looking for a dark, sapphic romance book that will have you staring at your wall when you finish it: This is the one. Get on it now. I wish I could read it for the first time again.
This alternate cover is so gorgeous, I had to get it!
This is a 6 star read for me. It broke and healed me and everything in between. I will always carry this story and characters around with me and I will forever recommend it to anyone I know 🩷
It lets you feel that no matter where you came from, even if you feel broken, you ARE NOT BEYOND REPAIR. That your experience matters, but can still find love, peace and a home in another person when you least expect it.
𝙸𝚃 𝙸𝚂 𝙰𝙱𝙾𝚄𝚃 𝙷𝙾𝙿𝙴 𝙰𝙽𝙳 𝙳𝙴𝚃𝙴𝚁𝙼𝙸𝙽𝙰𝚃𝙸𝙾𝙽.
These characters quickly embed themselves into your very marrow. implanting into your soul, so can think of nothing else. You feel for them, you SEE them o you want to hug them. To wrap them in love and protect them from the world.
I am in awe a forever changed. The authenticity in this book was one of the best I've ever read. The pain, love, loss, shock, self discovery were complex pieces of a larger puzzle. SHASSI curated a multi-layer story that leaves you raw; that makes you feel. And every feeling is validated.
SHASSI does a phenomenal job showing us there is beauty & strength in breaking. She allows us to see that two people who've been damaged by the world can find solace in EACH OTHER. That connection born out of silence and necessity can still mean so much more with the right person. And even a glimmer of light is beautiful amidst all the darkness that threatens to consume you.
𝐆𝐑𝐀𝐁 𝐈𝐓 𝐓𝐎𝐃𝐀𝐘, 𝐉𝐔𝐒𝐓 𝐓𝐑𝐔𝐒𝐓 𝐌𝐄.
🅃🅁🄾🄿🄴🅂 🕷️ Sapphic Novel (masc x fem) 🗝️Nemesis to lovesick 🕷️ StOckholm syndrOme 🗝️Forced proximity 🕷️ HEAVY slowburn 🗝️ Masked MFMC 🕷️ Grumpy x sunshine 🗝️ Corruption 🕷️ Virgin & experienced 🗝️ Trauma bond 🕷️ Second chance 🗝️Disability & mental health representation 🕷️ "I will never love you back." 🗝️Bittersweet ending