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258 pages, Kindle Edition
Published September 2, 2025
“I remember the day I first saw Cooper. It was summer and it was hot and his eyes shone like crystals under the afternoon sun. And I also remember the day, years later, when I looked at him and thought he was mine.”
"And maybe I can one day look at him and not feel like I’m burning. But then, there are other days when I think that being so far away from him, not being able to watch him laugh in his own unrestrained way, or look into his piercing blue eyes whenever I want, will feel like pure agony."
"I can’t tear my eyes off him.
“It’s perfect,” he whispers.
And it is.
It just pales compared to him."
"A different sort of desperation threatens to engulf me, one that screams for him to never stop what he’s doing, to never let go, to keep touching me. Over. And over. And over again."
"I want to be so deep inside him that he feels my heart beating against his. I want to kiss him until our lips are raw and nothing can separate us but the desperate need for air. I want to take him, own him, make him mine until I’m the only one he wants or will ever want. Until he can’t think when he’s around me. Until he loves me as much as I do."
"But this need inside me burns because of him. It’s his touch that sets me on fire from the inside out, making my mind blank, my skin buzz, and my body crave for something unknown, perpetually out of reach."
“Because I never stopped believing that you were back because you were finally choosing me.” The lump that is lodged in my throat is distorting my words, but I don’t care. My hands are still cupping his face and I shake him. “I wanted you to choose me. Why didn’t you choose me, Li? Why did you leave and never came back?” There is wetness running down my cheeks, and I realize it’s tears. “You promised it would be just for a little while,” I whisper.
“I cannot tell you how sorry I am, and I will never stop regretting causing you pain,” he pauses, his thumb caressing my cheekbone so tenderly I lean into the touch. “But if you give me the chance, I will do everything in my power to make up for all the hurt you felt.” I watch as he swallows thickly, his eyes burning with emotion. “I love you, Cooper. I’ve loved you for most of my life, and if you let me, I’ll prove it to you for as long as you allow me to.”
"He became my best friend not long after. My partner in crime. My favorite person. I also remember the day, many years later, when he asked me to spend the rest of our lives together. And in that moment, I knew that after all this time, I was finally home. Because home had always been him."
For those who like to read about boys who kiss on the mouth. And do other stuff, too. Like fall in love. But also other stuff.
“Have you forgotten how we met?” “I couldn’t just let that kitten get hurt, you know that!” “Of course I do, Coop. The intention was good. It was just the execution that was lacking.” “I wouldn’t say that. It brought you to me. I’d say that was one hell of a successful idea.”
The truth is that I’m afraid that once we go our separate ways, things will never be the same again. It’s this feeling I have deep inside that I’m going to lose something precious and that there’s nothing I can do. Which is ridiculous because distance means nothing. Not when it comes to us. Liam would never just move away and forget about me. Right?
“You asked me if I would have room for you.” I nod. He smiles his Liam smile, the kind, reassuring one, the one that never fails to fill me with comfort. “Always, Coop.”
Determination steels my resolve as a plan slowly takes form in my head. I’ve let him run for far too long. Now it’s time I chased him down.
“You may not be the first one, but you’re the first and only one who matters.”
Me: Nah, nothing of the sort, handsome.
Me: I’m pretty sure I was just invited because I told him I needed something to distract me.
Li: Handsome?
My heartbeat stutters.
Me: I’m playing around with a few pet names. Me: Do you like it…?
I watch with bated breath as Liam types and stops, types and stops.
Li: Fuck, Coop. You make me crazy.
Li: Why do you need a distraction, sweetheart? Li: Is something on my baby’s mind?
“I love you, Cooper. I’ve loved you for most of my life, and if you let me, I’ll prove it to you for as long as you allow me to.”