”Find you, love you, marry you and live without shame."- Atonement, Ian McEwan.
Reading Ian McEwan’s Atonement feels like being a child, watching the most secret parts of my heart being brazenly displayed on paper. It's both innocent and cruel, adorable and foolish. While marveling at its accuracy, I also felt a slightly intoxicated sense of shame, longing to see more of this "other self" for a longer time.
The novel is more brutal than the film. Novels excel at the endless flow of thoughts and consciousness, requiring full immersion from the reader. Films, on the other hand, rely heavily on actors to convey a certain kind of illusion, making us feel like we can keep up with the pace of thought. In the film, we can still fawn over Keira Knightley, but in the novel, we have to endure the childish and lengthy mental world of Briony Tallis. Yet, the novel is more captivating than the film. Visuals are too superficial and ultimately still need to be analyzed with words. Only by confronting the text can we achieve full immersion.
SPOILER ALERT!
It's a cold story. The 13-year-old Briony, immersed in a fervent interest in writing and fantasy, is overwhelmed by the changing relationship between Cecilia and Robbie. Lola, Jackson, and Pierrot, at a young age, are sent to live as dependents at the Tallis house, while Mrs. Tallis, enduring her husband's infidelity and a persistent headache, must also hold up the changing Tallis family. This chaotic situation is brought to the stage in a frustrating summer, as tedious and dull as Briony's hastily rehearsed play. Lola is raped, and Briony, based on her imagination and prejudice, firmly believes that the perpetrator is Robbie, sending this promising young man to prison with a "clear purpose, malicious heart, persistence, never wavering, never doubting." From then on, 3 lives are changed forever.
The book is divided into 3 parts. The first part, from Briony's perspective, describes the beginning and end of the rape incident. The second part follows Robbie's military career after his release from prison. The third part is Briony's reflection and redemption of the crime she committed as a trainee nurse.
Although the first part spans only 2 days, McEwan uses an almost exaggerated length to describe the events that occurred at the Tallis house during these 2 days. It's a typical McEwan technique: long, subjective descriptions of the environment, weather, scenery, characters' actions, expressions, and language. This stream-of-consciousness writing style is like a monster with outstretched tentacles, lurking in every corner of the mansion. After tirelessly complaining about the hot weather, we know that at a certain tipping point, the monster will retract its tentacles and crush everything. Briony, so much like us when we were young, is sensitive, arrogant, and immersed in fantasy, constantly battling against some imaginary enemy. The reason she loves writing is probably because in novels, she can find the satisfaction of "becoming an emperor." There, everything is orderly and structured, "Death is the patent of the morally deficient, and marriage is a report that doesn't deliver the punchline until the last page." Part of her mind is precocious, but another part is childish. This childishly pure obsession with love leads to her vulnerability and makes her particularly easy to destroy. When the development of the real world deviates from the moral track of the fantasy world, she frantically tries to extract some delusions from the fantasy world to fill the gap in the logic of reality, but this only leads to misunderstanding and illusion. Briony is a child who believes more in illusions.
There is an interesting phenomenon in most of McEwan’s works: the absence of male symbols (or rather, the absence of the father figure). In The Cement Garden, the parents pass away at the beginning, and in this novel, Jack Tallis is absent throughout the rape incident, trapped on a train and fast asleep. Leon, as the eldest son, is also unable to do anything, leaving a 13-year-old girl to take all the credit. This absence of symbols leads to a feminine tone in his stories. The perception of atmosphere and consciousness, and the attention to the surrounding environment are all characteristic of feminine sensitivity.
What does feminine thinking bring? First and foremost is the sentimentalization of thought and a potential hostility towards men. Another important point is the indulgence in fantasy. They would rather believe the testimony of a 13-year-old child than face Robbie's honest and innocent life. Another element brought about by the imbalance between yin and yang is an inappropriate sense of responsibility. When men disappear, the responsibilities that should have been borne by men fall on women. Cecilia and Mrs. Tallis both feel that they should be responsible for this family, although their narrow shoulders cannot bear this burden. Briony, in particular, has a pathological sense of responsibility towards her sister. If it weren't for her protection of her sister, she probably wouldn't have made such a ridiculous mistake.
After his release from prison, Robbie joined the army. During this time, he kept in touch with Cecilia through letters. By now, Cecilia had severed ties with the Tallis family and had become a war nurse. They poured out their love and affection in letters and made an appointment to meet again and start a new life after the war. Briony also gave up her Cambridge degree and became a trainee nurse. The third part is about her career as a trainee nurse. In the hospital, all the dirty work was done by them. In addition to their work, they had to complete the required courses of the school. The guilt and guilt of her childhood became her nightmare. It was in this way that she punished herself. When you put all your mind into scrubbing the utensils in front of you repeatedly, you won't have so much time to be tormented by your conscience. She even attended Robbie's wedding and watched him marry the man who had raped her. Was this a sarcasm or a homecoming?
In Lola's indifferent eyes, Briony understood that everyone knew the truth, but everyone tried to keep quiet. She found Cecilia's residence and met Robbie there. Under her watch, they kissed passionately for a long time. Briony promised to confess to her parents that she had perjured herself, then issue a statement and swear to a lawyer. Then they walked side by side and sent her to the subway station. So far, forgiveness didn't seem impossible, but we who have read the book know that this is not the real ending. The lovers finally got together, but that was just another fantasy of Briony's.
The most ingenious part of the whole book is not the "book within a book" structure, but the way this structure is presented. Remember the letter Briony received from the publisher? She sent her work, "Two on a Seesaw," to the publisher and received a reply. In the letter, the editor commented on the story as follows: ”It captures the stream of consciousness of the characters and presents their subtle differences to the reader,” and ”It describes the perceptions and feelings of each of them in great detail while at the same time depicting light, stone, and water vividly."
Isn't this exactly how we felt when we were reading the first part? It turns out that not only the third part, but the entire Atonement we read was written by Briony. No wonder the description in the whole book is so feminine; no wonder the characters in the second part are slightly thinner than those in the first and third parts, and the description is no longer as complex, and even some unreasonable plots, because it was a story she made up through her imagination, and she couldn't personally experience the life of a retreating army. No wonder time seemed to be frozen in the first part. Briony used this repetitive description to reduce her guilt. That was the beginning of the story, when the crime had not yet been committed. At that time, the veil of emotion had just been lifted, and the lovers had just cleared up their misunderstanding and were about to drink their first sweet wine. She wished time would stop at that moment, instead of the 64 years that followed.
Briony's atonement is not becoming a nurse, but writing, restoring her true, somewhat ugly self, restoring the vain roots of that stupidity, restoring that actually pure love and erasing the tragic ending of the lovers' death in a foreign land. The real story had already ended, it was neither grand nor empty, but it was very hasty and very ruthless.
At the end of the novel, 77-year-old Briony returns to her old home, which has been turned into a hotel. Here, she celebrated her 77th birthday. The play "Arabella's Torment," which was half-finished at that time, was finally successfully staged 64 years later. The unqualified young actors back then had become old and withered in the audience. They were haggard and sentimental, and Briony's torment would also end in slow oblivion.
There is guilt here, and there are people who are deeply in love. If there is only one thing that makes people feel sad, it is not that the crime is unforgivable, but that the crime is unforgivable, because the only 2 people in the world who have the right to forgive her are no longer there.
4.4 / 5 stars