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302 pages, Kindle Edition
Published October 27, 2025
“If you were anybody else, that would have cost you an ear.” I know he’s serious—he has done worse for less. And I also know I’m special to him, but not the same way he is to me.
Some things grow when they’re shared, some things are halved. I now know what that saying means. My feelings toward him have multiplied, and as they did, I’ve given parts of myself to him, time after time. Until…I discovered half of myself missing. That obstinate, foolish half that resides within him.
I feel the tips of my fingers ache when I hear people talking about River as a mere bodyguard. Only I can fuck with him about it because the reality is that not one label fits him, but all of them at once do. Right hand, loyal shadow, bodyguard, adviser, the only person I’d trust with my life, my most precious friend. He’s someone who sticks by me even when I’m wrong. Even if facing certain death, he’ll still stand near me, ready to take my place. How can I possibly summarize all that in a measly word?
“If you ever do this with someone else, they will die.”
“Fuuuuck. Don’t let it spill out, Aki, not after all the work I put in.”
“Pragma soulmates are not found. They are made. You meet someone and get a good feeling. Nothing monumental, just two people connecting. Moments and events shared slowly and steadily build the foundation for an unbreakable relationship that one day morphs into something deep and blazing hot. You, bunny, are my made soulmate. We built this love day after day, year after year. There isn’t a me without you anymore. There’ll never be again.”
Umarekawattara, kondo wa motto hayaku omae o sagashi dasu—if I were to live my life again, I'd find you sooner
Orega saki ni mitsukeru— not if I find your first