I'm a Nightmare

by Del MacKay

Have you ever been in that one relationship that didn’t make sense? Or have that friend that seemed to explode for no reason, swearing like a sailor on shore leave? I wrote this novella after having several strange encounters of my own and learned I was not alone. When I started to dig in, I found that many people in my universe had been emotionally mangled by people suffering from personality disorders. The one in particular that seems to fly under the radar is the borderline. With the help of two psychologists and the dear people who shared their experiences with me, I crafted this piece to highlight a little written about mental/emotional issue. This is not a pretty topic nor is it for those easily turned off by crude behavior or vulgar language. The borderline is a unique specie along the personality disorder continuum, and their behaviors are often masked behind acute intelligence and even unusual charm. Jack Young gives a first hand account of how he discovers he is a borderline. With a high octane job as a top performing stockbroker, he is on the road to wealth while still living a life on the fringes. Two events force him to take a look at himself: a promotion and Liana. Relationships are foreign to Jack beyond one cultivated on codependence with Sean, his best and only friend. In his attempts to woo and keep Liana, Jack struggles to maintain control of the relationship and his career that seems to be finally flowering to the distinction he believes he deserves. But as he tightens the noose around the necks of those around him, he soon finds himself on the gallows, forced to accept a reality he had never considered.

67 pages, Kindle Edition

First published December 1, 2014

Reviews

[Jennifer Jarrell · Rating 3 out of 5]

This book was a disappointment. Told in first-person point of view by a man who claims to have Borderline Personality Disorder, I truly believe he is a narcissist and sociopath. He revels and delights in the pain he hurts and inflicts on others. He has no fears of abandonment because he's convinced he's so special no one would ever leave him. He has no addictions except for his sexual conquests, and is the top performer at his work. If you are reading this because you are interested in all things Psychology like I am, you will be severely disappointed. The book is crude and lewd, and reads like a story written for Penthouse I would imagine.

[Tom McDermott · Rating 5 out of 5]

Wow! I planned on only reading a couple of pages and saving it for another time but ended up reading the whole thing in one sitting. I picked it out because I've known a couple people with varying personality disorder issues and I was curious to see if this piece struck any cords. The main horrible guy was pretty close representation. Kinda scary, right? Regardless it was a great read and I look forward to finding MacKay's next work.

[Xen Amy · Rating 5 out of 5]

A stomach-churning journey detailing the emotional highs, lows, and ultimate awakening that comes with falling in love with a borderline personality. MacKay takes the reader on an all too real and intentionally uncomfortable roller coaster ride that leaves readers doing a once-over on their own relationships, just for good measure.

An absolute must-read!