3.5 stars - but it had the potential to have 4 or 5 stars.
I was sent an ARC from the author's IG early-reader sign-up. I thought it looked adorable, and the story sounded like something I'd be very interested in. The reason is, that I spent part of my early childhood partially deaf (80% loss, from 18 months old to nearly 5 - and I remember it well, and wish at times I didn't), I love cottagecore, and I am a Christian.
The setting is in the mountains of Oliote. A Basque-Spain (Euskal Herria) language is spoken there. There is a full glossary that you can look back upon to see what each word means, in case you do not know the language. I found this helpful, but at the same time, with an e-reader copy, it was a pain to go back and forth on, as I did need to use it often.
This book started out talking about a character named Kaitlin who seemed to be a shepherd girl who bumps into someone who is exalted as a deity of sorts. What I didn't understand, is that we don't even hear the name Kaitlin again until much later on, and by that time I had completely forgotten about the character (I re-read chapter one after I finished the book since that chapter had confused me as it was). Will Kaitlin be in the second book? I hope so.
The second chapter begins to tell us about a young man who is on the run from something. He is one of the main characters named Thaddeus. Thaddeus ends up getting found inside an old church that has not been used but is maintained by a happy young deaf woman named Ximena (pronounced Hee-Meh-Na. . . which I think many people will mispronounce, but I have a friend with the same name, which helped me). It is an interesting name to choose, as it means "one who hears," though I don't think that is mentioned in the book at all. It was apropos to Ximena.
The beginning of the book had a lot happening at once but it slows down, seems slightly confusing, since a bunch of characters start to get introduced, and then it just is very boring, that I started to fall asleep every day that I read it for a while (Would read a few chapters, got sleepy, took like 10 minute naps, and gave up reading more until the following day). It made me not want to continue. HOWEVER, the second half of the book is very engaging and amazing. I really was captivated and loved the plot and what was going on.
This is a unique cottagecore Christian fantasy tale. First off, don't let kids read this. It is aimed for older teens through adults, in my opinion. There is a whole scene where there are these naked women creatures (I won't say more, but they don't appear to fully look like women). One of the male characters seems to stare at them for a while, though it doesn't seem to be in a sexual way at all, more of a "what in the world is this?" sort of way. Their purpose is to draw attention to themselves though. There is also some sinfulness talked about without any descriptions. Some of these are a little gruesome and quite sad. Mainly this is due to an oppressive person.
The whole idea of this story is that Ximena loves Jesus, though he is called [i]Kixme[/i] in this. I was trying to find out more about this translation, because I see this as the word "kiss" in a couple languages, but don't know if that was the intent or not. Ximena is very into reading her [i]Biblia[/i] every day and does her best to be kind to people around her, even though people look down on her due to her disability. There was a whole scene talked about in this book that really rang true for some things I went through as a deaf child. I do think, in terms of deafness, the author (who is hard of hearing) got a lot of this right, but I think during the dance scene, she should have explained how Ximena would possibly understand how she could feel vibrations to even know how to dance on any beats or anything, but I think depending on the level of deafness, you can definitely hear some of it, but it seems like Ximena is completely deaf. I think those who are not deaf may not understand a lot of the deaf situations in this. Being someone who has been through it, I understood. For the most part, it was done very well though.
Ximena works as an apprentice apothecary for a woman who is sometimes thought of as if she is a witch, though she is not. She is someone I hope we get to learn a lot more about in the second book that is already in the works, honestly. I look forward to unraveling more of the mystery of her (though we get to know a little bit about her past in this book). Ximena lives with her cousin, who treats her very protectively like a father would. He pretty much is more like a father to her than a cousin.
Thaddeus has a bit of amnesia when he is removed from the church he is found unconscious in. He starts to regain his memories slowly, where we learn more and more about his past too. At the same time, he is helping out Ximena's family and forms a great friendship and bond to Ximena, as they become a bit inseparable. He is curious to learn more about this [i]Kixme[/i] that Ximena is so into. He takes his time to research mainly because Ximena is so fascinated by [i]Kixme[/i] there has to be a good reason for it.
This is a heavily Christian book. It reminds me a little bit of the book of Acts put into play but in a fantasy world that is also a real place that exists too. There are lots of mixes of real and fantasy in this book, but it makes me more interesting. It may seem preachy to some people, but the way Ximena explains it to her friends, she really never pushes or forces anything on those around her.
While the story starts to get really interesting, Ximena forms some friendships and bonds with a few people near to her age along the way while hanging out with Thaddeus. There is an understanding that people worship this deity-long-living-woman named Mira. There are festivals, games, and some fun events in this story. There is also a lot of sinfulness and spirituality. I do think there was so much information throughout this book, that it makes sense why it is a bit long, but also, I think it should have been shortened at least in parts of the first half of the story.
I loved seeing how Thaddeus and Ximena learn and grow in their faith throughout this, which is probably why the title is what it is. Everyone's faith can start out small and expand into something beautiful over the course of time. They are very sweet with one another.
I really wanted to give this book four stars, but I just couldn't. Do I want to read the second book when it comes out? You betcha. I think it will be much better, especially in light of how lovely the last dozen chapters were to me. I think this ended in a way to make me want to know what is going to happen next. The author did put a note saying that she was going to have a different ending and to "not hate her" for changing it. I have no qualms about the ending at all. I think it was a good choice.
Thanks again for giving me a chance to read this. I will be reviewing it on my BookTube for sure too.