In the blink of an eye, two years have passed since Euntae and Jaeha last saw each other. And then, as if at the hand of Fate herself, the two cross paths again, drawn together accidentally just like the first reunion that sparked the flames of their love. Now the question remains—will it turn out this time?
at least I think it is... At the very least, volume 4 brings the two protagonists back together. Whether they love each other is actually not clear, especially to themselves. They continue to hide their true selves, not because of deceit, but because they don't actually know or honestly admit their feelings. I hope there's a volume 5, because this story is certainly not finished.
Hyesun was the mvp in this volume. Her words really resonated with Jaeha. Hell, with me too! She’s right. You want to know everything about a person BECAUSE you love them and Jaeha spent his life hiding the dark and gritty, his flaws and weaknesses, BECAUSE he loves someone. He didn’t want them to be “burdened” by him. I’m ready for him to let himself love fully without fear. He deserves it. Both these guys do. They’re right for each other. It’s just been a long road there.
Sped read through this because it was too delicious but painful. It reminded me of the current emotional pain I’m even suffering through myself, starving for what Eunho is looking to have with Jeaha. I should have honestly waited until March since the last volume comes out in April this year. *sigh* I’m deeply hoping (but can tell from maybe the next volume cover) that they work it out. I guess this is where I go back to relive some memories until April to keep it fresh in my mind. I’m glad the ex-wife came to see Jaeha and talk. Sometimes it takes things like that to move forward and reframe your thinking. Not everyone is so lucky, of course. However, I also resonate with the pain of abandonment and being left like Jeaha, which is also why this hits hard too… His Dad is a terrible man and reminds me of my parents both separate and together. I know how he must feel not wanting to hurt someone he cares about, in escapism, looking for the light at the end of the tunnel of pain. The never ending bullshit. When you find someone that makes you happy, it feels fake and even wrong when it’s not. Almost as if you don’t deserve the relationship because of how people treat you or treated you before, even if they are not connected. As someone who is a person that lives with CPTSD from childhood trauma and queer, it’s rough. I can see both sides in this, but upon going to therapy and working through things similar to what Jeaha is experiencing, I lean more on Eunho’s side now, longing for acceptance and being wanted. Very deep, very painful…