Wow. I did not expect to cry as much as I did. This was an easy 5⭐️, I don’t care if it’s a novella, it was so perfect. Terribly heart wrenching, sad, cruel, but it showed us how the tough people we meet in Ensnared got to where they were. That they will get their happy endings with each other, even though it all started with gut wrenching fear and hopelessness.
First off, I highly recommend reading this after book 1, Ensnared, because it’s better if you connect with the characters and understand them first and then get into this. But holy fuck, reading this was so crazy and people should definitely look into trigger warnings before reading this because it’s a dystopian book, so it’s very similar to real life. But wow getting to see how they all reacted to this and how they got to be where they are in Ensnared was crazy. There will definitely be spoilers, just so you know.
Starting off with Jaykob, it was so crazy to see their lives before it went to shit, even though he already knew something was off before they learned about it. But I freaking knew it, there is more to Jaykob than the big angry persona he portrays, he justs wants to fit with someone and doesn’t want to be judged, but that’s what keeps happening. He didn’t even feel like the other guys were his family, like the other guys feel about each other 😭😭. And I’m thinking just wait Jayk, you’ll meet Eden, it’ll take four years, but you’ll find someone who accepts you 😭😭. And then Domininic, I felt so bad for him because he easily went into work mode, until he heard that Beau’s family farm, where Beau was just visiting was too close to the blast zone and he broke down thinking that he died. It was so sad but so nice to see how much he loves Beau, like he genuinely didn’t think he could live without him. And then when he saw that he was there and made it back, I felt happy but sad for him. Happy because he didn’t lose his soulmate, but sad because he had to break the new to Beau who was offline and just happily listening to a podcast. And then poor Beau’s chapter 😭😭. He just had a good weekend with his family, laughing, having fun, getting drunk, and left with his moms apple pie, the smell of the drinks they had lingering, on his way back to his other family listening to a podcast, unbeknownst the world was ending 😭. And once he found out, his grief and sorrow overwhelmed him so much because he was just with his family, that he almost killed himself 😢. But thank goodness Jasper and Dominic were able to snap him out it, and Dominic reminded him that even though he lost one family, he still has another 😭. And that’s what brought him back. And then poor Lucky, his entire chapter he kept trying to convince himself that his parents had made it out of California like they had drunkenly planned with him. Also, it was nice to see his messages with them, like it’s no wonder where he got his exuberance from. But then the poor guy went through an emotional rollercoaster with Jasper. Seeing that he wasn’t wearing a ring anymore and being happy about it to Jasper crushing all of his hopes and dreams. But then Jasper saved his life 😢. But HOLY FUCK, Jasper’s chapter. When they all had thought the blast from base was going to take them out he said this about Lucky ”If this is my last moment, if I’m to be stardust and a dream, then let it be with him. Let our dust spin out together. He’ll be my dream through every galaxy. Our hearts will beat their last as one.” 😭😭😭😭 What the fuck. That is the most absolute sweetest thing I’ve ever heard. And there are so many more that I loved that I’ll add at the end. But I liked how his chapter ended since Beau shared his apple pie from his mom just like she wanted him to with Jasper telling the guys that he knew a safe place, Bristlebrook. It just makes me sad to know now that they all had each other, and Eden had no one 😭😭.
Now finally, our girl Eden’s chapter. This poor sweet girl was already going through it before the world went to shit, and then she had to face all of that on her own until she didn’t. Until that sweet cop Simon, who she had saw earlier, joined her at the library doors. And he was being so calm, kind, collected, helpful, and flirty that he was exactly what she needed. He saw her, unlike everyone else who was trampling her and protecting themselves. He gave her the much needed humor that she needed, he attached a string to her glasses to prevent them from falling when he saw that it kept slipping off. Like he didn’t need to do that, no one else would’ve, especially with the state the world is in. He hugged her and let her cry it out when it became overwhelming for her. He made sure they had a plan on how to survive together. And it was going so perfectly, until it didn’t. And that’s when I sobbed at his fear of dying, of knowing that Eden was going to be alone for four years, of seeing Eden not knowing what to do, and because of the fact that he didn’t want her to leave him alone and she didn’t. She stayed until his last breath 😢. I wish that poor man had survived longer, that he had survived with Eden and they could’ve kept each other happy. He was just a young guy who was just starting his job when the world went to shit, did his best, found a girl he could’ve survived and stayed happy with, I’m just glad she stayed in his last moments.
Gosh, that was so long and I basically just recited the entire novella, but wow I didn’t expect it to have such an impact on me. Like obviously it was going to be emotionally heavy, but wow I did not anticipate that. I cannot wait to continue the next book and I need the final book to be out now, please and thank you. Because I don’t know how long I can go without knowing that Eden and her men will get their happy ending and how. So please Miss Rebecca Quinn, give us the next book 😭😭.
Favorite quotes/scenes:
“ Is it wrong to want someone gentle? Hopeful? I’ve seen so much shit. It’d be nice to be with someone . . . kind.” (My sweet Jayk 😭😭)
“I don’t want to fuck him. I just want our lives to bleed together until we die. Until we die together. He doesn’t get to do that without me.” (I knew there was more to grumpy Dominic 😢)
“If he has to go through this, then he’s doing it with me right here with him. Maybe it’ll only hurt half as much if we take the hurt together.”
“You’re my brother. You’re the only real family I ever had. You’re the only one I can’t lose. I need you. I need you for this. I can’t do it alone. I know you lost everything today, but you still have me. You always have me.”
“Someone has to carry the load, Beau. That’s what a soldier does. We carry that fucking load so they don’t have to. And when you can’t carry it, I’ll carry you, too.”
“It’s not the family you want, Beau, but it’s the one we have.”
“I’m not making the same mistake again. I’m going to be there for my family. To keep them safe. To live with them . . . or to die with them. But we’re not going to be apart. Not anymore.” 🥺
MOMMIKINS: You’re BACK?! You get your ass over here NOW, baby! I miss that gorgeous face
POPSICLE: Ur mom is dranK
POPSICLE: dAnk
POPSICLE: DRUNK
POPSICLE: Phone sux. Wnt to call?
MOMMIKINS: HE’S drunk I’M fine.
MOMMIKINS: NO! WAIT! don’t come here! let’s do vegas! cha-CHING!
MOMMIKINS: i want to see someone pop a ping pong out of their hoo-ha! (That’s where he got his personality from 🥺)
“In this beat before death takes us, it’s not dying I fear. Only eternity without him.”
“If I’m to die, I’m dying without knowing what that might feel like. What those lips might taste like. How sweetly he might sleep beside me each night. I get this, though. Even as I feel my skin begin to burn, I have him in my arms.”
“You didn’t suck today.” (Jaykob)
“I believe you called me a bimbo?”
“Whatever. Heat of the moment. Not like it’s true. Bimbos are hot.”
“I’m fine, Lucien, I’m . . . I’m wonderful.”
A hint of a blush singes his cheeks, but his smile kicks up, cocky and warm.
“Yeah. You are.”
“You were wonderful, too, you know.”
“What am I? Dog shit? I’m fine, too. Thanks for asking.” (Jaykob 🤣)
“The other cars aren’t here.”
“It’s fine. Less lines here. It’s just—”
With a loud, electric hiss, the gate opens, and relief floods me as Jaykob ducks inside.
“The back way. It’s my favorite.”
Ceaseless brat.
“I haven’t had anywhere near enough sex.”
“Well, now doesn’t feel like the most appropriate time to rectify that, but—” (Oh Simon, you were a good one 😢)
“Oh, shut it.”
“These books are my parents. My friends. My only helpers. If it’s the end of all things, then at least I’ll end it with a good book.” (Our badass librarian 🥹)