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Carrying the Load
Ten years ago my life changed completely when I found out my dad had cheated on my mom. I lost all respect for him - for both of them, since neither one wanted to acknowledge the affair baby that came from his mistake - but I gained a little brother.
Shawn, the light of my fucking life.
Two years ago my life changed again. I'd been chasing my MMA dreams and making a name for myself in the octagon when I took a punch to the head that stole everything.
Traumatic Brain Injury, they said. No impulse control, they said. Unchecked aggression and anger management issues that, for a while, I actually let them convince me might make me a danger to the one person in this world that matters.
Luckily, I came to my senses fast. TBI or not, I'd never hurt Shawn.
I'd fucking die first.
But the damage was done. While I'd been recovering, Shawn had come of age and fallen for a smooth talker of a man who doesn’t fucking deserve him.
I tried to hold my tongue.
I did my best to focus on getting my own shit together and rebuilding a life for myself instead of butting into his.
But now I've found out that the fucker my baby brother is shacked up with might be hurting him, and all bets are off.
Lack of impulse control? Unchecked aggression? A burning, territorial drive to protect what's mine?
Maybe that TBI didn't fuck up my brain after all. Maybe it just unleashed it, arming me with everything I need to take care of my brother the way he needs.
To take care of all his needs...
Shawn, the light of my fucking life.
Two years ago my life changed again. I'd been chasing my MMA dreams and making a name for myself in the octagon when I took a punch to the head that stole everything.
Traumatic Brain Injury, they said. No impulse control, they said. Unchecked aggression and anger management issues that, for a while, I actually let them convince me might make me a danger to the one person in this world that matters.
Luckily, I came to my senses fast. TBI or not, I'd never hurt Shawn.
I'd fucking die first.
But the damage was done. While I'd been recovering, Shawn had come of age and fallen for a smooth talker of a man who doesn’t fucking deserve him.
I tried to hold my tongue.
I did my best to focus on getting my own shit together and rebuilding a life for myself instead of butting into his.
But now I've found out that the fucker my baby brother is shacked up with might be hurting him, and all bets are off.
Lack of impulse control? Unchecked aggression? A burning, territorial drive to protect what's mine?
Maybe that TBI didn't fuck up my brain after all. Maybe it just unleashed it, arming me with everything I need to take care of my brother the way he needs.
To take care of all his needs...
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Published July 18, 2025
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July 22, 2025
Dare (Derek) + Shawn 🖤
Half brothers | Size difference | Breeding | Age gap
⚠️possible SPOILERS BELOW in detailed tropes/content and trigger warning lists
Tropes/content:
Half brothers
Same dad, different moms
Size difference (multiple ways)
Age gap (8 years)
Small 🐓
Bi-awakening?/Gay for you
Ex MMA fighter (forced to retire after TBI)
Carries him everywhere
Emotional sex
Needy
Breeding
Plugs him to keep his 💦 in while he's at work
Strict roles
TWs:
Incest
Mentions of cheating
One MC is the product of an affair and made to feel awful about it
Physical and emotional abuse on page from POS boyfriend
Boyfriend gets the shit beat out of him by Dare
One MC has a TBI that affects judgement and impulses
Ex gets jail time but from what he did to someone else, not Shawn
Dad was only there for Dare, not Shawn. So Dare cut him off
Half brothers | Size difference | Breeding | Age gap
⚠️possible SPOILERS BELOW in detailed tropes/content and trigger warning lists
Tropes/content:
Half brothers
Same dad, different moms
Size difference (multiple ways)
Age gap (8 years)
Small 🐓
Bi-awakening?/Gay for you
Ex MMA fighter (forced to retire after TBI)
Carries him everywhere
Emotional sex
Needy
Breeding
Plugs him to keep his 💦 in while he's at work
Strict roles
TWs:
Incest
Mentions of cheating
One MC is the product of an affair and made to feel awful about it
Physical and emotional abuse on page from POS boyfriend
Boyfriend gets the shit beat out of him by Dare
One MC has a TBI that affects judgement and impulses
Ex gets jail time but from what he did to someone else, not Shawn
Dad was only there for Dare, not Shawn. So Dare cut him off
January 13, 2026
i just thought everyone should know there are 284 mentions of the word 'fuck' in this book--with various forms including fucking, fucker, motherfucker, motherfucking, fucked, abso-fucking-lutely, fuck-all, fuckhead, and a-fucking-nother'.
i wonder if Becca Vale likes the word fuck.💀💀
The sex was so aggressive I genuinely don’t know how Shawn wasn’t split clean in half. I also wish there’d been a bit more taboo-ness, instead of them immediately going to town.
Older brother Dare has a traumatic brain injury which results in him being possessive over Shawn, lacking normal boundaries, and having impulse issues. He beats the shit out of Shawn's toxic boyfriend, and then they ✨fuck✨. That's the whole plot.
I loved the savior complex even if it was OTT.
It also got me out of a reading slump and I was chuckling my way through this - 3.5⭐
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i wonder if Becca Vale likes the word fuck.💀💀
The sex was so aggressive I genuinely don’t know how Shawn wasn’t split clean in half. I also wish there’d been a bit more taboo-ness, instead of them immediately going to town.
Older brother Dare has a traumatic brain injury which results in him being possessive over Shawn, lacking normal boundaries, and having impulse issues. He beats the shit out of Shawn's toxic boyfriend, and then they ✨fuck✨. That's the whole plot.
I loved the savior complex even if it was OTT.
It also got me out of a reading slump and I was chuckling my way through this - 3.5⭐
It's so intense that I freeze for a second, his sweet little cock throbbing in my fist and my balls tightening fast enough to tell me that I am most definitely not heterosexual anymore.
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April 4, 2026
3.5 stars
Another great BV brother fucker book. I would caution those with triggers surrounding domestic violence, though. I knew the premise of the story but I didn't realize we'd get to really see it. Otherwise this was surprisingly cute for what it is.
Pet names: baby, BB (baby brother), baby boy, sweetheart
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Safety (may contain spoilers)
SA/rape: None
Other person drama: Shawn has an abusive boyfriend in the beginning that Dare saves him from.
Another great BV brother fucker book. I would caution those with triggers surrounding domestic violence, though. I knew the premise of the story but I didn't realize we'd get to really see it. Otherwise this was surprisingly cute for what it is.
Pet names: baby, BB (baby brother), baby boy, sweetheart
This isn't normal. I know that. Brothers don't do this for each other. But it doesn't feel wrong. It feels like coming home after being lost in the cold for so long.
"You're mine," he whispers, voice dark and possessive as he traces his thumb around my rim, making it flutter. "Your ass, your hole, your body, and that sweet little cock, and the cum shooting out of it, and the air in your lungs, and the blood in your veins... They all belong to me now, baby. You understand? Every part of you is mine." "Yours," I sob, nodding so hard I make myself dizzy.
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Safety (may contain spoilers)
SA/rape: None
Other person drama: Shawn has an abusive boyfriend in the beginning that Dare saves him from.
February 26, 2026
4.5 ⭐️
*hot*
*hot*
August 23, 2025
I love a good rescue story. Of course this was hot, just not a favourite in comparison to some of the others stories.
July 18, 2025
I don't usually want someone to be unalived...but man I was hoping Tyler kicked the bucket in this book.. That POS jail is definitely too good for him...
I did still enjoy this book, I wanna say it seemed a bit more... tame? on the spice scale than some of the author's other books. I did love the savior aspect of it though!
Seriously though, Fuck Tyler...
I did still enjoy this book, I wanna say it seemed a bit more... tame? on the spice scale than some of the author's other books. I did love the savior aspect of it though!
Seriously though, Fuck Tyler...
July 21, 2025
Half Brothers - younger one is the result of father's affair so didn't grow up together (also an age gap). The "bastard child" was kept a secret but older brother finds out and pours himself into his brother (literally and figuratively).
Large size difference so big brother (a former MMA fighter) carries little bro around all the time...hence the title.
Large size difference so big brother (a former MMA fighter) carries little bro around all the time...hence the title.
February 27, 2026
"Because no matter how good it is, Shawn is the center of my universe. My entire reason for living. So instead, I shift just enough to settle on top of him, and use my weight and strength to press him into the mattress the way he likes, trapping him beneath me and keeping him safe, making him feel safe, protected, and most importantly, loved."
July 24, 2025
3.5 stars
While I really liked the reason for their lack of restraint when it came to crossing that line between them, it didn't delve as deeply into the characters as I would've liked.
While I really liked the reason for their lack of restraint when it came to crossing that line between them, it didn't delve as deeply into the characters as I would've liked.
August 3, 2025
🗣️ SIZE DIFFERENCE what more can u want. But also damn wish Dare (Derek) woulda make Shawn’s bf cease to exist !!!!
July 26, 2025
When I saw the blurb for this one I bought it immediately. I was so excited for it as it sounded amazing. It was good but unfortunately not nearly as good as I was expecting. I loved the reasoning behind the older brother being so protective and jealous. And I loved that we got a lot of story before the sexy times started. But I felt like once the younger brother left his abusive boyfriend not much happened. Overall it was good and I’ll still read more from this author of course. Can’t love them all
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