Scars of a Toxic N*gga

by Nek Mills

THIS IS A RE-RELEASE!

Khalil “Loon” Simmons thinks that he has his life all figured out. Although young, he has what most men twice his age could only fathom. He has no shortage of money, power, and the respect of the streets that he serves. Oddly, what he valued most was having someone to share it with —his long-time girlfriend, Mia. But in a shocking twist of events, Loon is blindsided when the reality of life turns his fairytale into a mockery. He gives his best attempt at living life as he now knows it, but wounds that deep never heal. He’s left hardened, angry, vengeful, and above all else…he’s scarred.

113 pages, Kindle Edition

Published July 18, 2025

Reviews

[Nikki · Rating 3.5 out of 5]

This was more of an erotica than anything. It was good for what it was

But I’m mad we still don’t know Lucky’s name….

[Monique · Rating 4 out of 5]

(3.5) Loon was the definition of toxic. And I get it, he was hurt by those closest to him but my goodness he was taking it to new levels. Also even though this was already a novella, it could’ve been shorter to me😫 because It got repetitious after a while when it came to his “harem” and their antics. I do love “Lucky” though because he met his match! I’m interested to know more about her. That cliffhanger…😳

[Donnesha · Rating 4 out of 5]

Khalil was definitely Toxic

Being hurt by the people you love most can definitely change you, and Khalil is proof of that. His pain turned him into the toxic, emotionally unavailable man we see throughout this story. And when the title said toxic, it wasn’t lying, Khalil was definitely the definition of a toxic n* gga!😂

This was a quick, entertaining read that ended on a cliffhanger, and if you’re looking for something spicy 🌶️🌶️🌶️ and messy, this is definitely it. I really enjoyed seeing Khalil meet his match in Lucky. She gave him a taste of his own medicine, treating him exactly how he treated all the women before her. She got what she wanted and walked away, leaving him in his feelings. lol

I can’t wait to see what happens in book two!

[Dunnalady · Rating 3 out of 5]

This book could have been sooo much better. Lucky was no different than the sister wives. She was easily down in the bathroom after the third encounter in the bathroom. Had unprotected $ex with a known man who gets around. But she is soooo different than the rest? Please… also how did that baby know Khalil is his dad ? Khalil should have organically fell in love with someone without sex being involved that had higher standards than lucky and all of a sudden she pops up at his mom’s house as Kira’s cousin when all the other times he’s around Kira she is never there? That is such lazy writing. I didn’t even care to read the second book.

[Readingizmytherapy · Rating 5 out of 5]

wait one darn minute

LISTEN. 😭

Everything y’all told me about Loon was TRUE. Every. Single. Thing. And now I have one question…

Nek Mills, sis… IS YOU COOL?! 👀😂 Because what kind of mind creates this level of chaos and then just sends it out into the world for innocent readers like me to find?!

I thought Jayceon and Jayceon Jr. were nuts. I really did. I thought I had already experienced the highest level of “Sir, please seek help immediately.”

Then I met LOON.

BABYYYYY! 😭😂 This man didn’t just take the cake—he took the cake, the table it was sitting on, the bakery it came from AND probably threatened the baker on his way out! 🤦🏾‍♀️

Loon is a whole DIFFERENT category of unhinged. Every time I thought, “Okay, surely this man cannot get any crazier…” Nek said BET. 😂 There was absolutely no preparing me for this level of madness, and the worst part is…I WAS ENTERTAINED THE ENTIRE TIME. 🫣

And that CLIFFHANGER/PLOT TWIST?!

Nope.

We’re not discussing it.

Because I’m STILL SIDE-EYEING MY KINDLE. 😒📱

The way I got to the end and just SAT THERE?! Excuse me?! You cannot drop THAT in my lap and then expect me to go about my business like a normal person. 😭

So now I’m sitting here with questions, trust issues, and absolutely NO patience waiting for the next book.

Nek Mills, you have some explaining to do. IMMEDIATELY. 😂

⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

Loon officially took the crown for literary chaos. 👑🤪 And apparently I need to reevaluate myself because I enjoyed every unhinged minute of it.

PagezandPlotTwistz Verdict:
UNHINGED. CHAOTIC. ABSOLUTELY ENTERTAINING.
And yes…I’m coming back for more. 😭😂📚

[Cre8tive Dreamz · Rating 5 out of 5]

Khalil’s Healing or Not

I don’t know what Khalil and Kaine’s mother thought would happen when the 2 brothers met up again, but it would be on site for real!!!…
It’s one thing to have an issue with your sibling, but you beyond dirty to rob your brother, mess with his girl and then yall disappear too!!!…
Mia was just trifling and if KJ is Khalid’s son, they would not stop nothing because to bounce on some like she did is bananas!!!…
Lucky got him going crazy of that boy box though!!!..
Those other 3 women are just blows to the 5th power!!!…

[Cathyrn · Rating 5 out of 5]

Khalil😭

Wow! Khalil has truly faced a whirlwind of betrayals, and it's transformed him into a man with a tough edge! But can anyone blame him? After all he's endured, he absolutely deserves love! I'm on the edge of my seat, hoping that Lucky can be the one to heal his wounds, as they seem like a perfect match. And now, with his brother and the girl who betrayed him returning, the drama is about to explode! I can’t wait to see how this thrilling story unfolds!

[Shonta · Rating 5 out of 5]

Blood Ain’t Always Thicker Than Water!

Now Nek why would you give me heart palpitations like this!! Girl from beginning to end this has been good poor Khalil he’s been hurt snaked and lied to since the beginning and it caused him to go cold. That is up until he meets his match and is considering softening up. The reunion of all reunions happens and baby we get the cliffhanger of a lifetime! I’m headed to book 2!

[naeluvsbooks · Rating 5 out of 5]

This was the best introduction. The beginning???? I WAS FLABBERGASTED. I say this every review but Nek Mills was really that girl. This was a good story about heartbreak & not being healed. I felt so bad for Khalil, jealousy will always be the worst trait. Then the end was so crazy. I genuinely love FMCs that are strongggg Lucky was genuinely so funny. Two dawgs falling for each other ? I was here for it! 10ssss

[Lakeshia Shani · Rating 3 out of 5]

Loon was definitely looney tunes! The way he dogged women and the way they let him was disgusting! The sisters and Persia- pitiful!!!

Mia damn girl! You let Kaine manipulate you out of your spot! But the fact that you let Loon give you money & trips for that man was heartless! And yall went on for years so miss me with I’m in love with Kaine.

Baby Miss Lucky ran a strict program! When she beat his butt up and robbed him - I said oh yeah he’s going to break her down! And broke down he did!

[Sonia · Rating 5 out of 5]

Oh wow. When I say this book was soooo good. Khalil/Loon had me laughing most of this book. The betrayal he went through was jaw dropping. As I read what Kaine and Mia did to him,man just wrong. Then Lucky to be alive, Devyn gives him the business and not in a good way in the bathroom, lol. Then the mic drop at the end, I ran to Toxic Redemption. Nek, I waited too long to read this. My bad.

[L · Rating 4 out of 5]

Chiiiile Khalil took that hurt and built an indestructible box around his heart. That man was very toxic. His harem of women, despite how he treated them, still stuck around. He told these women straight up what it was and every one of them were delusional thinking they’d be the one to be his everything and get his heart.

[Hopeless Romantic · Rating 5 out of 5]

crazy Work

This book was entertaining and crazy. Loon was absolutely transparent with the women he dealt with. The women had so little respect for themselves though. The sister had me wanting to jump in the book as BEAT some sense into them. Nice quick read but the ending was so wrong unless we getting a follow up read

[Joy · Rating 3 out of 5]

Ummm

So real talk, I didn't love this one..Frfr I didn't like most of it but I'm definitely about to start the next one because I'm invested. Ms. Mills has me invested in what's going to happen lol. She's really good at storytelling. This is my 8th book by her. She's definitely worth the read.

[Shamell · Rating 3 out of 5]

Ummmmmm the mom was selfish. Khalil has faced betrayal after betrayal and I’m not understanding why. The brother was absolutely trash and idc. Hurt people hurt people and the pain transformed him into a toxic man. Do I blame him? Yes partially because the signs were there but also because it’s his responsibility to heal. I feel like he deserves his happy ending but that cliff hanger was crazy lol. Lucky can’t decide if she is hard to get or down for a wild time chileeeee. Now I will say I would love to see those two together. Is Loon a lil nasty, crazy, trigger happy and wild? Yes lol. The ending really had me floored because girl what!!

[ShayLuvsReading · Rating 4 out of 5]

When you said Toxic that’s what she meant when she wrote Loon. I understand why he was the way he was but sheesh the things he was saying and doing, it couldn’t be me them females clearly had low self esteem. But I love how lucky was giving him the same energy he was giving to them other females, it was definitely entertaining

[Miss Read A lot · Rating 4 out of 5]

4.5

Great set up for the next book. It was just repetitious as far as Khalil feelings towards women. It was stated too many times. But I hope he got Mia or Kaine right between the eyes. Mia one funky bit*h and Kaine a bit*h niggas betraying his brother for some kewchie.

[Cardi Blue · Rating 5 out of 5]

OMG!!!

That cliffhanger. Loon’s behavior makes sense because everybody trash to him. Daddy, brother, girlfriend. He’s respectful to his mama because that brother would be at a King Von concert.

[Sandra Lee · Rating 5 out of 5]

Toxicity of Love

When you find out that your only brother and best friend has been sexing your girlfriend for years (after stealing 2 million dollars from you and skipping town), that could make you a little bitter towards the female sex. Khalil took it to a whole nother level!

[Reteika · Rating 5 out of 5]

WHEW! 😮‍💨

Baby the end!!!!!! I need to know what tf Kaine and Mia had going on because my mind is in shambles. I’m rooting for Loon and Lucky though, my baby needs some real love in his life.

[Patricia Carr · Rating 5 out of 5]

Scars of a toxic n*gga (Toxic series book 1)

I can't believe after all this time she had the youngest brothers baby, but went with the oldest. What a fuc* up this girl has caused between the whole family. He's just as toxic as her for sleeping with him behind his back.

[MagicKalUniKorn · Rating 4 out of 5]

Toxic Af

Khalil has to be one of the most toxic MMCs ever but I’m not gon be too hard on him because he’s only like that due to how the people in his life treated him.

But the cliffhanger?! Tf you mean that’s his son?! Who got shot?!

[Mary · Rating 5 out of 5]

The twist

Great book about karma! The twist at the end whew! Definitely a great read! Can’t wait to read the next!

[Di'Jon Winston · Rating 5 out of 5]

Oh Khalil 😂

[Olivia Williams · Rating 5 out of 5]

okay Lo and Lucky

I love Nek Mill pen game 🔥 neverrrrr read a book by her I didn’t like. I am like damn where is my Lo my crazy babe

[Monica B · Rating 3 out of 5]

Toxic and disgusting are definitely characteristics of Khalil!!!! No condom and a random.. gross

[Amber J · Rating 3 out of 5]

I love the growth Nek Mills has shown in her newer projects. I can tell this is earlier work but it was still enjoyable.

[Monica · Rating 5 out of 5]

Book was good ready for book 2