His To Erase

by Sarah J. Poulsen

I don't remember what happened, but I feel it in the bruises I cant explain, in the way I flinch when I’m alone, and in the silence that creeps in when I try to sleep. Something was taken from me something I didn’t agree to give.

One man says his here to protect me. Another says I already belong to him.
But neither of them know what I’m capable of.

And when I finally remember the truth, I'll make them both with regret ever trying to keep me .

Genres: Dark Romance

Paperback

Published September 1, 2025

About the author

Sarah writes books that crack open the dark corners of the heart—and then light a match. A former salon owner turned full-time author, she walked away from her old life with nothing but a story she couldn’t ignore and a fire in her chest that refused to die. Her books are cinematic, obsessive, emotionally twisted, and laced with tension that will make you scream into your pillow.

She’s drawn to morally gray men, bratty heroines, and the kind of love that wrecks you before it saves you. You’ll find her writing late at night, pouring everything she’s survived into characters that don’t flinch.

When she’s not writing, she's chasing wild dreams, or trying to make sense of the messages the universe won’t stop sending. She believes in shocking plot twists, and the kind of endings you feel in your bones.

Reviews

[Kelly Karja · Rating 1 out of 5]

I am not sure how this book scored a 5. iIf I could score a negative number, I would. It was one of the worst books I’ve ever read. The storyline has so many inconsistencies and lacked continuity. I had to go back and reread sections to see if I missed something, which I didn’t. It was just a hot mess.

[Jazmín · Rating 2 out of 5]

Could have been a shorter book, it dragged unnecessarily.

[Kala · Rating 5 out of 5]

I bought this book because its based on one of my favourite tiktokkers and i thought why not?. However ... I did not realise what i let my self in for , there is passion, possessiveness , obsession, traitors, twists and turns, love and so much more! I was hooked from the start and have now ordered midnights to read too. This book is a 5 star for me ❤️

[Sabrina jones · Rating 5 out of 5]

Ahhhh this book!!!!! It is soooo good I couldn’t put it down. Just when you think you have it figured out you don’t and learn more. There is so much heat!!!! And the banter ahh I loved it so much. Everyone needs to read this book! I hands down recommend this!!!

[Melissa Ames · Rating 5 out of 5]

Edge of your seat!

This book was incredible! Spicy, intrigue and amazing characters! I hope she writes Sara's story! Steven had me worried! Should have known better! Never liked the name Frank!

[Cayli Johnson · Rating 3 out of 5]

3.75 Hear me out.

Sarah is a great writer. I love how she really paints a picture for you with her wording. I loved Midnights so much. It really transported me to another time and place.

I’m going to start off what I wasn’t so fond of with this book. I feel like a lot of the scenes with Ani and Steven could have been edited down. It got really repetitive so I wish it had been condensed just a bit that’s where I was starting to get lost/bored. I wish it had been less of them yelling and fucking each other and maybe more of Ani having flashbacks and helping us piece together her memories as the story progressed.

The pieces really come together and shit really hits the fan at about 75% and that’s where the story grabbed me. I loved the story line and how the pieces came together. I really loved the chaos of the last part of the book. Thank you for not hurting the dog in this book I absolutely despise that shit. She was my favorite.

[Meghan Harper · Rating 2 out of 5]

I wanted to love it. I really did. But it didn't make a lot of sense. Broken story lines, details that never line up. A whole plot-point that was never explained and a hacker who should have had the sense to hunt his boss down when he disappeared. The mysterious woman who was explained, but awkwardly. Most of the book was spent repeating over and over like a student trying to make an essay long enough. The end felt rushed after all that foreplay. Points for feeding enough mystery to make me finish it, but I wouldn't recommend it.

[A. Lewsk · Rating 5 out of 5]

i went on a full out dollar coaster ride!!! this bookw.as incredible and now I need to know where book 2 is!!!

[Nicole W · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book…..omg the emotions….the spice 🔥🔥HIGHLY RECOMMEND this book!!!!!

[Paige Bronson · Rating 5 out of 5]

I loved this so much!! I’m still trying to formulate all my thoughts! Sarah is a fantastic author and everyone needs to read this.

[Amber Herder · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book has had me in a chokehold since I first saw that you were writing it and started dropping teasers. And the book did not disappoint one bit. Had me on the edge (literally & figuratively) the whole book. The plot was amazing had me guessing until the end. And the spice mhmm yessss 10/10

[Nicole · Rating 4 out of 5]

The spice scenes were 🤌🏻 which is why I gave this 4 stars. However, and I say this with noting but love because I love TikTok real life couple this book is based on, but the writing could use a little work. There was a lot of repetitiveness with the terms ruin & wrecked, smells that aren’t a scent (regret, violence, etc.) and cliche statements. Not that these things are all that bad but overused in this book IMO. There was also some inconsistency issues that I had to try hard to ignore (like a reference to something that literally never happened in the book to the point where I went back and tried to find what part I accidentally skipped but nothing was there). Continuity errors too that just didn’t make any sense (example-she was on her knees and there was “wetness” that ran down to her ankle 🤔).

And this…..Spoiler alert….







We never even find out who the unknown caller is?? Steven said he’d tell her tomorrow, she demands he tell her right away and then says he doesn’t know but has his guy looking into it, guessed who it is and then it’s never mentioned again!

[Brook Sherwood · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book had all the feels! I couldn’t put it down and don’t get me started on the HEAT! This will be your next thrill.

[Chelsey · Rating 5 out of 5]

Holy freaking airball!!!! I was lucky enough to receive this as an arc. If you want a dark romance that has banter, has plot, a strong female main character, a fun supportive best friend and has you questioning everyone and everything this is a book for you. You go on an emotional rollercoaster with this dark romance, and it is dark so check those triggers. You will be questioning who is really the BAD bad guy and who is the morally grey sexy bad guy. I was on the edge of my seat holding my breath wondering who to trust and what would happen throughout the book. I cried, I laughed, I chewed on the inside of my lip with worry (seriously I gave myself a blister from it) and I even wanted to read some of this one handed (if you know what I mean 😉😉)

Sarah- girl you knocked it out of the park once again! I loved this book (just as much if not more than Midnights) and I am grateful you let me be on your arc team. You deserve to be a NY bestselling author! And I hope you accomplish that girl. 💜💜

[Crystal Jones · Rating 5 out of 5]

ARC review,

if you want a book to take you on a full Rollercoaster ride if emotions look no further. I laughed, cried, yelled, and got hot and bothered. picking up another book after this just isn't possible at this point. this book will forever live rent free in my head and will be one I recommend to everyone. 🧡

fantastic job Sarah! you are definitely one of my favorite authors. you make it so descriptive that it's like a movie playing in your mind while you read. thank you writing another amazing book!

[thesmutreader · Rating 5 out of 5]

𝐇𝐢𝐬 𝐓𝐨 𝐄𝐫𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐛𝐲 𝐒𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐡 𝐉. 𝐏𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐬𝐞𝐧

𝟓/𝟓 ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
𝐒𝐩𝐢𝐜𝐞 𝐥𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐥: 🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️

𝐓𝐫𝐨𝐩𝐞𝐬:
𝐃𝐚𝐫𝐤 𝐑𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞
𝐃𝐮𝐚𝐥 𝐏𝐎𝐕
𝐏𝐫𝐚𝐢𝐬𝐞/𝐃𝐞𝐠𝐫𝐚𝐝𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧
𝐒𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠

𝐈𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐚 𝐝𝐚𝐫𝐤 𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐛𝐚𝐝𝐚𝐬𝐬 𝐅𝐌𝐂, 𝐚 𝐬𝐞𝐱𝐲 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐞𝐫 & 𝐚 𝐥𝐨𝐲𝐚𝐥 𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝, 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤’𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐲𝐨𝐮. 𝐓𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐢𝐬 𝐝𝐞𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐢𝐭𝐞𝐥𝐲 𝐝𝐚𝐫𝐤, 𝐬𝐨 𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐜𝐤 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐭𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐠𝐞𝐫 𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬. 𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐥𝐲 𝐭𝐫𝐲𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐨 𝐟𝐢𝐠𝐮𝐫𝐞 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥 𝐯𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭’𝐬 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐤𝐞𝐩𝐭 𝐦𝐞 𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐤𝐞𝐝, 𝐈 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝𝐧’𝐭 𝐩𝐮𝐭 𝐢𝐭 𝐝𝐨𝐰𝐧. 𝐈 𝐚𝐥𝐬𝐨 𝐝𝐨𝐧' 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐈'𝐥𝐥 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐥𝐚𝐝𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐢𝐧 𝐥𝐢𝐛𝐫𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬 𝐨𝐫 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐞𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐚𝐦𝐞. 𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞𝐬 𝐈 𝐥𝐚𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐞𝐝 𝐦𝐲 𝐚𝐬𝐬 𝐨𝐟𝐟, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐩𝐢𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐨𝐟𝐟. 𝐇𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐥𝐲, 𝐈’𝐯𝐞 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐩𝐮𝐧𝐜𝐡 𝐚 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐚𝐬 𝐦𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐚𝐬 𝐈 𝐝𝐢𝐝 𝐅𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐤… 𝐢𝐲𝐤𝐲𝐤. 𝐎𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐥𝐥, 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐬 𝐚𝐧 𝐚𝐦𝐚𝐳𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤, 𝐟𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐝 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐬𝐨 𝐦𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐬𝐩𝐢𝐜𝐞, 𝐚𝐦𝐚𝐳𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐩, 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐨𝐛𝐬𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐟𝐚𝐜𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐒𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐡 𝐰𝐫𝐨𝐭𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐮𝐚𝐥 𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐡𝐮𝐬𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐝? 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐝 𝐢𝐭. 𝐓𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐤 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐒𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐡 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐚𝐦𝐚𝐳𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐬𝐢𝐠𝐧𝐞𝐝 𝐜𝐨𝐩𝐲, 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐬𝐢𝐠𝐧𝐚𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐞, 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 ���𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬’ 𝐬𝐢𝐠𝐧𝐚𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐞𝐬! 𝐈 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐭𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐮𝐫𝐞 𝐢𝐭 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫.

[Erin · Rating 5 out of 5]

much like alot of us, I follow Ani on tiktok and insta. so, obviously I would read this. Its my first book by the author, but will not be the last!

This book was great. It kept me interested, had a great story line and good spice.

Weird to be able to picture the actual people as the characters lol

I would love to see this become an audiobook. Iif Ani can't narrate it herself, I can def see Connor Crais and Samantha Brentmoor as these two. Frank could def be Jason Clarke with Erin Mallon as Sarah.

im gonna need duet. 😆
look at me, playing casting director lol

absolutely loved!
highly recommend

[Jen Paullin · Rating 4 out of 5]

Such a good read!!

This is a solid 4.5. I found my self yelling at the book bc of the FMCs decisions.

This is a dark romance with some very adult content, aggressive content, but also secrets, lost memory, violence, murder, and not knowing who to trust.

The twists were great in this story with a lot going on to make the story rich!

Definitely recommend! Grab it and get to read g!!

[Brit.Readz · Rating 5 out of 5]

I loved every second of this book. I think I need more time to comprehend exactly what I want to say.

Sarah is a master at making you fall in love with multiple characters but also making you so mad about them at the same time haha! Thank you for a wild ride!

[Elaina Bressman · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book has it all! Love, lust, pure sexual submission to enemies. Ani loves hard and is wild. This shows what besties are for and pure chaos.

[Ceaira powell · Rating 4 out of 5]

I loved this book. The spice was insane but the story behind it was great as well. I loved how far his protection ran for her!

[Kayla Schultz · Rating 5 out of 5]

Ahhhh! This book is so good, like chefs kiss, it was funny, hot and overall amazing. Sarah did such a wonderful job. I love her writing style and you can tell she puts her whole heart into writing. You would never guess that she only has two books published already because it is so well written, you’d think she had dozens. Sarah and Ani’s friendship in the book is so much like the videos you see in real life with their personalities. I also love all the real parts from Ani and Steven’s life that are incorporated into the book like Bernadette! And the part that mentions what they had in their real life wedding vows! It made me so happy while reading that I kept finding things in it that were real! I have not bought a physical book in YEARS because I read them so fast but I will be buying this one to be able to reread!

[Jo · Rating 5 out of 5]

Absolutely LOVED this book. Move over every other dark romance out there and say hello to your new BBF (swoon).
This book has all the feels and will have you laughing, crying and everything in between. The banter between characters is amazing and to know that some of it are actual conversations between two best friends makes you look at each comment trying to guess which ones they are.
After following (stal*ing) Sarah and Ani on socials, the whole time you read this book you automatically think of both of them and you can hear the words written in your head as though they are actually speaking to you which just adds to how amazing this book is.
Hands down one of my favourite reads.
Give this book a try and add it to the top of your TBR you will NOT regret it.

[Amanda Lindsey · Rating 5 out of 5]

Do not walk….RUN to get this book and read it. 710 pages read in 3 days even with having to be an adult and do adult shit….lol. It is a dark romance, spicy, had some mafia stuff and who doesn’t love a book where the man will burn the world down for her!!!! I follow Sarah, Ani and Steven on TikTok. I highly recommend checking all of them out and finding out how they all know each other before reading the book. I think it makes it that much better.