His To Erase

by Sarah J. Poulsen

I don't remember what happened, but I feel it in the bruises I cant explain, in the way I flinch when I’m alone, and in the silence that creeps in when I try to sleep. Something was taken from me something I didn’t agree to give.

One man says his here to protect me. Another says I already belong to him.
But neither of them know what I’m capable of.

And when I finally remember the truth, I'll make them both with regret ever trying to keep me .

Genres: Dark Romance, Romance, Audiobook, Contemporary, Smut, Spicy

Paperback

Published September 1, 2025

About the author

Sarah writes books that crack open the dark corners of the heart—and then light a match. A former salon owner turned full-time author, she walked away from her old life with nothing but a story she couldn’t ignore and a fire in her chest that refused to die. Her books are cinematic, obsessive, emotionally twisted, and laced with tension that will make you scream into your pillow.

She’s drawn to morally gray men, bratty heroines, and the kind of love that wrecks you before it saves you. You’ll find her writing late at night, pouring everything she’s survived into characters that don’t flinch.

When she’s not writing, she's chasing wild dreams, or trying to make sense of the messages the universe won’t stop sending. She believes in shocking plot twists, and the kind of endings you feel in your bones.

Reviews

[Kelly Karja · Rating 1 out of 5]

I am not sure how this book scored a 5. iIf I could score a negative number, I would. It was one of the worst books I’ve ever read. The storyline has so many inconsistencies and lacked continuity. I had to go back and reread sections to see if I missed something, which I didn’t. It was just a hot mess.

[Meghan Harper · Rating 2 out of 5]

I wanted to love it. I really did. But it didn't make a lot of sense. Broken story lines, details that never line up. A whole plot-point that was never explained and a hacker who should have had the sense to hunt his boss down when he disappeared. The mysterious woman who was explained, but awkwardly. Most of the book was spent repeating over and over like a student trying to make an essay long enough. The end felt rushed after all that foreplay. Points for feeding enough mystery to make me finish it, but I wouldn't recommend it.

[Jazmín · Rating 2 out of 5]

Could have been a shorter book, it dragged unnecessarily.

[Cayli Johnson · Rating 3 out of 5]

3.75 Hear me out.

Sarah is a great writer. I love how she really paints a picture for you with her wording. I loved Midnights so much. It really transported me to another time and place.

I’m going to start off what I wasn’t so fond of with this book. I feel like a lot of the scenes with Ani and Steven could have been edited down. It got really repetitive so I wish it had been condensed just a bit that’s where I was starting to get lost/bored. I wish it had been less of them yelling and fucking each other and maybe more of Ani having flashbacks and helping us piece together her memories as the story progressed.

The pieces really come together and shit really hits the fan at about 75% and that’s where the story grabbed me. I loved the story line and how the pieces came together. I really loved the chaos of the last part of the book. Thank you for not hurting the dog in this book I absolutely despise that shit. She was my favorite.

[Kala · Rating 5 out of 5]

I bought this book because its based on one of my favourite tiktokkers and i thought why not?. However ... I did not realise what i let my self in for , there is passion, possessiveness , obsession, traitors, twists and turns, love and so much more! I was hooked from the start and have now ordered midnights to read too. This book is a 5 star for me ❤️

[Sabrina jones · Rating 5 out of 5]

Ahhhh this book!!!!! It is soooo good I couldn’t put it down. Just when you think you have it figured out you don’t and learn more. There is so much heat!!!! And the banter ahh I loved it so much. Everyone needs to read this book! I hands down recommend this!!!

[Melissa Ames · Rating 5 out of 5]

Edge of your seat!

This book was incredible! Spicy, intrigue and amazing characters! I hope she writes Sara's story! Steven had me worried! Should have known better! Never liked the name Frank!

[A. Lewsk · Rating 5 out of 5]

i went on a full out dollar coaster ride!!! this bookw.as incredible and now I need to know where book 2 is!!!

[Kimberly · Rating 5 out of 5]

I wish I could give this more than 5 stars I absolutely loved it!

[Nicole W · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book…..omg the emotions….the spice 🔥🔥HIGHLY RECOMMEND this book!!!!!

[Paige Bronson · Rating 5 out of 5]

I loved this so much!! I’m still trying to formulate all my thoughts! Sarah is a fantastic author and everyone needs to read this.

[babyyblueereadsXO · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book has had me in a chokehold since I first saw that you were writing it and started dropping teasers. And the book did not disappoint one bit. Had me on the edge (literally & figuratively) the whole book. The plot was amazing had me guessing until the end. And the spice mhmm yessss 10/10

[Dana Foushee · Rating 1 out of 5]

terrible. readers must just like the spicy

Honestly just terrible all around. The writing and story was inconsistent. Ani’s lack of self preservation is infuriating. The spicy scenes are top tier but that doesn’t make up for the terrible story. Would not recommend.

[Brook Sherwood · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book had all the feels! I couldn’t put it down and don’t get me started on the HEAT! This will be your next thrill.

[Chelsey · Rating 5 out of 5]

Holy freaking airball!!!! I was lucky enough to receive this as an arc. If you want a dark romance that has banter, has plot, a strong female main character, a fun supportive best friend and has you questioning everyone and everything this is a book for you. You go on an emotional rollercoaster with this dark romance, and it is dark so check those triggers. You will be questioning who is really the BAD bad guy and who is the morally grey sexy bad guy. I was on the edge of my seat holding my breath wondering who to trust and what would happen throughout the book. I cried, I laughed, I chewed on the inside of my lip with worry (seriously I gave myself a blister from it) and I even wanted to read some of this one handed (if you know what I mean 😉😉)

Sarah- girl you knocked it out of the park once again! I loved this book (just as much if not more than Midnights) and I am grateful you let me be on your arc team. You deserve to be a NY bestselling author! And I hope you accomplish that girl. 💜💜

[Bryce James · Rating 1 out of 5]

More mad I spent $ buying it and three days reading it …

[Nonya · Rating 3 out of 5]

The spice scenes were 🤌🏻 which is why I gave this 4 stars. However, and I say this with noting but love because I love TikTok real life couple this book is based on, but the writing could use a little work. There was a lot of repetitiveness with the terms ruin & wrecked, smells that aren’t a scent (regret, violence, etc.) and cliche statements. Not that these things are all that bad but overused in this book IMO. There was also some inconsistency issues that I had to try hard to ignore (like a reference to something that literally never happened in the book to the point where I went back and tried to find what part I accidentally skipped but nothing was there). Continuity errors too that just didn’t make any sense (example-she was on her knees and there was “wetness” that ran down to her ankle 🤔).

And this…..Spoiler alert….







We never even find out who the unknown caller is?? Steven said he’d tell her tomorrow, she demands he tell her right away and then says he doesn’t know but has his guy looking into it, guessed who it is and then it’s never mentioned again!

[CharmeineC · Rating 2 out of 5]

DNF. I really wanted to like this book after seeing the woman who the story was loosely based off promoting the book on TikTok. And while I can see the author has talent, I feel like there's a lot of repetition and over explanation of character descriptions.

I was always taught to describe appearances once or twice and let readers picture the characters in their minds. "He's all dark gaze, broad shoulders and carved from trouble energy wrapped in bad decisions" is just an example of over explanation. Because in the previous chapter, he was also described as "having a jaw-line that is a crime scene."

I think the book could do with a good edit and it would be really good. I feel like trimming the repetition and over explanation could solve the problem here.

[Crystal Jones · Rating 5 out of 5]

ARC review,

if you want a book to take you on a full Rollercoaster ride if emotions look no further. I laughed, cried, yelled, and got hot and bothered. picking up another book after this just isn't possible at this point. this book will forever live rent free in my head and will be one I recommend to everyone. 🧡

fantastic job Sarah! you are definitely one of my favorite authors. you make it so descriptive that it's like a movie playing in your mind while you read. thank you writing another amazing book!

[Amy Bradshaw · Rating 2 out of 5]

I really wanted to like this I really did. This book had so much potential to tell a really good story but unfortunately it missed the editors room so a lot of details didn’t make sense. For example; one minute the FMC is typing on her phone but then very next scene the MMC is talking about how he stole it? And theirs also an entire chapter about how he’s the one sending her cryptic messages but then near the end he finds her phone and is mad that someone is sending her said messages? So yeah, didn’t make a lot of sense unfortunately.

[Rachel Inman · Rating 4 out of 5]

4.5 !!!!

[Living_Reading_Writing · Rating 3 out of 5]

I'm really conflicted writing this review because there are some things about it that I really liked but some of those things were over done to the point I didn't like them anymore. I like Sarah and Ani so that too makes me a bit conflicted.

Here is my honest review all of that aside. I can't believe I am about to consider too much detail as a problem but it was and to drive that point home the word "like" was used 2,548 times in 698 pages (kindle).

"Like a" - 410 times
"Like I" - 692 times
"Like he" - 350 times
"Like she" - 140 times

I think you get the point.

Have you ever watched Dawson Creek and hated how the characters talked like no one ever. The writing was a bunch of kids talking to each other like they were writing an essay. At first I really liked it but after 2 seasons, I was like okay we get it. That's how I felt about this book, and not just in dialogue. It tended to follow one of the very many likes.

I agree that there were some inconsistencies but the book was so long and wordy that it became hard to follow either way. The story itself was interesting though. It didn't need so many extended metaphors. They were half the time witty, a bit cynical, and like I said too much too often.

Ani's view of Frank in my opinion is delusional from the start. "Frank is a really nice guy." On what page? He was creepy from the first conversation and not "nice" at all. No wonder she has guy issues.

Steven sounded like Frank as a character if I'm being honest. I know she saw both men in person so they clearly weren't but had she not I'd question if they were. So that isn't great as a love interest. Not a whole lot of either one's behavior set them apart except for the fact Ani was hooking up with Steven. They both were high handed and spoke for Ani while speaking to her, not hot from either.

The hook ups were hot for the most part but Dom/Brat Sub is my jam so no real surprise there. Ani the character is too bratty though and Steven just comes off cold and detached. I would have liked to see some more genuine care for her. I would have also liked less of the extra in those scenes because I didn't get turned on once because I kept getting pulled out of the heat with all the extra.

Ani is a mess which I guess makes sense but she has zero self preservation for a majority of the book it's hard to root for her as the FMC because you want to hold her hand and say "look b you need to wake the f up and take control of your life, stop letting things happen to you, make them happen for you. And be a better friend to Sarah."This is bad because she is our main character so we need to want to root for her but she doesn't inspire that because she is between delusional and stumbling her way through just letting these men move her around.

Ani is real life comes off bad ass and but character Ani not so much and that was hard for me.

If I were to put stars I would say 3. For me that says there was enough I like to finish but I would not reread.

[Crystal Burns · Rating 1 out of 5]

HIS TO ERASE — REVIEW

I’m gonna start this off by saying AI had a hand in writing this book. To the point it was annoying. Around page 261, I started feeling confused about some things. There seemed to be inconsistencies, or I thought maybe I had missed something, so I went back and reread parts and even listened to the audio to see if I could figure out why I felt so lost. It solved nothing. Still confused. So I went to Goodreads to see what other people were saying, and apparently I’m not the only one who felt that way. There was still enough curiosity to keep me reading because I wanted to see if things eventually started coming together. Another thing that was driving me nuts was the constant use of similes. I don’t know if it’s the amount of them or just how ridiculous some of them are, but once I noticed it, I couldn’t stop noticing it.

A few examples:
“The room is immaculate. There are books lined up like they’re scared to disappoint him.”
“Its eyes are warm and brown and locked on mine like I owe someone money, or maybe an explanation.”
“The floors are cold under my feet, every step threatens to wake up the dead—or worse, Steven.”
“There’s a fire flickering low on the far wall that’s built into the stone like some cozy, masculine wet dream.”
“His muscles are cut and cruel, like someone carved him out of control and violence and left the mercy out on purpose.”

Those are all within a couple pages of each other. There were more in that same section. BUT WHAT? I am now 311 pages in and I’m struggling to finish it. There’s nothing making me want to know what the hell is going on anymore, mostly because at 311 pages YOU STILL HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON. And I cannot keep reading these cringy ass similes every other paragraph. I started this book curious and confused. Now I’m just confused and annoyed.

[Stephanie Flippo · Rating 5 out of 5]

I listened to His to Erase on Audible, and I was already excited going in because I’ve been following Anianne, the female main character/narrator, on TikTok. But this book exceeded my expectations in all the best ways. 🖤

It’s labeled as a dark romance, and Sarah J. Poulsen absolutely delivered on that front. The story pulled me in with its darker elements, complicated characters, tension, and that delicious feeling of “I probably shouldn’t be enjoying this as much as I am.” 😏

And can we talk about the narration?! I absolutely LOVED that Sarah narrated portions of her own book. This was actually the first time I’ve listened to an author narrate part of their own story, and it added such a fun, personal layer to the experience. And Anthony Palmini… WHEW. That narration was BEAUTIFUL. His voice was practically its own character. 🥵 But honestly, Anianne completely stole the show for me. She was made for audiobooks—her narration felt so natural, expressive, and captivating that I could easily listen to her narrate anything

As for the spice? It did not disappoint. AT. ALL. 🔥🔥🔥 The chemistry, tension, and payoff had me very happily listening to this one with headphones on. 😂

Overall, His to Erase was exactly the kind of dark, spicy romance I was hoping for, and the audiobook made the experience even better. If dark romance, morally questionable characters, intense chemistry, and 🔥🔥 spice are your thing, definitely add this one to your TBR!

[Meghan Rifenburgh · Rating 4 out of 5]

His to Erase was dark, addictive, obsessive, and exactly the kind of romance that makes me temporarily abandon my standards for acceptable fictional behavior.

First, I absolutely love Ani narrating herself! Same with Sarah!

The intensity between these characters hooked me. Their connection has that dangerous edge where attraction, possession, and emotion start bleeding into each other, and I spent a significant portion of this book knowing I should probably be concerned while happily continuing to turn the pages.

What surprised me was how invested I became beyond the darker and spicier elements. There’s vulnerability underneath all that obsession, and those glimpses of something softer gave the relationship enough emotional weight that I actually cared about them together rather than simply enjoying the chaos.

I also liked that the darker atmosphere stayed present throughout the story. It never felt like the book introduced morally questionable characters only to sand down all their sharp edges once the romance developed.

The obsession was convincing almost immediately, but I wanted the deeper connection to have slightly more room to grow.

I devoured this. Dark romance logic was firmly activated, common sense was temporarily unavailable, and I had a fantastic time.

[Echo]

I have to step back and pause on this one, not sure that I’ll come back to it. I got a tiny bit past 50% but I’m just, conflicted. I want to like this book, the author is extremely talented and I will probably try other books by them, but I’ve just got to stop reading this mammoth of a story.

There is so much spice, like I’m talking so. much. spice. And it’s well written spice, but is that the plot? It’s fine if it is, but I need more, I’m so curious about what is going on and every little bit of plot outside of spice drove me to carry on reading but, I kind of can’t believe I’m typing this, there is dare I say too much spice, at least so much that it keeps pulling me out of the story because I’m just like, “and they’re having sex again. . .”

Maybe I’ll pop back into the story later now that I’m halfway through, but I’m definitely taking a pause for now, because life is too short to force yourself to finish books.

The writing is super good though and I honestly am curious to see what else the author does in the future, I think they’ve got a career ahead of them, they’ve certainly got the talent.

[Amber Veum · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book is actually more than 5 stars for me. From the narrators to the gravitational pull I felt while reading it. There were times where I was laughing at how “bratty” our gorgeous fmc is, to times where I was actually screaming. I couldn’t put this book away. The strength and determination our fmc exhibits is truly remarkable. She might be little but she’s a tornado of fire that will burn you to ash. Let’s not forget our beloved mmc who shows her things she’s only dreamed about. He is the epitome of book boyfriends, but there is nothing boy about him. And just when you think things couldn’t go more sideways what plot twist with side characters.

Sarah is an amazing writer and can’t wait to read more from her. We all love the amazing voice of Anthony Palmini but let’s give praise to our talented new voice artist Ani. Girl rocks it so much you can even envision every detail.

[Tracy Hedlund · Rating 3 out of 5]

The spice in this book? I live for it. 🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️ The spicy scenes were absolutely fantastic and definitely one of my favorite parts of the story.

That being said, this was a long book, and I think it could have been condensed quite a bit. Every time the FMC had a feeling, we seemed to hear that same emotion explained five different ways—and then we’d go through it all over again the next time she felt it. After a while, I found myself wanting to move the story along.

And then, strangely enough, the part I actually wanted more of was the ending! It felt rushed compared to how much time was spent on everything leading up to it. I would have happily traded some of those long internal descriptions for more time with that final part of the story.

But the spice? No complaints. Keep all of that. 😂🔥

Spice: 🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️

[Diane Borja Ferreira · Rating 4 out of 5]

This one was kind of dark, messy, toxic, and had me questioning everybody’s decisions… so naturally, I kept turning the pages because I needed to see where it was going.
There were definitely moments where I was like, “Girl… WHAT ARE WE DOING?!” but the tension, obsession, and overall chaos kept me invested. The relationship is far from healthy, the characters are complicated, and there are plenty of moments that will had me side-eyeing my Kindle. I also felt like some parts dragged a little and I wanted a bit more depth in certain areas. I'm not entirely sure how I felt about this book, but I finished it - because man that took long! It could very well have been my mood because I'm not entirely sure how I feel about this book. 😂
If you like your romance dark, possessive, morally questionable, and sprinkled with a whole lot of 🚩🚩🚩… add this one to your list.

[Alli Long.]

I tried. I genuinely tried. But there is only so much time I can spend listening to a grown woman make catastrophically stupid decisions while every survival instinct she possesses apparently sits in the corner on unpaid leave.

The premise had me. The mystery had me. The men had potential. Unfortunately, the FMC had me considering driving directly into a ditch.

There’s traumatized and confused, and then there’s actively participating in your own downfall while ignoring every flashing neon warning sign around you. I simply cannot.

Maybe she gets smarter. Maybe everything eventually makes sense. Maybe it becomes incredible but she genuinely exhausted me with every thought she had.

I will never know.

My patience died before she did. ✌🏻