His To Erase

by Sarah J. Poulsen

I don't remember what happened, but I feel it in the bruises I cant explain, in the way I flinch when I’m alone, and in the silence that creeps in when I try to sleep. Something was taken from me something I didn’t agree to give.

One man says his here to protect me. Another says I already belong to him.
But neither of them know what I’m capable of.

And when I finally remember the truth, I'll make them both with regret ever trying to keep me .

Genres: Dark Romance, Romance, Contemporary, Smut, Spicy

Paperback

Published September 1, 2025

About the author

Sarah writes books that crack open the dark corners of the heart—and then light a match. A former salon owner turned full-time author, she walked away from her old life with nothing but a story she couldn’t ignore and a fire in her chest that refused to die. Her books are cinematic, obsessive, emotionally twisted, and laced with tension that will make you scream into your pillow.

She’s drawn to morally gray men, bratty heroines, and the kind of love that wrecks you before it saves you. You’ll find her writing late at night, pouring everything she’s survived into characters that don’t flinch.

When she’s not writing, she's chasing wild dreams, or trying to make sense of the messages the universe won’t stop sending. She believes in shocking plot twists, and the kind of endings you feel in your bones.

Reviews

[Kelly Karja · Rating 1 out of 5]

I am not sure how this book scored a 5. iIf I could score a negative number, I would. It was one of the worst books I’ve ever read. The storyline has so many inconsistencies and lacked continuity. I had to go back and reread sections to see if I missed something, which I didn’t. It was just a hot mess.

[Meghan Harper · Rating 2 out of 5]

I wanted to love it. I really did. But it didn't make a lot of sense. Broken story lines, details that never line up. A whole plot-point that was never explained and a hacker who should have had the sense to hunt his boss down when he disappeared. The mysterious woman who was explained, but awkwardly. Most of the book was spent repeating over and over like a student trying to make an essay long enough. The end felt rushed after all that foreplay. Points for feeding enough mystery to make me finish it, but I wouldn't recommend it.

[Jazmín · Rating 2 out of 5]

Could have been a shorter book, it dragged unnecessarily.

[Kala · Rating 5 out of 5]

I bought this book because its based on one of my favourite tiktokkers and i thought why not?. However ... I did not realise what i let my self in for , there is passion, possessiveness , obsession, traitors, twists and turns, love and so much more! I was hooked from the start and have now ordered midnights to read too. This book is a 5 star for me ❤️

[Sabrina jones · Rating 5 out of 5]

Ahhhh this book!!!!! It is soooo good I couldn’t put it down. Just when you think you have it figured out you don’t and learn more. There is so much heat!!!! And the banter ahh I loved it so much. Everyone needs to read this book! I hands down recommend this!!!

[Melissa Ames · Rating 5 out of 5]

Edge of your seat!

This book was incredible! Spicy, intrigue and amazing characters! I hope she writes Sara's story! Steven had me worried! Should have known better! Never liked the name Frank!

[Cayli Johnson · Rating 3 out of 5]

3.75 Hear me out.

Sarah is a great writer. I love how she really paints a picture for you with her wording. I loved Midnights so much. It really transported me to another time and place.

I’m going to start off what I wasn’t so fond of with this book. I feel like a lot of the scenes with Ani and Steven could have been edited down. It got really repetitive so I wish it had been condensed just a bit that’s where I was starting to get lost/bored. I wish it had been less of them yelling and fucking each other and maybe more of Ani having flashbacks and helping us piece together her memories as the story progressed.

The pieces really come together and shit really hits the fan at about 75% and that’s where the story grabbed me. I loved the story line and how the pieces came together. I really loved the chaos of the last part of the book. Thank you for not hurting the dog in this book I absolutely despise that shit. She was my favorite.

[A. Lewsk · Rating 5 out of 5]

i went on a full out dollar coaster ride!!! this bookw.as incredible and now I need to know where book 2 is!!!

[Kimberly · Rating 5 out of 5]

I wish I could give this more than 5 stars I absolutely loved it!

[Rachel Inman · Rating 4 out of 5]

4.5 !!!!

[Nicole W · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book…..omg the emotions….the spice 🔥🔥HIGHLY RECOMMEND this book!!!!!

[Paige Bronson · Rating 5 out of 5]

I loved this so much!! I’m still trying to formulate all my thoughts! Sarah is a fantastic author and everyone needs to read this.

[babyyblueereadsXO · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book has had me in a chokehold since I first saw that you were writing it and started dropping teasers. And the book did not disappoint one bit. Had me on the edge (literally & figuratively) the whole book. The plot was amazing had me guessing until the end. And the spice mhmm yessss 10/10

[CharmeineC · Rating 2 out of 5]

DNF. I really wanted to like this book after seeing the woman who the story was loosely based off promoting the book on TikTok. And while I can see the author has talent, I feel like there's a lot of repetition and over explanation of character descriptions.

I was always taught to describe appearances once or twice and let readers picture the characters in their minds. "He's all dark gaze, broad shoulders and carved from trouble energy wrapped in bad decisions" is just an example of over explanation. Because in the previous chapter, he was also described as "having a jaw-line that is a crime scene."

I think the book could do with a good edit and it would be really good. I feel like trimming the repetition and over explanation could solve the problem here.

[Nonya · Rating 4 out of 5]

The spice scenes were 🤌🏻 which is why I gave this 4 stars. However, and I say this with noting but love because I love TikTok real life couple this book is based on, but the writing could use a little work. There was a lot of repetitiveness with the terms ruin & wrecked, smells that aren’t a scent (regret, violence, etc.) and cliche statements. Not that these things are all that bad but overused in this book IMO. There was also some inconsistency issues that I had to try hard to ignore (like a reference to something that literally never happened in the book to the point where I went back and tried to find what part I accidentally skipped but nothing was there). Continuity errors too that just didn’t make any sense (example-she was on her knees and there was “wetness” that ran down to her ankle 🤔).

And this…..Spoiler alert….







We never even find out who the unknown caller is?? Steven said he’d tell her tomorrow, she demands he tell her right away and then says he doesn’t know but has his guy looking into it, guessed who it is and then it’s never mentioned again!

[Dana Foushee · Rating 1 out of 5]

terrible. readers must just like the spicy

Honestly just terrible all around. The writing and story was inconsistent. Ani’s lack of self preservation is infuriating. The spicy scenes are top tier but that doesn’t make up for the terrible story. Would not recommend.

[Brook Sherwood · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book had all the feels! I couldn’t put it down and don’t get me started on the HEAT! This will be your next thrill.

[Chelsey · Rating 5 out of 5]

Holy freaking airball!!!! I was lucky enough to receive this as an arc. If you want a dark romance that has banter, has plot, a strong female main character, a fun supportive best friend and has you questioning everyone and everything this is a book for you. You go on an emotional rollercoaster with this dark romance, and it is dark so check those triggers. You will be questioning who is really the BAD bad guy and who is the morally grey sexy bad guy. I was on the edge of my seat holding my breath wondering who to trust and what would happen throughout the book. I cried, I laughed, I chewed on the inside of my lip with worry (seriously I gave myself a blister from it) and I even wanted to read some of this one handed (if you know what I mean 😉😉)

Sarah- girl you knocked it out of the park once again! I loved this book (just as much if not more than Midnights) and I am grateful you let me be on your arc team. You deserve to be a NY bestselling author! And I hope you accomplish that girl. 💜💜

[Bryce James · Rating 1 out of 5]

More mad I spent $ buying it and three days reading it …

[Crystal Jones · Rating 5 out of 5]

ARC review,

if you want a book to take you on a full Rollercoaster ride if emotions look no further. I laughed, cried, yelled, and got hot and bothered. picking up another book after this just isn't possible at this point. this book will forever live rent free in my head and will be one I recommend to everyone. 🧡

fantastic job Sarah! you are definitely one of my favorite authors. you make it so descriptive that it's like a movie playing in your mind while you read. thank you writing another amazing book!

[Echo]

I have to step back and pause on this one, not sure that I’ll come back to it. I got a tiny bit past 50% but I’m just, conflicted. I want to like this book, the author is extremely talented and I will probably try other books by them, but I’ve just got to stop reading this mammoth of a story.

There is so much spice, like I’m talking so. much. spice. And it’s well written spice, but is that the plot? It’s fine if it is, but I need more, I’m so curious about what is going on and every little bit of plot outside of spice drove me to carry on reading but, I kind of can’t believe I’m typing this, there is dare I say too much spice, at least so much that it keeps pulling me out of the story because I’m just like, “and they’re having sex again. . .”

Maybe I’ll pop back into the story later now that I’m halfway through, but I’m definitely taking a pause for now, because life is too short to force yourself to finish books.

The writing is super good though and I honestly am curious to see what else the author does in the future, I think they’ve got a career ahead of them, they’ve certainly got the talent.

[Pixie · Rating 1 out of 5]

This book was a tough read. There are so many repetitive lines I couldn’t roll my eyes hard enough. Squeezing her thighs together constantly, every wave of heat pooling, “love that for me?” And cedar and smoke/leather/something dark - ugh!!
Ani was too snarky for too long, it got tiresome to read. Sarah was just an excuse to use all the jokes thought up in the shower but would never say irl. Steve went too far into stalker zone and gave me the ick early on which made his side of the story hard to stomach.
There are plenty of other books out there, don’t waste your time on this one.

[Amy Bradshaw · Rating 2 out of 5]

I really wanted to like this I really did. This book had so much potential to tell a really good story but unfortunately it missed the editors room so a lot of details didn’t make sense. For example; one minute the FMC is typing on her phone but then very next scene the MMC is talking about how he stole it? And theirs also an entire chapter about how he’s the one sending her cryptic messages but then near the end he finds her phone and is mad that someone is sending her said messages? So yeah, didn’t make a lot of sense unfortunately.

[Dei · Rating 1 out of 5]

This book was such a difficult read, I think it put me back in a slump. Saw the girl it’s about blasting it on TikTok and I thought might as well be fun to read…boy was I wrong. The dialogue sounds straight out of ChatGPT like what the hell are these cringey conversations and why is the plot dragging on for so long like get to it 😭😭. The amount of times the words “emotionally” and “emotions” were mentioned was so excessive like can we please use a thesaurus, if I ever see those words again I think I might as well scream. This book made me miss the Wattpad era.

[Jen Paullin · Rating 4 out of 5]

Such a good read!!

This is a solid 4.5. I found my self yelling at the book bc of the FMCs decisions.

This is a dark romance with some very adult content, aggressive content, but also secrets, lost memory, violence, murder, and not knowing who to trust.

The twists were great in this story with a lot going on to make the story rich!

Definitely recommend! Grab it and get to read g!!

[Brooke Doolittle · Rating 4 out of 5]

The book was good. It has a bit of mystery, smut and excitement. The ending had me hooked. At like 70% in, I couldn’t put the book down and stayed up too late trying to finish it. The smut was SO good and intense. Not sure some are giving low stars, I don’t agree. I definitely recommend!! I can’t wait to read more from this author.

[Brit.Readz · Rating 5 out of 5]

I loved every second of this book. I think I need more time to comprehend exactly what I want to say.

Sarah is a master at making you fall in love with multiple characters but also making you so mad about them at the same time haha! Thank you for a wild ride!

[Kerra snow · Rating 5 out of 5]

Craziness and love!!!

I knew I was going to love this book! Just knew. It keeps you pulled and hits all the feels, dark and kinky, sappy and pulling on the heart strings! Thank you for giving me such an amazing read!!!

[Tanya Stofferan · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book was a little slow to get going and I wasn’t 100% sure I was going to love it. Then it slowly sunk its claws into me and I couldn’t put it down. I’m talking heart racing anxiety out of nowhere and I’m here for it 👏🏻👏🏻

[Elaina Bressman · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book has it all! Love, lust, pure sexual submission to enemies. Ani loves hard and is wild. This shows what besties are for and pure chaos.