Life is hard, Azra thought, but at least, a heart only dies once.
She fought hard to push away the memories of her past, drowning out the guilt and grief in alcohol and pain. Revenge was her only goal, but it only left her feeling more empty and alone. Until her new partner appeared.
Damir.
At first, he seemed like a lifeline, someone who could help her forget the pain. He reminded her that while she could try to bury her memories, opening her heart again was risky. Feelings came rushing back; feelings she had tried so hard to lock away.
What Azra didn’t realize was that this man wasn’t there to help her. He was sent to stop her. As he became more involved in her life, he started to see the real human behind this reputation, not the monster everyone else had painted her to be.
Through their time together, Azra faced the truth she hated; she was a fighter, but she was also deeply broken. She had to confront the darkness within her, and the hardest part was learning to let someone in again, even if it might cost her everything.
And so, the lines blurred between hunter and hunted, leaving both questioning everything. Who is the real monster in this story?
HAPPY RELEASE DAY TO ETERNAL! I'm just here to leave my review <3
First of all I just want to say how eternally grateful I am to have been able to beta AND ARC read this book. It has such a special place in my heart. I do recommend you read NEMESYNC first if you are a lover of cameo's as they're set in the same world but I won't blame anyone for picking this up first. I would too.
Eternal is a psychological thriller that goes deep into family and religious trauma, the mafia, and more. I can't do this book justice with a short review but I will try my best.
I adore Azra so much. This book grips you right from the start by the pure unadulterated emotion that is screaming from the pages. I cried countless times. The prose is beautiful and rich without being overbearing. The characters attach themselves to your soul and refuse to let go. I love them all so very much. The plot is perfect even tho it is a slower build and is definitely more character focused, but it has to be. It's just one of those books that sucks you in and devours you whole. A masterpiece. Don't even get me started on the romance because the love I have for A + D is eternal. My partners for life, I love them so dearly.
Can’t believe I haven’t written a review for this masterpiece…rip
Something about listening to Radiohead and reading about two people who truly can’t live without each other just gets you in the feels you know? Out of hundreds of stories, this is one of the few that made me tear up. The playlist for sure influenced some strong emotions. This book was actually devastating.
I keep coming back to review this baby but I don’t feel I can adequately put into words what this made me feel. It’s beautiful. Will come back when I’m wide eyed and emotions still aren’t running high. 🖤♾️
The ending was diabolical and straight up dagger to the heart but i guess i will take it☹️😭 Anyway, for me personally the main highlight was their relationship. Damir is what i think every avoidant girl (me) should have in her life but he is fictional unfortunately This big ass man learns to braid her hair, washes her hair, remembers everything about her, she could do anything to him and he would still return back to her, cooks dinner with her, is protective and possessive at the same time😩
Usually dark romance has few books that has such a domestic bliss but this one had few fluff that were done so good👏
The negative part about this book was writing. The writing sometimes felt off and ending was so rushed but it doesn’t fully take out the positive. I loved it and i cried like after every 2 chapters so there’s that.
Firstly this book is 1k pages and could have been way shorter. I feel like with longer books it’s harder to keep the reader’s attention and interest. At times I was locked in reading and then at times it fell flat and I just zoned out and pushed myself to read. Other than that I loved Azra and Damir and the story line. I knew the ending was going to be sad and I did shed a few tears. I felt like the book was so long and the ending was very rushed so I couldn’t really feel the emotion. This being the authors second book 👏
where do i even begin with this? 😭 ill never be able to express my full feelings for this book properly.
“𝔉𝔩𝔬𝔴𝔢𝔯𝔰 𝔡𝔬𝔫’𝔱 𝔠𝔯𝔶 𝔞𝔫𝔡 𝔱𝔥𝔢𝔶 𝔠𝔞𝔫’𝔱 𝔯𝔲𝔫.”
this is not a book you want to relate to. this is not a book where you look at the characters and wish you had their life. this book drags you through shattered glass back and forth until your skin is no longer yours.
this book is raw, and full of so much damage and pain, but also beauty. beauty in the way that Azra and Damir found each other. beauty in the way that he 𝓈𝓉𝒶𝓎𝓈 even when Azra tries to push him away. beauty in the way that no matter what, they are eternal.
the pure torment that was written within these pages will haunt me. i’m going to need at least a week before i even THINK about touching another book, because leaving this one feels wrong. i need to stay with them a little longer.😭
i truly do not think i will ever read a book that touched me as deeply as this one. feeling the characters emotions flowing off of the page HURT. everything they went through was truly horrifying and hard to read at times, but only made the story more meaningful. ♾️
6 ⭐⋆⭒˚.⋆ . I'm gonna start by saying that my heart is still broken. April 18, I saw a video of a girl SOBBING while reading this, so, without hesitation, I followed the author on Instagram. But I was already reading a book before that, but my mind only wanted ETERNAL. Yeah, I was THAT obsessed. I basically knew it was consuming me in some ways. . I was actually hooked from page 1. Or you know what, I was hooked from the DEDICATION. Not even exaggerating. This story tore my heart apart, stitched it back together, and then ripped it open and threw it out 😞. . Azra, my iris, an unforgettable FMC, lived her life fighting and enduring. She was raw with her emotions, the way her mind works, and her story was devastating. She shows courage, intense emotion, and a quiet strength that amazes me in almost every chapter. Not only did I feel respect towards her, but I also sensed her sorrow, anger, and purpose. She is the type of character that stays with you long after the last page. . Damir, that man was just everything. The way he lived and the family he found and created was so tragic that I started crying as I read his story. So when he met Azra, the tension between them was sparking from the minute their paths met. What started out as a mission for him to complete turned into something else. More than that. It was everything—the way he looks at her, cares for her, believes in her, and loves her. The way he sees her, takes care of her, believes in her, loves her, it was everything. Their love is not soft and easy, but it's one I deeply cherish. . Something I loved in this story is the Arab representation. For some reason, it made me a bit emotional, it was amazing to see. By the time I reached the end, I was so happy, but then WHAT HAPPENED. It was like 12 am, and my eyes were all puffy and red. Love stayed despite everything collapsing. This story is unforgettable; it will always stay with me. . "We are eternal, partner." yep, I love them.
“Because no one tells you that love turns to grief. And grief…” I pause. “Grief eats you alive.”
I’m sitting here in emotional shock. The raw brokenness of the MCs, Azra and Damir, will grasp you by the heart and not let go. I love these two in all their dark and twisted souls.
Azra is tortured by her past and has tried to push the pain away with drugs and alcohol. Her only purpose now is to get revenge against those who destroyed her and her family, even if that leaves her empty and alone. That is, until she gets an unexpected partner, Damir, who starts to stir things in her that she doesn’t want to feel because if she lets him in, it will break her even more when he leaves—and they all leave.
Both MCs are morally grey and deeply layered in their trauma, pain and tumultuous pasts. They are two broken pieces that jaggedly fit together in all their respective darkness. Their love burns slowly until it finally detonates into wild, passionate abandon creating fan 🪭 worthy spice.
The author’s writing is lyrical, almost poetic, and her ability to unravel the psyche of someone who’s trauma is so deep its etched in their bones is visceral. She also equally captures those small, brief beautiful moments the world gifts us. This is not a book you binge read, rather it’s one you go into and let slowly unravel you. Eternal is a haunting story of two people the world broke, but found their home in each other’s hearts for eternity.
THIS BOOK WAS A ROLLER COASTER OF EMOTIONAL DAMAGE!!!! Every single page is worth it!! Their story was so painfully beautiful i feel like i am never going to move on!!!! Im still crying writing this!!!
Let me sit… My emotions are running wild 😭 This book sweeps my emotions into a spiral. Every chapter pulls my feelings into a storm. Each page of this story twists my heart tighter and tighter. And the saddest part, I'm drowning in it 🥺
Ever read a story that grabs you by the heart and refuses to let go? Some stories just sneak into your chest and stay there. Azra's story is one of those. It's raw, heartbreaking, painful, and hauntingly real. The world she lives in will break you. It drags you through shadows most of us can't imagine, and yet, you can't stop turning them 💔
There is no going back once you start to read this. Your heart will ache, your pulse will race, and your mind will spin. This isn't just a story. It's a torment you will never forget ❤️🩹
A 6☆ read, and he'll shatter her heart, tear down her walls, crush her defenses, and when he's done, she'll be his, every inch, every thought, every secret... completely, irreversibly, and utterly, his 🖤
⚠️ Warning: This book is darker than your wildest nightmares. Some content is too intense that might not be for the faint-hearted. Check those trigger warnings. Your mental health matters 🌼
Prepare your heart and your tears… This is Azra and Damir's story 💔🖤
Thank you for letting me read this early and for breaking my heart in all the best ways. I'm still picking up the pieces, and honestly, I wouldn't have it any other way 🖤
Can’t believe I never rated this long and beautiful and devastating book 5 stars …
Eternal isn’t an easy book, so please if you ever pick it up and check on Goodreads if it’s a good book, trust the reviews when they ask you to check the TWs before reading it 🫶🏻
Thank you to anyone who picks it up, this book means everything and more to me, so even if you hate it it’s okay, happiest reading and good luck ❤️
Just know I’m jealous because I wish I could experience their story for the first time again and cry my eyes out.
PS: for my music lovers, don’t forget to put the playlist on, trust me it’s going to make it worse.
She gasps, chest rising, and I swear the wings move. They rise with her breath, fall with her sighs. It’s like the butterfly is alive, like it only moves for me. “This one,” I murmur against her skin, voice thick and low, “is my favorite.” Her fingers thread into my hair. “Why?” I kiss the other wing, slower this time, teeth grazing slightly. “Every time you breathe… or moan…” I drag my tongue up to her collarbone, feeling her shiver, “…it’s like she’s flying. For me.”
🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋
Infinite stars. No notes. I highlighted close to 300 passages from this book. I cried. I laughed. I hugged my husband and my cats. I screamed. I threw my kindle. No kindles or books were harmed. I held the book after I finished sobbing. I thought if I held it long enough and close enough I could make the outcome different.
If this book had a theme song it would be Fine Place To Die by Alex Warren. Azra deserves the entire universe. Damir deserves the stars. The moon. The sun. Everything. They were both individually heartbreakingly beautiful but together devastating. The fact Damir reminded me so much of my husband and the trauma he faced. The foster home. The losing his team. The survivors guilt. The fact he said I never knew how to love because I never experienced it. I sobbed. And Azra traumas she suffered. I can’t.
Literally this book will forever have a chokehold on me and if you haven’t read it I urge you to do it. It’s long. It’s traumatic. It’s a lot. But it’s beautiful. And if you have read it please message me because I need emotional support.
This books is a 10/10, but do I recommend it? No. I wouldn’t wish this heartbreak on my worst enemy. You know that feeling where you’re just waiting for the shoe to drop. Ya that mf didn’t just drop. It exploded and left nothing but tears in its wake. This book deserves more hype, and I know it’s daunting because it’s really long but everything was worth it. The building of the story and the time jumps were so well done. It’s so fucking sad but so rewarding as the characters grow and learn that they deserve love and happiness. I can’t stress enough how much I loved this book but I think I need some time to recover.
كتاب فيه850 صفحة و125شابتر… حتى لو كان عندي صبر نوح-عليه سلام-ما راح أتحمل كل هذا 😭 قلت أتحدى نفسي وأكمله للآخر لكني حرفيًا هلكت نفسي على الفاضي. القصة أصلًا ما تستاهل هذا الكم المرعب من الصفحات تمطيط بلا داعي وأحداث تدور في نفس الدائرة حتى فقدت الإحساس بالمتعة
الكتُاب لازم يعرفون يحطو حد للصفحات لأن القراءة للمتعة مو ماراثون تحمل واختبار قوة عقلية 💀
I picked this up without reading the blurb, and I’m so glad I did—because nothing could have braced me for the emotional storm that followed. This novel didn’t just tug at my heart; it tore it open, stitched it back together, and somehow left it fuller than before.
At the center of it all is Azra—an unforgettable FMC whose endurance and fire left me completely in awe. Every chapter peeled back another layer of her suffering, her courage, and the quiet strength that kept her standing when most would have shattered. Her memories were devastating to witness; each flashback felt like a punch to the chest. I didn’t just sympathize with her—I felt her grief, her rage, her determination. She is the kind of character who lingers long after the final page.
And then there’s Damir. From the moment their paths crossed, the tension between them was electric. What begins as obligation slowly transforms into something consuming, tender, and fiercely protective. The burn between them is gradual, deliberate—until suddenly it’s blazing. The way he sees her, truly sees her, and refuses to let her doubt her worth? It was everything. His devotion, the way he stands beside her even when the stakes are impossibly high, made their connection feel powerful and earned. Their love isn’t soft and easy—it’s forged in darkness, tested by secrets, and strengthened by choice.
This story dives deep into trauma, vengeance, and the scars left behind by cruelty, yet it never loses sight of hope. Azra’s mission to confront those who hurt her adds a sharp, suspenseful edge that keeps the pages turning. But beneath the intensity lies a love story that feels fated—two souls colliding at exactly the moment they’re meant to.
The emotional weight of this book is relentless in the best way. The author’s note alone set the tone for something deeply personal, and by the second half, I was completely undone. Certain songs will never sound the same to me again. The playlist intertwined with the narrative so seamlessly that it amplified every heartbreak and every tender moment.
Seeing familiar faces again made the experience even richer, and the evolving friendships—especially the bond that grows between Azra and Zanae—added warmth amid the heaviness. Those connections grounded the story and reminded me that healing doesn’t happen in isolation.
By the time I reached the final pages, I felt wrung out emotionally—but in a way that only truly special books can accomplish. This is a story about reclaiming power, about discovering your worth through someone who refuses to let you forget it, about love that endures even when everything else is falling apart.
It’s intense. It’s painful. It’s passionate. And it’s unforgettable. Some stories entertain you for a moment—this one brands itself onto your heart.
Here are some of my favorite quotes—the ones that held my heart gently in their hands and somehow managed to shatter it at the same time…
Rate 5 ⭐️ 🌶️🌶️🌶️ Honestly im reeling, this book consumed me. I can hardly describe how heavy it feels, like a heartbreak you carry in your bones. The emotional weight is real. Every page is soaked in longing, regret, secrets, and a sense of endless time. I was there with the characters through every fracture, every hesitation, every whispered regret.
What makes Eternal crack open my heart is how raw the writing is. The lines that stay with you, the imagery, the internal monologues, the moments of quiet despair, they all feel so lived-in. It’s not just a story you skim; it’s one you sink into.
The characters are so human, flawed, broken, afraid and yet their connection feels electric and inevitable.
I wanted to root for them, even when their choices hurt. The tension drains you and fills you all at once. There’s also something about the pacing and structure that keeps you off-balance, alternating between hope and despair, between what’s said and what’s withheld.
If you like books that leave bruises, that make you feel everything (the ache, the beauty, the grief), Eternal is one of them. It’s not light, it’s not easy, but it’s unforgettable.
(One of those rare books I know I’ll revisit, just to feel it again.)
Thank you Amethyst author for the opportunity of reading such a beautiful book 🥹
When I realized this book was 1,000 pages, I thought surely it can’t be that serious. It unfortunately is that serious. Nobody talk to me as I’ll be crying for the next 3-5 days.
Just reading the prologue was hard. A fourteen-year-old going through things she should never have to endure and by the very person who should have been her protector, her role model, her hero. Instead, he becomes the reason for her trauma, struggle, addiction, and abuse. It’s heartbreaking to read, because as a child you don’t understand why it’s happening. The world doesn’t make sense. She becomes hyper aware of everything around her, always on high alert.
Her walls are so high, and it takes time to crack them. Her past won’t allow her to trust easily, because not trusting is the only way she knows how to protect herself.
What made me emotional was how two people who are capable of brutality, who kill without blinking, could share the softest, most tender interactions. When they’re together, it feels like the world fades away , their duties and responsibilities disappear. Cooking together. Him braiding her hair. These simple, intimate moments remind us that just because someone didn’t experience tenderness in the past doesn’t mean they don’t crave it deeply.
Damir makes the little things, things that are normal for everyone else, feel new and easy for her. She never knew “easy,” because life always punished her for it. A genuine smile from Damir makes her smile back. Something so ordinary for most people is extraordinary for her. Watching him make her blush was everything. In those moments, you almost forget all the bad that came before.
What I loved most about Damir was that he saw her!! the real her. Not the version everyone else saw, not even the broken version she believed herself to be. He saw the girl who deserved nothing but softness and love. He gave her space to let her inner child come out, knowing it had been shattered, and he welcomed it with tenderness, affection, and appreciation.
Azra my beautiful girl, I love you so much. The world doesn’t deserve you. My heart bleeds for you. Just pain, pain.
This was my first book by my friend, and I am so glad I signed up for the ARC. The writing is raw, beautiful, and powerful. Ame, you were born to move people with your words and your stories. You are a voice for those who never had the chance to speak. You were meant to be a writer. I am so proud for how far you have come 😭
I wanted to love this book, I really did and I tried but it just kept going.
I felt that the story dragged on in so many areas, I understand that we as readers need to understand why a character is the way they are BUT after 2 chapters of our FMC mother being a substance abuser we got the message, or at least I did idk. But we kept getting over and over again chapters of her mom being paranoid and then being negligent, to me it was highly highly unnecessary. I would have found it more beneficial to get a past chapter about the night they were attacked and seen it through young Azra's mind rather then recollection.
Same can go for Christian and Bethany, or whatever that witches name was lol, I think fundamentally we only needed the view of the system being broken, with the social worker, the initial sexual assaults, and the forced miscarriage, everything else to me was unnecessary because we just kept getting it over and over, we already knew she was forced drugs and alcohol, bullied in school and not cared for in any regard... going back over and over again just felt again unnecessary.
The sexual scenes to me were very hard to follow one moment he was kissing her thigh and then whispering in her ear.. I just didn't really enjoy any of them in all honesty, he says he's going to ruin her and then proceeds to have mediocre sex... damn.. hahahaha
The idea of the story is brilliant I just think it was stretched WAY too much, it didn't need to be over 1000pgs unless it was more focused on the missions imo.
What happened with the traitor? Azra didn't kill him, so lame.. what about the FBI agent Damir was working for?
I seriously wanted to love this book and I couldn't and I hate that so much..
The ending with Damir was beautifully tragic and I hope he is resting well with Azra, they deserve some quiet..
I hate the kid... iykyk... I'm sorry, but I hate him.
♾️ I absolutely ADORED this book. I knew going in, it would break me, and break me it did. Azra was a force, built by those who wronged her. Shes fierce, shes strong.. she's so many things. But Damir shows her how worthy of love she is. He shows up.. and shows her what shes worth. Its beautiful, its heartbreaking. ITS EVERYTHING. Their love is unmatched.
“It’s scarier to be loved than to be alone. Because when you’re alone, there’s nothing at stake. Not even hope.”
When Damir has orders to follow.. Azra incoming... and he falls. FAST.
Its the best type of slow burn, simmering until its fully ablaze. And when that spice hit.. DAMN. Damir had me kicking my feet giggling, flushed and panting. I was having the best time. Damir was absolutely everything. Please.. i need a Damir.
“Because you’re made for me. Messy, greedy, and fucking mine.”
“Keep those pretty eyes on me. And not a single sound.” 🔥🔥🔥🔥
Amethyst knows how to make the perfect MMC and Damir is no exception. From the early chapters, hes so all in for Azra. Gone, from that first meeting of eyes. And the way he'd do absolutely anything for her.
It was raw, heavy and so deep that i was just so invested in these characters. Their pasts, were haunting, they were heavy and so incredibly sad... Azra faced so many wrongs. But she was back, with a reason... But she has a goal, to make those who wronged her suffer. But what will she loose in the process.
“Don’t let the world convince you that you’re too broken to deserve happiness. You’ll lose enough to this life as it is. Don’t let it take that too.”
The playlist had me absolutely sobbing (currently sobbing listening to the playlist as a write this).... and that ending. Ill never recover, ever... i'll remember them.. ETERNALLY. This a epic story of love, of worth, of soul mates. A love you'll never forget.
I LOVE that we were reunited with Zanae, Elijah & Nikolai... I MISSED THEM. so so much. The friendship blossoming between Azra & Zanae was beautiful..Please i need to read about them again... and Nik too (IYKYK)
I had the honour of reading this book, and so privileged to be the first person to read their story. It'll forever be such a special book to me, forever. ETERNALLY. My favourite read of August, and a easy favourite of the year.
I'll never forget them. Thank you so much Amethyst for trusting me with another book baby, with Azra and Damir. ILY. ♾️
I started as an ARC reader for this book. I can truly say there was a reason it took me this long. Eternal was so beautifully written that I only put it down so that i could have time to truly digest what i was reading and feel everything i needed to feel. I’m so incredibly GRATEFUL i was given the opportunity to read it as an ARC, and hate that it took so long to make it to the end. bestie green loves you to the very end Ame. Thank you for your mind.
I’m not crying, I’m grieving. This book took my heart and did unspeakable things to it. I read this and now I need compensation. Who allowed this?? WHO APPROVED THIS?? I went in for a story and came out with trauma. My tears have tears.