Life is hard, Azra thought, but at least, a heart only dies once.
She fought hard to push away the memories of her past, drowning out the guilt and grief in alcohol and pain. Revenge was her only goal, but it only left her feeling more empty and alone. Until her new partner appeared.
Damir.
At first, he seemed like a lifeline, someone who could help her forget the pain. He reminded her that while she could try to bury her memories, opening her heart again was risky. Feelings came rushing back; feelings she had tried so hard to lock away.
What Azra didn’t realize was that this man wasn’t there to help her. He was sent to stop her. As he became more involved in her life, he started to see the real human behind this reputation, not the monster everyone else had painted her to be.
Through their time together, Azra faced the truth she hated; she was a fighter, but she was also deeply broken. She had to confront the darkness within her, and the hardest part was learning to let someone in again, even if it might cost her everything.
And so, the lines blurred between hunter and hunted, leaving both questioning everything. Who is the real monster in this story?
HAPPY RELEASE DAY TO ETERNAL! I'm just here to leave my review <3
First of all I just want to say how eternally grateful I am to have been able to beta AND ARC read this book. It has such a special place in my heart. I do recommend you read NEMESYNC first if you are a lover of cameo's as they're set in the same world but I won't blame anyone for picking this up first. I would too.
Eternal is a psychological thriller that goes deep into family and religious trauma, the mafia, and more. I can't do this book justice with a short review but I will try my best.
I adore Azra so much. This book grips you right from the start by the pure unadulterated emotion that is screaming from the pages. I cried countless times. The prose is beautiful and rich without being overbearing. The characters attach themselves to your soul and refuse to let go. I love them all so very much. The plot is perfect even tho it is a slower build and is definitely more character focused, but it has to be. It's just one of those books that sucks you in and devours you whole. A masterpiece. Don't even get me started on the romance because the love I have for A + D is eternal. My partners for life, I love them so dearly.
I keep coming back to review this baby but I don’t feel I can adequately put into words what this made me feel. It’s beautiful. Will come back when I’m wide eyed and emotions still aren’t running high. 🖤♾️
“Because no one tells you that love turns to grief. And grief…” I pause. “Grief eats you alive.”
I’m sitting here in emotional shock. The raw brokenness of the MCs, Azra and Damir, will grasp you by the heart and not let go. I love these two in all their dark and twisted souls.
Azra is tortured by her past and has tried to push the pain away with drugs and alcohol. Her only purpose now is to get revenge against those who destroyed her and her family, even if that leaves her empty and alone. That is, until she gets an unexpected partner, Damir, who starts to stir things in her that she doesn’t want to feel because if she lets him in, it will break her even more when he leaves—and they all leave.
Both MCs are morally grey and deeply layered in their trauma, pain and tumultuous pasts. They are two broken pieces that jaggedly fit together in all their respective darkness. Their love burns slowly until it finally detonates into wild, passionate abandon creating fan 🪭 worthy spice.
The author’s writing is lyrical, almost poetic, and her ability to unravel the psyche of someone who’s trauma is so deep its etched in their bones is visceral. She also equally captures those small, brief beautiful moments the world gifts us. This is not a book you binge read, rather it’s one you go into and let slowly unravel you. Eternal is a haunting story of two people the world broke, but found their home in each other’s hearts for eternity.
where do i even begin with this? 😭 ill never be able to express my full feelings for this book properly.
“𝔉𝔩𝔬𝔴𝔢𝔯𝔰 𝔡𝔬𝔫’𝔱 𝔠𝔯𝔶 𝔞𝔫𝔡 𝔱𝔥𝔢𝔶 𝔠𝔞𝔫’𝔱 𝔯𝔲𝔫.”
this is not a book you want to relate to. this is not a book where you look at the characters and wish you had their life. this book drags you through shattered glass back and forth until your skin is no longer yours.
this book is raw, and full of so much damage and pain, but also beauty. beauty in the way that Azra and Damir found each other. beauty in the way that he 𝓈𝓉𝒶𝓎𝓈 even when Azra tries to push him away. beauty in the way that no matter what, they are eternal.
the pure torment that was written within these pages will haunt me. i’m going to need at least a week before i even THINK about touching another book, because leaving this one feels wrong. i need to stay with them a little longer.😭
i truly do not think i will ever read a book that touched me as deeply as this one. feeling the characters emotions flowing off of the page HURT. everything they went through was truly horrifying and hard to read at times, but only made the story more meaningful. ♾️
Let me sit… My emotions are running wild 😭 This book sweeps my emotions into a spiral. Every chapter pulls my feelings into a storm. Each page of this story twists my heart tighter and tighter. And the saddest part, I'm drowning in it 🥺
Ever read a story that grabs you by the heart and refuses to let go? Some stories just sneak into your chest and stay there. Azra's story is one of those. It's raw, heartbreaking, painful, and hauntingly real. The world she lives in will break you. It drags you through shadows most of us can't imagine, and yet, you can't stop turning them 💔
There is no going back once you start to read this. Your heart will ache, your pulse will race, and your mind will spin. This isn't just a story. It's a torment you will never forget ❤️🩹
A 6☆ read, and he'll shatter her heart, tear down her walls, crush her defenses, and when he's done, she'll be his, every inch, every thought, every secret... completely, irreversibly, and utterly, his 🖤
⚠️ Warning: This book is darker than your wildest nightmares. Some content is too intense that might not be for the faint-hearted. Check those trigger warnings. Your mental health matters 🌼
Prepare your heart and your tears… This is Azra and Damir's story 💔🖤
Thank you for letting me read this early and for breaking my heart in all the best ways. I'm still picking up the pieces, and honestly, I wouldn't have it any other way 🖤
Just reading the prologue was hard. A fourteen-year-old going through things she should never have to endure and by the very person who should have been her protector, her role model, her hero. Instead, he becomes the reason for her trauma, struggle, addiction, and abuse. It’s heartbreaking to read, because as a child you don’t understand why it’s happening. The world doesn’t make sense. She becomes hyper aware of everything around her, always on high alert.
Her walls are so high, and it takes time to crack them. Her past won’t allow her to trust easily, because not trusting is the only way she knows how to protect herself.
What made me emotional was how two people who are capable of brutality, who kill without blinking, could share the softest, most tender interactions. When they’re together, it feels like the world fades away , their duties and responsibilities disappear. Cooking together. Him braiding her hair. These simple, intimate moments remind us that just because someone didn’t experience tenderness in the past doesn’t mean they don’t crave it deeply.
Damir makes the little things, things that are normal for everyone else, feel new and easy for her. She never knew “easy,” because life always punished her for it. A genuine smile from Damir makes her smile back. Something so ordinary for most people is extraordinary for her. Watching him make her blush was everything. In those moments, you almost forget all the bad that came before.
What I loved most about Damir was that he saw her!! the real her. Not the version everyone else saw, not even the broken version she believed herself to be. He saw the girl who deserved nothing but softness and love. He gave her space to let her inner child come out, knowing it had been shattered, and he welcomed it with tenderness, affection, and appreciation.
Azra my beautiful girl, I love you so much. The world doesn’t deserve you. My heart bleeds for you. Just pain, pain.
This was my first book by my friend, and I am so glad I signed up for the ARC. The writing is raw, beautiful, and powerful. Ame, you were born to move people with your words and your stories. You are a voice for those who never had the chance to speak. You were meant to be a writer. I am so proud for how far you have come 😭
Rate 5 ⭐️ 🌶️🌶️🌶️ Honestly im reeling, this book consumed me. I can hardly describe how heavy it feels, like a heartbreak you carry in your bones. The emotional weight is real. Every page is soaked in longing, regret, secrets, and a sense of endless time. I was there with the characters through every fracture, every hesitation, every whispered regret.
What makes Eternal crack open my heart is how raw the writing is. The lines that stay with you, the imagery, the internal monologues, the moments of quiet despair, they all feel so lived-in. It’s not just a story you skim; it’s one you sink into.
The characters are so human, flawed, broken, afraid and yet their connection feels electric and inevitable.
I wanted to root for them, even when their choices hurt. The tension drains you and fills you all at once. There’s also something about the pacing and structure that keeps you off-balance, alternating between hope and despair, between what’s said and what’s withheld.
If you like books that leave bruises, that make you feel everything (the ache, the beauty, the grief), Eternal is one of them. It’s not light, it’s not easy, but it’s unforgettable.
(One of those rare books I know I’ll revisit, just to feel it again.)
Thank you Amethyst author for the opportunity of reading such a beautiful book 🥹
♾️ I absolutely ADORED this book. I knew going in, it would break me, and break me it did. Azra was a force, built by those who wronged her. Shes fierce, shes strong.. she's so many things. But Damir shows her how worthy of love she is. He shows up.. and shows her what shes worth. Its beautiful, its heartbreaking. ITS EVERYTHING. Their love is unmatched.
“It’s scarier to be loved than to be alone. Because when you’re alone, there’s nothing at stake. Not even hope.”
When Damir has orders to follow.. Azra incoming... and he falls. FAST.
Its the best type of slow burn, simmering until its fully ablaze. And when that spice hit.. DAMN. Damir had me kicking my feet giggling, flushed and panting. I was having the best time. Damir was absolutely everything. Please.. i need a Damir.
“Because you’re made for me. Messy, greedy, and fucking mine.”
“Keep those pretty eyes on me. And not a single sound.” 🔥🔥🔥🔥
Amethyst knows how to make the perfect MMC and Damir is no exception. From the early chapters, hes so all in for Azra. Gone, from that first meeting of eyes. And the way he'd do absolutely anything for her.
It was raw, heavy and so deep that i was just so invested in these characters. Their pasts, were haunting, they were heavy and so incredibly sad... Azra faced so many wrongs. But she was back, with a reason... But she has a goal, to make those who wronged her suffer. But what will she loose in the process.
“Don’t let the world convince you that you’re too broken to deserve happiness. You’ll lose enough to this life as it is. Don’t let it take that too.”
The playlist had me absolutely sobbing (currently sobbing listening to the playlist as a write this).... and that ending. Ill never recover, ever... i'll remember them.. ETERNALLY. This a epic story of love, of worth, of soul mates. A love you'll never forget.
I LOVE that we were reunited with Zanae, Elijah & Nikolai... I MISSED THEM. so so much. The friendship blossoming between Azra & Zanae was beautiful..Please i need to read about them again... and Nik too (IYKYK)
I had the honour of reading this book, and so privileged to be the first person to read their story. It'll forever be such a special book to me, forever. ETERNALLY. My favourite read of August, and a easy favourite of the year.
I'll never forget them. Thank you so much Amethyst for trusting me with another book baby, with Azra and Damir. ILY. ♾️
I am utterly, completely, without a shadow of a doubt… destroyed by this book.
This beautiful, magnificent work of art. An actual masterpiece. I felt things while reading this that I never thought I would - cried more times than I can count. Amethyst, you did it again! I thought Nemesync was phenomenal - this novel brought me to a whole other level.
I want to say I loved Azra’s development- but there was nothing for her to develop. She was surviving in a world that wanted her absolutely broken, and her behaviour and actions were a result of the life she lived. She was an EXCELLENTLY written character that did not “get better” - she was perfectly imperfect and flawed and fearless and strong and resilient. She is a character that is inspirational. One that - ironically for her- inspires hope. Damir was chaotic and flawed and yet oh so perfect. His character development was also not as he was always who he was designed to be. These characters were given extremely hard lives and navigated through the world in the way they knew how. Their story wasn’t supposed to be sunshine and rainbows - and it was excellently written as the dark and devastating story it was. Devastating, yet absolutely beautiful.
This book was absolutely exceptional. And everyone should give this work of art a shot! Please be mindful of the triggers as it explores extremely heavy topics which may not be okay with some readers - but if you are, please please read this.
Now if you excuse me, I have a book playlist to listen to while I sob…. Indefinitely.
twinnie you are an evil genius and i love this book so much 😭 HAPPY RELEASE DAY MY BESTIE!! my favourite book 🫀
“A+D=ETERNAL”
azra, my baby. you shine brighter than all the stars in the sky and are the most beautiful iris ever 🫀 i love her so much and she has my whole freaking heart. she made me feel so seen and is my protector even if she doesn’t know it 😭 she is beauty, brains and violence in the most precious and raw way ever. i relate to her on a different level, i understand her pain 😭 i love her so so much, she’s eternally a favourite 🫀 she’s my everything, my world, my soul
damir, my love. i love him so much, oh my gosh. THIS MAN IS A YEARNER. he’s just so romantic and he loves her so freaking much. ugh i love him and the way he’s so understanding towards her 😭 he yearns for her and he earns. he gets her on a molecular level, he healed my heart so much
THEM TOGETHER. i cannot describe how much i love their love 😭🫀
the gloves. irises. the swing. the northern lights. the beach. the house. sunny. home. eternal.
i haven’t stopped crying since i finished, oh my gosh 😭 this story will forever be burned into my heart, for eternity 🫀
i wish i could say more but words cannot describe how this book connected to me, i love it so much
This book is a roller coaster of all emotions but the ending will absolutely break you.
I usually don't read books with sad ending but this?My god amethyst you killed me with the ending, the way I felt my chest tighten and break, it's more than a book and story for me. I couldn't stop my tears for straight ten minutes. If I thought Nemesync was amazing, Eternal was something else. I will forever remember it.
First our main character,fmc,Azra Al Monsour, I've read really few fmcs so strong yet so broken. She went through absolute hell but my girl was so strong. I wish I could hug her and take away all her pain. From her childhood till her last day,my girl suffered sm. She's my top fav book fmc now.
Then comes Damir Koskov, the mmc, I will thank him sm for giving Azra the happy days they had together. I loved his character absolutely, but Azra is dear to me. Damir's character was perfect to reflex with Azra. But the ending goddamn... I will cry again I swear..
Lastly, I specially recommend you to read this book, I mean I'm literally requesting you to.
Thank you so much to Amethyst for this ARC 💜 Let me tell you… I am still not okay.
This book broke me in the best possible way. By the time I reached those final chapters, I was crying my eyes out!!! That ending absolutely gutted me. I don’t even know how to process it yet.
Azra, my broken darling… her journey shattered me. She’s been through so much pain and loss, yet she carries it with this quiet resilience that makes you want to protect her at all costs. Watching her wrestle with grief, love, and impossible choices had my heart aching the entire time.
And Damir. Oh my god, Damir. The kind of MMC who sneaks into your soul and never lets go. He’s protective, steady, and so deeply tied to Azra in a way that feels fated. The chemistry between them was intense, but what really got me was the tenderness. The way he saw her, even through her brokenness, was everything.
Amethyst, my darling bestie, you are a genius for writing this book. The emotions, the twists, the way every word feels heavy with meaning!!! it’s something I’ll always cherish. Eternal wasn’t just a book, it was an experience, and one I know I’ll never forget.
If you’re looking for a story that will make you laugh, cry, scream, and fall hopelessly in love all at once, this is it. Eternal gave me everything, and left me in pieces.
✩✩✩✩.5 𝓕𝓵𝓸𝔀𝓮𝓻𝓼 𝓬𝓪𝓷’𝓽 𝓻𝓾𝓷… 🥀 ~ Eternal by @amethyst.author follows Azra and Damir through their heart wrenching, emotionally intense and fucking raw story ~ This booook, I don’t know where to start! The way you write emotions @amethyst.author is incredible, you feel EVERY single emotion. How you’ve written their pain as well as their devotion/obsession can only be described as magic ✨ ~ This story is unlike any I’ve ever read, it’s dark, it’s harrowing, but it’s fucking beautiful. ~ This a multi POV story which also contains flashbacks but please read the TW’s before diving in, this read is not for the faint of heart ⚠️
♾️♾️ stars😭😭!!!!! Best read of 2025 has just hit the mark🥲🥲 I need a whole year to recover from this. My heart is hurting so much man. I want to go back and re read the 1000 pages all over again.
I will never forget this💔❤️🩹
This book is extremely triggering with very very dark moments.
‘No one sees the girl who never learned how to ask for help. They see the one who always replies when they do.’
‘We’re eternal, partner?’
‘Because no one tells you that love turns to grief. And grief.. Grief eats you alive.’
This book was heartbreakingly beautiful. Not beautiful because of what happened but beautiful in the way of what Azra and Damir found in each other. There is so much trauma, pain, and the ramifications of what that does to a life. The journey was rough, the mission important, and it hurt. What happens in this book is heavy it touches on some of the most vile and depraved acts committed in humanity so make sure you check TWs
I Really enjoyed this book! I think this book was written well. I enjoyed the characters and the story progression. It did touch on sensitive subjects, it will be a hard read from some readers. I would highly recommend reading the trigger warnings. This book had me hooked, emotional and just loving it.