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Expected publication June 2, 2026
"Was it a sin? To live? To love? Was it a sin just to exist?
For some, the answer was yes."
I reframe my time alone here as a martyr's sacrifice, a saintly retreat, like all those macabre stories I learned from Sunday school. Like Joan of Arc burning in her armor, cursing out the enemies of Satan and giving up her life for all of France. Or maybe she was crazy like I'm crazy. Maybe I'm just as bad as her, continuing a cycle of women who thought they had to die rather than live and be "too much."
They're called wear patterns. Like grooves in a wall where weary travelers rest their heads. Or indentations on steps where pilgrims walked in prayer. They're well-worn areas that prove humans used something and used it often. To be loved into oblivion.