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Until We're Ruin
𝙴𝚛𝚢𝚡
I ruined her life long before I touched her heart.
It was supposed to be a simple job. I was given clear who, when, where.
She was never part of the plan.
My miscalculation almost cost her everything. The moment I laid eyes on her—moy voron—with long dark hair and eyes to match, I knew she was mine.
It would be three long years before I saw Anastasia again.
And by then, my secret was something I’d have to carry to the grave.
Because if she ever found out... it would ruin us both.
𝙰𝚗𝚊𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚜𝚒𝚊
I lost the love of my life in a crash that almost killed me.
We were so close to getting away—until everything went wrong.
I've spent the last three years locked away at Blackridge Institute.
Now, my father’s offered me a deal I can’t leave the hospital and enroll at Crestview University.
A new chapter. A fresh start.
At least it should have been.
Then I met him—Eryx.
And the closer I get, the more secrets unravel.
I’m afraid when the truth finally comes out... it’ll destroy me all over again.
I ruined her life long before I touched her heart.
It was supposed to be a simple job. I was given clear who, when, where.
She was never part of the plan.
My miscalculation almost cost her everything. The moment I laid eyes on her—moy voron—with long dark hair and eyes to match, I knew she was mine.
It would be three long years before I saw Anastasia again.
And by then, my secret was something I’d have to carry to the grave.
Because if she ever found out... it would ruin us both.
𝙰𝚗𝚊𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚜𝚒𝚊
I lost the love of my life in a crash that almost killed me.
We were so close to getting away—until everything went wrong.
I've spent the last three years locked away at Blackridge Institute.
Now, my father’s offered me a deal I can’t leave the hospital and enroll at Crestview University.
A new chapter. A fresh start.
At least it should have been.
Then I met him—Eryx.
And the closer I get, the more secrets unravel.
I’m afraid when the truth finally comes out... it’ll destroy me all over again.
431 pages, Kindle Edition
Published December 13, 2025
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L.M. Nyx
3 books11 followersHi, L.M.Nyx and I'm an aspiring indie author. I write romance with dark themes that cut deep and linger long after the final page. I draw from my own personal experiences, and my stories are a cathartic release. I have a soft spot for tortured souls, for the quiet and brooding types. I love a smart-mouthed lead, sharp banter. I love a good gut wrenching book and hope to invoke those same feeling into my own work.
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December 6, 2025
♡”𝖑𝖊𝖙 𝖌𝖔 𝖆𝖓𝖆𝖘𝖙𝖆𝖘𝖎𝖆, 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝖑𝖊𝖙 𝖒𝖊 𝖎𝖓. 𝕱𝖆𝖑𝖑 𝖜𝖎𝖙𝖍 𝖒𝖊.”♡
𐙚⋆°｡⋆♡𝚞𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚕 𝚠𝚎’𝚛𝚎 𝚛𝚞𝚒𝚗 𝚊𝚛𝚌 𝚛𝚎𝚟𝚒𝚎𝚠𐙚⋆°｡⋆♡
first of all , i want to thank L.M. Nyx for sending me an eArc & a physical arc !! i am so proud of you, and so happy we met on booktok! i will always be cheering you on!
ok , now , let’s get into it. first of all, debut where ? THIS WAS SO GOOD. the details made me feel like i was there walking alongside stassi & eryx , hello third wheel who ? the attention to detail , the descriptions , etc … you did that!! LOVE.
anastasia “stassi” ortiz - omg i loved her so much. she has an i don’t give a fuck attitude and don’t talk to me vibes. (literally me) LMAO. i loveddddd her and her development throughout the book
eryx ivanov - listen , he was so hot. point blank period. this man cared about no one except for her ? goodbye. and the way he made sure she was cared for ??? jumping off a literal bridge. the way he also spoke to her when they were intimate ?? PREGNANT PLS
the twists were insane , the tension made me scream at the wall & the emotional depth made me sob into the afterlife.
i’m so soooo proud of you. 🖤 if you haven’t preordered this yet , wtf are you doing ??
rating: 5 ⭐️
spice: 3.5 🌶️
tropes:
♡ found family
♡ hate to love
♡ trauma healing
♡ he falls first
♡ secrets
♡ university setting
♡ mafia
⚠️ read trigger warnings⚠️
𐙚⋆°｡⋆♡𝚞𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚕 𝚠𝚎’𝚛𝚎 𝚛𝚞𝚒𝚗 𝚊𝚛𝚌 𝚛𝚎𝚟𝚒𝚎𝚠𐙚⋆°｡⋆♡
first of all , i want to thank L.M. Nyx for sending me an eArc & a physical arc !! i am so proud of you, and so happy we met on booktok! i will always be cheering you on!
ok , now , let’s get into it. first of all, debut where ? THIS WAS SO GOOD. the details made me feel like i was there walking alongside stassi & eryx , hello third wheel who ? the attention to detail , the descriptions , etc … you did that!! LOVE.
anastasia “stassi” ortiz - omg i loved her so much. she has an i don’t give a fuck attitude and don’t talk to me vibes. (literally me) LMAO. i loveddddd her and her development throughout the book
eryx ivanov - listen , he was so hot. point blank period. this man cared about no one except for her ? goodbye. and the way he made sure she was cared for ??? jumping off a literal bridge. the way he also spoke to her when they were intimate ?? PREGNANT PLS
the twists were insane , the tension made me scream at the wall & the emotional depth made me sob into the afterlife.
i’m so soooo proud of you. 🖤 if you haven’t preordered this yet , wtf are you doing ??
rating: 5 ⭐️
spice: 3.5 🌶️
tropes:
♡ found family
♡ hate to love
♡ trauma healing
♡ he falls first
♡ secrets
♡ university setting
♡ mafia
⚠️ read trigger warnings⚠️
November 13, 2025
This book has everything: a delicious MMC who’s a Russian to die for, a fierce Hispanic FMC who gives as good as she gets, and tropes that hit every single time. Found family, hate-to-love tension, trauma healing, mafia ties, university chaos, and that “touch her and 💀” energy? Say less.
The chemistry is off the charts, the secrets keep you hooked, and the emotional depth makes it more than just a dark romance, it’s addictive. L.M. Nyx delivers spice, grit, and heart all wrapped in one unforgettable story ❤️🩹
The chemistry is off the charts, the secrets keep you hooked, and the emotional depth makes it more than just a dark romance, it’s addictive. L.M. Nyx delivers spice, grit, and heart all wrapped in one unforgettable story ❤️🩹
December 7, 2025
UNTIL WE’RE RUIN by L.M. Nyx did not come to play. This debut snaps dark academia and mafia vibes together like they were born fused, and suddenly you’re roaming Crestview’s halls with Anastasia, dodging ghosts, secrets, and a past that won’t stay buried.
She’s given one brutal choice: follow the rules at Crestview and pretend the past is dead, or go back to Blackridge where she’s basically treated like a lab rat. Spoiler: the girl chooses freedom… kind of.
Enter Eryx Ivanov, Bratva royalty with “I’d burn the world for you” energy. He clocks her immediately, falls fast, and thank every reading deity—he doesn’t act like a jerk just because he’s conflicted. He knows she’s his endgame, and that “touch her and perish” aura he carries? Straight-up elite.
As memories crawl back, secrets snap open like trapdoors, and everything gets messy, raw, and strangely soft under all the danger.
The twists? feral.
The tension? had me yelling at my poor, innocent wall.
The emotions? demolished me.
I’m perched, waiting for what’s next in this world.
Things to know
Hate x love, found family, mafia ties, he fall first, hurt/comfort, university setting, ottp mc, bratty fmc, secrets, fight club, touch her and die, parental neglect, death of a parent / death of a loved one, drink tampering (not by mmc), memory of car accident, memory of attempted suicide, suicidal ideation, suicide of a sibling, kidnapping, depression / depressive episodes, self medicating/medication abuse, torture, spanking, breath play, forced oral (not by mmc), assault, russian mmc x latina fmc
She’s given one brutal choice: follow the rules at Crestview and pretend the past is dead, or go back to Blackridge where she’s basically treated like a lab rat. Spoiler: the girl chooses freedom… kind of.
Enter Eryx Ivanov, Bratva royalty with “I’d burn the world for you” energy. He clocks her immediately, falls fast, and thank every reading deity—he doesn’t act like a jerk just because he’s conflicted. He knows she’s his endgame, and that “touch her and perish” aura he carries? Straight-up elite.
As memories crawl back, secrets snap open like trapdoors, and everything gets messy, raw, and strangely soft under all the danger.
The twists? feral.
The tension? had me yelling at my poor, innocent wall.
The emotions? demolished me.
I’m perched, waiting for what’s next in this world.
Things to know
Hate x love, found family, mafia ties, he fall first, hurt/comfort, university setting, ottp mc, bratty fmc, secrets, fight club, touch her and die, parental neglect, death of a parent / death of a loved one, drink tampering (not by mmc), memory of car accident, memory of attempted suicide, suicidal ideation, suicide of a sibling, kidnapping, depression / depressive episodes, self medicating/medication abuse, torture, spanking, breath play, forced oral (not by mmc), assault, russian mmc x latina fmc
January 10, 2026
Wow, what a debut. This had spice, drama, found family, and high speed finish that felt satisfying.
November 6, 2025
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
ARC Review – “Until We’re Ruin” 💔🔥
Eryx and Anastasia didn’t let me sleep (in the best way possible). 🥹 From the moment they met, I knew I was in trouble. Eryx falls hard and fast — but the best part? He doesn’t treat her like crap just because he’s conflicted. 🙌 He knows she’s it for him, and that whole “touch her and die” energy he gives off? Chef’s kiss 😏🔥
The story had everything I love — tension, passion, heartbreak, redemption, and those unexpected twists that make you gasp out loud 😮📖. I was fully invested the entire time.
I also loved how the author incorporated multiple languages throughout the story. It added so much richness and authenticity to their connection and made both characters feel even more real. 🌎💬
Honestly, I don’t have a single complaint… except that I need book two like yesterday. 😂💀
If you love protective men, deep emotional connections, and a story that pulls you through every possible feeling — this one’s for you. 💞
ARC Review – “Until We’re Ruin” 💔🔥
Eryx and Anastasia didn’t let me sleep (in the best way possible). 🥹 From the moment they met, I knew I was in trouble. Eryx falls hard and fast — but the best part? He doesn’t treat her like crap just because he’s conflicted. 🙌 He knows she’s it for him, and that whole “touch her and die” energy he gives off? Chef’s kiss 😏🔥
The story had everything I love — tension, passion, heartbreak, redemption, and those unexpected twists that make you gasp out loud 😮📖. I was fully invested the entire time.
I also loved how the author incorporated multiple languages throughout the story. It added so much richness and authenticity to their connection and made both characters feel even more real. 🌎💬
Honestly, I don’t have a single complaint… except that I need book two like yesterday. 😂💀
If you love protective men, deep emotional connections, and a story that pulls you through every possible feeling — this one’s for you. 💞
December 13, 2025
Wow… just wow!! What an incredible story! It’s full of devastation, so much heartbreak, lies and so much suffering for the MFC. Everything Stassi goes through during the course of her lifetime, would break anyone, however she still manages to keep going!! She hangs on to her sass and fire, and has an inner strength that she doesn’t realize she has!
I loved all of the characters so freaking much and can’t wait to see what happens next!!! 100% recommend reading this book, but for your own mental health please read the trigger warnings, there are some very difficult chapters in this story that could be triggering to some!!
I loved all of the characters so freaking much and can’t wait to see what happens next!!! 100% recommend reading this book, but for your own mental health please read the trigger warnings, there are some very difficult chapters in this story that could be triggering to some!!
December 13, 2025
what a debut!
I just loved this book, the story, the characters.
Anastasia, Eryx, Roman, Cain!
This story had many secrets that were eventually revealed that shocked me. I didn't see several things coming that were brought to light.
so much suspense and tension. so much trauma and betrayals. so much banter.
oh man were Eryx and Anastasia simply HOT. 🥵
if you love mafia vibes you'll love this.
I couldn't get enough of this book and I'm absolutely looking forward to book 2.
also enjoyed the little extras included at the end of the book, the recipes that were mentioned in the book. as well as a sneak peak into book 2.
highly recommend, but do check TW's.
thank you L.m. Nyx for the arc! 🫶🏻 and congratulations on your debut. 🎉
I just loved this book, the story, the characters.
Anastasia, Eryx, Roman, Cain!
This story had many secrets that were eventually revealed that shocked me. I didn't see several things coming that were brought to light.
so much suspense and tension. so much trauma and betrayals. so much banter.
oh man were Eryx and Anastasia simply HOT. 🥵
if you love mafia vibes you'll love this.
I couldn't get enough of this book and I'm absolutely looking forward to book 2.
also enjoyed the little extras included at the end of the book, the recipes that were mentioned in the book. as well as a sneak peak into book 2.
highly recommend, but do check TW's.
thank you L.m. Nyx for the arc! 🫶🏻 and congratulations on your debut. 🎉
December 15, 2025
Thank you so much for this ARC!
This book had everything to keep me invested: an FMC with depression (hello darkness, my old friend), an MMC who will unalive for her, and family secrets that had me feeling like this was a telenovela!
🖤 Found Family
🖤 Hate to Love
🖤 Trauma Healing
🖤 Bratty FMC
🖤 Mafia
🖤 He Falls First
🖤 Touch Her and Die
🖤 Family Secrets
🖤 Dual POV
This book had everything to keep me invested: an FMC with depression (hello darkness, my old friend), an MMC who will unalive for her, and family secrets that had me feeling like this was a telenovela!
🖤 Found Family
🖤 Hate to Love
🖤 Trauma Healing
🖤 Bratty FMC
🖤 Mafia
🖤 He Falls First
🖤 Touch Her and Die
🖤 Family Secrets
🖤 Dual POV
December 14, 2025
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️💫
#UntilWeReRuin by @l.m.nyx_author
I loved this #DebutNovel so much — kept me engaged from the very beginning. Eryx & Anastasia are goals. The plot. The spice. The twists. Everything.
Hispanic FMC
Russian MMC
Touch Her And ☠️
Trauma Healing
Found Family
& So Much More!!
#UntilWeReRuin by @l.m.nyx_author
I loved this #DebutNovel so much — kept me engaged from the very beginning. Eryx & Anastasia are goals. The plot. The spice. The twists. Everything.
Hispanic FMC
Russian MMC
Touch Her And ☠️
Trauma Healing
Found Family
& So Much More!!
December 14, 2025
My type of fictional man 😏😏 but also was so in love with Anastasia, a bada** FMC with a bite 😏😏 I loved this book and definitely recommend it to anyone looking for a gripping story with the perfect mix of plot and spice!!
December 9, 2025
Did I read this book in 2 days? Yes. Yes, I sure as hell did.
Anastasia has only known heartbreak. From the start, her life is pretty miserable. Things only get worse for her and her so called father makes things way worse for her. She’s determined to make the most of her life. She is sent to finish her schooling and this is where things start to get interesting.
She meets Eryx. He’s everything you think of when you think of a bad boy but deep down he’s a softie.
While Anastasia begins to drop her guard, make friends and be friendly with others, she can’t also help but get close to Eryx and his family.
We get found family, we get inside jokes. We get a Twilight reference!!
But.. we also have so many lies 😭 betrayal. Mt heart was all over the place while reading. The chemistry was 👌🏼 beautiful.
Cannot wait to read book 2!
Anastasia has only known heartbreak. From the start, her life is pretty miserable. Things only get worse for her and her so called father makes things way worse for her. She’s determined to make the most of her life. She is sent to finish her schooling and this is where things start to get interesting.
She meets Eryx. He’s everything you think of when you think of a bad boy but deep down he’s a softie.
While Anastasia begins to drop her guard, make friends and be friendly with others, she can’t also help but get close to Eryx and his family.
We get found family, we get inside jokes. We get a Twilight reference!!
But.. we also have so many lies 😭 betrayal. Mt heart was all over the place while reading. The chemistry was 👌🏼 beautiful.
Cannot wait to read book 2!
December 13, 2025
Until We’re Ruin pulled me in from page one and did *not* let me breathe. This debut blends dark academia and mafia vibes so seamlessly, you feel like you’re walking the halls right beside them—heart racing, waiting for the next secret to explode.
The tension? Unreal. The twists? I was literally whispering “no way” every few chapters. And the emotional depth behind all that darkness gave the story so much weight. It’s sharp, addictive, and full of those perfectly executed omg moments that leave you starving for more.
L.M. Nyx came out swinging with this debut, and I’m already counting down to whatever comes next.
The tension? Unreal. The twists? I was literally whispering “no way” every few chapters. And the emotional depth behind all that darkness gave the story so much weight. It’s sharp, addictive, and full of those perfectly executed omg moments that leave you starving for more.
L.M. Nyx came out swinging with this debut, and I’m already counting down to whatever comes next.
December 9, 2025
4.5 Voron stars
THIS IS A DEBUT NOVEL!!!?? *standing ovation*
There are so many emotions running through me right now as I just turned the last page on Until We're Ruin. Stories that are deep, characters that have trauma and darkness rooted in their souls, hard fought love, devotion that goes beyond reason, beyond time and beyond death. Love that is so ingrained that at first glance it seems selfish and maybe even toxic but really it's just eternal. I yearn for this type of writing.
Anastasia and Eryx's journey was paved with lies, betrayal, heartache, violence, both have things in their lives that wake them up in a panic and sometimes it seems insurmountable at times but what they have that's undeniable? A soul tie. Forever.
I'm not sure how to word this without giving anything away, I'll just say that this is the cleverest way I've seen an author pull us from what I thought would be a possible devastating love triangle.
I adored every side character which almost never happens but I could honestly read about Ro (eeep that sneak peek) Shina, Roman, Thoren or our favorite bestie, Caine any day of the week!
Until We're Ruin is one of those stories that you'll think about way after you're done reading it. Chaotic in the best ways, sensual when it needs to be, with heart-pounding action, jaw-dropping moments, twist and addictive characters!
*Check Triggers
THIS IS A DEBUT NOVEL!!!?? *standing ovation*
There are so many emotions running through me right now as I just turned the last page on Until We're Ruin. Stories that are deep, characters that have trauma and darkness rooted in their souls, hard fought love, devotion that goes beyond reason, beyond time and beyond death. Love that is so ingrained that at first glance it seems selfish and maybe even toxic but really it's just eternal. I yearn for this type of writing.
Anastasia and Eryx's journey was paved with lies, betrayal, heartache, violence, both have things in their lives that wake them up in a panic and sometimes it seems insurmountable at times but what they have that's undeniable? A soul tie. Forever.
I'm not sure how to word this without giving anything away, I'll just say that this is the cleverest way I've seen an author pull us from what I thought would be a possible devastating love triangle.
I adored every side character which almost never happens but I could honestly read about Ro (eeep that sneak peek) Shina, Roman, Thoren or our favorite bestie, Caine any day of the week!
Until We're Ruin is one of those stories that you'll think about way after you're done reading it. Chaotic in the best ways, sensual when it needs to be, with heart-pounding action, jaw-dropping moments, twist and addictive characters!
*Check Triggers
Review of advance copy received from Author
⚠️Check TW’s before reading⚠️
🖤 I was hooked from the very beginning! This book now has me anting to read more dark academia and mafia romances. Eryx is perfection, we all need a man like him in our lives. The way he took care of her and protected her had me swooning. I related a lot to Anastasia so much and just wanted to jump in the book and give her a hug. Eryx and Stassi both have been through so much and have their own struggles trauma, but they deserved all the love, hugs, and happiness. Omg the TENSION!! It was giving!!
🖤 Ok, now shout out to the side characters. Ro and Shina were the best girlfriends that Anastasia could have asked for. Caine, my dude, I fucking love you! I love his goofy personality and how lovable he is. And Roman, he’s more reserved than Caine is but we get to see his protective and possessive side when it comes to protecting those he loves and a certain someone👀. I can’t wait to see what’s in store for the rest of the friend group.
📚Book Type: dark academia romance
😈WHAT TO EXPECT😈
🧎🏽♀️Found family
🧎🏽♀️Kidnapping
🧎🏽♀️Murder/mutilation
🧎🏽♀️Fight club
🧎🏽♀️He falls first
🧎🏽♀️Touch her and die
🧎🏽♀️Hate to love
🧎🏽♀️Lots of secrets
🧎🏽♀️Degradation/praise
🧎🏽♀️Attempted murder
🖤 I was hooked from the very beginning! This book now has me anting to read more dark academia and mafia romances. Eryx is perfection, we all need a man like him in our lives. The way he took care of her and protected her had me swooning. I related a lot to Anastasia so much and just wanted to jump in the book and give her a hug. Eryx and Stassi both have been through so much and have their own struggles trauma, but they deserved all the love, hugs, and happiness. Omg the TENSION!! It was giving!!
🖤 Ok, now shout out to the side characters. Ro and Shina were the best girlfriends that Anastasia could have asked for. Caine, my dude, I fucking love you! I love his goofy personality and how lovable he is. And Roman, he’s more reserved than Caine is but we get to see his protective and possessive side when it comes to protecting those he loves and a certain someone👀. I can’t wait to see what’s in store for the rest of the friend group.
📚Book Type: dark academia romance
😈WHAT TO EXPECT😈
🧎🏽♀️Found family
🧎🏽♀️Kidnapping
🧎🏽♀️Murder/mutilation
🧎🏽♀️Fight club
🧎🏽♀️He falls first
🧎🏽♀️Touch her and die
🧎🏽♀️Hate to love
🧎🏽♀️Lots of secrets
🧎🏽♀️Degradation/praise
🧎🏽♀️Attempted murder
December 30, 2025
Debut novel? Could have fooled me!
I loved every bit of this book from the mc's, side characters, translation done for you, recipes, music playlist, but most of all the PLOT!
And HOLLY FREAKING PLOT TWIST! I didn't not see that coming and it just kept coming... I was on the edge of my seat, words were not wording because that ending was a wild ride.
My heart just really tugged for Anastasia because she has really been through so much and despite it all she never let it damper her spirit. Eryx also has been though a lot and when you learn his back story you just really understand him on such a deeper level.
L.M. NYX -- Watching you go from having just an idea to full blown writing a book has been such an incredible journey... Watching you pour you heart, soul, time, effort and everything in between has been nothing short of amazing. Again I'm incredibly proud of you. You did an outstanding job. This book doesn't even remotely feel like reading a debut. I can't wait for book 2!!! And that teaser in the ending has me shook already!
I loved every bit of this book from the mc's, side characters, translation done for you, recipes, music playlist, but most of all the PLOT!
And HOLLY FREAKING PLOT TWIST! I didn't not see that coming and it just kept coming... I was on the edge of my seat, words were not wording because that ending was a wild ride.
My heart just really tugged for Anastasia because she has really been through so much and despite it all she never let it damper her spirit. Eryx also has been though a lot and when you learn his back story you just really understand him on such a deeper level.
L.M. NYX -- Watching you go from having just an idea to full blown writing a book has been such an incredible journey... Watching you pour you heart, soul, time, effort and everything in between has been nothing short of amazing. Again I'm incredibly proud of you. You did an outstanding job. This book doesn't even remotely feel like reading a debut. I can't wait for book 2!!! And that teaser in the ending has me shook already!
January 15, 2026
Addictive academia mafia romance.
This was such a great debut book by this author. You can truly feel the support her characters offered each other, you giggled at their dynamics, and hurt when they hurt. This book also had SO MANY GREAT quotable moments to hold on to forever. Every time I put it down I just thought about it till I was able to pick it up again.
This was such a great debut book by this author. You can truly feel the support her characters offered each other, you giggled at their dynamics, and hurt when they hurt. This book also had SO MANY GREAT quotable moments to hold on to forever. Every time I put it down I just thought about it till I was able to pick it up again.
August 30, 2025
✨ALPHA READ✨
YOU GUYS ARE GOING TO LEAVE NO CRUMBS!!!
YOU GUYS ARE GOING TO LEAVE NO CRUMBS!!!
December 22, 2025
The Story was a good concept. I liked how tough Anastasia was. The writing was a little distracting but overall a good story.
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