4.75 stars
“Your light, it is like nothing I have ever seen. And that is a blessing, Cybil. The more beautiful something is, the more beautiful its ruin.”
I freaking love a book that delivers on its premise of a toxic-sapphics, dangerous and addicting cat and mouse story that not only lived up to it, but exceeded my expectations. Thrilling and unpredictable, this was true cat and mouse at its finest, and insanely clever. How can a 300 page book make me feel like I’ve lived three lives? How does someone find out they are able to write this way? Natasha Siegel, are you even human?
When I hear toxic sapphics, you better expect I want it toxic, and As Many Souls as Stars excels in that with flying colors. There is literally nothing I would change because it did it soooo well. It has the same intensity as the cat and mouse from Addie Larue and honestly? It might have been even better than Addie Larue. Like, far better.
Miriam is the definition of, “if evil, why hot?”, an evil, manipulative, possessive shadow mummy and everything you’d expect from an immortal, ancient Eldritch God. Miriam is somebody I’ve been craving for in these types of books and absolutely exceeded expectations. And the fact that she kills men? 11/10. The way she wants to ruin Cybil but also worship her? Absolute cinema.
Cybil is incredibly big-brained and just gets even more smarter as the book goes. This was a genuine cat and mouse where both were equally as cunning. There came a point where you no longer knew who the cat and the mouse were.
Cybil’s rage towards the world was absolutely justifiable. The world has wronged her and I felt her anger and vitriol pour off those pages. It was intense and raw. Everyone is just so misogynistic. It felt sad seeing the way Cybil becomes more cunning and morally gray, but also loses a part of herself in the process and becomes a shell of her formal self. I felt hollow as well.
It is incredibly difficult to describe Cybil and Miriam’s relationship in words. What they have is so complicated, but addicting. I can only compare it to Killing Eve. I’ve been trying to find a toxic sapphic novel that matches the energy of Eve x Villanelle and I found it in As Many Souls as Stars. There’s danger, there’s desire, there’s addiction, obsession, love and hatred happening all at the same time. You never really know if Miriam wants to kill her or kiss her or both.
This book is also incredibly unpredictable – I genuinely had no idea how the book was going to conclude. Cybil and Miriam are so cunning, so intelligent I could not guess for the life of me how they were going to outsmart each other. At the same time, the book makes you ponder where do we draw the boundary between love and hate? Cybil and Miriam’s relationship is so complex and messy and toxic, but also really beautiful. I will always love the tortured, broken woman who is worshipped by an immortal trope.
My issues with this novel were very small. I think the prose can be wordy at times and the timeline resets can be tedious at times, having to establish everything again which can be heavy on exposition, but nonetheless, this is a book I’d easily recommend to literature students.