** Disclaimer: I was a sensitivity reader for this book and was gifted a copy by the author. I also bought my own copy from the Crafty Bookstore, but I felt it was necessary to state that I was, in fact, given a copy as well. And not just to brag :p **
**TW: SA, graphic birth scene, financial abuse**
I am in the unique position of having seen this book roughshod, scaffolding still around the plot and themes, and then getting to read it cleaned up and out in the world. Between notes and texts sent back and forth with Kara, she worked out the story in her heart while graciously taking my feedback as a sensitivity reader. There are books about assault, but it's a little disheartening to realize that those books are often the attack and the aftermath. Books about healing are few and far between, and well-meaning authors often forget to hand the power back to the survivor. SA is a multi-faceted thing. Healing isn't linear, it usually is a lifelong endeavor, but luckily, life is long and the time between the hard days stretch out further and further the longer you live.
That is what Illuminator gives us. There is no gilding the lily, the attack happens and Helena is changed for it. But she has a support system that guides her to meals, takes care of her teenaged daughter, that catches her when she falters. There is no moment when she is made to weather the storm alone. But the narrative also doesn't treat her like she's some simpering maiden who can be cured by a good swiving. Her sexual exploration is done in stages with the most patient and understanding man alive, Thatcher. Boisterous and crass, Thatcher was an instant favorite of mine in Priestess, and getting this intimate portrait of him was such a treat.
I hope Illuminator sets the standard for these kinds of narratives. Sexuality after assault is a touchy subject, and its easy to fumble and cause real harm, but its not impossible to do it right. It just requires an open ear and heart that says, "What can I do to tell this story right?" And Kara does this in a way i never thought I'd get in this life.
For being a companion novel, Illuminator has a lot to offer its readers. As is the trend in the Gods of Tintar series, you have found family, girl gangs, communication, spice that makes your toes curl with delight, and so much more. Don't let any preconceived notions of romantasy steer you into thinking this series is a shallow romp in the hay. It isn't. Your life will change after reading these books, if not philosophically, you will have a deep appreciation for the beauty in the world because the writing truly makes me see things entirely differently.
You'd be remiss to skip Illuminator just because its a companion novel.