Under the Current

by Jared Siler

What happens when a man who seems to have it all finally stops running?

Under the Current is a gripping and timely novel about the men's mental health crisis hiding in plain sight. Meet Tristen Rhodes: a polished executive and successful entrepreneur in Silicon Valley who seems to have the perfect life. But beneath the surface, he's fighting a quiet war between who he truly is and who he believes he has to be.

From the foggy California coast to high-stakes boardrooms, Tristen is haunted by his father’s fractured legacy, the crushing weight of impostor syndrome, and an inner voice that asks, "Is this your true self?” This is a profound story of personal transformation and the courage it takes to face the parts of ourselves that were never broken—just buried.

This powerful work of psychological fiction dives deep into the unseen struggles men face, challenging outdated ideas of masculinity and performative toughness. It’s a masterful exploration of:

-The journey from emotional numbness to authentic feeling
-Healing from unresolved grief and loss
-The father-son relationship and inherited trauma
-Unmasking vulnerability as a source of incredible strength

Perfect for readers of contemporary literary fiction and anyone moved by stories of self-discovery and redemption. Under the Current is a must-read not only for men steering this path but also for the partners, friends, and loved ones who stand beside them. Also, Ideal for fans of bestsellers such as "The Silent Patient," "The Midnight Library," and "Where the Crawdads Sing." This profound exploration of contemporary masculinity, hidden trauma, and self-discovery will resonate deeply with anyone facing their own quiet battles.

If you're ready for a story where healing isn’t shameful—it’s heroic—scroll up and click 'Buy Now'.

234 pages, Paperback

First published August 4, 2025

About the author

Jared Siler is an American author and storyteller drawn to emotionally rich narratives about identity, resilience, and the quiet transformations that shape us. Born in Oregon and trained as a licensed child, family, and school psychologist, Jared brings a mental health professional’s depth and compassion to his fiction, exploring the inner lives of characters seeking truth amid the chaos of modern life.

His travels across the U.S. and abroad—including time spent living in various U.S. States and China—have shaped his worldview, while the rugged beauty of the California coast and the deep work of healing continue to inspire him.

Under the Current is his debut novel, a story rooted in the belief that life’s hardest journeys are often the ones we take within.

Jared lives in Phoenix, Arizona, with his wife, Molly, and their dog, Leo. When he’s not writing, he’s likely journaling, reading stories with soul, traveling the world, exploring nature, playing various sports—or simply listening for the next idea.

Reviews

[Sharmila Sengupta · Rating 5 out of 5]

Under the Current is a story that pulls you into its turbulent waters and doesn’t let go. Honestly, it left me feeling a mix of awe, empathy, and a little bit of hope. Tristen’s journey—his brilliance, wealth, and the façade of success masking deep wounds—really struck a chord with me. It made me think about how many of us carry invisible scars, sometimes hidden behind achievements or social masks, and how those wounds can quietly shape our lives.

What I appreciated most was how thoughtfully the book explored themes like masculinity, vulnerability, and trauma. The writing style is intense but accessible—like a raw conversation with a close friend who's just starting to open up. The author masterfully uses the California coast as a mirror for Tristen’s inner chaos: wild, unpredictable, and at times destructive. It’s a setting that perfectly underscores the story’s emotional depth, making the reader feel the fierce power of the ocean and the tumult within Tristen himself.

The structure of the story kept me engaged from start to finish. It’s part psychological thriller, part character study, with moments of quiet introspection that feel almost meditative. I found myself rooting for Tristen even when he was at his lowest, which I think speaks to the skillful way the author humanizes him—no villains here, just a man fighting his own demons. It’s a reminder that healing isn’t linear, and sometimes surrendering control is the bravest thing we can do.

Respectfully, I want to acknowledge the effort that went into this book. It’s a powerful exploration of difficult themes, written with compassion and honesty. It’s clear the author understands the complexity of human emotion and the courage it takes to confront our pain.

If you’re drawn to stories that delve into inner struggles and the possibility of redemption, Under the Current is a must-read. It’s a turbulent ride, yes, but one that ultimately offers a sense of hope and renewal—like emerging from a storm into a clearer sky. For me, it was a reminder that sometimes, the most profound growth happens when we’re willing to face the depths of our own storms.

[Kristopher Kaiyala · Rating 5 out of 5]

This is not your typical, formulaic tech thriller. Whereas many novels in the genre rely on barely believable plot twists (and heroes) to thwart nefarious global menaces, Under the Current courageously ventures inward--focusing instead on confronting the emotional and mental turmoil that imprisons its main character. Tristan appears to have it all: Looks, smarts, corporate success. But behind the public mask and performative actions is a wounded individual desperate for a more honest and authentic existence, free from childhood trauma and adult emotional numbness. Under the Current lives up to its name in so many ways, with threaded storylines pulsing and weaving around a moral center bound by connection, self-discovery, a dash of magical realism, and, ultimately, healing. It's blunt, highly relatable, and enchanting. Once you start, you won't want to put it down.

[Ryan Hartgerink · Rating 5 out of 5]

Under the Current surprised me. At first, it seemed like it was going to be a story about technology and AI, but then it makes a turn and weaves in the personal struggles that Tristen works through.

Tristen isn’t just fighting a work battle, he’s figuring out how to open up emotionally. A big part of that comes from reconnecting with his late father through old writings. Those moments give the story a lot of heart and show how healing the past can help you make braver choices in the present.

I liked how the book balanced the takeover of AI with Tristen’s quieter, emotional journey. The writing is thoughtful and down to earth and makes you think about the importance of honesty and vulnerability.

The book is part ethical drama and part healing story. If you like books that mix philosophical issues with emotional depth, this one’s worth picking up.

[Julie · Rating 5 out of 5]

A story that lingers long after the last page! Under the Current is a quick yet engaging read that draws you into Tristen’s emotional journey of self-discovery and healing. The narrative carries the reader along his struggle to embrace his genuine self and realize the power of forgiveness, truth, and love. The story resonates with anyone seeking authenticity and meaning. The symbolism woven throughout adds layers of thought-provoking insight, and hidden gems of wisdom such as the line, “Loving people so loudly that silence never gets the final word.” It subtly hints at a universal longing for connection with something greater, making it not only inspiring but an invitation, a challenge to think deeply.

[Frymet S. Hare · Rating 5 out of 5]

I really got pulled into Under The Current. Jared Siler has a way of writing that feels both smart and approachable—he clearly understands people, probably from his work as a psychologist, and it shows in how authentic Tristen feels. The story kept me curious and invested, balancing suspense with moments that made me pause and reflect.

I loved how Siler captures both the fast-paced, high-pressure world of Silicon Valley and the calming, wild beauty of the California coast. His writing made the characters and their struggles feel genuine, and the story was thrilling without ever feeling over-the-top. Reading it was like riding the waves with Tristen—sometimes tense, sometimes reflective, and always engaging.

[Emily K · Rating 5 out of 5]

Read this book in a weekend...couldn't put it down. The author sort of immerses you into the sights and sounds and smells of the moment from the first page, keeps you spinning, then gently pushes you over the edge throughout the rest of the book in a way that makes you feel like you are experiencing the moment with Tristen. Overall, an inspirational and engaging book that is well worth the read, especially if you struggle with vulnerability, cultural pressures, and being known for who you truly are. Totally recommend!

[Rob Mackenzie · Rating 5 out of 5]

As someone that knows Jared personally I am not surprised by the depth of this read. Everyone knows that person that seems to have the perfect life and is envied by all, but this book gives a deeper look into the turmoil existing beneath the surface.

[Mandy | tallblondebookworm · Rating 5 out of 5]

This is a wonderful debut novel! I really enjoyed it. Men’s mental health is not explored nearly enough in fiction and I appreciated the raw and vulnerable approach the author took. This is not just another tech thriller - it has layers and I loved Tristen’s journey. Well done!

[Elizabeth Kapustina · Rating 5 out of 5]

Tristen’s journey from emotional numbness to vulnerability sparked a two-hour conversation in our club. Each of us shared moments where we or someone we know hid behind success instead of confronting internal struggles. It was intense but necessary.

[Aaliyah O'Neill · Rating 5 out of 5]

Our club conversation dove deep into father-son dynamics. Tristen’s relationship with his father prompted us to reflect on inherited trauma and how much it silently influences choices.

[Tove Martinsson · Rating 5 out of 5]

Our discussion was silent for a moment after reading the first chapter Tristen’s struggles felt so real, it hit home for several of us personally

[Luce Moretti · Rating 5 out of 5]

I shared with the group that this book made me rethink how we define masculinity. We all talked about the pressure to ‘perform’ and how damaging it can be.

[Nikolaj Jeremiassen · Rating 5 out of 5]

Powerful. Our club agreed this isn’t just a story it’s a mirror for modern men everywhere

[Camila Silva · Rating 5 out of 5]

I admitted in the meeting that Tristen reminded me of my brother. The group nodded; several shared similar observations about men they knew struggling quietly.

[Molly Davis · Rating 5 out of 5]

Definitely worth the read, this a more than just a storyline! What I loved most about this novel was how real it felt in its portrayal of struggles with mental health. It reminded me that therapy isn’t about being “fixed,” but about learning to recognize your own thoughts, feelings, and memories and finding tools to live with them. I connected deeply with the way it showed healing as a process—not a destination, but something ongoing and sometimes circular. That honesty felt both validating and hopeful, and it’s what made the story stay with me.

[Jithendra Jithu · Rating 5 out of 5]

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👉Under the Current by Jared Siler is a compelling psychological novel that examines the emotional cost of striving for perfection in a world that rewards appearances over authenticity. Tristen Rhodes is introduced as a man whose success seems effortless—a polished executive, a respected entrepreneur, someone who has mastered the language of ambition. But as the layers begin to peel back, Siler reveals a man quietly drowning beneath expectations he never chose. The contrast between who Tristen is and who he feels he’s supposed to be sets the foundation for a deeply engaging narrative.

👉The novel thrives on its exploration of the hidden pressures men carry. Tristen’s struggle isn’t loud or dramatic; it’s quiet, persistent, and familiar to anyone who has ever masked their pain in order to keep moving. His unresolved grief, the shadows of a complicated father-son relationship, and the constant hum of impostor syndrome all weave together into an emotional portrait that feels honest and nuanced. Siler handles these themes with sensitivity, offering a rare look at masculinity without bravado or stereotype.

👉One of the standout qualities of the book is its sense of place. The shifting moods of the California coastline reflect the turbulence of Tristen’s inner world—foggy, unpredictable, and at times overwhelming. The ocean becomes a symbol of both danger and renewal, mirroring his emotional journey as he confronts buried memories and uncomfortable truths. These atmospheric details elevate the story, giving it a cinematic intensity that stays with the reader.

👉As Tristen’s internal walls begin to crack, the narrative becomes a powerful meditation on vulnerability. Siler shows that healing is not a moment of clarity but a series of small, difficult choices. Tristen’s willingness to face his fears, revisit the past, and acknowledge his emotional numbness is portrayed with remarkable authenticity. His transformation is not sudden or perfect, but gradual—built on fragile honesty and the courage to stop hiding from himself.

Happy reading 😁 😁

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[G. W .Bookreviewer · Rating 5 out of 5]

Under the Current by Jared Siler is a deep and honest story about a man who is struggling inside even though his life looks perfect from the outside. Tristen Rhodes is successful, confident, and admired, but he is quietly fighting with his emotions, past memories, and the pressure to always look strong. The book clearly shows how men often hide their pain because they feel they must appear tough, and this makes the story very real and relatable. The writing is simple and straightforward, making it easy to understand Tristen’s feelings and his slow journey toward facing his inner truth.

What connected with me personally was how Tristen questions who he really is. Many people, including me, sometimes feel lost between who we are and who we try to be for others. The book made me think about how often we hide our real emotions just to avoid judgment or disappointment. The scenes with the ocean add meaning to the story they show how someone can appear calm on the outside but still have strong waves inside. This made the book feel honest and close to real life, and it helped me relate to the character on a deeper level.

The book also focuses on mental health, grief, and the pressure that comes from family expectations. I liked how the author explained these topics in a simple way without making the story heavy or confusing. Tristen’s healing is shown step by step, and that’s what makes the book strong. It doesn’t rush the emotional process. It shows setbacks, small victories, and the courage it takes to open up. This makes the story easy to understand and easy to connect with for any reader.

I strongly recommend Under the Current to readers who want a meaningful and emotionally honest book. If you enjoy stories about personal growth, inner struggles, and mental health, this book is a great choice. It is also a good read for people who want to understand men’s silent battles or support someone going through emotional stress. This book teaches patience, empathy, and the importance of being true to yourself. It is simple, sincere, and powerful perfect for anyone looking for a book that stays with you even after you finish reading.

[Daniel · Rating 5 out of 5]

There are books that entertain, and then there are books that transform. Under the Current belongs firmly in the second category. Jared Siler writes with a stillness and precision that reminds me of authors like Matt Haig and Blake Crouch philosophical but deeply human.

The story of Tristen, a high performing professional facing the quiet disintegration of his inner life, unfolds like an emotional thriller. The tension doesn’t come from external drama, but from the war within. His relationship with the ocean, his loyal husky, and the people orbiting his carefully controlled life all feel meticulously layered.

I appreciated that Siler doesn’t romanticize vulnerability. Instead, he exposes it as both terrifying and freeing. The dialogue is sharp yet compassionate, the pacing deliberate, and the reflections on masculinity and healing feel urgently needed in today’s world.

This book made me stop scrolling, sit still, and feel something I didn’t realize I’d buried. It’s the kind of novel you recommend quietly to friends, knowing it will reach them when they’re ready to face themselves too.

[Chloe · Rating 5 out of 5]

Under the Current isn’t a loud book it doesn’t shout its message but it reaches you in a quiet, undeniable way. Jared Siler writes with empathy and depth, peeling back the layers of masculinity, ambition, and grief to reveal something raw and real underneath.

Tristen’s story felt achingly familiar to me: a man outwardly successful but inwardly fractured, trying to hold himself together while the world expects him to be invincible. The author doesn’t just describe emotion; he translates it. You can feel the weight in the pauses, the ache in every unspoken thought, the way the ocean becomes both a mirror and a confessional.

What I loved most is how the book challenges the idea that vulnerability is weakness. Siler shows us that courage often looks like simply staying present sitting with discomfort instead of running from it. The writing is crisp, poetic, and deeply cinematic, painting inner turmoil with the same care as a seascape at dusk.

It’s the kind of book that asks you to slow down, breathe, and remember your own humanity. Absolutely beautiful, I’ll be thinking about this one for a long, long time.

[Olivia · Rating 5 out of 5]

Under the Current isn’t just a story, it’s a mirror. Jared Siler explores the unspoken realities of modern masculinity with such honesty that I found myself pausing after nearly every chapter to breathe. Tristen’s internal world feels hauntingly real: the quiet anxiety, the pressure to perform, and the exhaustion that comes from holding everything in.

Siler’s prose is luminous and cinematic. His background in psychology shows through every emotional beat lands with authenticity. What struck me most was how the book captures loneliness in success, and the painful process of learning to feel again after years of numbing yourself. The ocean setting isn’t just beautiful; it’s symbolic vast, merciless, and healing all at once.

This is not a fast-paced novel, but it’s one that rewards patience. Every sentence feels crafted to draw you deeper under the surface. By the end, I wasn’t just reading about Trist I was him, confronting my own reflection. It’s rare for a debut to feel this mature and empathetic. I’ll be thinking about this one for a long time.

[Joshua · Rating 5 out of 5]

Under the Current is one of the most introspective and emotionally intelligent books I’ve read this year. Jared Siler doesn’t just write he observes. Every line feels pulled from real experience, shaped by empathy, and softened by understanding.

Tristen’s journey is one many will recognize the pursuit of perfection, the cost of silence, and the moment you realize the armor you built to protect yourself has also kept love and peace out. The story moves gently but powerfully, much like the ocean that threads through it. There’s a rhythm to the writing sometimes sharp, sometimes meditative that mirrors healing itself: messy, nonlinear, and deeply personal.

The imagery is breathtaking, and Siler’s prose invites reflection rather than judgment. The scenes between Tristen and his dog Shadow broke me in the quietest way possible. This novel isn’t about grand gestures; it’s about stillness, awareness, and choosing to stay when it would be easier to run.

A remarkable, tender work that feels both timeless and needed.

[Calvin · Rating 5 out of 5]

Under the Current is a deeply introspective novel that pulls readers into the hidden emotional world of a man who appears to have everything under control. Tristen Rhodes is introduced as a successful Silicon Valley executive, yet the cracks beneath his polished exterior are revealed with quiet intensity. The story unfolds with a psychological weight that feels intimate and authentic, drawing the reader into his internal conflict.

Jared Siler’s writing is thoughtful and emotionally precise, exploring themes of masculinity, grief, and self-denial without preaching. The novel examines how unspoken expectations and inherited trauma can shape identity over time. Tristen’s struggle feels real and human, making his moments of vulnerability especially powerful.

What lingers most after finishing the book is its message about emotional honesty. Under the Current reminds readers that healing often begins with self-acceptance rather than achievement. It is a moving and reflective read that resonates long after the final page.

[Ethan · Rating 5 out of 5]

What Jared Siler has created with Under the Current feels like both fiction and therapy a story that doesn’t just depict emotional struggle, but lives inside it. It’s rare to see a male protagonist written with such complexity and vulnerability. Tristen’s emotional unraveling is handled with nuance, compassion, and a kind of quiet bravery that lingers long after the final page.

The prose is lyrical yet grounded, full of sensory detail that immerses you completely the salt air, the hum of waves, the silence between thoughts. The ocean becomes a metaphor for everything Siler is trying to say: that healing isn’t linear, and sometimes surrendering is the bravest act of all.

What makes this book special is its honesty. It never tells you what to feel; it simply shows you the cost of not feeling. I closed this book in silence, reflecting on how often we mistake strength for numbness. Under the Current is both a mirror and a balm, an extraordinary debut that deserves attention.

[Jonathan · Rating 5 out of 5]

There’s something deeply human about Under the Current. I didn’t just read it, I felt it. The book captures the exhaustion of holding yourself together while something inside is quietly breaking. Tristen’s journey mirrors so many silent struggles in our modern world: success without peace, love without connection, progress without fulfillment.

Jared Siler writes like someone who has listened carefully to life. His words have empathy without pity, insight without arrogance. The way he weaves psychology into storytelling is seamless. You sense the author’s background, but it never overshadows the narrative it deepens it.

I loved how the ocean serves as both metaphor and refuge throughout the story. It’s vast, cleansing, and dangerous much like the human heart. This book reminded me that it’s okay to pause, to question, to feel everything we’ve been trained to suppress. Quietly powerful and beautifully executed.

[Sarah · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book crept up on me. I started it thinking it would be another story about burnout or modern success, but it turned into something far more intimate. Jared Siler has a rare gift for exploring the quiet corners of the human mind the places where silence hides guilt, grief, and longing.

Tristen’s journey resonated deeply. The way he moves through his life successful on paper but hollow underneath felt heartbreakingly real. Siler’s prose has that subtle rhythm of the ocean itself: calm on the surface, turbulent underneath. The scenes between Tristen and his husky, Shadow, are especially moving.

What makes Under the Current powerful isn’t just its honesty about masculinity; it’s how it reframes strength as the willingness to feel. Every chapter peels back another layer of pretense until all that’s left is the raw pulse of being human. Beautifully written and impossible to forget.

[Ryan · Rating 5 out of 5]

Jared Siler’s Under the Current is a masterclass in quiet storytelling. Instead of relying on big twists, it delivers small, piercing moments of truth that cut straight to the heart. I found myself rereading sentences because they carried so much emotional weight.

Tristen’s inner conflict between who he is and who he’s expected to be is handled with care and realism. The novel explores mental health, isolation, and the illusion of control with psychological depth that feels earned rather than forced. You can tell Siler understands people on a soul level.

The ocean imagery ties everything together beautifully. It’s not just a backdrop but a living metaphor for surrender, fear, and rebirth. I loved that this story doesn’t rush healing; it honors the discomfort of growth. A book that makes you look inward and ask, “What am I still hiding from myself?”

[Samuel · Rating 5 out of 5]

Some books entertain; others feel like meditation. Under the Current is both. Jared Siler’s prose is luminous, every page ripples with insight, memory, and emotion. I don’t think I’ve ever read a novel that felt so deeply alive beneath the surface.

Tristen’s world is meticulously detailed, but what really stays with you is his vulnerability. The novel captures the modern dilemma of appearing whole while quietly falling apart. Through him, Siler reminds us that healing doesn’t happen in grand gestures, it happens in the pauses, the breaths, the moments we dare to face what hurts.

The psychological nuance here is stunning. It’s clear the author understands trauma and identity on a clinical and human level. The writing feels almost therapeutic not in a self help way, but in the way truth can be. It left me both heavy and hopeful. Absolutely breathtaking work.

[Andrew · Rating 5 out of 5]

Few debut novels arrive with this much composure and empathy. Under the Current feels like something written by an author who has lived a dozen lives each one quietly studied and deeply felt. Jared Siler doesn’t just write a story; he writes a state of being.

I was amazed by how much he captures through subtlety. The dialogue, the internal monologue, even the atmospheric descriptions all serve to illuminate what’s unsaid. The pacing mirrors the process of healing slow, deliberate, and filled with resistance.

I especially appreciated how Siler reframes masculinity. There’s no moralizing here, just honest observation. It’s rare to find a book that holds such compassion for its flawed characters while still pushing them toward transformation. It reminded me a bit of Hanya Yanagihara’s A Little Life, but more hopeful. Thoughtful, elegant, and unforgettable.

[Raviteja · Rating 5 out of 5]

This novel captures the quiet desperation that can exist behind outward success. Under the Current presents Tristen Rhodes as a man admired by the world yet disconnected from himself. The story draws readers into his emotional unraveling with a steady and compelling rhythm.

The author skillfully blends psychological tension with lyrical introspection. The contrast between the relentless pace of Silicon Valley and the raw openness of the California coast adds depth to the narrative. Each setting reflects Tristen’s internal struggle, reinforcing the emotional stakes of his journey.

Under the Current stands out as a story about courage in its most vulnerable form. It offers a compassionate look at self-discovery and the cost of emotional repression. This is a novel that encourages reflection and rewards careful reading.

[Tejasri · Rating 5 out of 5]

Under the Current is a quiet yet powerful exploration of identity and emotional survival. Tristen Rhodes is not portrayed as a dramatic figure but as a man shaped by expectations and unresolved pain. His journey feels grounded and relatable, making the story deeply engaging.

The novel’s strength lies in its emotional honesty. Jared Siler approaches masculinity with nuance, challenging the idea that strength requires emotional distance. The writing is sharp and reflective, allowing readers to sit with discomfort rather than rush toward easy answers.

This book leaves a lasting impression through its sincerity. It offers a thoughtful examination of what it means to live authentically. Under the Current is both reflective and resonant, making it a meaningful read for anyone interested in character-driven fiction