4.25 stars rounded down
This story is profoundly touching. While it is chock full of humor and sweetness, it also packs an emotional punch, touching on many sensitive topics. This fantasy romance takes place almost entirely in the Afterlife so what happens when a soul dies is explored, not just for the FMC. The world is immense and crafted carefully with attention to detail. There are souls, denizens of the Afterlife who were born there, gods and goddesses, an entire universe of entities and belief systems represented. The author does include trigger warnings and some are barely mentioned while others, like religious trauma, are delved into more deeply and continue throughout the book. The author originally created this material as skits I think on TikTok and YouTube, which are still up from what I understand.
Written in third person, dual POV. No ow/om drama and both are experienced (H hadn’t been with anyone in years and h had only casual relationships but had been sick more recently).
Some themes/tropes:
☆ A full life lived after death
☆ Character healing and growth
☆ Families made from more than flesh and blood
☆ Laughter and tears, sometimes at the same time
☆ Loss and grief, including of what you thought your life would have
☆ War
☆ A sentient house named Carl
☆ A furry sidekick because animals are in the Afterlife too
☆ Positive female and male friendships
The story opens with Lily (h) being diagnosed with terminal cancer. There aren’t many chapters with her illness before she’s in the Afterlife and learning about her options, how judgement works, and what the Afterlife will be. As she explores, she’s drawn to Hell and offers to help them with the management of the initial intake of getting souls to their proper places, thus the Hellp Desk is formed.
Some readers may not warm up to Lily as much because she has “not like other souls” energy and almost immediately universally beloved and admired where ever she goes in the Afterlife. I thought she was fantastic with a big heart, strong moral code, compassionate, and willing to get her hands dirty when it mattered. She’s also a solid main character for the author to use to convey some of the messages and bigger meanings that I felt were represented in this story. Because it is very lighthearted the majority of the time, but even in the light moments, there are deep conversations happening about life, how one treats others, boundaries, consent, etc.
Lily joins a multi-player game and begins a back and forth banter with Beleth (H) who is a Prince of Hell and general of some demon legions. Bel’s also the greenest flag who adores his nieces and nephews, has a giving heart, a hilarious repertoire of dad jokes he can lay down, and he has badass wings and a tail. I liked Lily a lot, but Bel’s the best and he made it on to my favorite heroes list with ease. Bel’s got some unaddressed trauma related to being left behind and there is a bit of tenseness as these two have sparkling chemistry and attraction over whether a relationship would be limited because Lily has the option as a soul to reincarnate at some point.
How Bel and Lily take the time to become close friends, nurturing a lovely and supportive relationship was perfect. Then when the steam starts and they’re officially together, whew. There is steam before the 50% mark and closer to the end, there is some tail action too. I also appreciated that the spicy times aren’t just for the sake of spice, they felt meaningful to the relationship. Probably because this story is overflowing with emotional intimacy and connection.
Many aspects of the Afterlife are explored from the coffee shops to the training fields to dealing with the souls. Eventually Lily comes across a child soul who she becomes a guardian of and Sharkie was so precious. Her hurts and fears broke my heart, even as the care from everyone else built her back up and offered her safety. This was a theme throughout as well, the support and love that’s offered (don’t get me wrong, some souls do get punished because they deserve it, but some also get therapy and assistance). Other amazing side characters include Lucifer, other Princes of Hell, Bel’s childhood best friend and leader of Level Nine, Persephone, Odin, and more. The cast is huge and scenes with large groups were typically hilarious.
My only hang-up with this story, and why it’s 4 stars and not 5, is that it is so long. In my opinion, it should have been condensed and tightened up some to help with flow. Some of the repetition could also have been cut out. Some scenes come at a particular topic from a different viewpoint or direction than a prior scene might, but it’s still revisiting that topic. As much as I was in love with the premise and characters, this took forever for me to finish because I literally couldn’t focus on it for longer periods of time. This one’s also not easily digestible with its weightiness and meaning but I know it’s going to stick with me for a while. Additionally, sometimes the open communication and addressing of emotions honestly feels a tad too easy, but conversely, there IS tons of communication, which we love.
One of the themes I mention above is war and the Afterlife is in peril at one point. It’s a very intense section of the story and probably the parts that moved the fastest for me. There’s danger, fears for loved ones, survivor’s guilt with elements of PTSD, and more healing (physically and emotionally). There’s also some beautifully written scenes that were heart-wrenching, in a good way.
The ending of the story is a HEA and leaves you feeling gloriously satisfied with a full heart. I don’t want to spoil anything, but I also loved that Lev with his attention to detail and quirkiness came through so big. I don’t think this book will be for everyone because of the themes and the denseness. I laughed, cried, swooned, cried some more, oohhh’d and ahhh’d. If any of this sounds like it might be interesting, I’d say give it a chance. This is a debut and the author’s planning a trilogy of interconnected standalones and I can’t wait to continue in this amazing world…even if book 2 might take me a whole other week to finish too.