Spoilers/TW ahead
Ok skip this review if you don’t want to read spoilers or triggers. I really contemplated not leaving this review or rating because I love and adore all things Sadie Kincaid. I devoured everything she published immediately as soon as I found her and like everyone else I wait ever so impatiently for each new release. But this book, was my least favorite unfortunately. I’m not used to Sadie writing such weak h’s and I was appalled at how weak Mia was. Like sick over it. And Lorenzo, as much as I wanted to love him, he was selfish and cruel and did and said unforgivable things to Mia IMO. I’ve never really been a fan of the widower trope so I knew going in it would be rough for me, also the Dom/sub and bdsm is not my fave either. Not when it’s constant and the only intimacy the couple shores after the established the Dom/ sub relationship. The constant “scenes“ are just not it for me. And that is a personal preference so not at all a reason for this rating.
That would be that whole widower role and weak h and cruel H thing going on. Not only was Mia abused by her husband for a decade, and Lorenzo knew that, saw it, but then he abuses her too just in a difficult way. And yeah we get it your a sad man after losing your wife 2 years prior, that is no excuse for the way he treated Mia over and over. Also, the cruel stuff he said to her after she took him back …I could never forgive, and I didn’t feel like he groveled enough or suffered for his actions at all. She always just rolled over for him and they fkd and that’s the end. And I’m sorry but the way he explained and expected no jealousy with other women but his ex’s kept approaching and were creeping and Mia just supposed to be silent because she would get punished if not. Yuck. Dom/sub or not that is so not cool. How would Lorenzo feel if Mia had and ex rub on her dress like his ex’s rubbed on his suit, and then the contact of cheek kisses by both of them. He would lose his mind. And Mia being so happy to meet them? Give me a damn break! Seriously. Wanting to be friends with them? Omg. No. Just no. But none of that infuriated me as much as the wedding day. Mind you, he NEVER told her she wasn’t second best like he said, that still bothers me. Not even his internal dialogue acknowledges it. But the wedding day, he couldn’t even give her that without making it a huge thing about Anya!? His behavior, his internal dialogue and his meeting with her right before she walked down the aisle! I’m furious that Sadie couldn’t give Mia this one damn day without her having Anya shadow. Yeah I get that she knew she would always hold a piece of his ❤️, ok but damn Mia deserves so much better.3 kids later and he still so torn up that he wants to think about and talk about his dead wife and can’t even give Mia one day solely celebrating her. Like I’ve never been more disappointed for and with 2 characters in my 44 years. No matter how you write it, and try to justify it, Mia got the short end and is still years later and will always be second best to Lorenzo and she allows it and seemingly celebrates in it. After all the ways she has suffered already she still getting the crap end. She was so desperate for love and attention without physical abuse that she clings to less than what she deserves and everyone just turns a blind eye and goes with it, including her own cousin. Books with the widow trope are always a challenge to write because we never want to read about our h being second best or being settled for and unfortunately, this book dug into that so deep and glorified it. Also, we the readers are sick of reading weak FMC’s in 2023. We’ve been weak for all eternity and we are sick of it. And this isn’t how Sadie usually writes the FMC’s so it was a double whammy to read. I love her books because of the strong FMC’s. Lorenzo should have grovel more and for much longer both times he abandoned her and she got hurt and even arrested. Like what kind of a Dom are you even. Both times you crush her after using her then tossing her away like trash and she goes through catastrophic trauma. And then it seemed like his selfish childish behavior was just wanting his toy back so he demanded it back at his leisure. Honestly I wanted Dante and Max and Joey to go upside his head so many times and demand he stop his crap but they all just walked on eggshells and co-signed his crap. Everyone goes through trauma but that is never an excuse for treating people like they are crap. Over and over at that.
Anyways, I love Sadie so much. I hate to not have a better review or personal opinion about this book. She is my automatic add to cart on release day author. She was actually pivotal in getting me back into reading last year. I stumbled upon her books and that lit a fire in me and since I’ve read a book a day. I don’t ever want to disrespect her talents. She is an amazing author. This book just wasn’t for me. It left me feeling ick.