"I used to feel guilty about behaving badly, and I met Bill, and it feels so much better." - Harvey Weinstein
I noticed a lot of the reviews here mentioned not finishing the book or reading it in its entirety. I did, slowly working my way through the alphabetized entries over three months. It didn't take long before I realized this was an incredibly strange read on several levels.
To begin, I was raised with Bill Murray and have appreciated his work from a young age onward. His persona has always been acerbic but cool as a cucumber, with an extra dose of melancholy as he has gotten older. As a kid I always equated him to be a funny but relatively calm presence, always sharply on point or ahead of everyone else.
Perhaps the author, Robert Schnakenberg, started the project feeling the same way? I'm not sure. In the end his reviews of Murray's films are fairly low with a few exceptions. Elsewhere he writes quite honestly about Murray's life and career, and I wonder if his interviews and research were kind of like Howard Sounes' experience with Lou Reed: ultimately realizing this guy you like so much isn't who you thought.
To be honest, I was already aware of Murray's tumultuous second divorce, which included allegations of adultery, abandonment, striking his wife and threatening to kill her, then ultimately being barred from seeing his kids by a local judge. I also knew about him physically threatening a female producer on the set of What About Bob? and throwing her into a lake in front of everyone. However, these aren't just blips on a timeline, but a pattern that has persisted throughout his life.
As I read this book I shared anecdotes with my friends and just how shocking and off-putting they were, simply because they were beyond belief. Did you know that Murray holds grudges against people that go all the way back to grade school? That he has screamed at crews he worked with and verbally abused his co-stars (he even demanded that someone get fired because he didn't like his cologne)? Did you know he tried to strangle a fellow comedian against a wall because he talked during one of his live shows? How about that one time he spontaneously threw a beer bottle into a crowd during a golf game and it struck and cut up an audience member's face? Yikes. There are also accounts of Murray feuding with countless people he has worked with, trashing his trailer, and talking about how his style of fatherhood is blatantly ignoring his children.
It's also hard to be impressed by anecdotes where he clearly demands being paid as much as possible for as little work as possible. When he was offered $50,000 for voice work he said, "I don’t even leave the fuckin’ driveway for that kind of money." He also has a habit of blaming others for projects that don't go well while bragging that the ones he passed on have made other actors' entire careers. After a while reading that stuff gets tiresome.
On top of this there are repetitious stories about Murray being elusive, unreliable and somewhat hostile towards his collaborators and fans. If he says he will work on a film with someone, it doesn't mean he will show up (for example, he went MIA before the shoot for James L. Brooks' How Do You Know, causing the production to scramble and replace him with Jack Nicholson at the last minute). If he does show up, he often goes missing during work and people have to track him down in order to get him back to set, which causes the production to lose time and get off track. The overall feeling you get is that he can be as unprofessional as he wants to simply because he knows he can get away with it. He's Bill Murray, after all, and everyone just has to deal with it and move on.
Don't get me wrong- does this mean that Murray isn't funny anymore? That's not what I'm saying. His work speaks for itself. Still, I found a lot of these accounts impossible to ignore and changed the way I thought about him. With just about every page of this book I began to think, "Okay, so this guy seems like an asshole." Then further along I was like, "Jesus, Bill Murray is such an asshole..." and finally, "Oh my God, this guy is a total fucking asshole." I had no idea his behavior was so unpredictable and hostile, but you just have to read his own interviews, accounts from people who have worked with him or his own Wikipedia page to find sources that back these things up.
At the end of the book there are a collection of quotes from people who have known and worked with Murray. A lot of them are complimentary and funny but describe him in these same terms. He's an impossible "asshole" but they love him anyway. After all, there is a charm in Murray that can't be denied. When I got to the last page and read the quote (above) from the recently incarcerated Harvey Weinstein I couldn't help but laugh at what an unintentionally sour note the book was ending on. As a culture we choose our legends, and it's kind of disappointing that Murray is like many other "legends" of his generation- basically a guy we allow to get away with everything because of things he did decades ago.