All an Act

by Leslie McAdam

Genres: M M Romance

434 pages, Kindle Edition

Published April 20, 2026

About the author

Leslie McAdam is a California girl who loves romance and well-defined abs. She lives in a drafty old farmhouse on a small orange tree farm in Southern California with her husband and two small children. Leslie's first published book, The Sun and the Moon, won a 2015 Watty, which is the world's largest online writing competition. She's gone on to receive additional literary awards and has been featured in multiple publications, including Cosmopolitan.com. Her books have been Top 100 Bestsellers on both Amazon and Apple Books. Leslie is employed by day but spends her nights writing about the men of your fantasies.

USA Today interview: http://happyeverafter.usatoday.com/20...

Cosmopolitan: https://www.cosmopolitan.com/sex-love...

Reviews

[Elizabeth · Rating 3 out of 5]

I have to keep from running my fingers along his jawline, his Adam’s apple, his lips. I want to touch him. And I really fucking can’t. My eyes grow hot. Why do I do this to myself? Because he’s my weakness. I tell myself I’ll stay away from him, but I can’t.

High school jock/nerd MM romance where two queer, left handed boys who grew up next to each other and also share a birthdate reconnect by doing a school play together. Does it matter that they are both left handed and share a birthday? Not really, but those are the kind of details this book offers up in droves. Normally I'd find them charming, but the story dragged for me. If you've read the blurb, you know exactly what to expect... there are no surprises!

I always feel like I’m walking a fine line around my family, trying not to veer into any territory that will make anyone upset. I scrunch into myself, trying not to be too much. Then, maybe, I can survive.

I personally found this book to be very dull. I wasn't able to muster up much emotion or connection to either MC- other than some disgust with Lachlan for treating Isak poorly in the first third of the book. The middle was a lot of back and forth, will-they-or-won't-they, hot and cold nonsense, and the last third was where everything should've come together but just fell flat. Lachlan's family was semi-awful, some of the other students were semi-homophobic, and as a result the book had zero stakes. The spice was similarly tepid although I didn't mind that so much because they are high school kids. The blurb and tropes sounded good but overall, it was tedious and unenjoyable for me. I hope others have a better experience than I did.

I think that’s why I like acting so much. I can put on another person’s skin and see what it’s like to live as someone else. To have things happen that will never occur in real life. ‌‌‌‌‌​‌​‌‌‌​‌‌​‌​‌‌ Like falling in love with the person who’s perfect for me.

Rating: 2.5 stars
Angst: 1.5/5
Steam: 1.5/5

I received an advance copy of this book and this is my honest review.

[lakshmi · Rating 3 out of 5]

this hurt but not in the way that I thought it would - which is great😭

honestly this was good. It dealt with grief and anxiety very well. This book is NOT SLOW BURN. The relationship ( sexual) starts very early but the yearning and angst in this is purely around them confessing and finally getting to a place both physically and mentally to fully commit to each other and it was well worth the wait. I loved reading about them becoming friends again and I really liked reading about their families and the contrast between their lives at home.

I’m definitely looking forward to reading more by this author in the future 💗

[Julia (bookish.jka) · Rating 4 out of 5]

"Lachlan reaches inside his shirt, and at the sight of his collarbone, my breath hitches. Why am I like this? Even a glimpse of his neck awakens something in me. Like I'm a Victorian gentleman seeing a lady's ankle."

Awwww All an Act: MM Romance by Leslie McAdam was such a cute and wholesome read, with a fiesty side dish of angsty first love and first times, and a big splash of coming of age and coming out. There are some tough themes too, but overall just a perfect summer read!

What To Expect:

❣️MM romance
❣️High school (but of age)
❣️First times
❣️First love
❣️Opposites attract
❣️Secret relationship
❣️Small town
❣️It's always been you
❣️HEA

3.5 stars rounded up

[Dani (Daniiireads) · Rating 5 out of 5]

4.5 ⭐️

I knew going into All An Act that I was going to love this. First, I haven’t read a book by Leslie that I haven’t liked, and secondly, the jock x emo trope will forever be a favorite.

What I did not expect though was to cry. A LOT. My poor baby Lachlan deserves all the love and hugs 🥹😩 I loved his character development and courage to live and love out loud, and this Isak was there for him throughout all of it.

[Sarah · Rating 2 out of 5]

2.5⭐️

So this is the story of Lachlan and Isak who were best friends when they were little until there were not. We follow them in high school where Lachlan is the jock and Isak is the emo nerd. Isak is out and proud while Lachlan hide his true self especially cus his uncle is homophobic. Also, Lachlan's family is shitty so he finds any excuse not to go home, which ultimately lead him to audition for the spring musical alongside Isak.

The book is okay-ish. I liked it but didn't love it. I did not have tons of feelings to the story or felt connected to the MCs on a deep level. I was just meh.

I usually don't like books that start right away with spice. But here the author warned the readers about that. And I'm glad the book is not filled with spice as that was my concern seeing spice from the beginning.

I liked that we didn't get actual sex until later in the book. The spice itself was somehow moderate. But I did not like that Isak had somewhat a lot of experience with sex and how he talked about his joy for giving blowjobs and the intensity of riding position during sex. It rubbed me the wrong way. So, the sex between them didn't feel special.

I liked how Lachlan never judged Isak for his style. But the back and forth between them got me frustrated a bit. Once they got together, they were kinda cute. Though, I still didn't feel that much chemistry between the two.

Also, what's up with that girl Becky? Like who is she exactly? And Sophia being thrusted against Lachlan a few times?!🙄

Though, I did relate a lot to Lachlan not wanting to go back home at the end of school day. As a high school teacher, believe me when I say that lots of students feel that way. My after school hours got filled with students, not because they need academic help, but because they want to get more time to avoid going back to their shitty home life, which is very sad tbh.

Overall, It's not a bad read but nothing life altering.

[Julia Toth · Rating 5 out of 5]

Awwwww, this was sooooo good! I loved this coming of age story of Lachlan and Isak!
This was cute, sweet and funny in places, but it also got heavy when we learned what was happening in Lachlan's home. I love these babies so much! I loved that Isak just really wanted to protect Lachlan and carry the weight from his shoulders. I loved Lachlan's little scheming to be able to spend more time with Isak.
Young love is so beautiful and I'm so happy we could go on this journey with the boys. It was great to see that Isak's love and respect gave so much strength and courage to Lachlan. I also feel like Lachlan was in the perfect frame of mind to receive the encouragement from Isak and to be able to feel more empowered and want to take more control of his life.

I really enjoyed reading this and the epilogue was just such a great way to end their story.
If you like hurt/comfort, a Jock and his emo boy neighbor and a school play that changes everything, then this is the book for you!

[kaye taz · Rating 3 out of 5]

3.7 ⭐️
spice: 🌶️🌶️🌶️/5
format: ebook

i will admit that the entire reason i picked this up was because someone told me there were SIX conan gray songs on the playlist—and that will get my attention every time. but i am really happy i read this.

lachlan and isak were adorable. this was a very sweet high school romance that balanced out some heavier themes of abuse/homophobia and had really good mental health rep. i really enjoyed the plot and how these two came to be closer after kind of dancing around one another their entire lives. and i really loved how lachlan slowly but surely got over his fears of loving isak out loud.

i do think some of the dialogue and certain scenes were a little cringey at times. but it is high school and it felt true to that for the most part.

[ShePetty · Rating 4 out of 5]

Advanced Reader Copy Review

Isak is the cute emo boy/theater kid in eyeliner, skirts and Doc Marten boots. He may not hang out in the popular crowd but has found his people among the artistic, authentically self-expressed.

Lachlan appears cliche as the gorgeous, blonde, muscular, quarterbacking senior class president. He’s outgoing, always smiling, and “would flirt with a rock.”

As seniors these two appear to not even know each other. They haven’t said two words to each other all through high school. But sadly they were inseparable best friends until they were 12 and have lived next door to each other since they were born. And they were even born on the same day. How cute is that?

Somehow when they go to senior retreat they “mysteriously” end up in the same cabin with MIA roommates who sneak off to their girlfriends’ cabin the whole time. When Isak’s best fiend hears he’s rooming with Lachlan she says:

“Sorry. But you’re rooming with the quarterback?” I nod. She puts a hand on her hip. “How are you going to be able to beat off to him if he’s in the next bed?”

Cue the spice 🫦

We soon find out that Isak has a loving and supportive home life but Lachlan hasn’t been so lucky. Not only was there tragedy in his early life but what’s left of his family is indifferent and abusive. As authentic as Isak is, Lachlan must pretend, putting on a happy face to hide the pain. While Isak can be comfortable being out, Lachlan has been made to internalize his drunk, abusive uncle’s homophobia, and is left struggling and alone. He obsessively watches his countdown clock waiting for the day he can leave for college and get the hell away from his horrible home life.

Eventually they end up as the lead roles in the high school musical and it is while working through their “stage-kiss” they begin to realize they’ve been thinking about and missing each other for years.

This was the sweetest book with the sweetest boys. At first I thought we were going to have a bully romance but before long I realized we were really dealing with two cinnamon roles. Slowly as Lachlan resumes his friendship with Isak he begins to trust him with the secrets of his horrible home life and divulges the things he must do to deal with the overwhelming emotions he’s not allowed to express.

There were so many things I loved about this story. I loved to see the representation of support: Isak’s mom, the theater kids and teachers, the mm romance author, and eventually even classmates and Lachlan’s best jock friend.

I really wanted to give Lachlan a hug through most of the book. I was on the edge of my seat as the boys got closer and I waited for something awful to happen and spoil their sunshine. While I did shed a few tears, Leslie McAdam didn’t traumatize me like I was worried she might.

This was a great read with the best tension and spice and the perfect ratio of spice to plot. These two were the sweetest boys. I want the best for them and they’ll be on my mind for a while. ❤️

Highly recommend.

[Heather · Rating 4 out of 5]

“Lach, you’re an elephant who was raised chained to a stake. Every year, you grew, but you stayed chained. Now you’re so much stronger than that stake—except you don’t know it, because you were trained to believe you’re less than you are.”

This was so lovely. A coming-of-age story with details of emotional and physical abuse, self-harm, and homophobia. It’s a slow-burn story, but it’s a process Lachlan needs to work through to be confident enough with who he is and who he wants to be and to ignore his uncle’s voice in his head telling him he’s all wrong. Because of this, the first few parts do seem to be repetitive, but with each chapter, Lachlan gets more confident and happier.

Isak was perfect for him. He is an amazing character. Kind, patient, and loving towards Lachlan. He’s had the opposite experience with his upbringing, and it shows in his confident attitude and style. He has his own vulnerabilities, but like with Lachlan, he works through them.

There are a few time skips in the epilogue, but we don’t get any update on the uncle, and I’m mixed on that. Part of me thinks he doesn’t deserve any more page space, but the part of me that loves Karma wants to see his fall from grace.

Love the pictures dotted throughout. It reminds me of Danmei books.

Overall, I really enjoyed it.

………………………………………………..

I got an ARC from GRR, and this is my honest review.

[jules]

DNF at 77%. There is absolutely zero reasons for an MM romance book about two high school kids to be 400+ pages. That’s just way too damn long.

That said, I’m gonna echo what other reviewers pointed out: how did two recently-turned 18 year olds have this much sexual experience?? Why was Isak having anal sex before his senior year of HS?? I get that teens experiment (and not everyone was a virgin throughout school like me lmao) but they both had been with many people of many different genders and it just came across as extremely unrealistic and honestly kinda icky to me. In the intro the author mentions she almost made Isak and Lachlan into college students and I wish she had, because then I’d have probably finished reading this thing and I wouldn’t be sitting here at 2 in the morning writing this review.

[Laur · Rating 4 out of 5]

Review of an Advanced Reader Copy

⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ (3.8 rounded up)

This isn’t the all consuming read as fast as you can type book, it’s more of a go slow and appreciate the build-up.

4 Key Elements:
> MM Romance
> Forced proximity (ish)
> High school jock x ‘weird’ kid
> Childhood friends to strangers to lovers

Three words:
Butterflies, heart-clenching, tension

Mini synopsis: Childhood best friends turned almost strangers room together during a trip away with school. Slowly they explore who they are now, what tore them apart in the first place and contemplate their future.

Recommend? Yes!💛

Books get an average of these scores:
Reread-ability: ⭐️⭐️⭐️
Main Characters: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
Supporting Cast: ⭐️⭐️⭐️
Plot: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
Emotional hit: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

Main characters categorising:
> Isak: Chaotic Good
> Lachlan: Lawful Neutral

Song for the book’s vibe: Spend the Night - Dan Zimmerman
Side Note: The playlist vibes alongside this book were so good. I especially loved seeing The Lumineers on there!

Did the advertised microtropes hit?
* Wearing each other’s clothes
Adorable. Definitely hit!
* No kissing (at first):
Killed me seeing their turmoil but it hit
* Backward baseball cap kiss:
Wasn’t my favourite thing, in the sense that I wouldn’t have thought about it if I didn’t read it on the tropes list
* Cuddling:
It was there, and it was sweet.
* “He is my safe place”:
I mean there’s not a single time this trope doesn’t hit, I love it
* He brings him soup:
The cutest shit
* They sing to each other:
I love the lil emo and the jock singing to each other, it’s ✨everything✨

Some random non-spoiler thoughts:
> I loved that the first chapter was a glimpse of the future and then it went back to the start of the story
> I wasn’t sure how I’d feel about a book set in high school as I usually read college and older, but I really loved it
> I just want to protect Lachlan from the world
> The art for this book is sooo pretty, my favourite is between chapters 45 & 46
> Their first kiss made me squeal out loud
> The begging scene is so delicious
> Isak should legitimately be a therapist
> The epilogue was phenomenal and the last flash forward had me feeling all kinds of emotional


**Spoiler filled thoughts coming on release day!**

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-Spoilers below-
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Favourite character: I couldn’t decide
Why: My sweet little mess who I love and want to protect (Lach) vs the coolest most true-to-themselves person I’ve ever seen. They’re so good together.

Favourite quote:
The thing is, living someone else’s goals is never going to work. You cannot mold yourself into a person someone else will find acceptable in every way—not and truly be alive.

Things I loved:
> Isak monologuing in dramatic fashion like he’s narrating his own life. Instant “yes” for me.
> The voyeurism between them
> I love Isak’s Mum
> The notes to self had me cackling
> The metaphorical and literal closet
> Their joint love of sandwiches
> The descriptions of Isak’s outfits
> The tattoos

Things I'd change:
> There’s not enough words in the english language to explain my aversion to the vape pen

Read-along:
> 13%
Oh man, this book is already making my stomach tight with anxiety with the yelling and the anger
> 15%
Ahhhhhhh not Lachlan sneakily planning to be rooming with Isak
> They’re so sweet, I’m getting all warm and fuzzy
> 21%
I know it’s like the whole plot, but the way Lachlan won’t touch Isak breaks my heart
> 23%
There’s some wild part of me that’s super relieved Isak is holding back and barely responding to Lachlan’s texts
> 27%
The countdown is breaking my heart
> 29%
My baby sits in a ditch when he feels like there’s nowhere else he can be? Oh my hod my heart
> 38%
How odd for Lachlan to call Isak a boy who barely talks to him, when he’s the reason
> 43%
I’m feeling all twisty and sick over this. I kind of love and hate them being so close to each other
THEYRE KISSING OMFG
> 45%
Scoffed so hard at Lachlan being possessive
> 52%
They’re *flirting* and I’m getting whiplash but I love it
> 56%
Lachlan sitting himself down for a serious talk with himself, I love him😭🥹
> 58%
Isak initially saying no and standing his ground was wild but also incredible
> 69%
Pride night after their cute little dinner omg
> 71%
Wendolyn, my queen
> 82%
I lowkey don’t understand Lachlan’s fear about people teasing when he’ll be leaving soon
> 88%
LACHLAN JAMIESON DOYLE THAT IS AN INSANE KISS TO DO ON STAGE
> 93%
He turned off his countdown 🥹😭
> 96%
Joint prom kings? Ahh so sweet!
> 99%
HUSBANDS💛

Other lines I loved:
> I lock up my time with Isak in the janitor’s closet, where it needs to stay, and run my hands through my hair, smoothing it down.
> Goth Elmo. That’s Zanita.
> My bedroom window faces his, and I can see in there like it’s a television set just for me.
> I know I’m being ridiculous, but Lachlan is mine. He’s been mine since we were ten years old. Earlier, even. I only wish he knew that, too.
> “omni luci est umbra,” and it stuck with me. There is a shadow to every light.
> Please stay, please stay. I can’t explain why, but please stay.
> “Hey, we did it!” I cheer.
“I’m so happy, I could kiss you,” Lachlan whispers.
I do a double take. “Wait, what?”
He winks and goes to the ladder.
> Isak has no idea how many people I’ve kept from teasing him about wearing “girl’s clothes.” By now, I think pretty much everyone knows they’d better keep their mouths shut, or they’ll face my ire.
> The Hammond family home has a happy glow. My house is too bright in some areas and pitch black in others.
> Browser History is a new sci-fi musical about a world where deleting anything digital deletes it in real life. If everyone deletes a photo of someone, they die, or if it’s photos of a place, it disappears. The idea is that everything is ephemeral.
> What am I scared of? Every single damn thing. I’m scared of being alone and of being with people. Of being myself and of losing myself.
> Even though it’d be torture spending that much time with Lachlan, it’s the kind of torture I’d relish.
> I kissed him, and I loved it. I loved how he held my face and kissed me back harshly, like he was punishing me and taking care of me at the same time.
> My heart leaps. “You’re worth celebrating,” I say, and I don’t care that the entire cast can hear me.
> Do I know anyone else whose favorite color is silver? But now that I think about it, it’s a pretty amazing color. It’s the color of his car and the shiny bellies of fish and stars and machines and all kinds of mechanical things. And the rock he gave me.
> In rehearsal, he smirks before he kisses his thumb. His eyes are looking less sad. This time I don’t forget my next line. But it takes me a beat too long to recite it.
> What are my options here? Stick to my guns and be late to school, because the bus will take a while, or swallow my pride and grab a ride from the very kind mom of the guy I like? The guy who thought of me even though I was a jerk to him?
> But I guess I’m asking if you’d try being mine.” Lachlan’s cheeks redden. “You know. On a trial basis.”
“A trial basis,” I echo, crossing my arms. “Of belonging to Lachlan Doyle.”
He gives me this earnest, imploring smile and nods. “Yeah, like boyfriends.”
> He kisses me like I’m exactly what he’s been wishing for.
> “You have no idea how safe I feel with you. You’re the only one who sees … sees me. Ever.”
> I compromise by scooching my chair closer, putting us shoulder to shoulder. Honestly, I’d be good if we never stopped being in contact with each other.
> it’s my turn to play with his curls. His hair makes me happy. Isak makes me happy.
> “I fucking love your mouth,” I whisper. “And the slope of your nose and the freckles on your face. Your kind eyes and the way your mouth tilts upward. How you pick up snails to save them and share sandwiches with me. How you’ve always been there. How I feel safe with you.”
> Lachlan kisses me slow and long. In public. Claiming me for all to see.
> “Problem is, I still have feelings. I wish I didn’t. I think things would be easier if I didn’t.”
“No, they wouldn’t. Feelings mean you’re human.”
> Here in our little dining room, Lachlan’s the most animated I’ve ever seen him. Like he’s absolutely ecstatic to sit at a beat-up wooden table with my mom and me and eat mac and cheese and she hugs me for the first time in years.
> “But what is different about the scene is that our hero, Lachlan Doyle, is wearing Isak Hammond’s clothes as well, and not just Isak’s trademark snap-front cap. No, the senior class president and captain of the football team is clad in black jeans and one of Isak’s black lace dress shirts, and Isak has to physically restrain himself from licking him.” … “But I’m going to do it anyway. And what happened to your narration?” “Meh, I’ve lost interest. I’m more interested in you.”
> I come home to Isak and Rochelle’s house, which I already think of as my real home. I didn’t grow up under this roof, but this is where people love, understand, and accept me.
> it’s the first day of the rest of our lives. And somehow, I get to face it with the love of my life by my side.
> “And is it everything you hoped for?”
“Yeah,” I say, looking into his gorgeous, kind eyes. “It’s exactly what I hoped for.”

[fortheloveofmmromancebooks · Rating 5 out of 5]

Lachlan Doyle lives in hell, his house is full of fighting, abuse and slurs. He lives with his Uncle, Grandma, Mother and Sister and none of them get along. His Uncle, the town mayor is the most homophobic man behind closed doors. He told Lachlan to stay away from Isak, his neighbour as it didn't look good on him, with consequences if not.

Isak Hammond lives next door to hell, once upon a time, he and Lachlan were best friends and inseparable. Even though he doesn't know why Lachlan stopped talking to him, he still feels something for him.

When both Isak and Lachlan are cast in the lead roles in the end of high school play, they are forced to spend more and more time together and Lachlan realises there are more important things than pleasing his family. Isak and Lachlan slowly start to fall in love, but they must appease Uncle Norm.

This standalone from Leslie McAdam is equally beautiful and heart wrenching. Lachlan needed to be wrapped in one giant hug and be cared for, and the person for this was Isak, showing him what life can be like. The pain Lachlan felt (please read trigger warnings) came across so stark in the descriptions. Isak, knew who he was but still doubted his unique style until Lachlan gave him the confidence.
Their love was such a tender and caring one, that I sighed happily reading it, and their epilogue was gorgeous.
I also HATED Norm, he was detestable, and the brilliance of Leslie’s writing made me loathe him even more.

[Dee · Rating 5 out of 5]

Daring Greatly to Love

Dee’s Grade: A+

Lachlan and Isak are so perfect together. These two are young but discover the power of finding safety and comfort is the person you love while taking steps to heal together. Isak is sunshine to Lachlan’s Golden retriever who is mistreated in his home but flourishes under loving care.

[Karen · Rating 4 out of 5]

I want to give Lachlan Doyle the biggest hug and be his very best friend. He’s a super guy. Isak Hammond has lusted after Lach for years. He may have even watched him get naked in his bedroom a time or two - not in a creepy way - they are neighbours.

Isak is the sweet emo boy who loves to wear skirts and lace. He’s one hundred percent confident in his skin and who he is. He’s from a loving home and has amazing friends. Best of all, he loves haribo cola bottles. I think he might be my spirit animal - I love Happy Cola.

‘The goth boy is true sunshine. At least, if he stayed anywhere near the way he was as a kid - and I’m pretty sure he has. He reminds me that the shadow isn’t all there.’

Lachlan, has an awful family. They are permanently angry with each other. The house is like a war zone. Lach just wants to be loved and feel cared for. My poor, brave quarterback.

I loved how Lachlan’s character develops through the story and how the love of Isak helps him become himself.

‘Sometimes the bravest thing we can do is show the world who we truly are.’

Leslie McAdam writes Lachlan’s story beautifully. He’s a troubled soul, in a crappy situation until Isak shows him the love and affection he deserves.

[Donna · Rating 5 out of 5]

This was a beautiful story of coming of age, accepting who you are, having the courage to know what you need and reaching for it despite the possible cost, realizing when you need help then seeking it out, and finding a family that accepts you without reservations, taking you in and making you feel safe.

Both Isak and Lachlan have their own journeys, friends as preteens, torn apart by a homophobic uncle who fills Lachlan’s brain with words which won’t let go, then brought back into each other’s orbit as seniors. Next door neighbors their entire lives, sharing a birthday, inseparable in their early years, they were estranged for years, but they are pulled back together into a complicated relationship beginning on a senior class retreat away from the school in October of their senior year. The pull between them is a strong as it was when they were best friends years ago, and Lach wants to spend time with Isak. Little does he know the connection that they will make and the impact it will have on his life this school year.

Lachlan is the product of an abusive home life, verbally beaten down by his uncle and the constant tumult of arguments within his family. Not willing to participate in the chaos, he withdraws and finds other less acceptable ways of dealing with his stress. Away from home, his life is an act, one he has perfected as the perfect jock, class president, friend to all, cheerful, polite, helpful, never letting the mask slip. He seeks any way possible to avoid going home as long as possible, eventually auditioning for the spring musical because rehearsals will keep him away for long hours. He hasn’t read the script until he is actually cast as one of the leads in the play, a gay lead, with Isak as his costar. The more time they spend together, the closer they become, creating a dilemma for Lachlan and how he will handle the feelings he develops for Isak, feelings he knows will lead to a catastrophe at home, but also realizing he won’t give Isak up. The question becomes how he will navigate this treacherous path to get to claiming Isak as his own, yet still handle the inevitable fallout from his choice.

Isak is definitely his own person, comfortable in his own skin and choosing to dress in his own way. He has missed Lachlan since he pulled away all those years ago, and still has a huge crush on him. When the two set up a routine at camp, they continue during the school year, Isak servicing Lachlan with Lachlan telling himself he isn’t gay if he doesn’t touch Isak, basically taking advantage of a willing Isak who will do anything Lach asks. Isak knows so much about the horrible home life Lachlan has, he is supportive and understanding, someone who sees the real person behind the act and one who offers a sense of peace and safety Lach craves.

The two do find their way to each other and get the relationship they want, courtesy of the spring play. The road certainly isn’t smooth but it does end up with Lachlan being true to himself and to Isak, building the foundation for their future together. I liked the catch up on them years later in their relationship, happy they got the life they deserved.

One of the surprises in the ebook were some beautiful illustrations depicting Lachlan and Isak in various places in their relationship. It was a nice touch and certainly unexpected. Thank you to the author for that special treat.

The book is a long read, but it seemed to go quickly. I enjoyed both main characters and the supporting friends for both were also interesting. The book held my interest, I could empathize with both Isak and Lachlan, and could understand the different places and experiences they were coming from. I was satisfied with the outcome for those in Lachlan’s family and for the outcome for our MCs, and had a good feeling overall at the conclusion. I received an ARC from the author, and this is my voluntary review.

[kiri · Rating 5 out of 5]

Lachlan and Isak have been connected since birth, but life has taken them through vastly different paths. The two move in opposite groups at school, and their home lives are entirely contrary to their public images. A "chance" reconnection at senior retreat brings the estranged childhood friends back into the same orbit. Against the backdrop of necessary interaction for the school musical - Lachlan is compelled to pursue something more, something real; having now had a taste of something he’s yearned for. A connection with someone who ‘sees’ him, instead of everyone else he has to wear a mask for.

The first chapter is a flash-forward which throws us into the middle of Lachlan and Isak’s arrangement, and left me with a mountain of questions; but it would take a while for the answers to reveal themselves throughout the course of the story. The pacing initially is slow, but matches Lachlan’s perception of days crawling by, as he counts down to when he can leave for college and escape his abusive household. Once Lachlan and Isak are properly 'together' (despite all the hurdles still before them), the rest of the book simply flies by - rather than focused on just getting through each day, Lachlan is now savouring moments spent together with Isak. Similarly the "feeling" of the narration goes from Lachlan "disconnected", alone even in a sea of faces; to bonding with someone on every level.

(This is a minor personal issue, but I do wish that the author had included dates within the book. The number of days left was was frequently mentioned, so it’s clearly tracked - but as a non-American, it was hard to grasp exactly what time of year it was from context cues and truly feel the passage of time.)

Lachlan goes on a massive journey of change through this book; having to deal with his internalised homophobia, try something outside of his comfort zone (and ‘social circle’), undoing his family’s conditioning, opening up about his bad coping habits, and seeking and accepting help from external parties. Isak has a smaller arc of change on the other hand, he has to deal with some insecurity as a result of others’ judgement and find his own courage instead of merely preaching it, but otherwise remains quite a similar character all the way through. From both characters’ journeys, the message of needing to be true to yourself and embracing your true self comes out strongly.

I feel like ‘All an Act’ is Lachlan’s story. He is the first to approach Isak, he instigates the pair of childhood friends’ reconnection, he sets the terms of their arrangement, he is the deciding factor for certain decisions, he reapproaches Isak later, and he is the one that holds the power to take their relationship out from the physical and metaphorical closet into the real world. Isak has a critical part to play in Lachlan’s world and is the backbone of the story; but Lachlan - and all aspects of this book agree - is the star of this show.

This book covers a lot of hard themes of emotional, psychological and - at times - physical abuse, and at least for me was initially a difficult read. The trigger warnings at the start are extensive (and highly appreciated), but you don’t know how something will truly affect you until you experience the shape of it. Each person’s experience of abuse is different and valid, however on one occasion I did feel it was dubious that Lachlan could have simply forgotten he could be tracked - that hyperawareness and looking over your shoulder doesn’t ever quite go away, especially when you are so deep in it as Lachlan is… but I acknowledge that’s one person’s perspective from one person’s experiences.

I was nonetheless so proud of Lachlan’s actions to overcome the cycle of intergenerational violence; from his attempts to shield his nephew, to his being a support for his sister, and finally his refusal to succumb to the same behaviour exhibited by his family. The only disappointment is the failure of most of his family to change. However as the saying goes, the family you make is more important than the family you come from. When the situation with Lachlan’s family comes to a head, the changed stakes allow Isak and his mother to break free of the bystander effect - small actions have big impact. The brief epilogue shows that Lachlan’s life is only just starting, and things will become even better from that point forth. I think this was a nice touch.

While this book is a standalone, it was great to see references to previous works sprinkled throughout the story; they were unobtrusive enough that they don’t take you out of the narrative, but a subtle wink to those in the know.

“All an Act” is a high angst, slow burn story, featuring grumpy/sunshine MCs (subverted), forced proximity and hurt/comfort. Overall, I enjoyed the book and felt deeply for Lachlan and what he was going through. The tone of voice was distinctive and the theatre references dropped here and there and Isak’s quirky way of narrating was fun. It was difficult not to be attached to the characters but the abuse that hit close to home was hard to get through. Take note of the trigger warnings, but I think this is a book that many will enjoy, and maybe inspire some thought on the struggles we can’t see and how simple actions can seem so insignificant but have so much impact.

I’m grateful for an opportunity to read an ARC of this book prior to official release, and this is my honest opinion.

[Sandy Kay · Rating 2 out of 5]

This really wasn’t for me. I might have believed in it more if these two were in college, and I’ve enjoyed several of McAdam’s adult romances, but, here? These two don’t feel authentic for high school. One MC is so sexually experienced the sex felt bland, not special. Who are all these guys he’s giving the blow jobs he loves giving so much to? In high school? He’s been with that many people? Does he go clubbing as an underage kid and hook up there, or…? He was so matter of fact about sex, and I guess some high school kids *might* be that experienced, but, I live with two of them and hear all their friends talk and just…couldn't buy it. There’s a lot more insecurity and awkwardness around sex in high school than I was getting here. Their physical connection seemed ordinary, and probably about the same as it had been with everyone else Isak had been with. And the fact that they sometimes talk like porn stars...?! Just...not ringing true.

Like I said. College? Yes absolutely would have believed the experience and the casual attitude around sex. But here it felt silly, and trying too hard to be sex positive. And the mature, matter of fact discussion of safety…I’m negative, I’m tested (which must happen regularly, okay, that’s good, given the amount of experience Isak purports to have, but, really? In HIGH SCHOOL? Where’s the local clinic, does he hang out there monthly?)

Their friendship is…nice, but, the lack of hurt and confusion over the breakup of it when they were younger also didn’t resonate. They were best friends, and then thanks to Lachlan’s gross homophobic great uncle pressuring him, young Lachlan cuts off contact with Isak when they’re 12 or so (they share a birthday, which was cute!), including pretending not to be home when Isak comes over, and Isak…doesn’t seem that impacted. Or, gets over it fast, like, shrugs and makes new friends. Just…goes on. Neither seemed to care that much about having lost it, it wasn't a conflict in the present, there's little to make up for.

Huh?

There’s no issue at all when they start talking again (talking because, suddenly, Lachlan has noticed Isak is grown up! And now Lachlan the known flirt is flirting! And yeah, wants a blow job, and Isak’s all, Oh, I LOVE to give blow jobs! Want one? And *I* was all…why am I even here? This is about as emotional as eating a salad, and built romance about as strongly as said boring salad. It’s a romance salad, not a rich chocolate cake with layers and intimate nuance.)

There are strong subplots. Isak’s trauma over a terrible online video review of his acting felt authentic, but, the fact that he and his friends let that stop him from continuing was disappointing. Like F that girl, is she on stage? Is she an actress ?Who is she to critique?! And again…he was in HIGH SCHOOL, not studying acting in college or performing on Broadway. What was her beef?

Lachlan’s horrible dysfunctional family and self-harm were authentic and believable. I did love that his younger sister gave back as good as she got to the awful uncle, and I hurt when Lachlan sank into withdrawal and depression, that all felt real.

I also loved Isak's dress sense! His outfits sounded 🔥 😍.

And their being gay leads in a musical together is awesome. Love anything musical related.

Anyway, this would have worked better for me as a college/NA romance rather than trying to front like high school kids are this sophisticated and comfortable with their bodies and sexual selves. I’m sure a few are, but, the book was like “this is totally normal! High school kids are totally comfy with their bodies and discussing sex like mature adults!” and I just couldn’t suspend disbelief.

HEA. Former best friends to estranged to hookups and I guess love, which, okay, fun, they fall for each other’s personality and growing feelings from friendship to love, rather than sex influencing them much. That I can get behind. OW drama as girls continually try to hookup with Lachlan (it didn't really feel misogynistic? But why are girls in MM so often so damn thirsty???). Not sure when Isak stops giving out his blessed blow jobs to OM, I wasn’t honestly paying much attention because for once I just did not care, they were so nothing to him, but, I think it was safe enough for me? Read if you like the cover, there are matching cute moments (along with, TW for, awful homophobic/verbally abusive family drama). I wasn’t into it, but, give it a shot if it sounds intriguing to you.

My thanks to Gay Romance Reviews for the ARC; this is my free and impartial and likely unwelcome reaction/opinion.

[Hanna · Rating 2 out of 5]

DNF 80%

The writing is better than a lot of books that I read, but also not really to my taste. I dunno how to describe what I didn't like about it without being mean though. And again, it isn't bad. Just probably too purple or something for me. I was just very aware of it.

These characters are in high school. Which can excuse some of the angst, but it unfortunately makes the dialogue worse. Teenage boys don't talk like this.

This book's biggest sin is that it's too long. It really starts to drag after a while, and I don't think I can force my way through another 20%.

The family drama was underwhelming. Especially with the characters being 18 and set to leave for college, and Lachlan having already decided that he wants nothing to do with them in the future. I wasn’t feeling the stakes as much as I expected. Also, Lachlan's internalized homophobia wasn't feeling very homophobic? Like, it felt like he was holding back, not because he felt wrong or twisted about what he was doing or feeling, but because of external factors. And them already being crazy about each other before the book started also sapped a LOT of the tension. For as long as it is, it isn't a slow burn.

There just wasn't enough tension in the book to justify its length. It was a lot of fluff. Too many subplots. Too many little details about the characters. I really hate when characters start like, playing twenty questions with each other to get to know each other. I just think that's such a boring way to build a connection. I do not care if they are cat people or dog people if it isn't relevant or entertaining. And conversations where they just ask each other questions about their interests are NOT entertaining. It feels like I'm reading a boring character sheet.

I did appreciate the content warnings. But, it is my opinion that the self harm was really romanticized, and I didn't like that. It isn't a topic that I avoid, but I found the way it was written to be very distasteful. Too much romantic description of the act itself, and too much reverance and romanticizing his scars. It made me feel icky.

Also, I am a prologue hater, but this prologue was so deeply unnecessary, and again, it removed more of the tension. It just made the rest of the first part drag more because I knew exactly where it was going.

[Justine · Rating 4 out of 5]

Initially I wasn’t able to get into All An Act, so I took a break and came back to it after a few days, and I am so glad I did. I didn’t really connect with Lachlan in the beginning, mainly because I hated how he treated Isak. But as I read on and got to know him more, he worked his way into my heart. He is so sad and hurt, and all I wanted was to squeeze him. I never enjoy secret relationships in this capacity but I understand the need for it, for Lachlan’s safety. It broke my heart for them both, as Isak was hurt by some of Lachlan’s actions and Lachlan hated hurting Isak but felt he had no choice.
I enjoyed the progression of their relationship and their stolen moments together. They were so sweet and so down bad for each other! There were definitely moments and phrases that highlighted that they were new adults, which I think is important. They were learning things together, supporting each other, all while still being high school kids. I also really appreciate that Isak’s presence in Lachlan’s life wasn’t the blanket solution for Lachlan’s mental health. Isak supported Lachlan the best he could and recommended he seek help outside of their relationship, which is so important to portray. A partner is someone you rely on and feel supported by, feel safe with, but sometimes we need more help than they can give. Or are able to give. It’s important to have a neutral party in our lives that we can vent to and get different perspectives from. Therapy for everyone!
Overall, I thoroughly enjoyed Isak and Lachlan’s story and am so glad I gave it another try with a clear head. It’s such a sweet, emotional, and beautiful story.

[Glenn · Rating 5 out of 5]

Years together, years apart, a musical lets them act out their childhood love for each other

A familiar yet believable world is skillfully crafted by Leslie McAdam in this narrative of two high school seniors, born on the same day, at the same hospital, and who were close friends during their childhood. This camaraderie was disrupted when the homophobic mayor, who happens to be Lachlan Doyle's uncle, and who prohibits Lachlan’s association with Isak Hammond upon learning of Isak’s sexual orientation.

Years pass, during which Isak and his mother, who live nearby, feel sympathy for Lachlan as they hear loud, violent arguments from his family each evening. Isak has a view into Lachlan’s bedroom, which helps him understand Lachlan’s habits and sympathize with him amid the dysfunctional household consisting of his mother, grandmother, sister, and the uncle, who is the mayor of the town.

Once, their families were esteemed friends and neighbors; however, the mayor’s directive to his nephew to avoid contact with Isak severed that relationship. Lachlan, the football team’s quarterback, attracts the attention of cheerleaders and others seeking his company. Nevertheless, he shows no interest in them. Given the turmoil at home each night, Lachlan spends long hours at the gym, at school, at work, or elsewhere, rather than face the yelling and fighting involving his drug-addicted mother, his intoxicated uncle, and his younger sister, who is raising a child born when she was very young.

Lachlan seeks refuge not only from his home environment but also from the company of individuals he genuinely wishes to associate with. Consequently, upon their reunion at school, they embark on a journey to discover what Isak has been doing all these years, as Lachlan has only observed him in classes from a distance.

A genuine chemistry exists between the two young men, symbolizing a revival of their familiarity and longing. When the high school musical opens for auditions, both audition. Isak, hesitant due to previous social media backlash following an incident during a past performance, finds himself motivated by the increasing time he spends with Lachlan during rehearsals, which keeps Lachlan away from his tumultuous home environment. Both are cast as leads in the musical.

Lachlan hesitates when he learns he must kiss Izak’s character as part of the play, but the offer of a stage kiss consoles him to continue. However, he performs the exact opposite of a back-to-the-audience stage kiss in front of his family, sending a loud message that these two are meant to be together.

This narrative contains considerable sadness. After reviewing the content warnings regarding drug use, violence, and self-harm, I hesitated to continue. However, I ultimately became captivated by this story of reunion and love between two young men. Isak was concerned that Lachlan would decline to pursue the lead role, which requires a shared kiss. Nonetheless, they overcome this obstacle, culminating in a happy ending.

This is a bit of a heavy read, more than 400 pages of dense, but well-written, material. I was surprised by the in-book art. It’s very good and offers some alternative perspectives on the two men. There's detail in Leslie McAdam's writing and a level of appreciation for the plight of the two young men that kept me going. The details in the story are fantastic, realistic, and inspiring. Even the bullies' language and his uncle's actions were drivers that kept me reading and inspired by the love of these two.

I now wish that Leslie McAdam would develop some of her epilogue content into a second volume focusing on these two diverse yet evidently in-love young men since their childhood.

I received an ARC of this book; my review represents only my opinion, is voluntary, and not influenced by the author.

[Michelle N. · Rating 5 out of 5]

Leslie McAdam has crafted a beautiful love story in All an Act. Do not let the fact that it takes place in a high school between two eighteen-year-old Seniors dissuade you from picking up this book. This is not designed to be a YA story but more of a coming of age and finding yourself and your person despite the hardships we face.
To the world around him, Lachlan, looks like he has it all. He is popular, wealthy, an athlete and involved in everything at school. The only person who sees beyond the mask he wears, is his former best friend and next-door neighbor, Isak. Isak sees the sadness in Lachlan’s eyes and hears the yelling from his house every night. Isak has had feelings for Lachlan for years but kept them hidden away, close to his heart.
As Lachlan starts to look towards his future, he starts to question who he is and what kind of future he wants for himself. When Lachlan signs up for the spring musical, he starts spending more time with Isak and begins to realize that not only does he miss the friendship that they once had but he now is developing feelings for him.
This story hits all the feelings. I loved the complexities of Lachlan’s and Isak’s characters. There are definitely some triggers and hard scenes to read in this book so definitely read the trigger warnings before you start. Leslie McAdam writes the struggles the characters work through with such grace and tenderness. It is truly a beautiful story.

[Fiona · Rating 4 out of 5]

A beautifully written coming of age novel.

This book took me by surprise from the very first page. Our first impression of Lachlan is not a good one. The internalised homophobia is evident and you expect to go into the standard jock bully trope. This is absolutely not the case. Our little emo Isak is strong and resilient and exactly what Lachlan needs. I loved both characters- you just want to wrap Lachlan up in a hug and Isak - well he is a boy anyone would be proud to call their son. He knows who he is, is comfortable in his own skin and, despite appearances, is sweetness and sunshine.
Lachlan's home life is difficult to say the least. His uncle is homophobic and verbally (and at times physically) abusive. His mother and sister have their own issues and Lachlan has unhealthy coping mechanisms for when it all gets too much.
It's a fairly straightforward story of two boys who have known each other since childhood coming together and slowly falling in love. There is little in the way of angst, despite some difficult topics but the character building is what keeps you interested. It is relatively low spice which I was grateful for given that the protagonists are both 18 and still in high school. We get small glimpses into their HEA with thanks to the epilogue and it's always heartwarming to read when first loves do go thr distance.

[Chloe · Rating 4 out of 5]

I typically steer clear of high school romances, but after a quick sample, I was completely hooked.

Watching Lachlan navigate his hardships was heartbreaking, and Isak was a perfect balance. Because of the weight they were carrying, it was often easy to forget these were teenage characters. They were forced to grow up far too quickly.

What I loved the most though was that while Isak was a great balance, he wasn't written as a "cure-all" for Lachlan's mental health. I appreciate that the author emphasized that a partner shouldn't be your only lifeline - that she handled the necessity of professional therapy and outside perspectives with care and importance.

Additionally, their relationship progression was beautiful. Even amidst the heavy themes, there were so many sweet moments that reminded you they were still teenagers falling in love for the first time.

I would also like to take the time to give a shout-out to Isak's mother. Total rock star that provided grounding BOTH characters needed.

Lastly, I appreciate the book wraps up on a hopeful note, and not just for Lachlan and Isak, but for those in Lachlan's family that deserve it. It is a heavy journey, but worth it all in the end!

[GreenwingReads · Rating 5 out of 5]

I don't usually read romances about MCs still in high school these days. However, after hearing about this book and reading a sample, I knew I had to read it. If you're familiar with Leslie's books, you might have already read Notorious. This book deals with similar heavy themes. Notorious is my favorite of her books, so I was pretty sure going into this one that I'd love it, and I absolutely did. It is NOT an easy read. Lachlan goes through so much and is such a sweet, soft soul. It was painful to read all that he had to endure, but it was so beautiful to see how much Isak supported him. Their HEA was hard-won. These boys had to grow fast in a way that 18 year olds shouldn't have to. It did make them seem more mature than their age. I had to remind myself at times that they were still teenagers. Isak's mom is a rock star and the story ended on a good note in the boys' relationship and hope for other characters.

[Vols77 · Rating 5 out of 5]

Few book moved me like this one. Ima emotionally invested (and drained) by the sadness of this story but it is not about sadness it is about hope and courage. Lachlan is the golden haired high school, jock that everyone thinks has it all together but inside that is not true. He lives behind a mask hiding a terrible home life. Isak, his neighbor, and he were once best friends till Lachlan’s homophobic uncle forbid them from interacting. Regardless that did not stop Isak from hearing the terrible home life of Lachlan and understanding of his need to do anything to escape his home life. I love that Isak had feelings for Lachlan but he was so protective oh him. They connect via theatre and realize both have similar feeling. A. Powerful book about being true to oneself and accepting oneself. I love Lachlan willingness to accept himself and the support Isak gives him. Lots of triggers and a long book but one that will stay with you once you are finished.

[L H · Rating 4 out of 5]

It was so sad that these two young men have been kept apart by a dysfunctional and abusive family - Lachlan's - and how miserable his family made Lachlan. Acting in the school play was not the only acting he was doing. Lachlan was made to walk away from his best friend because his father did not think that Isak was the kind of friend that Lachlan should be hanging around with. But the connection between them was strong, real and it survived even the freeze out that Lachlan was forced to do. This was angsty, sad and difficult at times because of what Lachlan had to endure. But these two were meant to be together. And they get their second chance at a time when Lachlan was growing into choosing himself and embracing what he wanted with courage and in a way that let Isak know what really happened which was important as well. Good and emotional.
I received an ARC from GRR and am voluntarily leaving a review.

[Brooke · Rating 5 out of 5]

⭐️ 5 stars ⭐️

♪𝚂𝚘𝚗𝚐 𝙼𝚊𝚝𝚌𝚑 — 𝙸 𝙻𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝙼𝚎 𝙱𝚎𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚋𝚢 𝙻𝚊𝚞𝚟♪
//I knew from the first time
I'd stay for a long time 'cause
I like me better when
I like me better when I'm with you//

He’s not my baby. Or sweetheart. I don’t know what he is. Actually, yes, I do:
He’s my secret.

If you don’t like gushing reviews then leave now, because I LOVED THIS. No notes. Hit all the right spots.
I’ve had some ups and downs with this author, but I’ve noticed I enjoy her more angsty works (i.e. Notorious), because she infuses way more emotions into the characters when she seems to have a more personal connection to their stories. And the more emotions these characters have, the more I feel seen and connected to them.

Dammit, sunshine emo boy. You’re too cute.

I saw myself in both these characters.
Golden boy jock that’s actually hurting inside and emo alt boy who’s a sunshine softie underneath all the black.
Okay, maybe not the jock part, but I’m definitely like 60% Isak and 40% Lachlan. Isak’s style, his sweetness, Lachlan’s mental struggles and the smiling mask he wears to hide his hurt, their personalities. I was just bound to fall in love with this book right from the start.

“He’s sandwich-worthy.”

That is the cutest thing. May we all find someone who is sandwich-worthy, someone who enjoys the same things we do, someone who sees us for who we really are, who makes us want to be the best version of ourselves.

“Fuck it.” Before I can react, he reaches around the back of my neck, his fingers warm, strong, clutching me to him. And his eyes go to half-mast as he moves closer, closer, closer … and then he kisses me.

Fuck it kisses are THE BEST, hands down.
A high-heat but slow burn feels romance, secret relationship, opposites attract, adorable boys falling in love and lots of hurt/comfort.
AND there are cute AF illustrations too??? Stop it, my heart can’t take it. This book needs to stop being so damn adorable.

“Lachlan, do you want me to suck that huge, pretty dick of yours?” ‌‌‌‌‌ “Fuck.”

And of course it had to be sexy, too. Loved the progression of their relationship, from secret bjs in a janitor closet, to secret ‘stage’ kisses. Lachlan going from ‘if I don’t touch him it doesn’t count’ to not being able to stay away from Isak.

There is a shadow to every light. I’m a shadow. ‌‌He’s every light.

If I really have to complain about something, is that the epilogue felt too short. Mostly because I didn’t want their story to end.
A super sweet high school romance, with the typical high school drama and homophobic angst, but I don’t care that I’ve read this kind of plot before. If the characters make me feel seen, make me go I think that too!, make me giggle and sniffle, aww and oooo, then it’s a pretty perfect read for me.
10 out of 10. No notes…. Well, only good notes.

Even though what we just did was only an act, what I feel for him is very, very real.

I received a copy of this book from Gay Romance Reviews, and this is my honest review.

CW and NSFW info (spoilers):
- Self-harm
- Domestic abuse
- Physical and emotional abuse
- Mention of parental abandonment (past)
- Mention of death of family members (past)
- Bullying
- Homophobia
- Closeted vs out
- Voyeurism
- Vers MCs
- Rimming
- Frotting
- Coming untouched from giving a bj

[Ana Silva · Rating 5 out of 5]

I don’t know how to feel about this book. Not because there was anything wrong with it but because it was hard not to jump into it and just put Lachlan’s uncle in his place.

I wanted to just get in there and hug Lachlan so hard and tell him over and over he was worthy, loved and wanted. That there was nothing wrong with him and that he was perfect just the way he was😭

His method of coping with his reality isn’t anything I haven’t read before, but for some reason it hit me harder this time than in other books I’ve read. Maybe because he was so young and should have been having the time of his life as a teenager. Or maybe because he was portraying this happy go lucky persona when in reality he was anything but happy.

Instead, he was trying to keep it together and not give up. He had no one to care about him. No one to tell him he was loved. At least that’s what he thought.

Isak cared about him. He always had even though they had stopped being friends. Isak knew everything that went on in Lachlan’s house and more than once wanted to go in and save him.

Isak had had a crush on Lachlan for as long as he could remember but never thought he would ever have the chance to make it a reality. Not only did he think Lachlan was straight, but the difference between them was astronomical. The emo kid and the jock never really work out.

Yet to Isak’s surprise, the interest was there. Their beginning was less than desirable but Isak would take anything Lachlan could give him.

Lachlan had been conditioned to hate everything he was. That feeling the way he felt for Isak was wrong but he couldn’t deny his attraction for Isak. He believed that if he didn’t touch Isak, he wasn’t gay.

It hurt me so much to see him struggle with his sexuality and denying his true self. But he eventually lost the fight after all the support he got from Isak. He couldn’t deny his feelings anymore.


𝓘 𝓵𝓲𝓴𝓮 𝓱𝓸𝓵𝓭𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓱𝓲𝓼 𝓱𝓪𝓷𝓭. 𝓘𝓽 𝓯𝓮𝓮𝓵𝓼 𝓼𝓪𝓯𝓮 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝔀𝓪𝓻𝓶. 𝓘𝓽 𝓪𝓵𝓼𝓸 𝓯𝓮𝓮𝓵𝓼 𝓭𝓮𝓿𝓲𝓪𝓷𝓽. 𝓛𝓲𝓴𝓮 𝓘’𝓶 𝓭𝓸𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓼𝓸𝓶𝓮𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝔀𝓻𝓸𝓷𝓰, 𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓷 𝓽𝓱𝓸𝓾𝓰𝓱 𝓘’𝓭 𝓪𝓻𝓰𝓾𝓮 𝓲𝓽’𝓼 𝓾𝓽𝓽𝓮𝓻𝓵𝔂 𝓻𝓲𝓰𝓱𝓽.

So much to feel with this story. My heart’s full. It was a hard fought and well earned HEA.

“𝓘 𝔀𝓪𝓼 𝓲𝓶𝓪𝓰𝓲𝓷𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓾𝓼 𝓫𝓮𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓸𝓵𝓭 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝔀𝓪𝓵𝓴𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓸𝓷 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓫𝓮𝓪𝓬𝓱 𝓱𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓲𝓷 𝓱𝓪𝓷𝓭. 𝓐𝓵𝓵 𝓬𝓾𝓽𝓮.”

[Emily Hernandez · Rating 5 out of 5]

Sometimes a book comes along that just speaks to your soul, and that's exactly how I felt as I was reading Lachlan and Isak's romance. Their journey was a triumphant coming-of-age, a story of finding courage and not letting others make you feel small for being who you are. I knew from the beginning chapters that Lachlan's character arc in particular was going to be an emotional one, and I was captivated by the ups and downs that eventually led him to Isak. In a way, Isak and Lachlan's romance was a second-chance love, if you consider their childhood friendship their first chance at happiness. Lachlan had understandable reasons for being afraid to explore his attraction to men, and seeing him choose Isak despite his fears made their connection feel even more special. Isak made Lachlan feel safe to take off the mask he showed the rest of the world, and there was something incredibly tender about the way they treated each other. I found it easy to get engaged with the main storyline -- Isak and Lachlan's senior year of high school and in particular their upcoming musical -- but their romance was what kept me reading late into the night, unable to tear myself away. Lachlan had to face situations that no high schooler should be put through, and I was in awe of his strength and that he didn't let his family break him down. It was wonderful to see him find a small pocket of happiness with Isak, and I genuinely believe they brought out the best in each other. As their journey progressed and Lachlan grew more comfortable being openly himself, he and Isak did have to contend with letting the outside world into their bubble. That's when side characters like Vince, Zanita, and Rochelle really got their chance to shine, and yes, it also meant dealing with bullies and negativity. I really appreciate the tactfulness with which Leslie McAdam navigated the latter part of the book, keeping the hope and happiness of the romance alive while also sharing an authentic experience that some have when coming out. Isak and Lachlan got their HEA in the end, and I was overjoyed by the little glimpses at their successful careers and relationship in the epilogue.

**I voluntarily read an early copy of this book. This review expresses my honest thoughts and opinions.

[Abby · Rating 5 out of 5]

I received a copy of this book from Gay Romance Reviews, and this is my honest review.

I really enjoyed this book. I was impressed with Lachlan throughout the book. It was easy to understand why he has such a strong reaction when people, especially his family, are shouting. When he had a moment of shouting with someone else, he immediately recognized the behavior and took a step back because he didn’t want to emulate behavior that has been hard for him to live with. Apart from this, we get to see Lachlan spend time with his toddler nephew. He was so gentle with him no matter the circumstances.
I appreciated how Isak didn’t shy away from things or become pushy. He made it clear that he was available to offer whatever support was needed, but as soon as he made that clear, he let it drop.
And as a side note- I loved the idea of the musical they were doing in the book!