3.8 stars. This is a dark romance that people who enjoy Sam Mariano’s book would like. It’s an “he’s obsessed with her and stalks her” book, but he’s sweeter than Sam Mariano heroes (but still unhinged). Overall, I enjoyed this.
Alex (26) is running away from her abusive husband, and moves to a town in the Pacific Northwest. She meets Theo (31), who just spent 10 years in jail. He’s a sweet but damaged guy who has issues with impulse control, stalking, and being delusional.
This is mostly focused on their relationship, without a lot of other plot, but I wasn't bored. Their relationship had enough interesting movement, as she alternates between trying to get away from Theo, and grappling with how she’s starting to like her delusional stalker. It was a good move to establish that she was attracted to him, even before learning that he was a little psycho.
I’m hit or miss with the “he’s an obsessive stalker,” trope. But this book did a good job of finding the secret to making that work: Theo’s POV was often very funny. He wasn’t trying to be comedic on purpose, but his delusional attempts to convince himself that his actions were Totally Fine often made me laugh. Like, when he was lurking in her bushes, his inner monologue was like, “She doesn’t notice me, she’s so unaware of her surroundings. Doesn’t she know there are psychos out there? I will stalk her more, to protect her from the danger.” Sir….you are the danger.
Also, aside from the fucked up things he does (like secretly putting cameras in her place), Theo is pretty sweet. I’ve read too many dark romances where he’s mean to her for 90% of the book. That gets boring. It also has more psychological depth, to have the heroine be like, “I kind of like him, even though he’s a lunatic, is that okay, what does that mean?” and grapple with that. If he's only hateful, there's less to explore. Too many authors don’t get that.
My Mount Rushmore of obsessed dark heroes are Nick Bruin (from the Royals of Forsyth University series) and Shay (from Torment by Dylan Page) and those guys ALSO made me laugh a lot (and they're also both often tender while being scary). Theo wasn't as iconic as Nick or Shay, but he was good. Too many authors get too serious about dark heroes, and it makes them bland (like Shantel Tessier). This threaded the needle well, between being a "fun" dark book, and being legitimately dark; and being a fantasy (what if a deranged stalker was hot and weirdly kind of a great boyfriend?) and acknowledging reality (his serious psychological issues don't get swept under the rug, this isn't like, "let's forget about that, it's fine!"). This story also threaded the needle well between having him somewhat change to be better for her, but also not change too much. It deftly covers a lot of ground that's tricky to navigate -- on both a psychological level and a storytelling level -- and it mostly doesn't stumble.
Even though I compared this to Sam Mariano, I enjoyed it more than many of her books. Alex was less stupid and bland than her heroines. She wasn’t a great heroine, she was average. But, during the moments when she seemed dim, she at least had a valid reason for it (all of her past trauma), where Sam Mariano heroines often have no reason for being bland and stupid.
Why is this just under the 4 star mark? I really liked it, but it could have been tighter. It was 700 pages long, and it didn’t need to be. I wasn’t bored, but if a book isn’t epic with a lot of subplots and a big scope (like my favorite 700 page romance, Fearless by Lauren Gilley), it has no business being that length. This book's scope is small, zooming in on Alex and Theo, without a lot of side characters or subplots. Weirdly, for a book that long, the side characters didn’t feel that fleshed out. And, the pacing could have been better. Like, there was a climactic action scene, but the story kept getting drawn out after that, with some unnecessary additional stuff happening. Also, this glossed over some parts. Like when Alex tells her terrible ex husband’s family that he had abused her, we don’t see that in-scene. We’re just told that it happened. What’s the point of being 700 pages, if we don’t see moments like that play out in-scene? That wouldn't have annoyed me as much if this was 300 pages. This also implied that Alex had a drinking problem, and 700 pages should be ample time to address it, but it never really felt like that story thread got dealt with. Again, that's fairly minor, but a 700 page book is long enough that I shouldn't feel like even minor things are left unaddressed.
Anyway, this wasn’t flawless, but it was an enjoyable dark “he’s obsessed with her and stalks her” book. If you're in the mood for that type of read, it hits the spot well. It’s apparently the author’s first book, it was quite good for a debut. I’ll be on the lookout for what else this author releases.