I’m the woman they point at in pictures without ever asking what it cost to be in them. I’m the headline they click on, the rumor they repeat, the image they know without knowing a damn thing about the life behind it.
I used to believe in the work — in words that could save people. I thought if I was good enough, raw enough, honest enough, people would see me. The girl scribbling in worn-out notebooks, the one who stayed up all night chasing truth. But in this business, truth doesn’t pay the bills. Image does. Controversy does. Exploitation does. And if you’re a Black woman, they’ll take everything you are and filter it through stereotypes they can sell. They’ll pat you on the head and say, “Let’s make it more… urban,” when what they mean is more ghetto, more ratchet, more caricature.
I’ve sat in rooms with editors who told me the quiet truth — “We can move units if you add more drama, more fights, more sex.” Not the kind of sex that means something. The kind that turns women like me into storylines they can sell in bulk. They want hood fights and baby mama drama, not depth. They want covers that scream scandal, not pages that whisper healing.
And I let them. God help me, I let them. I told myself it was temporary, that I’d use their system to get the platform I needed, then pivot to the books I really wanted to write. But the thing about selling pieces of yourself is… you don’t always get them back.
Now, when I catch my reflection, I can’t tell if I’m looking at the woman I fought to become… or the brand they built out of my bones.
They call it giving the readers what they want.
I call it dressing exploitation in a pretty cover and calling it literature. And the applause? The sales? They don’t heal you. They don’t put the truth back in your chest. When the lights go out, you’re just sitting there with the echoes of the girl who wanted to tell stories that mattered — wondering if you’ve already sold the last piece of her.
The one thing that I enjoy in reading this authors work is how he empowers black women. Or women period. They are independent thinkers that take the world on by storm. I enjoyed this read alot. I love Nasir and Naomi together. They are a powerhouse. Her journey was crazy, yet she was able to keep her life separate from her job. I dont want to give to much info. I highly recommend