⭐️5
🌶️3.5
AGGHHHH!!!
Did not, AT ALL, expect this to consume me body, mind & soul.
(MMC, age 7, on his way to FMCs house):
[Yesterday, we didn’t have to wear a uniform, and Blaze came to school wearing a red top. This hoodie is the only red thing I own, and I can’t even fit in it anymore; it’s too tight.]🥹
Oof. They’ve known each other since they were little kids. MMC instantly smitten but doesn’t realize he’s not showing it the right way.
Both characters have trauma & parental issues. MMC is pyromaniac, FMC is kleptomaniac.
MMC is angry FMC doesn’t see how much he cares. But, it becomes clear, his methods needed work. He also resents that she’s been with other guys. So there’s a fiery, angry, passion of love.
FMC whose been forgotten & discarded by her family desperately wants love and stability. But it’s as if she’s a cornered feral animal bearing her teeth at anyone getting to close. She buries vulnerabilities. She attacks.
[”She’s beautiful, violent, vulgar, and batshit fucking crazy.”]🔥🖤
TROPES & SUCH
-known since childhood
-neighbors
-high school (academy)
-mental health
-good feisty banter
-sassy hard to reach h
-angry H who just wants to love h
-H virgin, h not
SAFETY
-CW: drug use, getting high, withdrawal/cravings,
-no cheating, owd
-omd: see below. not serious imo.
Some SPOILERS below for OMD:
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So, I saw some reviews that didn’t like this for the OMD (completely understandable!!) but after reading it here’s my take —— it’s not serious OMD & she has NO IDEA how MMC feels. FMC literally finds OM gross & ONLY does stuff bc she’s 1) high, 2) they have drugs. ALSO, she only sleeps w the 1 OM, the other kinda touches her but MMC stops that real quick.
2 OMDs (kinda):
1-in the first 2 chapters (this part of book reads like a prologue, it’s all the before they go to the academy). FMC is high & hooks up w OM (drug dealer) who she finds gross and pictures as the MMC. It wasn’t a long scene imo.
2-throughout book, random times when FMC trying to get free drugs she flirts/lets OM ‘touch her’ - MMC stops this. she is repulsed by OM & only wants drugs.
MMC puts end to both these OM. For the story, this drama kinda makes sense. It’s fuels the ‘anger’ from MMC side, thinking why won’t she choose me? but from FMC it’s clear MMCs actions don’t portray that he likes her (like in the prologue w bat, but worse). FMC has NO CLUE how MMC feels. Tbh, it didn’t bother me (obv hence my essay length explanation 🌚)
NOTES
-made me SICK how nobody gaf ab Blaze when she said what was being done to her. Idc if she’s a pathological liar & rarely ever tells the truth WHO tells someone they doubt someone would touch them. (Like condescending ass vibes from a teacher really pmo. That shit should always be taken seriously). Granted obv the context he just put his hand on her knee but ITS THE PRINCIPLE !!!!!