First of all, I love Lizzie Bennet. Who couldn't? She's real, she's funny, and she cares deeply about the people in her life. She isn't above criticism and, when shown the error of her ways, fights to change her perspective. I loved what Bernie Su and the writers did with this series, and I still miss the biweekly episodes of Bennet drama.
So, naturally I was beyond psyched while waiting for this book to come out. I was especially excited when I found out it was a diary. I thought that I would be getting behind-the-scenes insight into Lizzie's life. All the familial anecdotes, character flashbacks, and private traumas that would have been too personal on-camera to be put in this little book? Yes, I fangirled. And perhaps it's these high expectations that made me feel a little let-down with the finished product.
Frankly, I was interested in getting to know the real Lizzie Bennet, rather than the public (and self-edited) version I watched on the vlog. In that sense, the diary aspect of this novel wasn't very believable: most of the entries were summations of each episode and lacked the personal touch that a journal would have. All of those doubts she touched on earlier--post-graduation anxiety, sisterly differences, inattentive parents, shaky friendships--were things I was hoping to delve deeper into, with a diary. I was at least looking for flashbacks or some kind of background detail for the people in her life. But most of all I was looking forward to watching Lizzie's impressions gradually shift throughout the book--rather than seeing a censored, perfectly-eloquent change that I saw through the episodes. I know that stuff is intense, but diaries are intense mediums. And since it's talked-about on screen briefly due to time constraints, I thought it would have been developed more here.
Now, I still liked the diary. And there were snippets of never-before-seen Bennet life, as well as a very interesting letter, that were withheld from the series. Jane, Mary, and Gigi get plenty of page-time that is well-deserved, considering how interesting their character arcs were on-screen. And while the company-shadowing isn't something that someone would explain at length in a diary, I appreciated that her meetings with Dr. Gardiner and details about her London online-shadowing were included here.
My biggest frustration was the use of transcripts in lieu of real entries. Yes, two of the most important, character-revealing passages were written as TRANSCRIPTS (in other words, as scripts that are verbatim from the episodes). I understand that the authors wanted to keep the specific phrasing, to match the episode... but this is a DIARY. It's not about exact words, it's about difficult, messy emotions--emotions that might not have been included honestly in the videos. Also, Lizzie's relationship becomes VERY advanced in the final few pages, something that feels hasty and that (maybe) should have been less confusing.
What interested me about this book coming out was the fact that, in keeping the episodes realistic, Lizzie edits out the parts of her life that are unsuitable for the public; therefore, in a diary, those personal things could have been included here. I still enjoyed seeing all of these loveable characters again, but it would have been nice to have known them better. What can I say, I'm too big a fan: I'm nosy and I always want more of the story. Nevertheless, Lizzie Bennet, it was still nice to see you.