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85 pages, Hardcover
First published March 18, 2025


‘I believe deeply in words, in their ability to represent thought, define truth and create beauty. I’m equally aware that words are constantly used for the opposite purposes: to obfuscate truth, misrepresent thought, lie, slander and provoke hatred. I also think of words as being mobile, slippery, metamorphic.’
‘We change our minds about many things, from matters of mere taste – the colours we prefer, the clothes we wear – to aesthetic matters – the music, the books we like – to adherence to social groups – the football team or political party we support – to the highest verities – the person we love, the God we revere, the significance or insignificance of our place in the seemingly empty or mysteriously full universe. We make these decisions – or these decisions make us – constantly, though they are often camouflaged by the momentousness of the acts that provoke them. Love, parenthood, the death of those close to us: such matters reorient our lives, and often make us change our minds. Is it merely that the facts have changed? No, it’s more that areas of fact and feeling hitherto unknown to us have suddenly become clear, that the emotional landscape has altered. And in a great swirl of emotion, our minds change. So I think, on the whole, I have become a Picabian rather than a Keynesian.’
‘Nowadays, I would admire a writer who falls silent because he or she has nothing more to say; in my youth, I was less forgiving.’
‘I don’t regret my decades of failing to appreciate Forster. Rereading would be a dull and complacent business if it always resulted in a simple confirmation of what you had previously thought. And the pleasure of being proved wrong can be a genuine pleasure. But as you may imagine, this experience has made me reconsider some other speedy judgements of my youth. Who else might I have to change my mind about? Hmm. Anthony Powell? Saul Bellow? Iris Murdoch?’
‘And then there was that other Forsterian dictum: ‘If I had to choose between betraying my country and betraying my friend, I hope I should have the guts to betray my country.’ This may sound fine in theoretical, high-minded Bloomsburyite discussions, in which the personal life is held of greater value than the public life. But try telling that to, for instance, the families of those betrayed by Kim Philby. How many deaths was he responsible for? Forty or fifty, perhaps. Rather more consequential than just doing the dirty on a chum. But there was a final, and barely sensible – but to me very powerful – reason for cold-shouldering Forster.’
‘We may admit to two or three major shifts in our lifetime – which we would have to be blind not to see – but on the whole prefer to believe that we are consistent human beings rather than seaweed tossed around by the tides. We believe – we have to believe, otherwise we would be lost – in the integrity of the personality; also in the continuity of our lives making narrative sense. We don’t like to think we have lost the plot.’
“For example: ‘You’re only as old as you feel.’ I’ve never thought there was much truth in that. It seems in part a wilful denial of death; also, an invitation to embarrassing skittishness. I think, as a sceptical realist, that you are precisely as old as your driving licence and passport insist you are, and that you shouldn’t pretend otherwise. Then there’s ‘You’re only as old as you look.’ George Orwell ruefully laid it down that, ‘At fifty, everyone has the face he deserves.’ He himself didn’t live to find out whether or not this applied to him – . ’
‘Love is often seen as an experience in which the normal rules of the universe no longer apply. The poet Louis MacNeice famously wrote: ‘Time was away and somewhere else.’ Physical laws, from gravity to entropy, seem to be suspended without our even noticing, and the world is reduced to a reflection in the lover’s eye – On the one hand, yes, we want time to stand still, to be ‘away and somewhere else’ – and we want that moment to last forever. This might be ascribed to our poetic side. But we also have a prose side. And it is this prose side which wants time to roll on in its usual way, if not indeed faster, because it is only time that will confirm this love to be real and substantial rather than a passing delusion. The suspension of time might identify love, but the active presence of time is necessary to verify it. So we want both an eternal now, and an urgent future. A vivid present, but also a looking forward to the time when we can begin to look back.’
I now agree that memory, a single person’s memory, uncorroborated and unsubstantiated by other evidence, is a feeble guide to the past. I think. More strongly, than I used to, that we constantly reinvent our lives, retelling them – usually – to our own advantage. I believe that the operation of memory is closer to an act of the imagination than it is to the clean and reliably detailed recuperation of the event in our past. I think that sometimes we remember as true things which never even happened in the first place; that we may grossly embellish an original incident out of all recognition; that we may cannibalise someone else’s memory, and change not just the endings of the stories of our lives, but also their middles and beginnings. I think that memory, over time, changes, and, indeed, changes our mind.
If I went in as an unthinking conservative prescriptivist, I came out as a liberal descriptivist. I no longer believed in some Golden Age of language, some platonic matching of word and thing. Nor did I accept the myth of linguistic decline – that once upon a time language was employed by people who always knew their wrist from their elbow, until the barbarians came through the gates bringing misuse, inaccuracy, vulgarisation. I came to believe instead that language was – and is – often approximate, that words mean only what we generally agree that they mean, and that the English language has always been in a state of tumultuous motion – and all the better for it.
The English language is – has always been – a mongrel beast: that is partly where its vigour, energy and suppleness come from. Its porosity to the languages and dialects of other English speaking countries acts as a regular blood transfusion. Any writer born into the English language is very lucky: not just for all the many potential readers out there, but for the very words he or she is given to play – to play seriously – with.
And began to discover a new, deeper, darker Simenon, one in which the world is not discovered and explained to you by a companionable detective, but put there unmediated, in front of you, without judgement, in all its bleakness and moral ambiguity. And I discovered a great writer, one lauded by Faulkner, Gide, Colette, Francoise Mauriac, Muriel Spark, T.S. Eliot, Somerset Maugham, John Le Carré and many others.
"We always believe that changing our mind is an improvement, bringing a greater truthfulness to our dealings with the world and other people. It puts an end to vacillation, uncertainty, weak-mindedness. It seems to make us stronger and more mature. Well, we would think that, wouldn't we?"Each short chapter looks at how we, in general, and Barnes, in particular, go about changing our minds on a subject: memories, words, politics, books, and time.