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405 pages, Kindle Edition
First published May 26, 2026
I know what wins the Günter Prize. The stories themselves are always pandering in their portrayals of an African country. The winning writers usually have a tragic background story— violence, poverty, oppression. That’s what’s expected of African writers, as if the continent’s a monolith. The only thing I could use is that I’m bisexual.
“Don’t you think Anglophonic authors’ books were inaccessible to us too? ... But we just got on with it. Still read it, still enjoyed their books ... You need to interrogate why you write the way you do and what sacrifice you commit to serve a certain audience.”
We are daily triggered by our history, haunted by the ghosts of history, and the world puts no content warnings to protect us from what we live every day. I want to curl up on the floor and cry this pain out, to feel warm arms hug me and a voice telling me that I’m not too much, that my pain is not too much, that my history is not too much. [...] I won’t cut ‘these violent gory scenes’ that did happen not so long ago. The world wants us to act as if our pain never existed, doesn’t exist. But this is what happened, and I want people to know.”
Where is home? I ask.
Blood leaks down the sides of my face, cold and wretched with pain. Home is Botswana. Botswana is my body.
“I’m so tired of hearing about this systemic oppression, the racism, the spiritual warfare-the politicization of our bodies and past, all these grand scholarly speeches of Black consciousness, when it’s doing nothing to free me from all this torture. Knowing what all this means doesn’t save me. Doesn’t heal me. So, what if it’s colonialism? I want it to stop. I want to be free. [...] It was nice living an ignorant life. It was nice not knowing what happened to my people-it was nice to not know, because knowing is tearing me apart.”
“A loose form pulls around me and disintegrates from my body in a steady rhythm. My soul wants to follow suit and it is this that wakes me. My soul trying to flee.”
“A thought rises within me. Not my thought, someone else's thought, intruding me, trapped in my mind.”