I feel like I have to do two reviews for this book, before they arrive at Howling Pines and after.
I kinda dislike this book before they arrive in Howling Pines. It's just so sad to me, it feels heavy. I read this book the first time, when it came out and I felt the same. I love, like looove a good pining, but pining for this big man whore for 15 years? It's depressing, tragic, just incredibly heart breaking.
Mash would be my perfect (I mean perfect!!!) character, if he wouldn't be such a slut. I'm sorry, I'm really not a slut shamer, have fun, enjoy sex and do what feels good but it gets to a point, you know. He slept with 50 women in the first 6 months he knew Cian, that would make 1500 women after 15 years, sure he probably wasn't as active, as he was in uni but, it is save to say he slept with over 1000 people, ew.
It sounds like he shares all kinds of things and details with Cian, so Cian had to listen, to the guy he fell in love with instantly, describe all the sex and intimacy with randos, that is so heartbreaking!!! I can't find any other words for it and I can't enjoy it. I also have to confess though, while reading it, I listened to quite a few ballads, especially Un-break my heart by Tony Braxton on repeat and I just got even sadder.
BUT after they arrived the Howling Pines it gets way better to me. I can try to ignore Mash's sexcapades and focus on this adorable man, that's crushing so hard on his emo friend. I loved how they both bloomed into better version of themselves, while being there. When Cian was happy, I really enjoyed him and when he was sad, I just wanted to bundle him in an blanket and hug him. The side characters are amazing. Love Clem, she is such a great person, makes me wish, we were friends. Though I'm annoyed that nobody told Mash years ago that he should open his eyes and realize what's in front of him. It could have saved a lot of heartbreak for everybody involved.
The love declaration though? Ugh LOVED it.
What really brought tears into my eyes though, was when Mash became Alpha, I don't know why, but it made me really emotional.
Special shout-out to wagging tails. LOVE IT WHEN THEY ARE HAPPY AND WAG THEIR TAIL. Ughhh they are my Kryptonite.