"Death is not the opposite of life, but a part of it." - Haruki Murakami
This is stunning debut novel, that is equally beautiful as it is heartbreaking 💔
The storyline follows an elderly man named Bo in his latter days. His time is running out, yet ironically time is all that’s left. Bo lives a quiet existence in the woods with only his Elkhood, Sixten for company. And that is all he needs. The only break in his solitary existence is from his home care visits. However, as Bo’s mind and body start to decline, his only son, Hans, insists upon taking the dog away, claiming that Bo can’t care for him properly. Bo’s emotions spiral, sending him into further decline. Losing his beloved companion leads him to take stock of his life over the years, and this is what we see through his eyes.
"I don’t know when it happened, but we’ve switched roles. He has never come close to being as big or strong as I was, but he has all the authority now. He’s the one in charge of my life. I’m the reason he’s even alive, but I’m also the one who has to bow down to him. Who depends on his decisions. He’s the person people listen to, not me." 💔
This book really is so very unique. The narrative is so strong and, as a reader, you can hear Bo’s voice so clearly. Throughout much of the book, there is a somber tone to his voice, however we get the occasional glimpse into his happier past. During these moments, he (internally) speaks so sweetly to his wife, who is now overcome by dementia, living in a care home facility.
“Which of us has been abandoned, I want to ask. You’re not the one stuck with a lifetime’s worth of memories in a body that’s slowly withering away." 🥺
There is a real vulnerability and intimacy in this book. The narrative is so simple, yet so effective. I thought the use of the carer’s notes in the narration was a nice touch.
Furthermore, Lisa has described so accurately what it feels like to lose a dog 😔 There is no pain like it, especially when they are your sole companion. I can attest having recently lost my fur baby 🐶
"It’s always there, the Sixten-shaped hole. A nothingness that has amplified the emptiness you left behind. It’s strange, but when Hans took Sixten I started missing you even more. Almost as though it was you he’d taken. My ears strain for the sound of claws on the floor, for a soft yawn. For the sound of your knitting needles, gently clicking together. But all I can hear is the hum of the fridge and the ticking of the clock." 😫😭
Overall, this is moving, powerful, heartbreaking, and beautifully told story. I honestly didn’t expect it to have such an impact on me, but boy did it 😭 I just wanted to jump into the page and give Bo a big hug 🫂 I am excited to see what Lisa Ridzen has in store for us next…
4.5 🌟🌟🌟🌟💫