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Artificial Suicide #2
Would You Die With Me?
After eight years, Kaj Larsen did not expect to be here staring his past in the eye, much less having to work with him.
Noah Sørensen, Artificial Suicide’s new vocalist, had once been everything for Kaj, but they fell apart in the most catastrophic way. Now they’re two scarred souls finding each other in the crux of all the secrets and resentment floating between them.
He doesn’t need this. Not while he’s trying for the fourth time to stay away from all addictive substances. Yet, Noah doesn’t seem to know fear as he trudges closer, encouraging the darkest part of him to unleash.
Succumbing to temptation is the equivalent to worlds colliding, but Kaj has never been one to steer clear from what he craves. They will either save each other or get buried together.
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* This is Book #2 in a duet ofthe Artificial Suicide series. Can't be read as a standalone *
Noah Sørensen, Artificial Suicide’s new vocalist, had once been everything for Kaj, but they fell apart in the most catastrophic way. Now they’re two scarred souls finding each other in the crux of all the secrets and resentment floating between them.
He doesn’t need this. Not while he’s trying for the fourth time to stay away from all addictive substances. Yet, Noah doesn’t seem to know fear as he trudges closer, encouraging the darkest part of him to unleash.
Succumbing to temptation is the equivalent to worlds colliding, but Kaj has never been one to steer clear from what he craves. They will either save each other or get buried together.
____________
* This is Book #2 in a duet ofthe Artificial Suicide series. Can't be read as a standalone *
386 pages, Paperback
Published September 11, 2025
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October 22, 2025
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️
No matter how many parallel universes existed , they would always belong together . Because you can’t have shadows without light . Good without evil . Relief without suffering.
Tropes :
- Hurt/Comfort
- Rockstar romance
- Childhood bestfriends
- Second-chance romance
- Found family
- Battling addictions
- Traumatic events / past
- Demesexuality rep
- Dynamic switch
- Angry /hate spice
- HEA
🚩READ THE TW🚩
It was inevitable . Like them . And it was terrifying .
✨My review✨
Learning everything Kaj had gone through , how utterly alone and lonely he’d been , was , nevertheless , the deepest of all his wounds.
I am a wreck. I will never be the same person again. They changed my brain chemistry or some shit, idk, but I'm obsessed and out of breath and so sad that this is over, yet the happiest I've ever been for people who don't even exist. I loved it so much. Kaj and Noah aren’t as toxic anymore, and you can really feel how much they’ve grown. There’s a big time skip and when they reunite because Noah joins the band, it’s just chef’s kiss. Their chemistry? Still completely undeniable. The push and pull between them was so sweet but still full of tension.
Without fear — no matter if he got burned — Noah could finally admit that they were two missing halves of the same entity yearning to find each other again.
Noah honestly surprised me the most. He changed so much. He’s confident now, knows what he wants, and he’s definitely more dominant, which Kaj seriously needed tbh. Seeing him tease Kaj, push his buttons, and completely flip their old dynamic had me kicking my feet. That scene where Noah keeps taunting Kaj until he finally caves in angrily? SO. DAMN. HOT.🥵 I had to stop reading for a sec.
He was trapped between love and hate . Between who he’d once wanted to be and who he was .
Kaj is still broken, but you can see how hard he’s trying to heal from everything, the pain, the trauma, the drug addiction. He’s still the same Kaj deep down, a bit angry and closed off, but so much more mature. He’s doing the work this time, genuinely trying, and that made me love him even more. The fact that we got therapy sessions and saw his internal struggles made it all feel so real.
He hated that Noah was making him feel at all . But mostly , Kaj hated that this man was the only one capable of appeasing the constant pain in his chest .
And don’t even get me started on chapter 20. That was one of the hottest (and very kinky) things I’ve ever read and I LOVED it. It was raw, intense, and so different from what they had before. It took so much trust from both of them and it was as dirty as it was beautiful emotionally. The way it showed how far they’d come together, both physically and emotionally, just made it even better.
It had taken him forever to forget Noah , and still he knew it was just a carefully woven net of lies . How did anyone fully get over what they had ? How did anyone let go of the only glimpse of happiness they’d ever had ?
The revelations later in the book were perfectly written. The pacing, the emotional buildup, everything hit right where it should. Both of their character developments were honestly some of the best I’ve read in a romance. Watching them rebuild something healthier and softer together after everything they’d been through... I was crying. Like, actual tears streaming down my face crying.
Mutual dislike and exasperation were the only things they had in common now , but his heart hadn’t beat with such violence in a long time . It was as if his body knew a truth his mind wasn’t ready to accept . A truth that would tear his armor to shreds , leaving him completely exposed . Scars . Fears . Weaknesses
The new side characters were just as good as in book 1, and I loved seeing the old ones again, even if I wish we got a bit more of them. The whole band dynamic was so fun to read, and the story never felt empty, everyone had a purpose just like before.
He didn’t want to have to see the face of the man who made him feel weak . Who brought out the worst in him . Who didn’t fight for him and let him go . The past should stay in the past .
There were also so many plot twists and I loved every second of it.This author has magic in her fingers I swear!!!!
When Noah began to sing , the hairs on Kaj’s nape stood up . He’d heard him sing so many times while he was at the drums , he didn’t think playing together again would twist his stomach like this . It felt like a razor sliding down his throat . The punishment for his sins before being redeemed . He deserved it.
This sequel felt like a healing journey, still messy, still emotional, but so cathartic. Kaj and Noah finally found balance and it was everything I wanted for them and more.
Why fight something that was pulling from him with such force ? Why fight something that made him feel so fucking good ?
And yes, I cried. A lot. Like, ugly crying level. And I'm not ashamed of it ; I'd do it all over again if I could.
Despite everything that had happened between them and over the years . Even if they weren’t together anymore , even if they argued more than they breathed these days , every piece of Noah that Kaj had broken would always belong to him .
If you loved book one, this one will absolutely destroy you in the best way possible.
I'm sorry I have too many highlights and favorites quotes, so here we go ;
He never thought they would meet again or that his body would still react to him this way , yet he couldn’t deny this man stirred things in him he hadn’t felt in a long while . It was devious and dark , but it was better than the vacuity that had ruled his life for years.
But hatred and desire aren’t that different . While they’re on opposite sides of the emotional spectrum , they’re both obsessive and all - consuming . Forces that could end worlds .
Like a siren’s song , this man was calling him in the dark , drawing him straight into a shipwreck . And he was tired of fighting it .
People say time heals , but for him , that was bullshit . Time only helps you learn how to deal with your ghosts . It helps you befriend them despite the pain they cause , because accepting that darkness is the only way to survive .
Because for all his biting sarcasm and detached cruelty , when it came to this man , Kaj always lost .
But that fairytale was over . Now they were just broken pieces that didn’t fit together , a soiled reverie of what they could’ve been .
And then he felt it ; the bitter taste at the tip of his tongue , the rope tugging violently at his heart , the tingles on his hands . . . Jealousy .
“ You might command the world when we’re on stage , but here , in private , I hold all the power . Every time we fuck , I steal a piece of you , getting deeper and deeper into your head , leaving you with nowhere to hide . ”
Kaj hadn’t been able to say it out loud yet , not even to himself , but how he felt about Noah was different . Or maybe it’d always been the same , just soiled by resentment and pain , and only now was it clawing its way back to the surface . He had convinced himself he’d never feel this way again — warm , protective
The little organ that kept him alive was in Noah’s hands . Was it love ? Was it codependency and his brain was just tricking him ?
“ If I were to die , would you die with me ? ” “ Yes . ” Noah didn’t even hesitate . “ I would die for you . I would kill for you . ” He clutched Kaj’s wrist with both hands , holding onto reality — onto them . “ You’re my fucking everything , Kaj . Remember ? Always and forever . ”
It was as if Noah wanted to rip Kaj apart and piece him back together to sculpt something new and lined with gold .
Because his wounds and imperfections were part of his history but didn’t define who he was . Because broken things could also be beautiful .
Words that meant devotion . That meant forever . Because it had and would always be them.
🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️
No matter how many parallel universes existed , they would always belong together . Because you can’t have shadows without light . Good without evil . Relief without suffering.
Tropes :
- Hurt/Comfort
- Rockstar romance
- Childhood bestfriends
- Second-chance romance
- Found family
- Battling addictions
- Traumatic events / past
- Demesexuality rep
- Dynamic switch
- Angry /hate spice
- HEA
🚩READ THE TW🚩
It was inevitable . Like them . And it was terrifying .
✨My review✨
Learning everything Kaj had gone through , how utterly alone and lonely he’d been , was , nevertheless , the deepest of all his wounds.
I am a wreck. I will never be the same person again. They changed my brain chemistry or some shit, idk, but I'm obsessed and out of breath and so sad that this is over, yet the happiest I've ever been for people who don't even exist. I loved it so much. Kaj and Noah aren’t as toxic anymore, and you can really feel how much they’ve grown. There’s a big time skip and when they reunite because Noah joins the band, it’s just chef’s kiss. Their chemistry? Still completely undeniable. The push and pull between them was so sweet but still full of tension.
Without fear — no matter if he got burned — Noah could finally admit that they were two missing halves of the same entity yearning to find each other again.
Noah honestly surprised me the most. He changed so much. He’s confident now, knows what he wants, and he’s definitely more dominant, which Kaj seriously needed tbh. Seeing him tease Kaj, push his buttons, and completely flip their old dynamic had me kicking my feet. That scene where Noah keeps taunting Kaj until he finally caves in angrily? SO. DAMN. HOT.🥵 I had to stop reading for a sec.
He was trapped between love and hate . Between who he’d once wanted to be and who he was .
Kaj is still broken, but you can see how hard he’s trying to heal from everything, the pain, the trauma, the drug addiction. He’s still the same Kaj deep down, a bit angry and closed off, but so much more mature. He’s doing the work this time, genuinely trying, and that made me love him even more. The fact that we got therapy sessions and saw his internal struggles made it all feel so real.
He hated that Noah was making him feel at all . But mostly , Kaj hated that this man was the only one capable of appeasing the constant pain in his chest .
And don’t even get me started on chapter 20. That was one of the hottest (and very kinky) things I’ve ever read and I LOVED it. It was raw, intense, and so different from what they had before. It took so much trust from both of them and it was as dirty as it was beautiful emotionally. The way it showed how far they’d come together, both physically and emotionally, just made it even better.
It had taken him forever to forget Noah , and still he knew it was just a carefully woven net of lies . How did anyone fully get over what they had ? How did anyone let go of the only glimpse of happiness they’d ever had ?
The revelations later in the book were perfectly written. The pacing, the emotional buildup, everything hit right where it should. Both of their character developments were honestly some of the best I’ve read in a romance. Watching them rebuild something healthier and softer together after everything they’d been through... I was crying. Like, actual tears streaming down my face crying.
Mutual dislike and exasperation were the only things they had in common now , but his heart hadn’t beat with such violence in a long time . It was as if his body knew a truth his mind wasn’t ready to accept . A truth that would tear his armor to shreds , leaving him completely exposed . Scars . Fears . Weaknesses
The new side characters were just as good as in book 1, and I loved seeing the old ones again, even if I wish we got a bit more of them. The whole band dynamic was so fun to read, and the story never felt empty, everyone had a purpose just like before.
He didn’t want to have to see the face of the man who made him feel weak . Who brought out the worst in him . Who didn’t fight for him and let him go . The past should stay in the past .
There were also so many plot twists and I loved every second of it.This author has magic in her fingers I swear!!!!
When Noah began to sing , the hairs on Kaj’s nape stood up . He’d heard him sing so many times while he was at the drums , he didn’t think playing together again would twist his stomach like this . It felt like a razor sliding down his throat . The punishment for his sins before being redeemed . He deserved it.
This sequel felt like a healing journey, still messy, still emotional, but so cathartic. Kaj and Noah finally found balance and it was everything I wanted for them and more.
Why fight something that was pulling from him with such force ? Why fight something that made him feel so fucking good ?
And yes, I cried. A lot. Like, ugly crying level. And I'm not ashamed of it ; I'd do it all over again if I could.
Despite everything that had happened between them and over the years . Even if they weren’t together anymore , even if they argued more than they breathed these days , every piece of Noah that Kaj had broken would always belong to him .
If you loved book one, this one will absolutely destroy you in the best way possible.
I'm sorry I have too many highlights and favorites quotes, so here we go ;
He never thought they would meet again or that his body would still react to him this way , yet he couldn’t deny this man stirred things in him he hadn’t felt in a long while . It was devious and dark , but it was better than the vacuity that had ruled his life for years.
But hatred and desire aren’t that different . While they’re on opposite sides of the emotional spectrum , they’re both obsessive and all - consuming . Forces that could end worlds .
Like a siren’s song , this man was calling him in the dark , drawing him straight into a shipwreck . And he was tired of fighting it .
People say time heals , but for him , that was bullshit . Time only helps you learn how to deal with your ghosts . It helps you befriend them despite the pain they cause , because accepting that darkness is the only way to survive .
Because for all his biting sarcasm and detached cruelty , when it came to this man , Kaj always lost .
But that fairytale was over . Now they were just broken pieces that didn’t fit together , a soiled reverie of what they could’ve been .
And then he felt it ; the bitter taste at the tip of his tongue , the rope tugging violently at his heart , the tingles on his hands . . . Jealousy .
“ You might command the world when we’re on stage , but here , in private , I hold all the power . Every time we fuck , I steal a piece of you , getting deeper and deeper into your head , leaving you with nowhere to hide . ”
Kaj hadn’t been able to say it out loud yet , not even to himself , but how he felt about Noah was different . Or maybe it’d always been the same , just soiled by resentment and pain , and only now was it clawing its way back to the surface . He had convinced himself he’d never feel this way again — warm , protective
The little organ that kept him alive was in Noah’s hands . Was it love ? Was it codependency and his brain was just tricking him ?
“ If I were to die , would you die with me ? ” “ Yes . ” Noah didn’t even hesitate . “ I would die for you . I would kill for you . ” He clutched Kaj’s wrist with both hands , holding onto reality — onto them . “ You’re my fucking everything , Kaj . Remember ? Always and forever . ”
It was as if Noah wanted to rip Kaj apart and piece him back together to sculpt something new and lined with gold .
Because his wounds and imperfections were part of his history but didn’t define who he was . Because broken things could also be beautiful .
Words that meant devotion . That meant forever . Because it had and would always be them.
May 14, 2025
Kaj + Noah 🖤
Second chance | Healing | Hard earned HEA
A well done conclusion for Kaj and Noah's story. They deserved their HEA so bad and finally got it.
....
"They were two missing halves of the same entity yearning to find each other again."
“You bark a lot and are loud as fuck, but I’ve seen the way you look at me.” “Grimacing, you mean?” “Mm- hmm… You can keep denying it. I don’t care. We both know I’m right,” Noah husked before nipping Kaj's lips. “You’re a fucking nightmare, but apparently when it comes to you, I am not above begging.”
“You know, some people actually enjoy my company.” “Some people also like getting punched in the face.”
“You said you’d do anything.” “If you need to vent, cry, break stuff, or even bury a body, I’m your guy. When we fuck, it’ll be because we both want it.”
"Fuck... I think you fucked my soul right out of me."
"Is that a review? 'Soul-fucking' good?"
"Five stars. Would recommend. Though I might need a wheelchair tomorrow."
"You asked for it. I just delivered."
"Dear Housekeeping, sorry about the DNA samples everywhere. We got carried away."
“Fuck, babe…” Noah’s thumbs brushed over his jaw as his hands slid to his neck. “I don’t know what it is, but please, stop hiding from this, from us. Stop pushing me away. We both know this isn’t ‘just sex’ anymore. It hasn’t been in a while. Don’t shut me out. Not again, please.”
"Thank you for trusting me."
"Thank you for keeping me safe."
“It goes both ways, you fucking idiot.” He let out a breathless, bitter laugh. “I won’t make it without you anymore. I don’t want to. If you go to jail, if you die— I’ll follow you to hell.”
"You walk around looking like you’re two seconds away from stabbing someone in the kidney, but then you’re over here lighting ‘Autumn whisper’ candles, being all romantic and shit.”
....
⚠️ possible spoilers below in detailed tropes and trigger warnings
Tropes:
Enemies to lovers
Forced proximity
Rockstar romance
Band mates
Second chance
Broken boy
Demi sexual rep
Hiding behind a persona
Mental health rep
Comfort after nightmares
"Stay"
"Fuck it" moment
Face fucking
Hurt/comfort
Caretaking
Toxic
Fighting as foreplay
Will they, wont they
Fighting feelings
Overheard each other jacking off
Jealousy
Rough sex
DP (with a toy)
Cum eating
Aftercare
Bathing together
Washing each other
"Babe"
Rebuilding trust
Healing
Touch him and die
Soulmates
Hard won HEA
Revenge
Strict roles until the last sex scene where they switch
TWs:
Flashbacks of rape
Victim blaming
Nightmares
Cancer in a side character
Threatening messages and cyber stalking
Trauma
Panic attacks
Brief descriptions of torture
Scared to bottom due to trauma
Second chance | Healing | Hard earned HEA
A well done conclusion for Kaj and Noah's story. They deserved their HEA so bad and finally got it.
....
"They were two missing halves of the same entity yearning to find each other again."
“You bark a lot and are loud as fuck, but I’ve seen the way you look at me.” “Grimacing, you mean?” “Mm- hmm… You can keep denying it. I don’t care. We both know I’m right,” Noah husked before nipping Kaj's lips. “You’re a fucking nightmare, but apparently when it comes to you, I am not above begging.”
“You know, some people actually enjoy my company.” “Some people also like getting punched in the face.”
“You said you’d do anything.” “If you need to vent, cry, break stuff, or even bury a body, I’m your guy. When we fuck, it’ll be because we both want it.”
"Fuck... I think you fucked my soul right out of me."
"Is that a review? 'Soul-fucking' good?"
"Five stars. Would recommend. Though I might need a wheelchair tomorrow."
"You asked for it. I just delivered."
"Dear Housekeeping, sorry about the DNA samples everywhere. We got carried away."
“Fuck, babe…” Noah’s thumbs brushed over his jaw as his hands slid to his neck. “I don’t know what it is, but please, stop hiding from this, from us. Stop pushing me away. We both know this isn’t ‘just sex’ anymore. It hasn’t been in a while. Don’t shut me out. Not again, please.”
"Thank you for trusting me."
"Thank you for keeping me safe."
“It goes both ways, you fucking idiot.” He let out a breathless, bitter laugh. “I won’t make it without you anymore. I don’t want to. If you go to jail, if you die— I’ll follow you to hell.”
"You walk around looking like you’re two seconds away from stabbing someone in the kidney, but then you’re over here lighting ‘Autumn whisper’ candles, being all romantic and shit.”
....
⚠️ possible spoilers below in detailed tropes and trigger warnings
Tropes:
Enemies to lovers
Forced proximity
Rockstar romance
Band mates
Second chance
Broken boy
Demi sexual rep
Hiding behind a persona
Mental health rep
Comfort after nightmares
"Stay"
"Fuck it" moment
Face fucking
Hurt/comfort
Caretaking
Toxic
Fighting as foreplay
Will they, wont they
Fighting feelings
Overheard each other jacking off
Jealousy
Rough sex
DP (with a toy)
Cum eating
Aftercare
Bathing together
Washing each other
"Babe"
Rebuilding trust
Healing
Touch him and die
Soulmates
Hard won HEA
Revenge
Strict roles until the last sex scene where they switch
TWs:
Flashbacks of rape
Victim blaming
Nightmares
Cancer in a side character
Threatening messages and cyber stalking
Trauma
Panic attacks
Brief descriptions of torture
Scared to bottom due to trauma
April 20, 2025
Rating: 5
⭐️
ARC review.
Not gonna lie, I’ll think about this story for a long time.
I’ve been so invested, as if the characters were my own friends. I just loved Noah and Kaj’s story. Second chance romances are often a miss for me (mainly because of other people drama, etc.), which is something that bothered me in If I Were to Die.
First and foremost, despite Kaj’s behavior in the first book, I was always his defender. Finally discovering his perspective on his past, on his life, and on his struggles made me really emotional. Kaj felt like a real person. My cynical, sarcastic, misunderstood boy. He deserved to heal.
Solemnly told from his point of view, this read was very hard and painful, especially at the beginning. My eyes were glassy the whole time, I think. I appreciated this different version of him we got to see thanks to his point of view. While I hated the adult version of Noah and Kaj in the first book, mainly because their toxicity was too much, I absolutely adored them in this book. This couple felt so special to me. We followed them during their childhood until this point, where they’re finally reunited after eight years.
The author made a great decision by choosing to write the last instalment in Kaj’s point of view. Everything made sense, and his behavior even more. Kaj’s personality was the highlight, in my opinion. I loved reading his thoughts. His sarcasm, his brooding, I don’t know, he was the real diva in this story.
The rockstar aspect of the story worked really well. I really appreciated the setting; when they were touring, the interviews of the group. It didn’t feel like a trope simply put there, but a real part of the story. The group’s dynamic was adorable too. Kaj was surrounded by great people, such like Xander and Aksel. And it made me realize how much he had been let down by some people in the past. Call me resentful but the way his friends turned their back on him when he needed support the most made me mad. I know Kaj didn’t make it easy for them, but apart from Noah, the others – Theo and Val – were a disappointment.
The writing’s style was immaculate, by the way. I loved the author’s descriptions, which felt poetic most of the times. And the way the author conveyed Kaj’s feelings was perfect, in my opinion.
Once again, Kaj and Noah’s chemistry was amazing. I never doubted them as a couple. They’re endgame. True soulmates. They found their way back to each other, despite everything. All I wanted was for Kaj to finally let himself be vulnerable in front of Noah, which he did. Their last intimate scene together was beautifully written.
Noah really surprised me at the end. He was ready to risk it all for Kaj, and I can’t lie, I jubilated during one particular scene. And don't get me started on his thoughts about Kaj during the prologue and epilogue...It was everything I needed.
My only tiny complaint would be that we didn’t get to see them navigating Kaj’s CNC kink (maybe in a bonus scene, please?). To be honest, I think I just wanted to read more about this couple. If the author decides to write more about those two, I’ll gladly gobble it.
Overall, it was an excellent read, one I recommend if you’re ready for an emotional journey.
ARC review.
Not gonna lie, I’ll think about this story for a long time.
I’ve been so invested, as if the characters were my own friends. I just loved Noah and Kaj’s story. Second chance romances are often a miss for me (mainly because of other people drama, etc.), which is something that bothered me in If I Were to Die.
First and foremost, despite Kaj’s behavior in the first book, I was always his defender. Finally discovering his perspective on his past, on his life, and on his struggles made me really emotional. Kaj felt like a real person. My cynical, sarcastic, misunderstood boy. He deserved to heal.
Solemnly told from his point of view, this read was very hard and painful, especially at the beginning. My eyes were glassy the whole time, I think. I appreciated this different version of him we got to see thanks to his point of view. While I hated the adult version of Noah and Kaj in the first book, mainly because their toxicity was too much, I absolutely adored them in this book. This couple felt so special to me. We followed them during their childhood until this point, where they’re finally reunited after eight years.
The author made a great decision by choosing to write the last instalment in Kaj’s point of view. Everything made sense, and his behavior even more. Kaj’s personality was the highlight, in my opinion. I loved reading his thoughts. His sarcasm, his brooding, I don’t know, he was the real diva in this story.
The rockstar aspect of the story worked really well. I really appreciated the setting; when they were touring, the interviews of the group. It didn’t feel like a trope simply put there, but a real part of the story. The group’s dynamic was adorable too. Kaj was surrounded by great people, such like Xander and Aksel. And it made me realize how much he had been let down by some people in the past. Call me resentful but the way his friends turned their back on him when he needed support the most made me mad. I know Kaj didn’t make it easy for them, but apart from Noah, the others – Theo and Val – were a disappointment.
The writing’s style was immaculate, by the way. I loved the author’s descriptions, which felt poetic most of the times. And the way the author conveyed Kaj’s feelings was perfect, in my opinion.
Once again, Kaj and Noah’s chemistry was amazing. I never doubted them as a couple. They’re endgame. True soulmates. They found their way back to each other, despite everything. All I wanted was for Kaj to finally let himself be vulnerable in front of Noah, which he did. Their last intimate scene together was beautifully written.
Noah really surprised me at the end. He was ready to risk it all for Kaj, and I can’t lie, I jubilated during one particular scene. And don't get me started on his thoughts about Kaj during the prologue and epilogue...It was everything I needed.
My only tiny complaint would be that we didn’t get to see them navigating Kaj’s CNC kink (maybe in a bonus scene, please?). To be honest, I think I just wanted to read more about this couple. If the author decides to write more about those two, I’ll gladly gobble it.
Overall, it was an excellent read, one I recommend if you’re ready for an emotional journey.
April 17, 2025
MY HEART IS AT PEACE NOW! i am not lying if i say this was one of the most awaited books of this year. after how "if i were to die" left me, i NEEDED this story in my veins. and yes, waiting was hard, but i also appreciated that the author took her time to write the story exactly how noah and kaj deserved. not in a rush, not just to reach a deadline. i wish all authors could do that. i dont care if it's a duet, a trilogy or more. going back to this book. it's narrated from kaj POV and i have to admit i kinda missed noah POV this time because a lot of things happen, like a lot! plot twisting things! and i'd have loved to know how noah felt. it's not a secret this book has a HEA but boy, oh boy... the way they get there... i will always love the raw emotions that run between these two. hatred, jealousy, annoyance, possession, obsession, admiration... and to finally see kaj being able to trust again and be freed from his past was the best part. i am going to miss them so much 😍 but at least i know they are happy and fathers of cats 🐱🐱
December 16, 2025
There are some spoilers in my review so be warned!
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Weirdly, this book wasn't as angsty or emotionally connecting for me as book one was even though we get the gory details of everything Kaj has been through. I think because I clocked Jesper and his intentions so early on that I already cried for what had happened to Kaj when I was reading the first book? Having the details just confirmed what I knew, if that makes sense?
I liked that Kaj was working on himself already before Noah even came back into the picture. He's grown so much and even though I do love Noah, Kaj is definitely my favourite character purely because we have shared experiences and I find it very easy to relate to him and his journey to get to where he is now.
I also actually preferred the bandmates / the crew as side characters in this book over Theo and Val in book 1. They felt more supportive and understanding, but that said, in book one they were all kids who didn't have the life experience to react any better than they did. Like, would I have reacted in the same way that Noah did in book one if I was his age? Absolutely because I wouldn't have know better or considered other options. Would I react like that if I had the life experience and knowledge I have at 38? No, it would be completely different. So I can't blame Noah, Val and Theo for having such a black and white view of the situation or not stopping for an explanation - they were young and stupid! But it hurt my heart so much to know Kaj was alone and struggling so much, even with Mads in his life. Seeing Kaj get to where he is now felt like a reward after such a harrowing story.
This is definitely one of the angstier duets that I've read in a while and I'm definitely eager to see what else this author comes up with - even a story for Mads because he kinda grew on me in this book.
I also love that Artificial Suicide was metal because I do like musician romances, but because I don't typically listen to pop music (except for Taylor Swift obviously) I always find myself getting distracted or bored with the performance scenes. Being a metal and rock fan, this book kept my attention the whole time which was a nice change.
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Weirdly, this book wasn't as angsty or emotionally connecting for me as book one was even though we get the gory details of everything Kaj has been through. I think because I clocked Jesper and his intentions so early on that I already cried for what had happened to Kaj when I was reading the first book? Having the details just confirmed what I knew, if that makes sense?
I liked that Kaj was working on himself already before Noah even came back into the picture. He's grown so much and even though I do love Noah, Kaj is definitely my favourite character purely because we have shared experiences and I find it very easy to relate to him and his journey to get to where he is now.
I also actually preferred the bandmates / the crew as side characters in this book over Theo and Val in book 1. They felt more supportive and understanding, but that said, in book one they were all kids who didn't have the life experience to react any better than they did. Like, would I have reacted in the same way that Noah did in book one if I was his age? Absolutely because I wouldn't have know better or considered other options. Would I react like that if I had the life experience and knowledge I have at 38? No, it would be completely different. So I can't blame Noah, Val and Theo for having such a black and white view of the situation or not stopping for an explanation - they were young and stupid! But it hurt my heart so much to know Kaj was alone and struggling so much, even with Mads in his life. Seeing Kaj get to where he is now felt like a reward after such a harrowing story.
This is definitely one of the angstier duets that I've read in a while and I'm definitely eager to see what else this author comes up with - even a story for Mads because he kinda grew on me in this book.
I also love that Artificial Suicide was metal because I do like musician romances, but because I don't typically listen to pop music (except for Taylor Swift obviously) I always find myself getting distracted or bored with the performance scenes. Being a metal and rock fan, this book kept my attention the whole time which was a nice change.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
April 21, 2025
5 ★
Sometimes, some days, something was missing....and right now, the severed fragments of him that belonged in the past were craving a disaster...
One thing I have discovered in reading LA Cannon's books, is she is crazy talented at writing heartbreaking moments and tearing your soul to shreds. It takes a lot for a book to wreck me properly and leave me thinking about it for a long time after, but this duet completely ruined me in the best way. The despair and anticipation that was built waiting for book two was almost too much, but the author came out on top with this masterpiece and I would not change a thing - it was completely worth the wait. It wasn't a sweet cute read after the first book, it was just as raw and soul gutting and painful as the first, but it was utter perfection how the author closed it out. PERFECTION. LA Cannon has been an autobuy author from the beginning and this duet just cemented her place as one of my all time favourite writers. Overall this was for sure my most anticipated read for the year and it delivered in every way possible!
What To Expect:
⨳ MM Dark Romance
⨳ Not A Standalone
⨳ Second Chance
⨳ All The Angst In The World
⨳ Rockstar Romance
⨳ Hurt / Comfort
They were peace for each other, but they fucked like war...
❤︎ ARC provided in exchange for an honest review ❤︎
Sometimes, some days, something was missing....and right now, the severed fragments of him that belonged in the past were craving a disaster...
One thing I have discovered in reading LA Cannon's books, is she is crazy talented at writing heartbreaking moments and tearing your soul to shreds. It takes a lot for a book to wreck me properly and leave me thinking about it for a long time after, but this duet completely ruined me in the best way. The despair and anticipation that was built waiting for book two was almost too much, but the author came out on top with this masterpiece and I would not change a thing - it was completely worth the wait. It wasn't a sweet cute read after the first book, it was just as raw and soul gutting and painful as the first, but it was utter perfection how the author closed it out. PERFECTION. LA Cannon has been an autobuy author from the beginning and this duet just cemented her place as one of my all time favourite writers. Overall this was for sure my most anticipated read for the year and it delivered in every way possible!
What To Expect:
⨳ MM Dark Romance
⨳ Not A Standalone
⨳ Second Chance
⨳ All The Angst In The World
⨳ Rockstar Romance
⨳ Hurt / Comfort
They were peace for each other, but they fucked like war...
❤︎ ARC provided in exchange for an honest review ❤︎
April 21, 2025
Would You Die with Me? by L.A. Cannon (second book in the "Artificial Suicide" duet) is leaving me completely speechless, honestly. I don’t even know where to start. I’ve cried, I’ve screamed, I’ve wanted to throw my Kindle off the balcony more times than I can count. I’ve gone on a world tour with these guys, and I’ve fallen so deeply in love with Kaj and Noah that I’ll carry them in my heart forever.
Looking back now, my heart feels so full from the beautiful and heartbreaking love story these boys have lived and made me live with them.
L.A. Cannon has brought us a second installment full of constant push and pull, a true enemies to lovers story, with sex scenes that are liquid gold, and a chemistry between Noah and Kaj that never broke because it’s always been them, and it always will be.
This time, the story is told from Kaj’s perspective, and it’s totally necessary to understand his emotional journey, the pain, the fears, and the trauma he’s been dealing with for years.
Destiny will bring them back together, but again, the road to their so long awaited and deserved HEA won’t be easy. But trust me, when they finally get there, you’ll be jumping for joy.
I can’t help but give all the credit to L.A. Cannon for this masterful story, for how beautifully it’s written, for her words that sometimes feel like claws tearing your heart apart, but can also be the balm that heals everything.
Without a doubt, the entire duology gets a solid five stars from me a masterpiece that has gone straight to my top ten favorite books.
Noah and Kaj are my always and forever!
⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐♾️
🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️ 🤌🏻🤌🏻
Looking back now, my heart feels so full from the beautiful and heartbreaking love story these boys have lived and made me live with them.
L.A. Cannon has brought us a second installment full of constant push and pull, a true enemies to lovers story, with sex scenes that are liquid gold, and a chemistry between Noah and Kaj that never broke because it’s always been them, and it always will be.
This time, the story is told from Kaj’s perspective, and it’s totally necessary to understand his emotional journey, the pain, the fears, and the trauma he’s been dealing with for years.
Destiny will bring them back together, but again, the road to their so long awaited and deserved HEA won’t be easy. But trust me, when they finally get there, you’ll be jumping for joy.
I can’t help but give all the credit to L.A. Cannon for this masterful story, for how beautifully it’s written, for her words that sometimes feel like claws tearing your heart apart, but can also be the balm that heals everything.
Without a doubt, the entire duology gets a solid five stars from me a masterpiece that has gone straight to my top ten favorite books.
Noah and Kaj are my always and forever!
⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐♾️
🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️ 🤌🏻🤌🏻
August 18, 2025
4.5⭐️ 3.5🌶️
📝 REVIEW & THOUGHTS:
My boys finally get the hard earned HEA. This second installment focuses more on Kaj and his healing from all his trauma.
It was beautiful to experience both MCs, Kaj especially, finally letting their walls down and be vulnerable and authentic again. I kinda want them to be real and have them have friends.
This second book *could* actually be really healing for SA survivors (I think), depending on how bad it could trigger you though. And this book has a potential of a f*ck loads of triggers (see my list below). But it has a lot of meaningful insight that I think could be helpful. If you can survive reading book one first, that is.
My Review of If I Were to Die
The beginning of the book is really emotional and painful, then we slowly start to see the light at the end of the tunnel. The raw emotions were portrayed really well.
I hoped book two would’ve been a dual POV, but it was all in Kaj’s POV except for the prologue and epilogue. That was probably what annoyed me the most :( I understand why we had only Noah’s POV in book one, but I really missed his POV in this book :( I understand that this book was more about Kaj’s healing though, so the stylistic choice makes sense. I just missed my boy’s thoughts.
Read this only if you’re prepared for high level of angst, trauma, pain with raw emotions and hard earned healing. Totally recommend.
🏷️ TROPES & TAGS (possible spoilers):
Genre/subgenre: contemporary rockstar romance
Pairing: MM
POV: 3rd person, essentially a single POV
Angst: high
Burn: medium
Vibe/mood: toxic, raw, painful, then healing and pretty sweet
Pet names: pretty boy, babe
HEA: yes
Childhood-best-friends-to-lovers-to-enemies-to-f*ck buddies-to-nothing-to-f*ck buddies-again-to-lovers (it’s a roller coaster)
Second chance romance (more like third chance…)
Broken boy
Mixed Asian MC
Found family
Pining
Demi MC
Jealousy and possessiveness, “mine”
Mental health rep
Hurt/comfort
Rockstars
Resentment and rebuilding trust
Trauma and healing
🌶️ SPICE & K!NKS (possible spoilers):
Strict top/bottom or versatile: top/bottom initially then vers at the end
Heat: 8 scenes, pretty high heat
Mild D/s dynamic
Frott!ng
BJs
Face f*cking
Rough s*x
Bareback
Degradation
D!rty talk
Double p*netration (with toy)
Chok!ng, hair pulling, biting
⚠️ CONTENT WARNINGS (possible spoilers):
(Read at your own risk because it’s FULL of SPOILERS)
Dubcon: no
Noncon: no
OM/OW: MC has s*xual relations with OM before they get back together (off page)
Multiple references and flashbacks/nightmares of MC r@ped as a teenager
MC was gro00med as a teen by his SA perpetrator
References to past blackmail to not tell about the SA the MC was victim of
Recovering alc0holic and dr*g add!ct
Unhealthy copying mechanisms
Tox!c and possessive behaviors
References to past overdose (survived)
References to step-parent’s de@th due to alc0holism
References to present parent sickness (cancer)
Smok!ng (MC-on page)
References to parent de@th
Mentions of neglecting and abus!ve step-parent and victim blaming (mentions and on page flashback)
Step-parent manipulated MC to not tell of the SA he was victim of
Rac!st slurs
Grief
Depression
Anxiety
Guilt
V!olence (be@ting and cutt!ng-not between MCs)
Mentions of self-h@rm and self-h@rm ideation
Mentions of past attempted su!cide and su!cide ideation (MC)
References of side character’s parent su!cide, parent abandonment and grandparent de@th
References to past st@lker
Thre@ts and h@te from st@lker to MC-cyberstalk!ng (present)
Panic attacks and dissociative episodes
Attempted revenge by MC on SA perpetrator (MC be@t him up and wanted to tort*re and unalive him-partially on page, stopped by other MC and SCs)
💬 QUOTES (possible spoilers):
* Fyi about 🌶️ levels: I rate spice on a combination of quantity, quality, length, intensity and explicitness of the scenes. K!nks are listed separately and generally do not directly affect the steam level to keep it fair for non k!nky books.
📝 REVIEW & THOUGHTS:
“If I were to die, would you die with me?” “Yes.” Noah didn’t even hesitate. “I would die for you. I would kill for you.” He clutched Kaj’s wrist with both hands, holding onto reality—onto them. “You’re my fucking everything, Kaj. Remember? Always and forever.”
My boys finally get the hard earned HEA. This second installment focuses more on Kaj and his healing from all his trauma.
It was beautiful to experience both MCs, Kaj especially, finally letting their walls down and be vulnerable and authentic again. I kinda want them to be real and have them have friends.
This second book *could* actually be really healing for SA survivors (I think), depending on how bad it could trigger you though. And this book has a potential of a f*ck loads of triggers (see my list below). But it has a lot of meaningful insight that I think could be helpful. If you can survive reading book one first, that is.
My Review of If I Were to Die
The beginning of the book is really emotional and painful, then we slowly start to see the light at the end of the tunnel. The raw emotions were portrayed really well.
I hoped book two would’ve been a dual POV, but it was all in Kaj’s POV except for the prologue and epilogue. That was probably what annoyed me the most :( I understand why we had only Noah’s POV in book one, but I really missed his POV in this book :( I understand that this book was more about Kaj’s healing though, so the stylistic choice makes sense. I just missed my boy’s thoughts.
Read this only if you’re prepared for high level of angst, trauma, pain with raw emotions and hard earned healing. Totally recommend.
🏷️ TROPES & TAGS (possible spoilers):
Genre/subgenre: contemporary rockstar romance
Pairing: MM
POV: 3rd person, essentially a single POV
Angst: high
Burn: medium
Vibe/mood: toxic, raw, painful, then healing and pretty sweet
Pet names: pretty boy, babe
HEA: yes
Childhood-best-friends-to-lovers-to-enemies-to-f*ck buddies-to-nothing-to-f*ck buddies-again-to-lovers (it’s a roller coaster)
Second chance romance (more like third chance…)
Broken boy
Mixed Asian MC
Found family
Pining
Demi MC
Jealousy and possessiveness, “mine”
Mental health rep
Hurt/comfort
Rockstars
Resentment and rebuilding trust
Trauma and healing
🌶️ SPICE & K!NKS (possible spoilers):
Strict top/bottom or versatile: top/bottom initially then vers at the end
Heat: 8 scenes, pretty high heat
Mild D/s dynamic
Frott!ng
BJs
Face f*cking
Rough s*x
Bareback
Degradation
D!rty talk
Double p*netration (with toy)
Chok!ng, hair pulling, biting
⚠️ CONTENT WARNINGS (possible spoilers):
(Read at your own risk because it’s FULL of SPOILERS)
Dubcon: no
Noncon: no
OM/OW: MC has s*xual relations with OM before they get back together (off page)
Multiple references and flashbacks/nightmares of MC r@ped as a teenager
MC was gro00med as a teen by his SA perpetrator
References to past blackmail to not tell about the SA the MC was victim of
Recovering alc0holic and dr*g add!ct
Unhealthy copying mechanisms
Tox!c and possessive behaviors
References to past overdose (survived)
References to step-parent’s de@th due to alc0holism
References to present parent sickness (cancer)
Smok!ng (MC-on page)
References to parent de@th
Mentions of neglecting and abus!ve step-parent and victim blaming (mentions and on page flashback)
Step-parent manipulated MC to not tell of the SA he was victim of
Rac!st slurs
Grief
Depression
Anxiety
Guilt
V!olence (be@ting and cutt!ng-not between MCs)
Mentions of self-h@rm and self-h@rm ideation
Mentions of past attempted su!cide and su!cide ideation (MC)
References of side character’s parent su!cide, parent abandonment and grandparent de@th
References to past st@lker
Thre@ts and h@te from st@lker to MC-cyberstalk!ng (present)
Panic attacks and dissociative episodes
Attempted revenge by MC on SA perpetrator (MC be@t him up and wanted to tort*re and unalive him-partially on page, stopped by other MC and SCs)
💬 QUOTES (possible spoilers):
“Without fear—no matter if he got burned—Noah could finally admit that they were two missing halves of the same entity yearning to find each other again.”
“He didn’t want to have to see the face of the man who made him feel weak. Who brought out the worst in him. Who didn’t fight for him and let him go.”
“People say time heals, but for him, that was bullshit. Time only helps you learn how to deal with your ghosts. It helps you befriend them despite the pain they cause, because accepting that darkness is the only way to survive.”
“However, even when you don’t consent to something, the body is wired differently. You might hate being tickled, but you’ll laugh if someone forces that on you. Sexual arousal during rape works the same way. It’s an uncomfortable truth people don’t like talking about, but it happens.”
“I love you, Kaj. I love you with every fucking cell in my body. Nothing will ever change that.”
“If I were to die, would you die with me?” “Yes.” Noah didn’t even hesitate. “I would die for you. I would kill for you.” He clutched Kaj’s wrist with both hands, holding onto reality—onto them. “You’re my fucking everything, Kaj. Remember? Always and forever.”
* Fyi about 🌶️ levels: I rate spice on a combination of quantity, quality, length, intensity and explicitness of the scenes. K!nks are listed separately and generally do not directly affect the steam level to keep it fair for non k!nky books.
April 19, 2025
Oh man, this story hit me hard and fast. It is so good! It is such a heartbreaking and angsty ride for these two guys. This story is mainly Kaj’s pov, except for the prologue and the epilogue (which is Noah’s pov) and we really get to know Kaj and his struggle from what he suffered at the age of 16, from the loss of his dad, to the abuse he suffered at the hands of his stepbrother, the neglect of his stepmother, the loss of Noah and Trine, and then his long battle with substance addictions. Kaj just broke my heart so many times. But he’s a true survivor, continuing to push forward and find his happiness and better his life. This book picks up about 2 years after the last book ended, he’s gone to rehab, he’s currently sober and struggling to maintain his sobriety and heal his wounds. But his world is rocked when the lead vocalist of Artificial Suicide has a scandal that hits too close to home, and gets booted from the band, to be replaced by Noah. It becomes tricky for him because Noah brings back so many emotions Kaj wants to hide from and bury. But Noah and he banter and bicker until they decide to add sexy times into the mix. These two finally figure their stuff out, and it’s hard and heartbreaking. But their problems aren’t over because Noah had a stalker, someone that is obsessed with Kaj and making nasty threats towards Noah. These guys have to fight obstacles to gain their happiness. This book is just so amazing, it is emotionally charged, sexy and steamy as all get out and has amazing banter. I adored the first book and this one lived up to it! The writing style is wonderful and fits a very poetic artistry that I would expect for a story about music. The characters are all wonderful (except for the stepbrother and stepmom and stalker of course). These two guys, especially Kaj endeared himself to me so much, I’ve been where he was on the assault front and his pain just resonates with me. And I loved that Noah and all the guys were there for him, it’s amazing. This found family Kaj ended up with is just so heartwarming, it couldn’t have happened to a more deserving guy.
April 18, 2025
Rating: 5⭐️
Emotion: 5🥹
Spice: 4.5🌶️
First Would U Die With Me is part of a duet and cannot be read as a standalone. You MUST read If I Were To Die first.
Would U Die With Me is a second chance rockstar romance about two broken boys who find their way back to each other. There was always an invisible string tying them together and their love was inevitable.
The story takes place eight years after Noah & Kaj parted ways in the most devastating way. After almost a decade apart Kaj’s world is turned upside down when Noah joins Artificial Suicide as the lead vocalist.
What started out as hate, loathing and almost a need to dominate slowly shifts as old feelings resurface. Igniting in the best possible way.
I loved seeing this story from Kaj’s perspective. He has matured so much over the past 8 years, working hard on overcoming his drug addiction, the heartbreaking trauma from his past and learning to trust again.
The spice.. oh my god.. the spice. Chapter 20 was hands down the hottest spicy scene I have ever read. But what I loved most about this scene was the shift in their relationship. This was the turning point where the lines of enemies to lovers were obliterated and we finally saw Kaj start to accept what he knew all along. That they really were meant to be, always and forever.
I cannot recommend this duet highly enough. Kaj & Noah will have you feeling everything and if you love stories that break your heart and then heal it, then this is for you.
These boys have lived rent free in my mind since I read If I Were To Die and to finally have their HEA was so healing.
When the author tells you this book will be cathartic she wasn’t lying.
Would U Die With Me took all my broken pieces from If I Were To Die and stitched them back together. This book was everything I hoped it would be and so much more.
If you have any triggers please check the warnings. This book is heavy and your mental health matters.
Emotion: 5🥹
Spice: 4.5🌶️
First Would U Die With Me is part of a duet and cannot be read as a standalone. You MUST read If I Were To Die first.
Would U Die With Me is a second chance rockstar romance about two broken boys who find their way back to each other. There was always an invisible string tying them together and their love was inevitable.
The story takes place eight years after Noah & Kaj parted ways in the most devastating way. After almost a decade apart Kaj’s world is turned upside down when Noah joins Artificial Suicide as the lead vocalist.
What started out as hate, loathing and almost a need to dominate slowly shifts as old feelings resurface. Igniting in the best possible way.
I loved seeing this story from Kaj’s perspective. He has matured so much over the past 8 years, working hard on overcoming his drug addiction, the heartbreaking trauma from his past and learning to trust again.
The spice.. oh my god.. the spice. Chapter 20 was hands down the hottest spicy scene I have ever read. But what I loved most about this scene was the shift in their relationship. This was the turning point where the lines of enemies to lovers were obliterated and we finally saw Kaj start to accept what he knew all along. That they really were meant to be, always and forever.
I cannot recommend this duet highly enough. Kaj & Noah will have you feeling everything and if you love stories that break your heart and then heal it, then this is for you.
These boys have lived rent free in my mind since I read If I Were To Die and to finally have their HEA was so healing.
When the author tells you this book will be cathartic she wasn’t lying.
Would U Die With Me took all my broken pieces from If I Were To Die and stitched them back together. This book was everything I hoped it would be and so much more.
If you have any triggers please check the warnings. This book is heavy and your mental health matters.
April 23, 2025
"Even with his sharp edges on full display. Even with the ugly pieces of him scattered all over the place. This man wasn’t a part of the journey. He was, and always had been, his beginning and all his ends."
I don't know where to start with this heart-wrenching read, which is the second part of the Artificial Suicide duet from L.A. Cannon, except to say you absolutely must read If I Were To Die first before you dive in to Would You Die With Me?
This duet is all about the angst and pitch black DARK themes and all the emotional first times. Plus some explicit spice (including borderline non-con). In particular, it's a story of redemption and second chances and a childhood love that never dies.
What To Expect:
🖤MM rockstar romance
🖤Childhood best friends to lovers to enemies to.....
🖤Dark themes
🖤Grief and loss
🖤First times
🖤Bi-awakening
🖤Found family
🖤ALL THE ANGST
🖤ALL THE STEAM
🖤Dub con/non con
🖤Second chances lost....and found
🖤Hard won HEA (book 2)
It was sooooo tough to read at times, but I loved it.
5 stars
I don't know where to start with this heart-wrenching read, which is the second part of the Artificial Suicide duet from L.A. Cannon, except to say you absolutely must read If I Were To Die first before you dive in to Would You Die With Me?
This duet is all about the angst and pitch black DARK themes and all the emotional first times. Plus some explicit spice (including borderline non-con). In particular, it's a story of redemption and second chances and a childhood love that never dies.
What To Expect:
🖤MM rockstar romance
🖤Childhood best friends to lovers to enemies to.....
🖤Dark themes
🖤Grief and loss
🖤First times
🖤Bi-awakening
🖤Found family
🖤ALL THE ANGST
🖤ALL THE STEAM
🖤Dub con/non con
🖤Second chances lost....and found
🖤Hard won HEA (book 2)
It was sooooo tough to read at times, but I loved it.
5 stars
April 29, 2025
5⭐
“If I were to die, would you die with me?”
“Yes. I would die for you. I would kill for you. You’re my fucking everything, Kaj. Remember? Always and forever.”
“If I were to die, would you die with me?”
“Yes. I would die for you. I would kill for you. You’re my fucking everything, Kaj. Remember? Always and forever.”
April 27, 2025
Noah and Kaj’s story continues on and after the cliffhanger the last book left us at, I am not going to lie I was nervous. But I shouldn’t have been. This book was everything that both the readers and the characters needed. It felt so cathartic.
I absolutely loved how Kaj and Noah were so much more mature (I mean yes they should be because 8 years has passed since the events of book 1). Kaj, in particular, surprised me. He was putting in all the work. He had a therapist and was actively making positive choices to stick to his sobriety. I was so glad we were shown therapy sessions and calls to his sponsor and thoughts of breaking his sobriety but Kaj was strong enough to put himself and his health (both mental and physical) first and I was soooo proud of him. And he was doing all of this before Noah came back into his life which I loved because it showed he was working on his healing before a partner was ever a consideration so he was doing it all for himself. And also it allowed him to be in a place where a healthier relationship with Noah could form.
I loved the communication and care these two had throughout this book. It starts a bit rocky at first but nowhere near as toxic as it was when they reconnected in their 20s. But they start to form a reluctant friendship and respect that grows from them both being able to be a bit more vulnerable this time around. The walls weren’t quite so massive.
I won’t go into too much more detail as a lot of this expands on book 1 and Kaj’s past (ooooof) and I don’t want to give away too much. Please read the TW’s for both books before going in.
I am so glad these two found each other one more time and were able to make something beautiful out of it. I wouldn’t say no to some short stories showing them in pure domestic bliss with their cats in the future just saying.
“He knew this moment was nothing but the culmination of this weird, acrobatic dance they’d been doing for months - year - around each other. Around the piled-up frustration, the anger, the resentment, and everything they weren’t brave enough to say before. But, as surreal as it sounded, Kaj had always known Noah was the one for him. His other half. The best part of him.”
I absolutely loved how Kaj and Noah were so much more mature (I mean yes they should be because 8 years has passed since the events of book 1). Kaj, in particular, surprised me. He was putting in all the work. He had a therapist and was actively making positive choices to stick to his sobriety. I was so glad we were shown therapy sessions and calls to his sponsor and thoughts of breaking his sobriety but Kaj was strong enough to put himself and his health (both mental and physical) first and I was soooo proud of him. And he was doing all of this before Noah came back into his life which I loved because it showed he was working on his healing before a partner was ever a consideration so he was doing it all for himself. And also it allowed him to be in a place where a healthier relationship with Noah could form.
I loved the communication and care these two had throughout this book. It starts a bit rocky at first but nowhere near as toxic as it was when they reconnected in their 20s. But they start to form a reluctant friendship and respect that grows from them both being able to be a bit more vulnerable this time around. The walls weren’t quite so massive.
I won’t go into too much more detail as a lot of this expands on book 1 and Kaj’s past (ooooof) and I don’t want to give away too much. Please read the TW’s for both books before going in.
I am so glad these two found each other one more time and were able to make something beautiful out of it. I wouldn’t say no to some short stories showing them in pure domestic bliss with their cats in the future just saying.
“He knew this moment was nothing but the culmination of this weird, acrobatic dance they’d been doing for months - year - around each other. Around the piled-up frustration, the anger, the resentment, and everything they weren’t brave enough to say before. But, as surreal as it sounded, Kaj had always known Noah was the one for him. His other half. The best part of him.”
April 20, 2025
A must-read follow on from If I Were To Die.
I had extremely mixed opinions and feelings after the first book. Not against the book, in the slightest, but my feelings towards the characters Kaj and Noah. I both loved and hated them with equalling strength.
Would U Die With Me? has redeemed these men exponentially. Their story continues eight years after the last book ended. And maybe to the uninterested, Kaj is still the same harsh, moody, cutting guy we last saw. But looking deeper and seeing his story unfold we see so much more of him. After so much pushing back when Noah appears back in his orbit, we finally see Kaj for the boy he was when he first loved Noah.
There are twists and turns throughout this book, and the path Noah takes toward the end of the book shocked me beyond all expectation.
In different ways, my heart goes out to both these men.
Definitely read the first book before this, and also be aware of the triggers listed. There are some traumatic memories that surface, but touched as sensitively as possible.
I had extremely mixed opinions and feelings after the first book. Not against the book, in the slightest, but my feelings towards the characters Kaj and Noah. I both loved and hated them with equalling strength.
Would U Die With Me? has redeemed these men exponentially. Their story continues eight years after the last book ended. And maybe to the uninterested, Kaj is still the same harsh, moody, cutting guy we last saw. But looking deeper and seeing his story unfold we see so much more of him. After so much pushing back when Noah appears back in his orbit, we finally see Kaj for the boy he was when he first loved Noah.
There are twists and turns throughout this book, and the path Noah takes toward the end of the book shocked me beyond all expectation.
In different ways, my heart goes out to both these men.
Definitely read the first book before this, and also be aware of the triggers listed. There are some traumatic memories that surface, but touched as sensitively as possible.
April 27, 2025
5 ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
Most awaited book and I knew I wouldn’t get disappointed after reading it. Everything was worth the wait, Noah and Kaj finally got the ending they deserved and I couldn’t cry more about it with happy tears.
The confession moment broke me beyond repair, I read it with a heavy heart, but as soon as Kaj was done, I realized Noah finally knew the whole story and sighed in relief. After so many years, they finally got to look into each other’s eyes and confess their love with no barriers between them and that was my most favorite moment. Still cannot believe they’re a couple now, but it happened! It finally happened!
Can you believe Kaj is finally free? Cause at some point it felt like he would never get rid of his past.
Now I’m part of the #Koah universe, I want them tattooed all over my heart (they already are), they’re my hardcore babies 😫 and then figure out what to do with my life after reading this book. I’m gonna go real quick and add this to my imaginary ‘books that ruined me and i’m still gonna reread them soon’ list 😭
Most awaited book and I knew I wouldn’t get disappointed after reading it. Everything was worth the wait, Noah and Kaj finally got the ending they deserved and I couldn’t cry more about it with happy tears.
The confession moment broke me beyond repair, I read it with a heavy heart, but as soon as Kaj was done, I realized Noah finally knew the whole story and sighed in relief. After so many years, they finally got to look into each other’s eyes and confess their love with no barriers between them and that was my most favorite moment. Still cannot believe they’re a couple now, but it happened! It finally happened!
Can you believe Kaj is finally free? Cause at some point it felt like he would never get rid of his past.
Now I’m part of the #Koah universe, I want them tattooed all over my heart (they already are), they’re my hardcore babies 😫 and then figure out what to do with my life after reading this book. I’m gonna go real quick and add this to my imaginary ‘books that ruined me and i’m still gonna reread them soon’ list 😭
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
April 25, 2025
Kaj • Noah…♾️.
….
“He was, and always had been, his beginning and all his ends.”
….
The first thing that I remember after finishing part I that I need the II installment to be able to breathe again on a full exhale. How naive was I. I will never be able to breathe the same again because of these two. L.A choked me to tears with this one. I felt like I was part of that healing. Some characters just become very dear to my heart.
Let me bring a small passage from my IIWTD review:
“We start off with a young love, so free, so innocent… an important love. A love that shapes us. Something so intimate. We go through a life changing event that sets in mention the heartbreak of it all. Something that broke me into a million little pieces and guarded these two beautiful boys and caged their hearts in.”
We start of WYDIM with a bit older and wiser souls, still very much guarded hearts, a war within, a loud scream inside, anger and a voice we all so desperately wanted to hear, his thoughts, his heart beating, the softness I knew I would find (and love with no bounds) in Kaj. A kismet. A love that was once important becoming something just theirs, something beautifully grand. Hearts set free. And one unhinged motherfuc… ( I love you Noah.)
So…
“If I were to die, would you die with me?”
Now I know. One for all. All for one ♾️.
….
NF, Fleurie - Mansion
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Sleep Token - Give
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Sleep Token - Damocles
….
“He craved his pain as much as he used to crave his touch.” // “Kaj wanted Noah to fight back, to lose control and get mad.” // “Like I thought, still a coward.” // “Past, present, and future folded into one.” // “Noah smirked. And there goes my last brain cell.” // “Kaj brushed his fingertips along the lines etched on Noah’s upturned palm. He traced the lifeline, heart line, fate line, mapping constellations of a different sort…” // “Ready to be wrecked, pretty boy?” // “It was inevitable. Like them.” // “I remember everything about you.” // “I would repeat it a thousand times.” // “To the silent understanding that this moment was more than need—it was surrender…” ….
….
….
“He was, and always had been, his beginning and all his ends.”
….
The first thing that I remember after finishing part I that I need the II installment to be able to breathe again on a full exhale. How naive was I. I will never be able to breathe the same again because of these two. L.A choked me to tears with this one. I felt like I was part of that healing. Some characters just become very dear to my heart.
Let me bring a small passage from my IIWTD review:
“We start off with a young love, so free, so innocent… an important love. A love that shapes us. Something so intimate. We go through a life changing event that sets in mention the heartbreak of it all. Something that broke me into a million little pieces and guarded these two beautiful boys and caged their hearts in.”
We start of WYDIM with a bit older and wiser souls, still very much guarded hearts, a war within, a loud scream inside, anger and a voice we all so desperately wanted to hear, his thoughts, his heart beating, the softness I knew I would find (and love with no bounds) in Kaj. A kismet. A love that was once important becoming something just theirs, something beautifully grand. Hearts set free. And one unhinged motherfuc… ( I love you Noah.)
So…
“If I were to die, would you die with me?”
Now I know. One for all. All for one ♾️.
….
NF, Fleurie - Mansion
.
Sleep Token - Give
.
Sleep Token - Damocles
….
“He craved his pain as much as he used to crave his touch.” // “Kaj wanted Noah to fight back, to lose control and get mad.” // “Like I thought, still a coward.” // “Past, present, and future folded into one.” // “Noah smirked. And there goes my last brain cell.” // “Kaj brushed his fingertips along the lines etched on Noah’s upturned palm. He traced the lifeline, heart line, fate line, mapping constellations of a different sort…” // “Ready to be wrecked, pretty boy?” // “It was inevitable. Like them.” // “I remember everything about you.” // “I would repeat it a thousand times.” // “To the silent understanding that this moment was more than need—it was surrender…” ….
….
April 21, 2025
My heart is so relieved. I’ve been anticipating this story since the moment I finished If I Were To Die. I’m very thankful that L.A. Cannon made sure the story was everything she wanted it to be. Because it is perfect!
Kaj tells us the story from his POV for this story. This story is visceral. You will feel every moment. You will be sad, happy, annoyed, shocked, and very importantly proud. There is such growth! I’m so proud of the guys! I cried so many times, happy & sad tears.
There are a million important or special moments in the story of Kai & Noah, you just need to read them to know! I’m absolutely hoping for and looking forward to some bonus content too!🔥🔥🔥
Kaj tells us the story from his POV for this story. This story is visceral. You will feel every moment. You will be sad, happy, annoyed, shocked, and very importantly proud. There is such growth! I’m so proud of the guys! I cried so many times, happy & sad tears.
There are a million important or special moments in the story of Kai & Noah, you just need to read them to know! I’m absolutely hoping for and looking forward to some bonus content too!🔥🔥🔥
April 19, 2025
Love it
Kaj’s and Noah
My heart
So much emotion and love
😍😍😍
Kaj’s and Noah
My heart
So much emotion and love
😍😍😍
April 24, 2025
My poor heart 😭
🩵💜🩵💜🩵
There are no words to fully describe how much these guys mean to me. They made themselves permanent residents in my heart. This is such an emotional journey, and you need to experience it. This is the second part of the duo, so make sure to grab IF I WERE TO DIE first.
In the previous instalment, we had a chance to see life from Noah's perspective. Now, we experience everything through Kaj's eyes. The pain I felt uncovering everything he went through, damn it hurt. Life hasn't been kind to him, and he fights his internal battles on a daily basis. He knows how it feels to be right at the bottom and how it is to struggle and be a prisoner of his own mind.
When it looks like his life finally is getting stable, the presence of the last person he wants to see flips everything upside-down. His carefully built-up walls are starting to crumble, brick by brick.
Due to unwanted circumstances, Artificial Suicide finds themselves in need of new vocalist, and that's how Noah enters the picture.
The tension between them is visible. We have that strong hate energy, but at the same time, no matter how much they try to deny it, the chemistry and pull is there after so many years apart. They souls were meant to be one.
Now, what will take for them both to take a risk and get what they want? What obstacles will they meet along the way.
Kaj is a beautiful but broken man, and to put these broken pieces together, he needs to fully trust Noah again.
It's an emotional and beautifully written story of two men who always belong together, but the road to their hea was full of hurt and disappointment, but they got there, and now my heart is finally at peace.
If you like stories that are going to break you and then slowly put your heart back together, you need to read this.
🩵💜🩵💜🩵
There are no words to fully describe how much these guys mean to me. They made themselves permanent residents in my heart. This is such an emotional journey, and you need to experience it. This is the second part of the duo, so make sure to grab IF I WERE TO DIE first.
In the previous instalment, we had a chance to see life from Noah's perspective. Now, we experience everything through Kaj's eyes. The pain I felt uncovering everything he went through, damn it hurt. Life hasn't been kind to him, and he fights his internal battles on a daily basis. He knows how it feels to be right at the bottom and how it is to struggle and be a prisoner of his own mind.
When it looks like his life finally is getting stable, the presence of the last person he wants to see flips everything upside-down. His carefully built-up walls are starting to crumble, brick by brick.
Due to unwanted circumstances, Artificial Suicide finds themselves in need of new vocalist, and that's how Noah enters the picture.
The tension between them is visible. We have that strong hate energy, but at the same time, no matter how much they try to deny it, the chemistry and pull is there after so many years apart. They souls were meant to be one.
Now, what will take for them both to take a risk and get what they want? What obstacles will they meet along the way.
Kaj is a beautiful but broken man, and to put these broken pieces together, he needs to fully trust Noah again.
It's an emotional and beautifully written story of two men who always belong together, but the road to their hea was full of hurt and disappointment, but they got there, and now my heart is finally at peace.
If you like stories that are going to break you and then slowly put your heart back together, you need to read this.
April 24, 2025
This book was well worth the wait. As L.A. Cannon promised, this part of the story was healing. I liked the more adult side of the two boys who are now men. The way Kaj and Noah approach things with a greater sense of responsibility, without rushing into anything. But still, the story is by no means boring, it really draws you deeper and deeper into a vortex of emotions 🌪️❤️. And the spice is so hot, explosive, sometimes dark and deliciously kinky 🌶️! L.A. Cannon‘s writing is mind blowing: on the one hand the worldbuilding and character development was so incredible (I even learned a lot of new English words), on the other hand she writes so bluntly and calls a spade a spade - I love that! Thanks for writing this great duology, it's on my favorites list, for sure! By the end, the question is haunting my mind what Mad's story is - will we find out?
Dieses Buch war das Warten wert. Wie L.A. Cannon versprochen hat, war dieser Teil der Geschichte heilend. Ich mochte die erwachsenere Seite der beiden Jungs - nun Männer. Die Art und Weise, wie Kaj und Noah die Dinge mit mehr Verantwortungsbewusstsein angehen, ohne etwas zu überstürzen. Aber trotzdem ist die Geschichte keineswegs langweilig, es zieht einen wirklich immer tiefer in einen Strudel der Gefühle 🌪️❤️. Der Spice ist so heiß, explosiv, manchmal dunkel und herrlich kinky 🌶️! L.A. Cannon schreibt unglaublich gut: Einerseits war das „Worldbuilding“ und die Charakterentwicklung umwerfend gut (ich habe sogar eine Menge neuer englischer Wörter gelernt), und andererseits schreibt sie so unverblümt und nennt die Dinge beim Namen - das liebe ich! Danke, dass du diese großartige Duologie geschrieben hast, sie steht auf jeden Fall auf meiner Favoritenliste! Am Ende spuckt mir aber die Frage im Kopf herum, was hinter Mads Geschichte steckt - werden wir es herausfinden?
Dieses Buch war das Warten wert. Wie L.A. Cannon versprochen hat, war dieser Teil der Geschichte heilend. Ich mochte die erwachsenere Seite der beiden Jungs - nun Männer. Die Art und Weise, wie Kaj und Noah die Dinge mit mehr Verantwortungsbewusstsein angehen, ohne etwas zu überstürzen. Aber trotzdem ist die Geschichte keineswegs langweilig, es zieht einen wirklich immer tiefer in einen Strudel der Gefühle 🌪️❤️. Der Spice ist so heiß, explosiv, manchmal dunkel und herrlich kinky 🌶️! L.A. Cannon schreibt unglaublich gut: Einerseits war das „Worldbuilding“ und die Charakterentwicklung umwerfend gut (ich habe sogar eine Menge neuer englischer Wörter gelernt), und andererseits schreibt sie so unverblümt und nennt die Dinge beim Namen - das liebe ich! Danke, dass du diese großartige Duologie geschrieben hast, sie steht auf jeden Fall auf meiner Favoritenliste! Am Ende spuckt mir aber die Frage im Kopf herum, was hinter Mads Geschichte steckt - werden wir es herausfinden?
April 28, 2025
This was my most anticipated book of the year, and it did not disappoint! If I Were to Die is already my favorite book of 2025, and I honestly don’t have enough words to express how much I love Noah and Kaj—and how much it hurt to watch their relationship fall apart.
In If I Were to Die, my heart shattered for Noah when he thought Kaj was cheating. In Would You Die With Me, it was Kaj’s turn to break me. The chest-wrenching pain Kaj went through was indescribable, and once again, I found myself crying while reading.
L.A. Cannon’s storytelling is incredible—she doesn't just show the characters' pain; she makes you feel it. I loved how Noah was willing to embrace the darkness for Kaj and his traumatic past. The love, the pain, the angst—it was all so raw and real. This book was everything I hoped for and more.
And in the end, that hard-earned HEA made everything worth it. After everything they went through, after all the years apart, it just proves—they’re soulmates. Always were, always will be. I loved every second, even when it broke me.
Would You Die With Me?
In If I Were to Die, my heart shattered for Noah when he thought Kaj was cheating. In Would You Die With Me, it was Kaj’s turn to break me. The chest-wrenching pain Kaj went through was indescribable, and once again, I found myself crying while reading.
L.A. Cannon’s storytelling is incredible—she doesn't just show the characters' pain; she makes you feel it. I loved how Noah was willing to embrace the darkness for Kaj and his traumatic past. The love, the pain, the angst—it was all so raw and real. This book was everything I hoped for and more.
And in the end, that hard-earned HEA made everything worth it. After everything they went through, after all the years apart, it just proves—they’re soulmates. Always were, always will be. I loved every second, even when it broke me.
Would You Die With Me?
April 27, 2025
I don’t even know how to write a review for this book. I have so many feelings, but words elude me. Reading part one ‘If I Were To Die’, it kind of broke me, I hated to love that book and loved to hate it. It was a rollercoaster of feelings that made me feel whole and broken at the same time. Noah and Kaj went through it all in that book and having to wait for Would You Die With Me was torture.
To read Kaj’s point of view, L made sure all of us would hurt just a little bit more. I always have a soft spot for the broken ones and Kaj definitely fit the bill. Everything that happened to him from the moment he met Noah shaped him into the broken man who can’t do anything beside love Noah, even when he doesn’t want to. The magnetism between them is so undeniably powerful. I loved that after every hardship, all the pain both of them had to endure, their love still proved inevitable.
I just love this duet, one of my favorites and a solid recommendation if you ever needed one. I can’t wait to read some bonus scenes about Noah and Kaj, just to spend a little more time with them.
To read Kaj’s point of view, L made sure all of us would hurt just a little bit more. I always have a soft spot for the broken ones and Kaj definitely fit the bill. Everything that happened to him from the moment he met Noah shaped him into the broken man who can’t do anything beside love Noah, even when he doesn’t want to. The magnetism between them is so undeniably powerful. I loved that after every hardship, all the pain both of them had to endure, their love still proved inevitable.
I just love this duet, one of my favorites and a solid recommendation if you ever needed one. I can’t wait to read some bonus scenes about Noah and Kaj, just to spend a little more time with them.
September 8, 2025
Not a bad series- but honestly, loved the other series I read by her more. I’m just not sure this series was entirely for me (lot more spice going on). Her writing style is good though & it makes me want to go back and read her first series bc I liked it a lot. I’m still 50/50 on my rating
November 15, 2025
Childhood best friends to lovers has always been one of my soft spots, and this duet captured everything I love about it. Kaj and Noah’s bond feels lived-in from the start. You see the innocence, the cracks forming, the moments where love turns into something too big for them to handle, and the heartbreak that follows. Their story isn’t just romantic it’s emotional in a way that lingers.
Book two feels like finally exhaling after holding everything in. It carries the same pain as the first book, but it also brings a quiet kind of hope. Their love doesn’t fix the damage they’ve gone through, but you watch it grow into something steadier, rooted in all the ways they’ve hurt and healed. That made every reunion, every misunderstanding, every soft moment hit even harder.
Kaj’s POV adds a depth the story needed. You feel the weight of his guilt, the fear he doesn’t say out loud, and the parts of Noah he never stopped loving even when he tried to. Their chemistry stays sharp, but what stands out most is their connection messy, honest, and earned.
By the time I reached the end, it felt like I had lived their whole journey with them. Imperfect, tender, and unforgettable.
Five stars.
Book two feels like finally exhaling after holding everything in. It carries the same pain as the first book, but it also brings a quiet kind of hope. Their love doesn’t fix the damage they’ve gone through, but you watch it grow into something steadier, rooted in all the ways they’ve hurt and healed. That made every reunion, every misunderstanding, every soft moment hit even harder.
Kaj’s POV adds a depth the story needed. You feel the weight of his guilt, the fear he doesn’t say out loud, and the parts of Noah he never stopped loving even when he tried to. Their chemistry stays sharp, but what stands out most is their connection messy, honest, and earned.
By the time I reached the end, it felt like I had lived their whole journey with them. Imperfect, tender, and unforgettable.
Five stars.
April 29, 2025
Worth the wait and all the tears!
Everything. This series is EVERYTHING. I typically don't read series unless they are complete because I have the patience of an 8-week old puppy. However, I had heard so many great things about this one that I just had to start it. The first book left me heartbroken and destroyed for Noah and Kaj. Miscommunication tropes are not one of my favorites but something about these two boys and their story kept me on the edge of my seat. I loved them so much I was HAPPY to wait for the ending of their story. I stalked L.A's Instagram and counted down the days for release! This book did not disappoint! It was angsty, sad, frustrating, funny and heartwarming all bundled up in one emotional journey. I loved seeing the growth of both boys and the care that was used with Kaj sharing his story with Noah FINALLY! I was also glad that not too much time was spent on the villain of the story. We got some finality regarding them but with the focus remaining on our two MCs. I cannot recommend this book/series enough!
Everything. This series is EVERYTHING. I typically don't read series unless they are complete because I have the patience of an 8-week old puppy. However, I had heard so many great things about this one that I just had to start it. The first book left me heartbroken and destroyed for Noah and Kaj. Miscommunication tropes are not one of my favorites but something about these two boys and their story kept me on the edge of my seat. I loved them so much I was HAPPY to wait for the ending of their story. I stalked L.A's Instagram and counted down the days for release! This book did not disappoint! It was angsty, sad, frustrating, funny and heartwarming all bundled up in one emotional journey. I loved seeing the growth of both boys and the care that was used with Kaj sharing his story with Noah FINALLY! I was also glad that not too much time was spent on the villain of the story. We got some finality regarding them but with the focus remaining on our two MCs. I cannot recommend this book/series enough!
April 29, 2025
Happy release day baby!!
arc review
Ok, so... what an emotional roller-coaster, oof.
After eight long years, Noah and Kaj reunite, and wow, all the feelings they tried to bury are still burning just as strong. From the very beginning, their chemistry is intense, complicated, and painfully beautiful. The tension? Insane.
That said, I was honestly expecting more character development from Kaj. Eight years is a long time, and while Noah clearly changed and matured in certain ways, Kaj felt a bit stuck in the same emotional patterns. I get that trauma and love doesn't always follow a linear timeline, but I wanted to see more reflection or at least some kind of shift in his perspective.
Still, the emotional depth in this story hit hard. There were moments that had me gripping my kindle, whispering “yo, please just talk to each other!”. Cannon writes longing and regret with the kind of raw intensity that lingers in your chest long after you’ve read it.
Would I recommend it? If you're into second chances, messy love, and characters who are deeply flawed but still trying — absolutely. Just be ready to feel a lot!
arc review
Ok, so... what an emotional roller-coaster, oof.
After eight long years, Noah and Kaj reunite, and wow, all the feelings they tried to bury are still burning just as strong. From the very beginning, their chemistry is intense, complicated, and painfully beautiful. The tension? Insane.
That said, I was honestly expecting more character development from Kaj. Eight years is a long time, and while Noah clearly changed and matured in certain ways, Kaj felt a bit stuck in the same emotional patterns. I get that trauma and love doesn't always follow a linear timeline, but I wanted to see more reflection or at least some kind of shift in his perspective.
Still, the emotional depth in this story hit hard. There were moments that had me gripping my kindle, whispering “yo, please just talk to each other!”. Cannon writes longing and regret with the kind of raw intensity that lingers in your chest long after you’ve read it.
Would I recommend it? If you're into second chances, messy love, and characters who are deeply flawed but still trying — absolutely. Just be ready to feel a lot!
April 24, 2025
The tension in this book is k1lling me, damn I’m so glad we finally have Kaj's POV. Seeing him struggle with his trauma, with his addiction, how he reacts to seeing Noah for the first time in so many years, it’s just sooo well written. I want to cry and scream, there is this frustration that lingers, I just want them to snap but no no, that’s not what’s happening. I’m living for it !!
Kai and Noah are everything, their relationship has come a long way, and for sure has not been easy seeing them reunited after so many years !!! Yes, I was waiting for this, expecting it so much and I wasn’t disappointed.
When Artificial Suicide must find a new vocalist, Noah’s name is on many lips well except Kaj’s who is against Noah joining them. However, Noah is the best vocalist that they can find and will join them on their tour. From that moment starts an open hostility on Kaj's side with retort from Noah. Get ready for intense back and forth while these two slowly build back their relationship.
This story is meanly focused on Kaj and truly I was not ready to be in his head, but it gave a better understanding of book 1. So if you enjoyed book 1 go read this one !!! And if you haven’t read it, please read book 1 first, it’s a duology.
I received an ARC Copy of this book from the author, this review is from my own thoughts 😍
Kai and Noah are everything, their relationship has come a long way, and for sure has not been easy seeing them reunited after so many years !!! Yes, I was waiting for this, expecting it so much and I wasn’t disappointed.
When Artificial Suicide must find a new vocalist, Noah’s name is on many lips well except Kaj’s who is against Noah joining them. However, Noah is the best vocalist that they can find and will join them on their tour. From that moment starts an open hostility on Kaj's side with retort from Noah. Get ready for intense back and forth while these two slowly build back their relationship.
This story is meanly focused on Kaj and truly I was not ready to be in his head, but it gave a better understanding of book 1. So if you enjoyed book 1 go read this one !!! And if you haven’t read it, please read book 1 first, it’s a duology.
I received an ARC Copy of this book from the author, this review is from my own thoughts 😍
June 28, 2025
Woah!!!
I am in love!!! These two were just amazing. And I’m hoping Kaj is pronounced like Kai or else .. I’ll just keep calling him Kai. Noah, I’m more in love with you after that basement scene. Was rooting for some unaliving in that moment, but I guess it all worked out. Poor Kaj! But also, what a stupid idiot for not telling Noah everything 12 years ago. I wish they hadn’t gone through so much, but that ending!!!!! 😍🥹😍🥹 What a finale!!!!! I thoroughly enjoyed this duet. So so much!!!! Only negative ….. Where was Trine and what happened with her cancer?!?!?!? I need a follow up book to make sure she’s okay!! AND that someone proposes in Scotland. AND that they write the best AS album together!! Allllll the good and happy things!!
I am in love!!! These two were just amazing. And I’m hoping Kaj is pronounced like Kai or else .. I’ll just keep calling him Kai. Noah, I’m more in love with you after that basement scene. Was rooting for some unaliving in that moment, but I guess it all worked out. Poor Kaj! But also, what a stupid idiot for not telling Noah everything 12 years ago. I wish they hadn’t gone through so much, but that ending!!!!! 😍🥹😍🥹 What a finale!!!!! I thoroughly enjoyed this duet. So so much!!!! Only negative ….. Where was Trine and what happened with her cancer?!?!?!? I need a follow up book to make sure she’s okay!! AND that someone proposes in Scotland. AND that they write the best AS album together!! Allllll the good and happy things!!
April 28, 2025
If I thought "If I Were To Die" was painful, it has nothing on this second part.
The characters' evolution, the love story, and the plot twist, there is no time to get bored.
I was excited to finally get this book because I love love LOVE Kaj, as broken and complicated as he can be.
After the first book? I just wanted my guy back and happy. After everything he went through, he deserves a break.
His evolution has been my favorite part about '' Would You Die With Me? ''. Seeing him do his best to heal and get his life back, not only because he had to, but because he wanted to for himself, was a proud moment for me.
It wasn't easy, and I like that we saw that it takes time, years, and doesn't get instantly better.
I was rooting for him from beginning to end.
His story with Noah is so moving. I love them so much. They've always been each other's soulmates, even through the hard times. Their chemistry is incredible.
I loved the whole Artificial Suicide team and their relationship. I'm so glad Kaj had them as well as Mads ( loved him since the first book, I'm silently hoping to have his story at some point )
L.A. Cannon never misses for me. I love the way she writes heartbreaking and sad scenes in such a beautiful way. You feel the character's feelings as if it is our own. Her characters, not only the main ones, always have such depth.
It's always an intense read, but so rewarding.
The characters' evolution, the love story, and the plot twist, there is no time to get bored.
I was excited to finally get this book because I love love LOVE Kaj, as broken and complicated as he can be.
After the first book? I just wanted my guy back and happy. After everything he went through, he deserves a break.
His evolution has been my favorite part about '' Would You Die With Me? ''. Seeing him do his best to heal and get his life back, not only because he had to, but because he wanted to for himself, was a proud moment for me.
It wasn't easy, and I like that we saw that it takes time, years, and doesn't get instantly better.
I was rooting for him from beginning to end.
His story with Noah is so moving. I love them so much. They've always been each other's soulmates, even through the hard times. Their chemistry is incredible.
I loved the whole Artificial Suicide team and their relationship. I'm so glad Kaj had them as well as Mads ( loved him since the first book, I'm silently hoping to have his story at some point )
L.A. Cannon never misses for me. I love the way she writes heartbreaking and sad scenes in such a beautiful way. You feel the character's feelings as if it is our own. Her characters, not only the main ones, always have such depth.
It's always an intense read, but so rewarding.
April 26, 2025
From the emotional experience I was left with when I finished the 1st book in this duet, I couldn't have been more eager for this one. It was such a heartfelt read! Told from Kaj's POV, it revealed his warrior spirit, and witnessing him confront his truth was both heartbreaking and beautiful.
It's hard to think about how they lost out on eight years together; I genuinely believe their connection would have endured through that time. The depth of their bond feels so authentic, as if their souls were meant for each other. Yet, as we know, that wasn't the case.
It was lovely to see that Kaj was on a journey of self-healing. I would have loved to delve into that a bit more, seeing how low his lows got and the fight he fought to become the person he is today. But the parts we did see were truly touching. They went through a lot, Kaj and Noah, but they got there in the end, and I’m beyond happy they got that! The ending left me with a sense of fulfillment, and I very much enjoyed reading their story.
They deserve every bit of happiness life can give them and more!!
It's hard to think about how they lost out on eight years together; I genuinely believe their connection would have endured through that time. The depth of their bond feels so authentic, as if their souls were meant for each other. Yet, as we know, that wasn't the case.
It was lovely to see that Kaj was on a journey of self-healing. I would have loved to delve into that a bit more, seeing how low his lows got and the fight he fought to become the person he is today. But the parts we did see were truly touching. They went through a lot, Kaj and Noah, but they got there in the end, and I’m beyond happy they got that! The ending left me with a sense of fulfillment, and I very much enjoyed reading their story.
They deserve every bit of happiness life can give them and more!!
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