ARC Review
*mild spoilers ahead*
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I was really torn about how to rate this book. On one hand, it was an enjoyable read, but there wasn’t much going on in terms of plot, the focus apparently is supposed to be more on character development.
Basically, a closeted gay hockey player gets caught up in a tricky situation and is traded to another team, where he meets another closeted player. After some misunderstandings, they start to connect, forming a friendship that eventually turns into a romantic relationship. That’s pretty much the premise that carries the whole story.
In between, they deal with some side stuff: there’s something suspicious happening with the coaching staff, a pretty colorful cast of teammates, including some young, cool rookies, some bigoted veterans, and a close friend who’s nearing the end of his career. There’s one set of awesome parents and another set of terrible ones.
And then there’s Tom and Jax. Tom is the team captain, mainly because he’s spent all 13 years of his career with the team, but he has zero people skills. He’s distant, bland, and lives next to the practice rink; basically, hockey is his whole personality.
Jax is the young superstar who arrives after a successful run on his old team. He’s outgoing, stylish, and even though he’s not out, he doesn’t really hold himself back. That’s actually why he ends up in San Francisco: he was a little careless about his hookups and his former team didn’t want to deal with the drama, so they sent him packing. They’re total opposites, but since they share some of the same struggles, they naturally gravitate toward each other.
Which brings me to the reason why I’m so conflicted…It felt... utilitary at first? No chemistry detected. And, I honestly didn’t like either of the main characters. I can’t say I hated them, that would mean they drew some emotion. They’re just... meh.
Tom is boring, that’s the only word I can think of when it comes to him. He has no personality beyond being terrified of being outed, to the point of being ridiculous. Apparently, some early experience led to his internalized homophobia, and supposedly his parents weren’t great either, but there’s no explanation about either situation, so it’s hard to tell.
Jax, on the other hand, is reckless (he brings a hookup to his hotel during his first road game with the new team, which shows he hasn’t learned from his mistakes). He hates hiding, and can't wait to be out so he can finally be himself. He also has a very problematic view of the women around the team, which, I get it, stems from his bad experiences with men, but honestly just sounds like misogyny.
Eventually, both characters end up compromising, but it doesn’t feel satisfying. Jax, who wants to come out and live freely, ends up staying in the closet for Tom. Tom is still terrified of being outed but is willing to risk it for Jax. When the book ends, they’re still keeping their relationship a secret. Nobody except Breezy (the only truly likable character in the whole book) knows about them, and that’s only because he overheard them talking. They never declare their love for each other, and none of the conflicts are really resolved.
The jerk teammates are still jerks, we never find out what Tom’s parents did, and there’s no clue about what happens with the coaching situation. In fact, the book ends on a cliffhanger regarding that. Apparently, it’ll be resolved in the next book.
And that’s it. I can’t say I really loved this book, but I didn’t dislike it either. I couldn’t connect to the characters, which is a big deal for me when giving a rate, but the story kept me interested enough to read to the end.
Not much to say about the writing style, I guess it’s good enough, but I don’t get the whole social media gimmick at the start of each chapter. It doesn’t add anything to the story.
Anyway, I’ll probably forget most of it in a couple weeks. If my gut is right (and it usually is with stuff like this), the next book will be about Phil and the head coach, already forgot his name. Honestly, I’d love it if Breezy and Luca, the only memorable side characters, got their own bi awakening story, but I’m not holding my breath.
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I received an ARC of this book from Gay Romance Reviews, and this is my honest review