While Selina’s book will always be my favorite Bellamy sisters book, this one is a close second. Kathryn and Gerrit (ha-REET) are both incredibly interesting and complex characters. Geritt provides great autism/OCD representation, while Kathryn—who is dissolute, depressed, and unpleasant to be around when we meet her at the beginning of the book—is a great example of a female character who is chastised for having the same character traits many fictional male rakes (including her best friend) have, which made me immediately love her. I just can’t get enough of female characters who are prickly and unpleasant and even downright mean—characters who would be beloved as “brooding” or “rakish” if they were men—because women don’t owe anyone pleasantness, and we should stop automatically expecting it from our romance heroines.
Of course, Gerrit and Kathryn come together with a spectacular clash, and their marriage to one another gets off to a particularly rocky start. Kathryn is angry and spiteful, while Gerrit is seemingly cold, aloof, and deeply dictatorial. In the first few chapters about their marriage, I was very in favor of Kathryn throwing things and screaming until she broke him. But Minerva Spencer is so incredibly good at getting inside both character’s heads and making us empathize with them both, because every time we are in Gerrit’s head, I immediately felt bad for him. He’s so completely obsessed with Kathryn from the beginning, and he’s so shy and reserved/traumatized that he doesn’t know how to connect with her, and so he aches to be near her while simultaneously hating himself for how he continuously upsets her whenever they spend time together. I loved reading about all the ups and downs at the beginning of their marriage, as these two guarded and traumatized people tried to connect, while hurting and misunderstanding each other again and again. My only complaint about this narrative is that the people in Kathryn and Gerrit’s life place wayyyyy more pressure on Kathryn to find a way to connect with Gerrit than they pressure Gerrit to find a way to connect with Kathryn. And it’s fine, honestly, because once Gerrit and Kathryn do start truly connecting, he makes a lot more concessions than she does: he braves going to a three week house party (despite knowing it’ll be excruciating for him) to make her happy, he overcomes his hatred of mess and clutter when he’s around her, he welcomes her onto his paleontology dig and empowers her to become a central part of that work, he rearranges his daily schedule to accommodate her, he is never offended when she continually beats him at chess, and so much more. Nonetheless, I found it grating that SO much pressure was placed on Kathryn to be the bigger person and break down Gerrit’s walls, while Gerrit was also perfectly capable of acknowledging how important his wife is to him and finding a way to connect with her before he loses her. However, this is a minor gripe, and I think it’s more a gripe about the perspective of certain characters in the story, than about the narrative itself. The narrative does a very good job of making both parties put in relatively equal amounts of effort to connect with each other and build a loving relationship.
I also loved how this book ended with a bang, just like how it started. Though these books are not exactly Harlequin romances, the author does love her drama- and adventure-filled endings, and this book is no exception. Jaspar’s reappearance made me grind my teeth and want to throw my book against the wall, but I was thrilled with the comeuppance Gerrit delivers. His defense of Kathryn was totally swoonworthy, as was the scene where he tenderly bathes her after dispatching Jaspar. I love all the quiet, tender moments Gerrit and Kathryn share throughout the book, especially as they balance out his intensely possessive and occasional violent moments, showing that he is an intensely passionate man but not a cruel one. And the revelation about his true parentage at the end of the book was just the cherry on top of everything.
In conclusion, this book has it all: a stern (yet shy and giving) hero, a prickly heroine, scientific exploration, shitty user men getting their just deserts, long-buried secrets, shocking revelations, romance side plots, and more. It’s truly a book with something for everyone.