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With His Words I'm Not Alone
When a stranger enters his life, will it create chaos? Or is it the beginning of an impossible love story?
Noel Walker suffers from three a fear of being touched, a fear of loneliness, and poor sales of his books. But Noel faces his biggest challenge yet when someone nicknamed Faded tags him with two “Hey Daddy.”
Caught in the stream of annoying messaging, Noel struggles to ignore an intruder’s affection. He keeps this obsession secret even from his closest friend. Until his initial irritation with this mysterious online persona flips when Noel gets support from Faded. While working together through the guilt of using artificial intelligence as his writing assistant, Noel’s feelings for Faded turn to something much deeper and intense.
As Faded’s mask falls away and their two real-life worlds collide, will the truth change Noel’s life forever?
Do you like LGBTQ literary fiction with powerful characters, a budding friendship, a little mystery, and a fine dose of romance? Noel and Faded are waiting for you to click that buy button!
Noel Walker suffers from three a fear of being touched, a fear of loneliness, and poor sales of his books. But Noel faces his biggest challenge yet when someone nicknamed Faded tags him with two “Hey Daddy.”
Caught in the stream of annoying messaging, Noel struggles to ignore an intruder’s affection. He keeps this obsession secret even from his closest friend. Until his initial irritation with this mysterious online persona flips when Noel gets support from Faded. While working together through the guilt of using artificial intelligence as his writing assistant, Noel’s feelings for Faded turn to something much deeper and intense.
As Faded’s mask falls away and their two real-life worlds collide, will the truth change Noel’s life forever?
Do you like LGBTQ literary fiction with powerful characters, a budding friendship, a little mystery, and a fine dose of romance? Noel and Faded are waiting for you to click that buy button!
315 pages, Hardcover
Published September 25, 2025
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Lucas Ryker
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Lucas Ryker does not just write words. He paints them in a rainbow.
His writing, including his debut novel With His Words I’m Not Alone, centers around character-driven LGBTQ+ literary and contemporary fiction stories. He explores themes such as friendship, loneliness, social anxiety, the pursuit of love, and the impact of technology on human connections.
Lucas, a keen advocate of compassion, equality, tolerance and acceptance, takes inspiration from books, animals, nature, sunsets, and extreme sports like skateboarding. He loves to write to a background of 80s music.
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Lucas Ryker is the 2026 Spring Seasonal PenCraft Book Awards Winner, Indies Today Award 2026 Finalist, 2026 American Legacy Book Awards Finalist, receiver of 2025 Incipere Awards Honorable Mention, The Wishing Shelf Book Awards 2025 Finalist, The 2025 Global Book Awards Winner, 2025 DBT Literary Awards Winner, The BookFest Winner, Firebird Book Award Winner, Literary Titan Book Award Winner, and 2025 American Writing Awards Finalist.
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August 28, 2025
When I come home at night / I bolt the door real tight / People call me on the phone, I'm trying to avoid / But can the people on TV see me, or am I just paranoid? (Somebody’s Watching Me – Rockwell).
You know how I’m always putting music lyrics in my reviews because I’m annoying like that? Yeah well, every now and then an imaginary scenario pops into my head where I'm, like, an aspiring musician or something and I then start sneaking in my own lyrics in the reviews as a plug for my own product. Then I'll start putting links to my Spotify and commenting on Anthony Fantano's YouTube videos saying something like, "Ha ha. Great video man, soon you'll be reviewing my music dude. I'm the next big thing." Ahh… sorry, I know I’m the only person that would find that funny, you know, being that shameless. But seriously though, the thought of having to promote myself like that, "The Hustle," if you will, mortifies me. I'd much rather advertise somebody else's work! Story time! But recently I watching this YouTube video where this lady (Kayla says) was talking about an indie book that was hyped to the moon and back on Booktok, and I’m sure you know how this story goes, but because it was advertised as being super diverse and expansive and had all the easily digestible tropes listed out for us by the author on TikToks rather than snippets of the writing (was that not already a red flag?), and with BookTok being BookTok, people were understandably excited about it. Hey, diversity is always a plus, no? Well, it’s never a negative, but it'd be nice if the writing was good too! And no offense, but as someone who is all too aware of past Tumblr scams, this whole situation sounded a bit too familiar. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t actually think the book was a scam, but readers sure as hell thought it was due to what they perceived as poor writing. Look, I didn’t read it and never plan to just because it’s not my vibe just based on the fact that it was mostly advertised on TikTok (which I don’t have) and I otherwise just have a somewhat low opinion of books that can be boiled down to a check-list, so I don't really have a horse in this race. Nonetheless, I thought it was interesting how this author had an unprecedented amount of pre-orders for an indie author and their confidence in the product only added fuel to the fire for when the novel was actually released and the whole thing was… pretty mid. And while criticism is always important, it made me a little sad at how a lot of people mostly just seemed to be waiting and frothing at the mouth to tear down the author for their apparent misleading tactics in advertising. And I’m sorry, but not every action is malicious, sometimes you buy a book and you just don’t like it, it’s not that deep. Just put that shit in a mini free library and be done with it like I did with Trevor Noah's biography! No need to disguise cruelty with witticism Gordon Ramsay style and write little one sentence Letterboxd reviews about how they want a refund or how their life was ruined from reading the book or whatever.
Overlong explanations aside, my point here is that you choose what you read, and even though it's very challenging prospect, I know, but sometimes the responsibility also lies with the reader as well. Gasp! Not to sound too pretentious, but I've always been acutely aware of the general popularity of whatever I'm reading (based solely on how long the hold list is on the library website), so if I’m reading something by an indie author, then I’m going to veer towards being a bit kinder on the criticism front. And I'm not trying to say I'm some kind of beacon of kindness because it’s not even like a deliberate choice on my end, it's just normal manners to not be a dick. Besides, if somebody put in all this work to make something as beautiful and challenging as a full-length novel, then I think the least I could do is try to find the good rather than focus on small nitpicks. Being kind isn’t being disingenuous, and just because a rating is rounded-up doesn’t mean it’s an inauthentic rating. Besides, I did read this in just two days, which is a first for this year alone, so that's got to count for something, right? Anyway, I just want folks to know that that’s where I stand in general, because if I say I liked this book, it's important to know that I’m being honest. So yeah, I was given a free copy of this book from the author, and I don’t really know what the proper etiquette here is, but I guess this preamble is my way of doing a little “full disclosure” thing. Um, I think it’s time to finally talk about With His Words I’m Not Alone… a little later. But hey, everything's better now, we’re on different shores, we’re on paragraph two! I’ve done enough yapping, so here’s what this book is about (seeing as the blurb is rather vague): With His Words I’m Not Alone is a story about an aspiring author named Noel who's unexpectedly given a chance of a lifetime opportunity by an anonymous benefactor/secret admirer, and against the face of the overwhelming pressures and demands that come with being a popular author, he then takes the easy route by using A.I. to “help” him write his novels. And when he’s finally outed as a fraud, a witch hunt understandably (and deservedly) starts against him, thus forcing him to then go back to the basics of the basics and figure out how to become a real writer all over again. You know, by actually writing… maybe give it a little soul this time around. Oh yeah, he also has a bit of a romantic dalliance with his secret fanboy, but I don’t know… I couldn’t help but get some sinister vibes from the whole subplot. I guess if anything, there are definite shades of Will Grayson, Will Grayson, but like I said, due to the “stalker” angle (which is completely interpretive from my end), it reminded of that one movie starring Maika Monroe called the Watcher. Yikes!
I mean, I don’t need all my romance books to be all fluffy, wholesome, or unproblematic! If anything, I've long since lost interest in overly sanitized "acceptable" gay stories that feel like they're written by committee and have had more of an interest in stories with a little more... oomph, for lack of a better word. And in that regard, With His Words I'm Not Alone's exploration of finding love in the technological age and finding companionship and acceptance even if it can only be found in the unlikeliest of places has a certain poignancy to it. It’s very Her (2013), and how this book showcased the colorlessness that the world takes on when you're living through an extreme bout of loneliness was palpable. It was hard not to be touched by the sentiment. That being said, trying to meet somebody while you’re only known for wearing masks and then hyping up your appearance is definitely not the move. Remember that one twitch streamer named Dream who wore a mask for years and as he got bigger and bigger the mystery around his appearance grew and grew? It got to the point where all his fans started imagining him as the anime boy twink version of The Wizard of Oz and when he did finally reveal his face to his audience of thousands, he made sure to treat it up like it was the occasion of the century. "Reality is often disappointing" or whatever Thanos said after using his daughter as a human shield. Anyway, given the context, you’d best believe there were more than enough people at the ready, just waiting to dunk on his ass. Now, making fun of his looks isn’t cool and blah blah blah, but I’m just saying, if you hype up a damn face reveal for weeks and weeks, getting other content creators to react to your reveal like they won the lottery, then you’d better make sure you’re a Logan Lerman looking mf. I mean, I've never liked him, but that was just because I think he's annoying. So in that sense, I guess Noel was pretty lucky that his secret admirer turned out to be super attractive! Otherwise, I know it’s the whole theme of this book or whatever, but I do think the discussion around A.I. got a little tired after a while, because to me, it’s not really a nuanced conversation deserving of an entire think-piece. From where I stand it’s rather simple; if A.I. is used to create art, then it’s not art, if A.I. is used to write a book, then it’s not literature, and if A.I. is used to create a song, then it’s not music. The end. I’m not sure about much, but on that, I’m sure. And I’m sure as hell not trying to read a book by Skynet. So yeah, I think that’s all the thoughts I have to think! Outside of an overindulgence on editorialized prose, I can still appreciate how personal this book was for the author. And I’m not talking “personal” in the way popstars do when they dye their hair platinum blonde, stop speaking in AAVE in order to “grow up” (that’s a racist viewpoint, by the way), and then release a boring album full of ballads outside of their vocal range, I mean that it's personal in the way you can feel With His Words I’m Not Alone's raw emotion with each passing word. Hey, it’s not always easy to find that kind of authenticity!
“Because being touched by someone terrifies me even more than the thought of being alone.”
You know how I’m always putting music lyrics in my reviews because I’m annoying like that? Yeah well, every now and then an imaginary scenario pops into my head where I'm, like, an aspiring musician or something and I then start sneaking in my own lyrics in the reviews as a plug for my own product. Then I'll start putting links to my Spotify and commenting on Anthony Fantano's YouTube videos saying something like, "Ha ha. Great video man, soon you'll be reviewing my music dude. I'm the next big thing." Ahh… sorry, I know I’m the only person that would find that funny, you know, being that shameless. But seriously though, the thought of having to promote myself like that, "The Hustle," if you will, mortifies me. I'd much rather advertise somebody else's work! Story time! But recently I watching this YouTube video where this lady (Kayla says) was talking about an indie book that was hyped to the moon and back on Booktok, and I’m sure you know how this story goes, but because it was advertised as being super diverse and expansive and had all the easily digestible tropes listed out for us by the author on TikToks rather than snippets of the writing (was that not already a red flag?), and with BookTok being BookTok, people were understandably excited about it. Hey, diversity is always a plus, no? Well, it’s never a negative, but it'd be nice if the writing was good too! And no offense, but as someone who is all too aware of past Tumblr scams, this whole situation sounded a bit too familiar. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t actually think the book was a scam, but readers sure as hell thought it was due to what they perceived as poor writing. Look, I didn’t read it and never plan to just because it’s not my vibe just based on the fact that it was mostly advertised on TikTok (which I don’t have) and I otherwise just have a somewhat low opinion of books that can be boiled down to a check-list, so I don't really have a horse in this race. Nonetheless, I thought it was interesting how this author had an unprecedented amount of pre-orders for an indie author and their confidence in the product only added fuel to the fire for when the novel was actually released and the whole thing was… pretty mid. And while criticism is always important, it made me a little sad at how a lot of people mostly just seemed to be waiting and frothing at the mouth to tear down the author for their apparent misleading tactics in advertising. And I’m sorry, but not every action is malicious, sometimes you buy a book and you just don’t like it, it’s not that deep. Just put that shit in a mini free library and be done with it like I did with Trevor Noah's biography! No need to disguise cruelty with witticism Gordon Ramsay style and write little one sentence Letterboxd reviews about how they want a refund or how their life was ruined from reading the book or whatever.
Overlong explanations aside, my point here is that you choose what you read, and even though it's very challenging prospect, I know, but sometimes the responsibility also lies with the reader as well. Gasp! Not to sound too pretentious, but I've always been acutely aware of the general popularity of whatever I'm reading (based solely on how long the hold list is on the library website), so if I’m reading something by an indie author, then I’m going to veer towards being a bit kinder on the criticism front. And I'm not trying to say I'm some kind of beacon of kindness because it’s not even like a deliberate choice on my end, it's just normal manners to not be a dick. Besides, if somebody put in all this work to make something as beautiful and challenging as a full-length novel, then I think the least I could do is try to find the good rather than focus on small nitpicks. Being kind isn’t being disingenuous, and just because a rating is rounded-up doesn’t mean it’s an inauthentic rating. Besides, I did read this in just two days, which is a first for this year alone, so that's got to count for something, right? Anyway, I just want folks to know that that’s where I stand in general, because if I say I liked this book, it's important to know that I’m being honest. So yeah, I was given a free copy of this book from the author, and I don’t really know what the proper etiquette here is, but I guess this preamble is my way of doing a little “full disclosure” thing. Um, I think it’s time to finally talk about With His Words I’m Not Alone… a little later. But hey, everything's better now, we’re on different shores, we’re on paragraph two! I’ve done enough yapping, so here’s what this book is about (seeing as the blurb is rather vague): With His Words I’m Not Alone is a story about an aspiring author named Noel who's unexpectedly given a chance of a lifetime opportunity by an anonymous benefactor/secret admirer, and against the face of the overwhelming pressures and demands that come with being a popular author, he then takes the easy route by using A.I. to “help” him write his novels. And when he’s finally outed as a fraud, a witch hunt understandably (and deservedly) starts against him, thus forcing him to then go back to the basics of the basics and figure out how to become a real writer all over again. You know, by actually writing… maybe give it a little soul this time around. Oh yeah, he also has a bit of a romantic dalliance with his secret fanboy, but I don’t know… I couldn’t help but get some sinister vibes from the whole subplot. I guess if anything, there are definite shades of Will Grayson, Will Grayson, but like I said, due to the “stalker” angle (which is completely interpretive from my end), it reminded of that one movie starring Maika Monroe called the Watcher. Yikes!
I mean, I don’t need all my romance books to be all fluffy, wholesome, or unproblematic! If anything, I've long since lost interest in overly sanitized "acceptable" gay stories that feel like they're written by committee and have had more of an interest in stories with a little more... oomph, for lack of a better word. And in that regard, With His Words I'm Not Alone's exploration of finding love in the technological age and finding companionship and acceptance even if it can only be found in the unlikeliest of places has a certain poignancy to it. It’s very Her (2013), and how this book showcased the colorlessness that the world takes on when you're living through an extreme bout of loneliness was palpable. It was hard not to be touched by the sentiment. That being said, trying to meet somebody while you’re only known for wearing masks and then hyping up your appearance is definitely not the move. Remember that one twitch streamer named Dream who wore a mask for years and as he got bigger and bigger the mystery around his appearance grew and grew? It got to the point where all his fans started imagining him as the anime boy twink version of The Wizard of Oz and when he did finally reveal his face to his audience of thousands, he made sure to treat it up like it was the occasion of the century. "Reality is often disappointing" or whatever Thanos said after using his daughter as a human shield. Anyway, given the context, you’d best believe there were more than enough people at the ready, just waiting to dunk on his ass. Now, making fun of his looks isn’t cool and blah blah blah, but I’m just saying, if you hype up a damn face reveal for weeks and weeks, getting other content creators to react to your reveal like they won the lottery, then you’d better make sure you’re a Logan Lerman looking mf. I mean, I've never liked him, but that was just because I think he's annoying. So in that sense, I guess Noel was pretty lucky that his secret admirer turned out to be super attractive! Otherwise, I know it’s the whole theme of this book or whatever, but I do think the discussion around A.I. got a little tired after a while, because to me, it’s not really a nuanced conversation deserving of an entire think-piece. From where I stand it’s rather simple; if A.I. is used to create art, then it’s not art, if A.I. is used to write a book, then it’s not literature, and if A.I. is used to create a song, then it’s not music. The end. I’m not sure about much, but on that, I’m sure. And I’m sure as hell not trying to read a book by Skynet. So yeah, I think that’s all the thoughts I have to think! Outside of an overindulgence on editorialized prose, I can still appreciate how personal this book was for the author. And I’m not talking “personal” in the way popstars do when they dye their hair platinum blonde, stop speaking in AAVE in order to “grow up” (that’s a racist viewpoint, by the way), and then release a boring album full of ballads outside of their vocal range, I mean that it's personal in the way you can feel With His Words I’m Not Alone's raw emotion with each passing word. Hey, it’s not always easy to find that kind of authenticity!
“Because being touched by someone terrifies me even more than the thought of being alone.”
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May 6, 2026I'm not gonna rate and review my own book, 'cause I obviously like it and believe in it, or else I wouldn't publish it. 😉 Instead, I will post what others say about it.
I thank them all for their honest editorial reviews and awards. 🫶
I thank them all for their honest editorial reviews and awards. 🫶
"With His Words I'm Not Alone, by Lucas Ryker, was an enjoyable read! We can always do with more queer love, especially regarding someone who is discovering themself well into their adulthood. Getting a queer journey about a 35-year-old man with an established career and life was something I quite liked! I also want to dedicate a moment to the cover—the artwork is gorgeous... Real, vulnerable, and exactly the kind of queer love story we need right now." — Reader Views ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
"There is a lot that I loved about With His Words I'm Not Alone, but the excellently accomplished characterization gripped me the most... This deftly plotted, balanced, and well-paced narrative is a delightful read." — Readers' Favorite ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
"An excellent zeitgeist for our time... Sharp literary fiction laced with tension... Poignant, compassionate novel." — Indies Today ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
"Fans of LGBTQ+ novels will find A LOT to enjoy here—complex characters, mystery—and growing obsession. Highly recommended!" — The Wishing Shelf ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
"One of the most appealing aspects of this book lies in the author's masterful characterization of the protagonist, Noel Walker, a realistic and likable character capable of getting readers to care about what happens to him... Like any well-written literary fiction novel, WITH HIS WORDS I'M NOT ALONE probes into the human psyche by focusing on the interior characterization of the protagonist, but it is also strong on plot which keeps readers captivated and interested in what is going on in each chapter." — Direct Book Reviews ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
"The story's most powerful moments come in hushed lines or sudden bursts of intensity, the way emotion really hits... This book is intense. It asks you to let go of convention. But if you've ever felt alone, if you've ever wanted someone's words to fill the silence in your chest, this book might speak to you." — Literary Titan ⭐⭐⭐⭐
"A thoughtful character study that explores the ethical and emotional questions of the digital age. A contemporary queer literary novel that paints a haunting portrait of creativity and loneliness, blurring the lines between human vulnerability and technological dependence... A thought-provoking and timely exploration of creativity, connection, and the loneliness of the modern mind. I would gladly recommend it to readers interested in the psychology of artists, the ethics of AI in creative work, and literary fiction that captures the fragile beauty and danger of true vulnerability." — Independent Book Review
"With His Words I'm Not Alone is a well-executed piece of LGBTQ literary fiction that captures the complexities of connection in the digital era. It's equal parts love story, confession, and mirror... A quiet triumph of emotion and voice." — American Writing Awards
"An interesting look at the impact of artificial intelligence and its benefits and downfalls as it pertains to those in creative industries and those with anxiety disorders... Ryker does a brilliant job of creating these situations of opposition within Noel." — Entrada Publishing
"Ryker crafts an alluring love story that includes mystery elements and also examines the ethics of artificial intelligence." — The BookLife Prize
"A sleek look at romance in our modern world." — The DBT Literary Awards Judges2026 Spring Seasonal PenCraft Book Awards - Best Book for Fiction-Drama
Indies Today Award - 2026 Finalist
2026 American Legacy Book Awards Finalist - LGBTQ+ Fiction
2026 American Legacy Book Awards Finalist - Best Cover Design: Adult Fiction
The Wishing Self Book Awards 2025 Finalist - Books for adults (fiction)
2025 Incipere Awards - Honorable Mention-Literary Fiction
The 2025 Global Book Awards Winner - LGBT Gold
2025 DBT Literary Awards Winner - First Place in Literary Fiction
The BookFest Award Winner - Third Place Award in LGBTQ+ Literary Fiction
The BookFest Award Winner - First Place Award in Book Cover - Overall Design
Firebird Book Award Winner - LGBTQ Fiction
Literary Titan Silver Book Award Winner
2025 American Writing Awards Finalist - Best Cover Design-Fiction
2025 American Writing Awards Finalist - Fiction-LGBTQ
October 6, 2025
I received an arc directly from the author!!!!! I loved it soooo much. The characters and the story. He did a great job with the character development and the original story! Can’t wait for more books in the future.
Thank you so much for the advanced copy!!
Thank you so much for the advanced copy!!
October 7, 2025
I was incredibly fortunate to be approached by Lucas Ryker to read his debut novel, With His Words I'm Not Alone, and I am so glad he got in touch.
From the opening chapters I was hooked. Main character, Noel, is a writer and lives an almost reclusive life with his pets due to his difficulties with intimacy and social interactions from PTSD, but the reader also learns of the conflict he has as he yearns for human interaction. Soon he becomes involved in an online relationship with Faded, a mysterious stranger, who changes his life and career forever.
I feel that this novel has only scratched the surface of the story of Noel and Faded, and I hope there will be a follow-up to see what happens next to these highly complicated characters. Thank you Lucas Ryker for writing this absorbing and riveting LGBTQ+ novel. I will definitely be recommending this to members of my LGBTQ+ group.
From the opening chapters I was hooked. Main character, Noel, is a writer and lives an almost reclusive life with his pets due to his difficulties with intimacy and social interactions from PTSD, but the reader also learns of the conflict he has as he yearns for human interaction. Soon he becomes involved in an online relationship with Faded, a mysterious stranger, who changes his life and career forever.
I feel that this novel has only scratched the surface of the story of Noel and Faded, and I hope there will be a follow-up to see what happens next to these highly complicated characters. Thank you Lucas Ryker for writing this absorbing and riveting LGBTQ+ novel. I will definitely be recommending this to members of my LGBTQ+ group.
September 14, 2025
A Quietly Powerful Debut That Stays With You
With His Words I’m Not Alone is a beautiful, slow-burn, character-driven debut that left me full of emotion and admiration. Lucas Ryker crafts a poetic, deeply resonant story that glows from within—thanks in large part to his gorgeous use of language. Every sentence felt intentional. The word choice, the cadence, the softness of the prose—absolutely stunning. It wasn’t just storytelling; it was art.
Noel, our main character, is flawed, fragile, and completely lovable. I rooted for him from the very first page. His fears and trauma felt real, never overblown, and his growth was subtle, hard-won, and moving. I related to him deeply. Faded was a delight—gentle, warm, and exactly the kind of presence Noel needed. And Marsha? What a gift. The dynamic between all three was tender and layered and healing.
This isn’t a spicy book in the traditional sense—and Ryker is very clear about that—but make no mistake: it’s still deeply sexy. The tension, the closeness, the ache in the quiet moments—it’s all there. Ryker trusts the reader’s imagination, and honestly, that makes the steamy moments feel all the more intimate.
The mystery thread was delicately woven and beautifully revealed, adding depth without overshadowing the emotional core. And the pacing? Impeccable. I never felt rushed, and the payoff landed perfectly.
The novel also makes a powerful and timely statement about the use of AI in writing. Rather than preaching or prescribing, it invites the reader to sit with the complexities and form their own opinions. It’s handled with nuance and care, leaving space for reflection without judgment.
Lucas Ryker has delivered a soulful, unforgettable debut. This book doesn’t shout—it whispers, and its voice echoes long after the final page. Highly recommended. I thank the author for an advanced review copy!
With His Words I’m Not Alone is a beautiful, slow-burn, character-driven debut that left me full of emotion and admiration. Lucas Ryker crafts a poetic, deeply resonant story that glows from within—thanks in large part to his gorgeous use of language. Every sentence felt intentional. The word choice, the cadence, the softness of the prose—absolutely stunning. It wasn’t just storytelling; it was art.
Noel, our main character, is flawed, fragile, and completely lovable. I rooted for him from the very first page. His fears and trauma felt real, never overblown, and his growth was subtle, hard-won, and moving. I related to him deeply. Faded was a delight—gentle, warm, and exactly the kind of presence Noel needed. And Marsha? What a gift. The dynamic between all three was tender and layered and healing.
This isn’t a spicy book in the traditional sense—and Ryker is very clear about that—but make no mistake: it’s still deeply sexy. The tension, the closeness, the ache in the quiet moments—it’s all there. Ryker trusts the reader’s imagination, and honestly, that makes the steamy moments feel all the more intimate.
The mystery thread was delicately woven and beautifully revealed, adding depth without overshadowing the emotional core. And the pacing? Impeccable. I never felt rushed, and the payoff landed perfectly.
The novel also makes a powerful and timely statement about the use of AI in writing. Rather than preaching or prescribing, it invites the reader to sit with the complexities and form their own opinions. It’s handled with nuance and care, leaving space for reflection without judgment.
Lucas Ryker has delivered a soulful, unforgettable debut. This book doesn’t shout—it whispers, and its voice echoes long after the final page. Highly recommended. I thank the author for an advanced review copy!
September 1, 2025
Lucas’ debut novel is nothing short of STUNNING! I am writing this only moments after from finishing this book, and I am just in awe of all that it accomplishes in just under 350 pages. From the beginning, I felt that this story is just so refreshing and original. I loved following all of the characters, especially our main character, Noel, and unpacking who he is over the course of his currently tumultuous writing life. I appreciated how the story handles the really interesting intersections of trauma, love (in its many forms), the passion for storytelling, and the unshakable presence of artificial intelligence in our society. All of these larger themes blend together so nicely, and I felt that both Noel and Faded were the best vehicles to portray the interactions of these themes. As characters, Noel and Faded are so lovable, offering equal parts of being tragically beautiful and mysterious. The slow boil between them is so satisfying and remarkably real from the jump, and their chats together are just so fun to read! Overall, “With His Words I’m Not Alone” is a solid 5-star story and I cannot wait to read more from Lucas!
[I have received an advance reader copy from the author with no obligations toward the author, and this is my honest review.]
[I have received an advance reader copy from the author with no obligations toward the author, and this is my honest review.]
September 15, 2025
Lucas has a fresh voice and perspective on storytelling which I enjoyed. The relationship tensions of the characters are deeply rooted in contemporary life, particularly the impact of technology on genuine connection. I look forward to learning more about the characters as the author releases more good work in the coming months.
November 29, 2025
4.5/5 ⭐️
With His Words I’m Not Alone was an interesting read. Ryker’s writing is clear and effective. It draws you in from the very first chapter. And the mystery behind the secret admirer of the main character, Noel, really kept the story going.
The underlying commentary around AI and relationships in the digital age was a little difficult to read at times, especially because I am not a fan of AI, but it really makes you think.
Noel is a unique character. Probably one of the most unique characters I’ve read in a while. But he is written so well! His story is thought provoking and complex. His actions and the way he is written makes him feel relatable and authentic. You can’t help but to root for Noel. But part of me also felt sorry for him. Navigating his condition and all these new feelings couldn’t have been easy. By the end of the story, I was left wanting to know more about him and Faded and what happens to them next.
With His Words I’m Not Alone was an interesting read. Ryker’s writing is clear and effective. It draws you in from the very first chapter. And the mystery behind the secret admirer of the main character, Noel, really kept the story going.
The underlying commentary around AI and relationships in the digital age was a little difficult to read at times, especially because I am not a fan of AI, but it really makes you think.
Noel is a unique character. Probably one of the most unique characters I’ve read in a while. But he is written so well! His story is thought provoking and complex. His actions and the way he is written makes him feel relatable and authentic. You can’t help but to root for Noel. But part of me also felt sorry for him. Navigating his condition and all these new feelings couldn’t have been easy. By the end of the story, I was left wanting to know more about him and Faded and what happens to them next.
August 22, 2025
With His Words I’m Not Alone had potential, but for me, it didn’t land the way I hoped. The themes of connection and vulnerability are strong, but the execution felt uneven. The writing style leans heavily into repetition and sentimentality, which at times undercut the emotional impact instead of deepening it. I found myself wanting more nuance, more subtlety, and more variety in tone.
There are moments of genuine beauty—lines that capture longing or comfort in a striking way—but they’re buried under passages that feel overdone or rushed. The book never fully drew me in, and I closed it feeling more detached than moved.
If you enjoy very direct, emotionally charged writing, this might resonate more with you. For me, it was a miss.
There are moments of genuine beauty—lines that capture longing or comfort in a striking way—but they’re buried under passages that feel overdone or rushed. The book never fully drew me in, and I closed it feeling more detached than moved.
If you enjoy very direct, emotionally charged writing, this might resonate more with you. For me, it was a miss.
November 17, 2025
Wow this was super enjoyable! Ryker is one incredible writer (he writes so poetically and beautifully that I felt the need to savour each moment i had reading the book). And the characters, especially Noel, are all so complex and real as if they jumped from our world into fiction. And what an oh so relevant topic Ryker tackles - exceptionally at that.
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September 27, 2025Leaving it unrated for now.
I liked Noel’s character and could empathize with his struggles, however I think his trauma wasn’t emphasized enough throughout the book.
It’s established early that Noel has haphephobia, fear from touching and being touched. I think his trauma leading to his condition should have been revealed earlier in order to discover the depths and the severity of this issue, learn about how it affects him both emotionally and in his everyday life.
Books being my therapy, - and sometimes the reason I need therapy, - personally, I like when traumas are being analyzed whether by internal monologues, or by introducing a secondary character to be a guide. By analyzing the trauma, not only it will help the reader form a tighter bond with the character, but we can also use this to reflect on ourselves. While the SCs definitely were a part of Noel’s healing journey, I felt they just scratched the surface despite their support.
The only mentionable supporting side character really was just Martha, Noel’s best friend, but the relationship felt a bit off.
Despite the haphephobia, Noel is more straight presenting with his monologues, and also we don’t really learn about his and Martha’s relationship in detail. What really deepened their relationship and to what depth? Without establishing the depth of their friendship, all the flirting, - or just Noel’s internal monologues describing Martha in a sexual way, - or the foolish conversations between them just came off a little dissonant.
The romance had potential, but was very mild for my taste. Noel gets a random message online from a stranger, under the name Faded with no indication of their real identity. Faded is direct and cheerful with a young person’s refreshing carelessness. Faded gets Noel intrigued, so they keep messaging and slowly get to know each other, yet the romance felt platonic from both sides. I feel like their relationship and conversations stayed on the surface, and did not deepen enough. It felt too casual, while there was supposed to be intellectual chemistry due to Noel’s condition.
In summary, Noel’s relationships just felt off, and probably it was mainly because of the dialogues. They just felt super- and artificial most of the time.
I saw a really good potential in indulging the contrast of objectifying a real person vs feeling real intellectual affection towards a stranger with no identity, (almost like an object) but I feel like it was not pursued fully.
I think this story might have worked better as a YA novel with a little tuning.
While the story did not hit home as I anticipated, I liked the illustrious writing style on the internal monologues. The words flowed effortlessly, and it is always refreshing to read well-written words. I truly appreciated the distinguished vocabulary.
As a footnote, - might be a personal preference, - I do like avoiding brand names, or close comparison of a character to a real life person. I feel like it limits my imagination and creativity.
I liked Noel’s character and could empathize with his struggles, however I think his trauma wasn’t emphasized enough throughout the book.
It’s established early that Noel has haphephobia, fear from touching and being touched. I think his trauma leading to his condition should have been revealed earlier in order to discover the depths and the severity of this issue, learn about how it affects him both emotionally and in his everyday life.
Books being my therapy, - and sometimes the reason I need therapy, - personally, I like when traumas are being analyzed whether by internal monologues, or by introducing a secondary character to be a guide. By analyzing the trauma, not only it will help the reader form a tighter bond with the character, but we can also use this to reflect on ourselves. While the SCs definitely were a part of Noel’s healing journey, I felt they just scratched the surface despite their support.
The only mentionable supporting side character really was just Martha, Noel’s best friend, but the relationship felt a bit off.
Despite the haphephobia, Noel is more straight presenting with his monologues, and also we don’t really learn about his and Martha’s relationship in detail. What really deepened their relationship and to what depth? Without establishing the depth of their friendship, all the flirting, - or just Noel’s internal monologues describing Martha in a sexual way, - or the foolish conversations between them just came off a little dissonant.
The romance had potential, but was very mild for my taste. Noel gets a random message online from a stranger, under the name Faded with no indication of their real identity. Faded is direct and cheerful with a young person’s refreshing carelessness. Faded gets Noel intrigued, so they keep messaging and slowly get to know each other, yet the romance felt platonic from both sides. I feel like their relationship and conversations stayed on the surface, and did not deepen enough. It felt too casual, while there was supposed to be intellectual chemistry due to Noel’s condition.
In summary, Noel’s relationships just felt off, and probably it was mainly because of the dialogues. They just felt super- and artificial most of the time.
I saw a really good potential in indulging the contrast of objectifying a real person vs feeling real intellectual affection towards a stranger with no identity, (almost like an object) but I feel like it was not pursued fully.
I think this story might have worked better as a YA novel with a little tuning.
While the story did not hit home as I anticipated, I liked the illustrious writing style on the internal monologues. The words flowed effortlessly, and it is always refreshing to read well-written words. I truly appreciated the distinguished vocabulary.
As a footnote, - might be a personal preference, - I do like avoiding brand names, or close comparison of a character to a real life person. I feel like it limits my imagination and creativity.
September 28, 2025
4.5 Stars Rounded Down
Lucas Ryker’s timely and impressive debut novel, With His Words I’m Not Alone, is unique among the many gay M/M novels I’ve recently read.
Ryker’s narrator, an author and editor named Noel Walker, is a self described “thirty-five-year old guy, at the prime of his career, who has anxiety, who stresses from fear of being touched and fear of being alone, [and an] adoptive father of a robocat and a dog rescued from a lab.”
Walker has recently gone out on his own to write anything that he can write and be paid for including editorials, travel guides, and his first novel. He quickly discovers that AI can help with his writing. But his use of AI also creates a question in his mind as to whether using it is “not only outstanding and ingenious, but also as something morally questionable.”
With only one friend in whom he can confide, his former boss, he discovers that he’s being followed online (? stalked ?) by a young man known only as ‘Faded’. Faded both helps Noel and then, calling Noel ‘Daddy’, declares his love for him.
Overall this is a fascinating novel. For many readers, though, there will be little doubt from the earliest of Faded’s contacts with Noel as to who that young man actually may be.
Even if you do figure out who Faded is, as I did, With His Words I’m Not Alone is still a great read.
Lucas Ryker’s timely and impressive debut novel, With His Words I’m Not Alone, is unique among the many gay M/M novels I’ve recently read.
Ryker’s narrator, an author and editor named Noel Walker, is a self described “thirty-five-year old guy, at the prime of his career, who has anxiety, who stresses from fear of being touched and fear of being alone, [and an] adoptive father of a robocat and a dog rescued from a lab.”
Walker has recently gone out on his own to write anything that he can write and be paid for including editorials, travel guides, and his first novel. He quickly discovers that AI can help with his writing. But his use of AI also creates a question in his mind as to whether using it is “not only outstanding and ingenious, but also as something morally questionable.”
With only one friend in whom he can confide, his former boss, he discovers that he’s being followed online (? stalked ?) by a young man known only as ‘Faded’. Faded both helps Noel and then, calling Noel ‘Daddy’, declares his love for him.
Overall this is a fascinating novel. For many readers, though, there will be little doubt from the earliest of Faded’s contacts with Noel as to who that young man actually may be.
Even if you do figure out who Faded is, as I did, With His Words I’m Not Alone is still a great read.
September 17, 2025
I read With His Words I'm Not Alone in one go. I enjoyed it so much, the quietness of the book is so unique and Noel is such a beautiful and incredibly brave and strong character! I'm really glad I stumbled upon this novel, I had a lovely cozy Sunday while reading it. And needless to say, I'm listening to Faded on repeat now...
October 16, 2025
Thank you to the author who sent me his novel to read.
Cute story, but I was very upset that Noel didn’t use his critical thinking skills to figure out who Faded was the whole time! Like dude, it’s right in your face!
I appreciated the view into Noel’s life and story- his fright of touching people and his loneliness. How he discovered the world of AI to help his career & then confessed and started all over again.
I was concerned that Noel never had an existential crisis or view into his own sexuality before his encountering Faded online. Not one inkling? Hard to believe.
Nice little ending for us too!
Cute story, but I was very upset that Noel didn’t use his critical thinking skills to figure out who Faded was the whole time! Like dude, it’s right in your face!
I appreciated the view into Noel’s life and story- his fright of touching people and his loneliness. How he discovered the world of AI to help his career & then confessed and started all over again.
I was concerned that Noel never had an existential crisis or view into his own sexuality before his encountering Faded online. Not one inkling? Hard to believe.
Nice little ending for us too!
September 20, 2025
I’d like to express my gratitude to Lucas Ryker for kindly providing me with an ARC in exchange for an honest review.
Let me start by saying this was an absolute delight to read—congratulations to Lucas on your debut publication!
The characters were engaging, and the humour really shone throughout. I was especially intrigued by Noel’s journey and eager to see how the story would unfold. The playful flirting scenes had me smiling the whole way through, and they quickly became some of my favourite moments in the book.
I truly hope this isn’t the end of Noel’s story—I’d love to see more from this world in the future.
Let me start by saying this was an absolute delight to read—congratulations to Lucas on your debut publication!
The characters were engaging, and the humour really shone throughout. I was especially intrigued by Noel’s journey and eager to see how the story would unfold. The playful flirting scenes had me smiling the whole way through, and they quickly became some of my favourite moments in the book.
I truly hope this isn’t the end of Noel’s story—I’d love to see more from this world in the future.
September 24, 2025
3 1/2 stars, rounded up.
I was provided a free digital copy of the book from the author for an honest review in return.
Congratulations on your first published book. It is quite the achievement and you really show promise as an accomplished author.
I really enjoyed the two main characters, who felt vivid and memorable. In fact, I kept thinking about them days after finishing reading. The story moved at a steady pace and gave me time to get to know them well.
I’m looking forward to seeing what this author does next. It’s exciting to see such a strong debut!
I was provided a free digital copy of the book from the author for an honest review in return.
Congratulations on your first published book. It is quite the achievement and you really show promise as an accomplished author.
I really enjoyed the two main characters, who felt vivid and memorable. In fact, I kept thinking about them days after finishing reading. The story moved at a steady pace and gave me time to get to know them well.
I’m looking forward to seeing what this author does next. It’s exciting to see such a strong debut!
August 22, 2025
The book had some interesting premises that I did enjoy. However, I was hoping that we get some more depth to the characters as they were one note.
December 31, 2025
“With His Words I’m Not Alone”
By Lucas Ryker
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
I could not imagine going through life with the fear of being touched or the fear of being alone. That is Noel Walkers fear. He’s also an author that is dealing with slump books sales. Then one day a reader, a fan reaches out to him on Twitter. Noel find it’s wired and thrown off with “Hey Daddy.”
In this book we follow how this relationship grows and changes, and evolves into something… We also follow how Noel deals with his phobia of being touched and his fear of being alone. There were a few times I had to sit back and reflect on how I would feel if I had the phobia. I know the fear of loneliness. I deal with it now.
It’s a book I very much recommend.
By Lucas Ryker
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
I could not imagine going through life with the fear of being touched or the fear of being alone. That is Noel Walkers fear. He’s also an author that is dealing with slump books sales. Then one day a reader, a fan reaches out to him on Twitter. Noel find it’s wired and thrown off with “Hey Daddy.”
In this book we follow how this relationship grows and changes, and evolves into something… We also follow how Noel deals with his phobia of being touched and his fear of being alone. There were a few times I had to sit back and reflect on how I would feel if I had the phobia. I know the fear of loneliness. I deal with it now.
It’s a book I very much recommend.
October 7, 2025
First off I want to thank the author Lucas Ryker for reaching out and providing me with a free eARC in exchange for this honest review
For the most part I did enjoy this book and would recommend it. Plot wise it follows struggling author Noel who suffers from haphephobia (fear of being touched leading to high anxiety episodes) and monophobia (fear of being alone) living with his dog Howler and ai robocat Destiny. He flirts with ai tools to write quicker and more, and gets messages from an elusive sender called Faded starting with a ‘Hey Daddy’. The book touches on topics of the good and bad parts of ai, specifically in writing books, and the possibilities of this being the future (alongside other aspects of publishing and author-fan interactions) which I think were handled well but possibly come up too much. Similarly, other topics and events are rehashed a bit but wouldn’t say it’s excessive. I enjoyed the exploration of Noel’s anxiety, dealing with these phobias, and his relationship to friend Marsha (although the flirting gets a bit much). The short chapters made the book read rather quick which I appreciated and you do get a good understanding of the main characters.
I personally would have liked a few more characters especially in regards to the reader having more range of who Faded may be because it is quite obvious. I get the main plot isn’t about trying to find out who they are leaning to the contemporary-literary genre. A problem I had was Noel never really trying to work out who Faded may be nor suspecting the clear frontrunner which made me a little frustrated. There is some exploration of Noel’s sexuality when he finds out Faded is male and not having considered ever entering into a queer relationship when the two grow closer, but at 35 I though he’d of already questioned a few things regarding who he’d be attracted to. Maybe a few things didn’t fully add up.
Overall I would recommend this debut, it’s well written and I enjoyed the characters. I do have some reservations but the good outweigh my cons.
For the most part I did enjoy this book and would recommend it. Plot wise it follows struggling author Noel who suffers from haphephobia (fear of being touched leading to high anxiety episodes) and monophobia (fear of being alone) living with his dog Howler and ai robocat Destiny. He flirts with ai tools to write quicker and more, and gets messages from an elusive sender called Faded starting with a ‘Hey Daddy’. The book touches on topics of the good and bad parts of ai, specifically in writing books, and the possibilities of this being the future (alongside other aspects of publishing and author-fan interactions) which I think were handled well but possibly come up too much. Similarly, other topics and events are rehashed a bit but wouldn’t say it’s excessive. I enjoyed the exploration of Noel’s anxiety, dealing with these phobias, and his relationship to friend Marsha (although the flirting gets a bit much). The short chapters made the book read rather quick which I appreciated and you do get a good understanding of the main characters.
I personally would have liked a few more characters especially in regards to the reader having more range of who Faded may be because it is quite obvious. I get the main plot isn’t about trying to find out who they are leaning to the contemporary-literary genre. A problem I had was Noel never really trying to work out who Faded may be nor suspecting the clear frontrunner which made me a little frustrated. There is some exploration of Noel’s sexuality when he finds out Faded is male and not having considered ever entering into a queer relationship when the two grow closer, but at 35 I though he’d of already questioned a few things regarding who he’d be attracted to. Maybe a few things didn’t fully add up.
Overall I would recommend this debut, it’s well written and I enjoyed the characters. I do have some reservations but the good outweigh my cons.
September 18, 2025
Review of With His Words I'm Not Alone by Lukas Ryker
When Silence Speaks
On the surface, queer literature is crowded with characters like Noel Walker—isolated, anxious, phobic, watching their spark fade in a world that rarely makes space for quiet pain. But it takes a true artist to turn a well-worn trope into something electric. Just as it takes a strong person to embrace the queer life in all its paradoxes.
Under Lukas Ryker’s pen, Noel’s world becomes more than dark—it becomes intimate. We don’t just observe his despair; we inhabit it. We feel the weight of his silence, the ache of his isolation, and the fragile hope tucked inside every sentence he writes.
Then, in the 21st-century version of an obscene phone call, Faded appears—dropping notes into Noel’s DMs with unsettling familiarity. Noel doesn’t realize it at first, but his later choices reveal the truth: even though the messages disturbed him, they mattered. Maybe what felt like intrusion was actually attraction. Maybe silence was the first sign of surrender.
Ryker’s mastery lies not just in the prose, but in the emotional architecture. He builds tension from omission, intimacy from ambiguity, and connection from discomfort. This is not just a novel—it’s a mirror held up to the digital age, where loneliness and longing blur into something hauntingly beautiful.
Author’s Note
Unlike some writers, I acknowledge that I ran my comments through AI for a final polish. That doesn’t make these thoughts—or the insights behind them—any less my own. If anything, it reflects the very tension Ryker explores: how digital tools can amplify human emotion, not replace it. The words are mine. The polish is modern. The sentiment is real.
When Silence Speaks
On the surface, queer literature is crowded with characters like Noel Walker—isolated, anxious, phobic, watching their spark fade in a world that rarely makes space for quiet pain. But it takes a true artist to turn a well-worn trope into something electric. Just as it takes a strong person to embrace the queer life in all its paradoxes.
Under Lukas Ryker’s pen, Noel’s world becomes more than dark—it becomes intimate. We don’t just observe his despair; we inhabit it. We feel the weight of his silence, the ache of his isolation, and the fragile hope tucked inside every sentence he writes.
Then, in the 21st-century version of an obscene phone call, Faded appears—dropping notes into Noel’s DMs with unsettling familiarity. Noel doesn’t realize it at first, but his later choices reveal the truth: even though the messages disturbed him, they mattered. Maybe what felt like intrusion was actually attraction. Maybe silence was the first sign of surrender.
Ryker’s mastery lies not just in the prose, but in the emotional architecture. He builds tension from omission, intimacy from ambiguity, and connection from discomfort. This is not just a novel—it’s a mirror held up to the digital age, where loneliness and longing blur into something hauntingly beautiful.
Author’s Note
Unlike some writers, I acknowledge that I ran my comments through AI for a final polish. That doesn’t make these thoughts—or the insights behind them—any less my own. If anything, it reflects the very tension Ryker explores: how digital tools can amplify human emotion, not replace it. The words are mine. The polish is modern. The sentiment is real.
January 10, 2026
Want to first thank Lucas Ryker for providing me an advanced reader copy of his debut novel! This book was very intriguing and engaging. The main characters felt very real and relatable which I loved. There was a lot of robot/AI/technology in the book which personally wasn’t my favorite but it was integrated well into the novel. Overall, this was a very strong debut with an impressive writing style. I’m very excited to see what Lucas does next!! Congrats on your first novel :))
October 8, 2025
With His Words I’m Not Alone, by Lucas Ryker, was an enjoyable read! I appreciated the premise of the story, which focuses on an author named Noel Walker, who ends up relying on Artificial Intelligence – AI – during a small period of struggle, while also grappling with his monophobia (fear of being alone) and haphephobia (fear of being touched). And it’s a queer love story! We can always do with more queer love, especially regarding someone who is discovering themself well into their adulthood. Starting with quite a bold online message, that journey and relationship bloom as the story progresses.
The struggle of AI being a central theme of the story was what initially drew me to it particularly the question, “Am I truly writing if I use AI, or is it stolen work? Does using AI make me a fraud?” The moral quandary was fascinating to read and garnered many thoughts about it upon my own reflection. I also really liked that it drew Noel closer to Faded, that it was a stepping stone to what became a truly deep, important relationship in Noel’s life.
I found Noel Walker compelling as a character; his internal struggles and fear of being touched is something quite personal, as I also struggle with physical contact. Retreating into his online world, he meets a young man who goes by the alias Faded. It is quite an interesting premise to a relationship, though I personally struggled with certain elements of it, like the initial stalker undertones.
That said, Noel and Faded were both quite aware of how odd the relationship was as it progressed, and I can’t blame Noel for the curiosity that pushed him to continue messaging the anonymous Faded. I also would have liked further depth and exploration into why Noel has monophobia and haphephobia, for there was only one small moment that explained it. Exploring the origin of his fears a bit more extensively would have added a nice depth to Noel’s character, for what we did get was already incredibly interesting. I want more of that story!
The character of Faded was an interesting one, as was the character of Xavier (Xavi). Both were quite buoyant, vibrant characters who had curious dynamics with Noel. Being two counterparts to Noel, being alongside him both in his author journey and his queer journey, they added a nice juxtaposition to Noel’s shy, serious, anxious self.
I also want to dedicate a moment to the cover – the artwork is gorgeous and I just had to make sure that was pointed out!
All in all, With His Words I’m Not Alone, by Lucas Ryker, is an entertaining and relatively fast-paced read! Noel’s was unique, since most queer stories these days seem to be centered around young teens or college students (which is still incredibly important and much loved by me!). Getting a queer journey about a 35-year-old man with an established career and life was something I quite liked! I also liked the moral quandaries surrounding AI that were threaded throughout the book. Ultimately, should there be more to Noel and Faded’s story, I’d be curious to read it, as I want to see how it progresses!
The struggle of AI being a central theme of the story was what initially drew me to it particularly the question, “Am I truly writing if I use AI, or is it stolen work? Does using AI make me a fraud?” The moral quandary was fascinating to read and garnered many thoughts about it upon my own reflection. I also really liked that it drew Noel closer to Faded, that it was a stepping stone to what became a truly deep, important relationship in Noel’s life.
I found Noel Walker compelling as a character; his internal struggles and fear of being touched is something quite personal, as I also struggle with physical contact. Retreating into his online world, he meets a young man who goes by the alias Faded. It is quite an interesting premise to a relationship, though I personally struggled with certain elements of it, like the initial stalker undertones.
That said, Noel and Faded were both quite aware of how odd the relationship was as it progressed, and I can’t blame Noel for the curiosity that pushed him to continue messaging the anonymous Faded. I also would have liked further depth and exploration into why Noel has monophobia and haphephobia, for there was only one small moment that explained it. Exploring the origin of his fears a bit more extensively would have added a nice depth to Noel’s character, for what we did get was already incredibly interesting. I want more of that story!
The character of Faded was an interesting one, as was the character of Xavier (Xavi). Both were quite buoyant, vibrant characters who had curious dynamics with Noel. Being two counterparts to Noel, being alongside him both in his author journey and his queer journey, they added a nice juxtaposition to Noel’s shy, serious, anxious self.
I also want to dedicate a moment to the cover – the artwork is gorgeous and I just had to make sure that was pointed out!
All in all, With His Words I’m Not Alone, by Lucas Ryker, is an entertaining and relatively fast-paced read! Noel’s was unique, since most queer stories these days seem to be centered around young teens or college students (which is still incredibly important and much loved by me!). Getting a queer journey about a 35-year-old man with an established career and life was something I quite liked! I also liked the moral quandaries surrounding AI that were threaded throughout the book. Ultimately, should there be more to Noel and Faded’s story, I’d be curious to read it, as I want to see how it progresses!
March 23, 2026
The development and proliferation of artificial intelligence is of concern to most people in today’s world, and author Lucas Ryker creates an interesting tale of its impact in With His Words I’m Not Alone.
This unique tale follows Noel, who has recently left his office job to focus on writing ads, articles, and novels. Noel suffers from haphephobia, an intense fear of being touched or touching others, and a contrasting condition, monophobia, the fear of being alone. These conditions affect Noel’s relationships in such a profound way that he has a very close-knit crew. He lives with his dog Howler, and his robocat, Destiny, and has one close friend, Marsha. Marsha and her son Xavier enjoy spending time with Noel and his pets. They also seem to understand and respect his conditions.
While Noel is working on his writing, he begins to utilize an artificial intelligence program to assist with his writing. At first, he is astonished by how much content and accuracy the program can generate in such a short time; he begins to churn out article after article, book after book. One day, he receives a message from someone on Twitter, Faded, that startles him in its friendliness and flirtatious tone. Noel and Faded continue to exchange messages and develop a sort of supportive relationship. Noel can be honest with Faded about his conditions and his writing. Eventually, Noel realizes that the extent to which he is using artificial intelligence to write for him is dishonest in a way that makes him feel guilty and uncomfortable.
“Artificial intelligence can and will help me with my writing. Which is a good and bad thing. Because it means I will sink even deeper into being dependent and addicted to it, which will open new wounds of self-doubt and loathing for asking for help for the things I’ve been doing without a problem by myself before. I hate the moment I signed a contract with it, rushing to grab something that lured me as wonderful, ingenious, and revolutionary—which it is—but which turned my blessing into my curse. Because I am not a robot. I am a human being. I’m only human. With my needs and limitations. With my goals, expectations and fears. With my dreams, ideas, and plans on hot to reach them. My creativity is falling victim to the growing demands of the market with every new article and book I publish.”
Ryker does a brilliant job of creating these situations of opposition within Noel. He craves company but has to keep them at arm’s length. He wants to write, but caves to the program to increase volume and speed with which he accomplishes it, sacrificing his creativity, for which he has to atone. His close relationship with Faded can develop because they are each hiding behind the wall of the internet.
This is an interesting look at the impact of artificial intelligence and its benefits and downfalls as it pertains to those in creative industries and those with anxiety disorders.
This unique tale follows Noel, who has recently left his office job to focus on writing ads, articles, and novels. Noel suffers from haphephobia, an intense fear of being touched or touching others, and a contrasting condition, monophobia, the fear of being alone. These conditions affect Noel’s relationships in such a profound way that he has a very close-knit crew. He lives with his dog Howler, and his robocat, Destiny, and has one close friend, Marsha. Marsha and her son Xavier enjoy spending time with Noel and his pets. They also seem to understand and respect his conditions.
While Noel is working on his writing, he begins to utilize an artificial intelligence program to assist with his writing. At first, he is astonished by how much content and accuracy the program can generate in such a short time; he begins to churn out article after article, book after book. One day, he receives a message from someone on Twitter, Faded, that startles him in its friendliness and flirtatious tone. Noel and Faded continue to exchange messages and develop a sort of supportive relationship. Noel can be honest with Faded about his conditions and his writing. Eventually, Noel realizes that the extent to which he is using artificial intelligence to write for him is dishonest in a way that makes him feel guilty and uncomfortable.
“Artificial intelligence can and will help me with my writing. Which is a good and bad thing. Because it means I will sink even deeper into being dependent and addicted to it, which will open new wounds of self-doubt and loathing for asking for help for the things I’ve been doing without a problem by myself before. I hate the moment I signed a contract with it, rushing to grab something that lured me as wonderful, ingenious, and revolutionary—which it is—but which turned my blessing into my curse. Because I am not a robot. I am a human being. I’m only human. With my needs and limitations. With my goals, expectations and fears. With my dreams, ideas, and plans on hot to reach them. My creativity is falling victim to the growing demands of the market with every new article and book I publish.”
Ryker does a brilliant job of creating these situations of opposition within Noel. He craves company but has to keep them at arm’s length. He wants to write, but caves to the program to increase volume and speed with which he accomplishes it, sacrificing his creativity, for which he has to atone. His close relationship with Faded can develop because they are each hiding behind the wall of the internet.
This is an interesting look at the impact of artificial intelligence and its benefits and downfalls as it pertains to those in creative industries and those with anxiety disorders.
October 16, 2025
There’s something deeply intriguing about With His Words I’m Not Alone. It presents a story that could have been both emotionally shattering and tender, built around a character whose every movement is dictated by the weight of his trauma. Noel is easy to empathize with; his struggles, his fears, and his quiet yearning for connection all feel achingly human. Yet, for all its potential, the novel doesn’t fully commit to exploring the depths of that pain.
Noel’s haphephobia, or his fear of touch, sets the emotional tone early on, but the book holds back from really unpacking what that means for him beyond the surface level. His trauma is referenced rather than revealed, leaving the reader wanting to understand not just what happened to him, but how it shaped every corner of his existence.
The romance carries an intriguing premise, an anonymous connection that could have delved into the beauty and vulnerability of intimacy without touch. At times, their exchanges feel genuine and even comforting, offering glimpses of quiet companionship amid Noel’s isolation. Yet, for all its potential, the emotional tension doesn’t quite reach the depths it hints at. Their conversations, while tender, often stay on the surface, leaving the relationship feeling more wistful than transformative.
Still, there’s something to admire in Ryker’s writing. The prose itself is graceful and deliberate, with internal monologues that flow beautifully. His command of language and willingness to blend contemporary themes, like authorship and AI, into the narrative add a thoughtful, almost meta dimension to the story. Whether that thread enhances or distracts depends on the reader, but it’s undeniably interesting.
In the end, With His Words I’m Not Alone feels like a novel that almost reaches greatness. It has the emotional scaffolding of something profound, but never digs deep enough to fully inhabit it. Even so, Ryker’s lyrical style and thematic ambition make it worth the read, especially for those drawn to stories that linger in the quiet spaces between loneliness and connection.
Noel’s haphephobia, or his fear of touch, sets the emotional tone early on, but the book holds back from really unpacking what that means for him beyond the surface level. His trauma is referenced rather than revealed, leaving the reader wanting to understand not just what happened to him, but how it shaped every corner of his existence.
The romance carries an intriguing premise, an anonymous connection that could have delved into the beauty and vulnerability of intimacy without touch. At times, their exchanges feel genuine and even comforting, offering glimpses of quiet companionship amid Noel’s isolation. Yet, for all its potential, the emotional tension doesn’t quite reach the depths it hints at. Their conversations, while tender, often stay on the surface, leaving the relationship feeling more wistful than transformative.
Still, there’s something to admire in Ryker’s writing. The prose itself is graceful and deliberate, with internal monologues that flow beautifully. His command of language and willingness to blend contemporary themes, like authorship and AI, into the narrative add a thoughtful, almost meta dimension to the story. Whether that thread enhances or distracts depends on the reader, but it’s undeniably interesting.
In the end, With His Words I’m Not Alone feels like a novel that almost reaches greatness. It has the emotional scaffolding of something profound, but never digs deep enough to fully inhabit it. Even so, Ryker’s lyrical style and thematic ambition make it worth the read, especially for those drawn to stories that linger in the quiet spaces between loneliness and connection.
October 15, 2025
Thank you Lucas Ryker of the ARC!
With His Words, I’m Not Alone is a tender, emotionally resonant story that ultimately struggles to sustain its own excellent premise. The novel centers on Noel, a protagonist wrestling with intense feelings of anxiety and loneliness as well as the pressure of being a writer until an online introduction change his life. With small steps and willingness you take your life into your own hands for a better self and future!
With His Words, I’m Not Alone is a tender, emotionally resonant story that ultimately struggles to sustain its own excellent premise. The novel centers on Noel, a protagonist wrestling with intense feelings of anxiety and loneliness as well as the pressure of being a writer until an online introduction change his life. With small steps and willingness you take your life into your own hands for a better self and future!
November 21, 2025
You need to read this book!
Honestly, I'm not a Romance reader, let alone a slow-burn Romance reader, and especially not a "clean" Romance reader. But! This book is certainly the exception. The couple in this novel doesn't even touch each other, for Gods' sake! Let me explain...
Noel is a writer; he has published a couple of books that haven't done very well, and he decides to take a chance and start working full-time in marketing his books and start writing articles to try and reel in new readers, but he chose to do this with the help of a brand new shiny tool: AI. There's a great exploration here on this controversial theme, but let's focus on the Romance.
Noel suffers from haphephobia (fear of getting touched by people) and also monophobia (fear of being alone), which makes his social life almost nonexistent, with the exception of his best friend Marsha and her son Xavier, until Faded pops up with his "Hey Daddy" and starts to upend his world.
Faded starts as this annoying, borderline stalker, anonymous texter. He's a bit too sexual and uninhibited for Noel, but he turns out to be quite a great helper, and even goes as far as being an emotional support to Noel as he starts to open up more and more to him.
Their entire relationship is utterly fascinating. Faded knows that he won't be able to touch Noel, and Noel understands that Faded is a persona of an original person out there, yet they make such an extraordinary connection, to the point that they're both willing to explore a relationship without physical touch. It's so refreshing to contemplate! Especially for 2 Queer men with the desire for sex.
The other source of media that I know explores a similar relationship is Chobits by CLAMP.
I'm inordinately impressed.
Honestly, I'm not a Romance reader, let alone a slow-burn Romance reader, and especially not a "clean" Romance reader. But! This book is certainly the exception. The couple in this novel doesn't even touch each other, for Gods' sake! Let me explain...
Noel is a writer; he has published a couple of books that haven't done very well, and he decides to take a chance and start working full-time in marketing his books and start writing articles to try and reel in new readers, but he chose to do this with the help of a brand new shiny tool: AI. There's a great exploration here on this controversial theme, but let's focus on the Romance.
Noel suffers from haphephobia (fear of getting touched by people) and also monophobia (fear of being alone), which makes his social life almost nonexistent, with the exception of his best friend Marsha and her son Xavier, until Faded pops up with his "Hey Daddy" and starts to upend his world.
Faded starts as this annoying, borderline stalker, anonymous texter. He's a bit too sexual and uninhibited for Noel, but he turns out to be quite a great helper, and even goes as far as being an emotional support to Noel as he starts to open up more and more to him.
Their entire relationship is utterly fascinating. Faded knows that he won't be able to touch Noel, and Noel understands that Faded is a persona of an original person out there, yet they make such an extraordinary connection, to the point that they're both willing to explore a relationship without physical touch. It's so refreshing to contemplate! Especially for 2 Queer men with the desire for sex.
The other source of media that I know explores a similar relationship is Chobits by CLAMP.
I'm inordinately impressed.
December 4, 2025
Thank you to Lucas for sharing a copy with me!
I loved the writing style and a few of the side characters really worked for me. I didn't connect with Noel as our main character, which made the story harder to sink into. I loved the confidence that he shows in one scene and that's about it.
The conversation around Al and authors was genuinely interesting, and I'd love to see that explored even further. It got me thinking and that's always a win.
Even with Noel not doing it for me, the voice of the book kept me turning pages.
I loved the writing style and a few of the side characters really worked for me. I didn't connect with Noel as our main character, which made the story harder to sink into. I loved the confidence that he shows in one scene and that's about it.
The conversation around Al and authors was genuinely interesting, and I'd love to see that explored even further. It got me thinking and that's always a win.
Even with Noel not doing it for me, the voice of the book kept me turning pages.
March 1, 2026
Thank you to the author who sent me the book!
3.5 stars ⭐️.
This book has a lot of potential. First I love that this romance doesn’t revolve around physical touch. This was refreshing. I would have love to see more of Faded and Noel relationship grow after their first meeting.
Also I’m kinda shocked that Martha basically didn’t care when her son and Noel were flirting right in her face. I also wish Noel would have at least shown some questioning about Faded real identity’s as it was pretty obvious.
3.5 stars ⭐️.
This book has a lot of potential. First I love that this romance doesn’t revolve around physical touch. This was refreshing. I would have love to see more of Faded and Noel relationship grow after their first meeting.
Also I’m kinda shocked that Martha basically didn’t care when her son and Noel were flirting right in her face. I also wish Noel would have at least shown some questioning about Faded real identity’s as it was pretty obvious.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
December 18, 2025
Lucas was gracious enough to lend me an ARC and so thankful he did! Fabulous story and excellent execution of nuance with his queer characters. I empathized with the journey and recommend to any lover of queer literature! Bravo Lucas!!
December 2, 2025
If you're someone that's ever struggled with a phobia, disability or evening just being different this book is definitely a book for you. Lucas Ryker is a phenomenal author and he really wrote an AMAZING story that truly touches the LGBTQIA+ community along with giving a platform for those that might struggle with various life difficulties. Noel Walker Haphephobia or Touch Aversion which is the fear of being touched. Unless you're someone that's ever had to navigate a phobia or disability you never know how truly difficult it is and this book does a great job at telling an AMAZING story. I literally read this book in 24hrs so if you're wanting a book that you can binge this is definitely the book.
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