since i have absolutely no clue how many chapters volume five is going to contain, i am choosing to live dangerously and assume it wraps up the final fifteen chapters, while the ten extras get shoved into volume six, and if this assumption turns out to be incorrect i am asking for mercy in advance and would appreciate not being held legally responsible for my own speculation.
as much as i genuinely loved the previous volume, the beginning of this one did fall a little short for me, mostly because the da’an arc never really managed to grab my attention. their time there felt oddly weightless, and while it was clearly meant to matter, the only part that truly stood out was the nie dan plot twist, which unfortunately landed with less impact since i had already seen it coming from a mile away.
the main couple took a solid three books to win me over, which is a long time to ask someone to be patient, but they got there eventually and the ending is wholesome enough that it’s hard to hold a grudge. i do not actively dislike them anymore, which in this context feels like character growth on my part. however, what i really wanted, and what i still feel a bit robbed of, was more insight into zhao chao and qiao rong’s relationship, because the crumbs we were given were simply not enough. i want some romance!
as for the ending itself, good for you miao and li zhifeng for finally finding some measure of peace with each other and for li zhifeng ultimately returning home to the north. logically, however, it does raise some questions about the practical aftermath, especially when it comes to riverwave estate, which you miao poured an absurd amount of effort and personal sacrifice into. still, i am willing to chalk that up to deliberate ambiguity and reader interpretation, particularly since i have not yet touched the extras and there is always the chance this turns into a classic priest situation where crucial information that probably should’ve been in the main text ends up right in the extras. either way i do not actually dislike the ending, and despite my nitpicks i would even call it genuinely wholesome.
watching you miao’s journey from a sheltered and spoiled child to a fallen son, and then slowly rebuilding himself and his estate through sheer effort was genuinely wholesome, especially because the story never devolved into a power fantasy once he returned to the capital. it leans heavily into political intrigue and makes it clear just how limited power actually is, even for high ranking officials and even for the emperor himself.
one of the main reasons i am willing to forgive a lot is because the worldbuilding feels immersive and actually holds up under scrutiny. the author clearly knows his imperial china, and even when the story tweaks history for fictional purposes, it never feels like it is cheating or cutting corners just to keep things moving, which is something a lot of danmei novels seem far too eager to do. that same grounded approach carries over to the political side of the story, where the imperial court is less about grand authority and more about constant damage control. power is fragmented, everyone answers to someone else, and the emperor’s position feels less like a throne and more like a very stressful chair you are not allowed to stand up from. i felt sad for zhao chao the entire time. you can see how heavy everything is on him. yes, he has a difficult temper and makes unreasonable decisions, but he really has no cruelty or malice in his intentions. you watch him struggle to balance his own desires, the expectations of the court, and the lives of everyone under his rule, and it’s just sad bro. the story doesn’t make excuses for him, but it also doesn’t vilify him, and that makes the moments where he falters genuine, because you can feel how much he cares even when everything around him is falling apart.
this is still a series i enjoyed for reasons that go far beyond the romance. even when certain arcs underwhelmed or specific relationships felt underexplored, the story as a whole remained engaging and emotionally sincere, which makes it easy to forgive its missteps. while i do have some qualms about it in general, it still delivered a conclusion that felt earned and memorable enough to leave a lasting impression rather than disappointment
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This volume concludes the main story at chapter 75. My heart is full and I’m desperate to read the extras which will be published in vol 6 who knows when. Since this is loosely based on the Song Dynasty I expected something a little more tragic but the ending was perfect and beautiful 🥰 After waiting two years for this to be completed, I can now say it’s one of my favorite novels.
I hope that now the entire story is accessible (at least in ebook) it becomes more loved and recommended. Definitely worth trying if you like:
✔️Historical fiction/imperial China- takes place over ten years around the end of the Northern Song reign and the beginning of the Southern Song reign after being defeated and driven south by the Tartars ✔️Court politics, economics, military strategy/war ✔️Loving and committed CP ✔️Watching a young protagonist grow and mature over time ✔️Friendships and family drama
Not sure if it’s Fei Tian’s writing or the translator’s choice but some of the anachronistic terms caught me off guard- girlie, got game, ballsier, bro, freaking, etc.
Maybe spoilers… -The death of one of my favorite characters devastated me. I knew it was going to happen but still am not over it. I cried and had to stop reading for a bit. -I need more details about Riverwave Estate, the You family, etc- maybe they are in the extras?
"Life is like an endless night, where amid the dazzling lights, in the realm of dreams, one remains unaware of being a mere visitor. There have been times when I've lost my way, Lost myself; yet whenever darkness seems to prevail, a young man was always there waiting patiently for me on the path ahead bearing a radiant beacon.”
I don’t even know where to begin because I literally just finished reading this, and my head and heart are still a mess. I was too excited to finally get to this volume that I read everything straight through without stopping to take notes, so these are just my immediate thoughts while everything is still fresh. The last few pages absolutely broke me. I just kept thinking about You Miao. He’s the type of person who seems like he’d faint if his emotions became too much, and all I could think about was everything he’s been through and how the people who were once such an important part of his life slowly started disappearing one by one. I couldn’t stop crying. It hurt so much to think about. The whole time I was reading, I kept agreeing whenever someone called You Miao selfish because… they’re right. He is selfish. But I also couldn’t bring myself to dislike him because every single person is selfish for their own reasons. Everyone is holding onto something they can’t let go of. Everyone makes choices they believe they have to make. Knowing that made it impossible for me to judge him too harshly.
I also realized how attached I’ve become to Li Yan. I didn’t expect his scenes near the end to affect me as much as they did, but they completely changed how I felt after reading the book. I kept thinking about him even after the story ended. When I look back on everything, I honestly feel like he’s always been on the right side. Because of that, a lot of You Miao’s decisions just felt so wrong to me, even if I understood why he made them. I also found myself wishing I had gotten more of Li Zhifeng. Since the story spends so much time following You Miao, there are long stretches where Li Zhifeng only appears through letters or brief updates. Every time that happened, I wanted more. I wanted to actually see what he was going through because it felt like I missed so much of his journey. The political side of the story kept me completely invested because the alliances never stayed the same. Nobody stayed a permanent friend or enemy, and I never felt comfortable assuming where anyone stood. I loved how unpredictable it was, even though there were moments when I wanted to sit with the emotional fallout a little longer because there was so much pain, betrayal, and loss to process.
I’m also still trying to wrap my head around a few scenes because some things haven’t fully clicked for me yet. Maybe it’s because I flew through the entire book without giving myself time to stop and think. I know I’ll re-read the whole series next year, and I’m almost certain I’ll come back and rewrite this review after I’ve had more time to put all my thoughts together. Right now, all I know is that this book left me feeling emotionally exhausted. I cried, I got frustrated, I questioned so many decisions, and I couldn’t stop thinking about these characters. And honestly, part of it is Nie Dan. I’ve had the biggest book crush on him, so I was completely wrecked reading this. I have a lot to think about even after writing this review.
The full series was amazing. We watched you miao grow from a spoiled young master to a brave political advisor who watched the world fall apart & rebuilt it brick by brick. The writing 20/10 i loved how immersion it was as well as learning facts about different dynasties of China. The author truly did his research 👏. The character 9.8/10 i truly loved seeing all the characters develop some for better or worse. Seeing friendships fall apart, seeing how the characters changed over the 10 years & the decisions that consequently made them rise & fall. Though some characters i felt like they threw in (qiao rong) and could've used more development. Romance 8.9/10 the only gripe I had was i wanted more development between them. It felt like insta love too quickly. I would've liked for it to have changed over the years like the relationships between the other characters but it stayed stagnant as they are the ultra devoted & super in love couple who'd die for each other. Which is very sweet but the series began with that if it had moved slower from li zhifeng liking him as a master to loving him & vice versa I'd be more satisfied.
Overall 95.67%
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