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"I'll go with you wherever you need to be."
ARC Review
This was such a short, cute story! The best way I can describe this book is that it feels like an indie movie, not too theatrical, quiet, and still very intimate. Manuela and Connor are both on the engagement trip of Elle (her friend) and Jack (his cousin) and they both feel like outsiders. Eventually, they both find safe comfort within each other. Their relationship is gentle and tender, and they give each other space to breathe and even for silence. They are like two anxious introverts falling for each other, and I think it's very sweet to read.🩷 If you've ever watched Normal People, this is what I'd imagine a relationship to look like if both the guy and the girl were Connell Waldron lol.
I enjoyed Manuela's character for the most part. She's a quiet and capable woman who often feels like an outsider and out of the loop, a bit self-conscious. A lot of it being due to her socioeconomic status compared to the other wealthy trip goers. And her immigrating from Argentina, not fully identifying as a New Yorker yet. I think her reservations added a lot to her character, I just wish we got to see other sides of her. She doesn't talk much, a big observer–which I liked–but I would've loved to see a deeper friendship between her and Elle. We're told they are very close, but for most of the book, it's always Elle hyping/propping up Manuela, and from Manuela's POV, she's making comments about how Elle can never understand her because of her privilege. I thought that would be a conversation between the two but it never happened. BUT! Manuela is not a pushover, which I appreciated. When the time came, she advocated for herself against a mean girl in the group. And she was able to be personable and make friends with the others, and it, it was like she was carrying this cloud of eternal dread of being an outsider and the imposter syndrome. it got just a teeeensy bit repetitive.
I also liked Connor! He was struggling with the fact that his life was not his own, and he almost felt like a shell of a person, not really fitting in/being comfortable with the world around him. And it's Manuela who makes him feel something again. Their relationship is very "no words but full understanding." The banter was nice, but I just wish we saw a little more of them talking, about anything really. Because I really liked when they first crossed that intimacy line together. It was super hot and attractive! There's nothing I love more in a spicy scene where it's passionate, and slow, and it actually feels like they're taking their time to really feel and enjoy the moment in each other. Connor was suuuuper intentional each time he was with her. And, omg Conner's whimpering?!?!?!?! I actually need more of that in romance books😭 I love a whimpering man!! And even better, he literally splooged in his pants TWICE! Anyways, where was I... As their relationship developed on the trip, I wish there were more intimate scenes that were not sexual, like deep, vulnerable conversations between the two. For me, it still felt a bit like a fling when Conner dropped the L bomb. At first I was like woah😳 BUT! At the same time when that happened, Connor made the choice to reclaim his own agency in his life, basically giving the finger to his ex-girlfriend and his parents. So, when he went after Manuela and dropped the L bomb, his confession was actually one of the best things I've ever read????!!!
Thank you, Maria Rigou, for the ARC!🩷