In her most innovative book yet, Molly Gaudry embarks on a search for belonging amid loss, framing her memoir around a fictional narrative featuring the tea house woman—a character who appeared first as bride-to-be and then as widow in her earlier books. As Gaudry grapples with traumatic brain injury, family secrets, repressed memories, and the job market in her essays, the tea house woman goes on a parallel quest of identity and desire. Gaudry also delves into literature as guide and comfort, using the words of authors as wide-ranging as Sappho, Nathaniel Hawthorne, Marguerite Duras, and José Saramago to form yet another text within a text. Artfully braided into a hybrid-genre tour de force, the many strands of Fit Into Me: A Novel: A Memoir ask: to what extent can fiction reveal more about an author than nonfiction?
As the tea house woman manages a mercurial lover, a family business, and caring for her dying father during the winter holidays, Gaudry, too, reflects on some of her own challenges: relearning, post-skating injury, to read and write while in the midst of earning a PhD; questioning her loneliness, desires, and ability to connect; wondering what it would be like if her biological brother flew in from Korea to inform her that their father has died; and navigating her identity as a transnational adoptee. Each essay in Fit Into Me, the memoir, is a testament to resilience, and as those true stories merge with Fit Into Me, the novel, they reveal how literature can become a lifeline that guides us back to ourselves.
Molly Gaudry is the founder of Lit Pub and the author of the verse novel WE TAKE ME APART, which was a finalist for the Asian American Literary Award and shortlisted for the PEN/Osterweil. DESIRE: A HAUNTING, its sequel, and FIT INTO ME: A NOVEL: A MEMOIR, are further explorations of the same story world and characters. Molly holds master’s degrees in fiction and poetry from the University of Cincinnati and George Mason University, respectively, and a PhD in experimental prose from the University of Utah. An assistant professor at Stony Brook University, she teaches nonfiction and poetry in the BFA and MFA programs. Summers, she teaches fiction at the Yale Writers’ Workshop.
I'm not typically one for non fiction but if it's published by Rose Metal Press and it's written by Molly Gaudry, it's got to be magical, right?!
Fit Into Me is an innovative novel within a memoir, which doesn't sound like it would work but strangely does. Through this mix of narrative autobiographical storytelling, speculative nonfiction, and fiction writing, you get to follow along as Molly manuevers the reader through intricate memories and moments in her life. Meanwhile, we also navigate a parallel series of moments in the life of the tea house woman, a character who has appeared in Molly's previous books.
Also, sprinkled within are beautiful and poignant quotes about the relationship between a writer and their readers, the art of writing, and excerises in writing where she had created word banks (pulling individual words from texts) and chosing 10 of them at random to then build a story around.
It's quite an interesting thing, what Molly's done. I can't pretend to fully understand it, but it seeps inside and moves you nonetheless.
Here are some of my favorite borrowed quotes, the ones that spoke to me the loudest:
'Because every book is a private act, but it joins us across continents and times.'
'Because think of this - that the writer wrote alone, and the reader read alone, and they were alone with each other.'
'Because every book is dead until a reader activates it.'
📚Fit into Me ✍🏻Molly Gaudry Blurb: In her most innovative book yet, Molly Gaudry embarks on a search for belonging amid loss, framing her memoir around a fictional narrative featuring the tea house woman—a character who appeared first as bride-to-be and then as widow in her earlier books. As Gaudry grapples with traumatic brain injury, family secrets, repressed memories, and the job market in her essays, the tea house woman goes on a parallel quest of identity and desire. Gaudry also delves into literature as guide and comfort, using the words of authors as wide-ranging as Sappho, Nathaniel Hawthorne, Marguerite Duras, and José Saramago to form yet another text within a text. Artfully braided into a hybrid-genre tour de force, the many strands of Fit Into Me: A Novel: A Memoir ask: to what extent can fiction reveal more about an author than nonfiction?
As the tea house woman manages a mercurial lover, a family business, and caring for her dying father during the winter holidays, Gaudry, too, reflects on some of her own challenges: relearning, post-skating injury, to read and write while in the midst of earning a PhD; questioning her loneliness, desires, and ability to connect; wondering what it would be like if her biological brother flew in from Korea to inform her that their father has died; and navigating her identity as a transnational adoptee. Each essay in Fit Into Me, the memoir, is a testament to resilience, and as those true stories merge with Fit Into Me, the novel, they reveal how literature can become a lifeline that guides us back to ourselves. My Thoughts: Follow along as Molly manuevers the reader through intricate memories and moments in her life. As Molly trying to deal with traumatic brain injury, family secrets, repressed memories, and the job market. At the tea house woman manages a mercurial love, family business and caring for her dying father during winter holidays. Molly reflects on her own challenges, relearning, post-skating injury. Fit into me is a memoir, a testament to resilience. Thanks Edelweiss, Molly Gaudry and Rose Metal Press for the advanced copy of "Fit into Me" I am leaving my voluntary review in appreciation. #Edelweiss #MollyGaudry #FitIhtoMe #RoseMetalPress ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
Fit Into Me: A Novel: A Memoir is a quietly radical book, one that refuses to choose between truth and imagination and instead lets them speak to one another. Molly Gaudry’s braided structure, where memoir essays and fictional narrative echo and refract each other, creates an intimate reading experience that feels both searching and brave. The tea house woman becomes more than a character; she is a lens through which grief, desire, intellectual longing, and survival are examined with remarkable clarity. Drawing comfort and guidance from literature itself, Gaudry shows how books can become lifelines, especially in moments of injury, loss, and dislocation. This is a work that lingers not because it answers its questions, but because it teaches us how to sit honestly inside them.
Why write (fiction)? ponders Molly Gaudry in Fit into Me: a Novel: a Memoir. As a Korean adoptee in the U.S., Gaudry lacks a clear origin story and continuously revises her life’s narrative in poignant fiction and nonfiction fragments. She is unapologetically vulnerable as she grapples with the post-concussion “garbage of her mind” and explores the gaps between desire and attachment. Her chiseled prose drips with quotations and footnotes, yet remains open, breathable. Read if you miss human touch and like to receive it in words.
"This book is audacious , intelligent, complicated, layered, deconstructed, human, heartbreaking, allusive, and deeply moving." -Jackson Bliss (From the back cover of the book.)
While I can't disagree with anything said above, I can add these: Repetitive, confusing, frustrating, gimmicky. While she takes pains to explain the Word List's and then inserts them in the narrative in all caps. That does nothing but distract from the reading. And her use of 177 foot notes within the texts itself was baffling. I could go on and on but there was enough in the book itself.
Part memoir, part fiction, this hybrid story tracks the grief and undoing of a fictional character while charting the course of healing for the author, who is recovering from a mild traumatic brain injury (concussion).
This inspirational speculative nonfiction book has sparked my interest in pursuing this genre in my own writing.