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300 pages, ebook
First published July 12, 2020

“Lord Astor’s face remains blank as he talks to her, no expression, no smile, no nothing.”
“We agree that Dad is a robot, and by we, I mean Lars and me. Fine, Lars just listened with a judgmental expression while I informed him of that fact.”

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“at a certain point in my life, I convinced myself that I didn’t have a heart or, if I did, that it only served an anatomical function. now, however, every time ronan is around, that organ goes crazy.”
"after all, the most painful scars are the invisible ones."


”It’s weird, but if you stood at the bottom of a cliff, I would fall over with my eyes closed. Do you know why? Because I know you’d catch me. I know you’d never let me hit the ground or rock bottom or any of that.”
ah! finally a good book! after that shit show with xander mf knight, i deserved a good read.
ronan is the clown of the group, always smiling, always joking, a womanizer and he fucked more girls that i can count. ofc, it’s just a defence mechanism, bc –you know– with rina kent nobody is safe. unfortunately, one night something bad happens and ronan will never be the same.
everyone has their own way to cope with a trauma, or pain and so on. some ppl tend to close in themselves, others fight their demons and again others put on a mask and make ppl laugh. ronan is included in the latter. from the first book, you can easily see it. we also know he’s the party planner of the century and organized all the best parties. it’s bc he likes to be surrounded by ppl. he clearly has abandonment issues.
his lordship is also a really good friend without even trying. he helped aiden and elsa; he stayed with kimmy and helped her and xander getting together (unfortunately). he was always there for his friends. he’s also sweet and thoughtful. i have to complain tho. why he didn’t say a single word in french? i mean in the other books he used to talk in french all the time. here, besides “ma belle” (which is how he calls teal AWWW) he didn’t say anything. i miss his french ugh!
”Ronan is still Ronan with his goofy attitude and tendency to turn every serious situation into a joke, but now I realise it’s part of his defence mechanism. It comes naturally to him, though, and he basks in being the centre of attention.”
”They look at me like I’m a freak, and I don’t acknowledge them at all. Why? Because I was never interested in fitting in. You can’t covet something you never actually wanted or even thought about. I have my world, and no one is welcome in.”
The moment her eyes lock onto mine, it’s like the entire world has hushed into the background. There are no sounds, no colours, and no scents. There’s only her, the girl with odd preferences and a fucking attitude.
My Teal doesn’t usually blush, but when she does, it’s like the world has turned red.
Fuck my pride. I need her like I’ve never needed anything before. I just need to hug her, and that’s it. A hug.
You’re the light despite the darkness. You’re the hope despite the black dots. You’re strong despite the weakness.
What I feel for you is more than love. It’s something overpowering, but also empowering. It’s believing I can be normal even when I don’t know what normal is. It’s smiling and laughing out loud without even realising it. I wish we’d met under different circumstances and with different names. I wish I could wake up to your face every day. If there’s a next life, let’s meet there, okay?
His is the shallow type like gigolos. If he were a woman, he would be labelled a slut, but in his case, he’s called a playboy.
He called me beautiful. He thinks I’m beautiful.
“Stop saying things like that,” I murmur.
“Like what?” He teases my entrance through the cloth and I arch my back. “Like how hard I’m going to fuck you until everyone hears you beg for more? How loud I’m going to make you scream as you come?”


“You’re okay,” he continues. “You’re going to be okay.”
“How do you know that?” I murmur. “How can you be so sure about it?”
“I’m only sure about one thing, and it’s you, Teal. I have no doubt you’ll get through this. Do you know why?”
Something stings my eyes, and I refuse to believe it’s tears. “Why?”
“Because you’re the strongest person I know.”





“Here’s the thing, belle.” My voice drops. “Since you came into my life, I don’t need people anymore. I just need you.”
“You think I’m crazy?” My voice is barely above a whisper, and I hate it.
“I don’t think it. I know it.” This time he does run his finger over my lips as if he’s smearing my lipstick, just like that first time he touched me in the library. “And I want every last bit of your craziness.”
“You still want me?”
“Still? Did I ever stop?” He brings my hand to his mouth and brushes his dry lips against the skin. “I’ll never stop wanting you, belle. You’re made for me.”
"Here’s the thing, belle.” My voice drops. “Since you came into my life, I don’t need people anymore. I just need you.”
"I’ve never felt as alive as when I’m with you. I never woke up and felt happiness until I realised you were by my side"



He doesn’t know that death isn’t a title.
Death is the beginning of every war, and I’ve already started mine.
I stole his will, his future, and soon enough, his life will follow.
I have a secret, I’m a thief.
Ronan Astor is my next target.
As well as my future husband.

I brush my teeth and pay a morning tribute to Ron Astor the Second. Yes, that’s my dick’s name, and yes, I always need to give him the morning routine. Usually, there’s a girl’s mouth willing to ease him into the day, but today he had to restart his affair with my hand.

He’s a pawn, just a damn pawn.
But sometimes, pawns can flip the entire game.
Her beauty.
It’s a special type, the kind you not only want to stare at but also want to trap somewhere so you’re the only one who sees it.
It’s kind of sick, but it fits her.
Everything about her is beautiful.
I felt kind of empty when he went to rehab. Of course, I’ll never admit that to the fucker or he’ll record it and show it to my great-grandchildren.
Aiden— Elsa’s boyfriend — is the tall, dark, and handsome type, and he’s playing the role with that scowl that says Come close and I’ll slaughter your family tree. It’s why the onlooking students admire him from afar, not daring to get in his way. For Aiden, only one person exists in the female population — or the entire population, actually — and it’s my foster sister.