Trigger Warning: This book discusses sexual assault/sexual abuse, childhood trauma, prison, and murder.
I’m really glad I received this audiobook and was able to listen while also reading along because the narration for Where Secrets Find Solace is tight, professional, and well aligned with the text. There were no mispronunciations or awkward pacing, and everything felt accurate to the book, which is something I always pay close attention to when reviewing audiobooks. Thank you to NetGalley and RBmedia Recorded Books for this ALC.
Morris Kellswater does an excellent job narrating Killian. He fully embodies him as a compassionate MMC who is both gentle and justice driven, and he does a great job differentiating between characters when multiple people are speaking in the same scene. One thing I’m always critical of in audiobooks is whether narrators change their voices not only for their assigned POVs but also when voicing side characters within those chapters, and Morris does this really well. Charlie L. Wood does a strong job narrating Alayah, especially during the more emotional moments, which really heightened the listening experience. You can hear Alayah’s pain, guardedness, and vulnerability in her voice. While I did enjoy her portrayal of Alayah, I would have loved a bit more variation when she was voicing other characters in her chapters. Even so, this was still a solid and engaging performance.
I listened to this audiobook at 1.75x speed, which for me is my sweet spot. I want audiobooks to sound natural, not rushed and not too slow, because either extreme will disengage me. Every narrator has a different cadence and tone, and with dual narration sometimes one speed doesn’t work equally for both narrators. For this audiobook, keeping both narrators at 1.75x kept me engaged while maintaining a realistic speaking pace.
Because of that, I’m giving the audiobook narration four stars. As for the story itself, this is easily a five star read for me.
When I first read the sneak peek for Where Secrets Find Solace, it pulled me all the way in and I knew immediately this was going to be a heavy but necessary read. The story centers around Alayah, who is serving a 30 year sentence for killing her mom’s boyfriend, a man who had been sexually assaulting her since she was 14. As the oldest daughter, she carried the responsibility of looking after her siblings while her mom worked constantly. From early on, it was clear that her mom was rude, neglectful, and downright cruel, and it was incredibly frustrating to read how she continuously put her daughters in that situation.
This is a powerful, emotionally layered women’s fiction novel that does not shy away from trauma, accountability, or the long road to healing. Alayah’s journey isn’t just about getting out of prison but about what freedom actually looks like when the past still has a grip on you. When Alayah is paroled, she’s trying to rebuild her life, keep her head down, and acclimate to being free. At the same time, both her lawyer and Killian know there were serious things wrong with her case and are actively working to uncover proof so it can be overturned. Even though Alayah is no longer incarcerated, they want her to have justice alongside her freedom.
I really appreciated the use of flashbacks to the past, which were very emotional. Seeing Alayah and Killian when they were younger added depth and context to who they are in the present and made the emotional beats hit even harder.
I also loved the intentionality behind Kimberly Brown including resources in her dedication for readers who may be experiencing similar situations. The title Where Secrets Find Solace really stayed with me, especially after reading the dedication where the author writes, for anyone who has been told, ‘What happens in this house stays in this house.’” That line perfectly embodies this story.
Rodney, Alayah’s abuser, forced her to keep the secret of her abuse while threatening her younger sisters, and her mother repeatedly turned a blind eye and refused to believe her. Alayah felt like she couldn’t tell anyone what was happening, and that burden ultimately pushed her to the edge. You really see how she finds solace in Killian when she has nowhere else to put that pain. I’m glad she ultimately gets her happy ending and that everyone else gets exactly what they deserved. While we do get some insight into why her mom was the way she was, it still doesn’t fully make sense, but sometimes when people are that harmful, it never will.
While this book isn’t categorized as a romance, it still has strong romantic elements that add heart to Alayah’s story of redemption as she rediscovers who she is now as a woman. Alayah and Killian were friends in high school, and he always had a crush on her, so we get elements of a second chance romance and a friends to lovers dynamic. I also appreciated how this story shows the journey someone goes on after experiencing sexual trauma, learning how to rediscover themselves, allow themselves to be loved, and explore their sexual identity outside of trauma.
One character I absolutely loved was London. She was funny, unapologetically herself, and refused to let up on Alayah until she let her become her friend. She brought much needed lightness to the story and really highlighted the importance of chosen family and support. Also shout out to the aunt and and uncle as well as Killian’s family and friends. And a couple other people I won’t spoil.
And while I could go on and on about the pure evilness that is Mrs. West, Kennedy, and Rodney, just know that these people will piss you clean off. This is an emotional read, and there is plenty of drama that will absolutely have your blood pressure up at times.
A quote that really stood out to me and embodied Alayah’s journey in terms of her sexual identity was, “I loved that she was discovering her sexual desires after years of abuse. Some people were never the same after that.”
While there are open door scenes and I’m never mad at that, the intimacy here felt purposeful rather than just spicy for the sake of being spicy. Especially given the subject matter, those moments came across as intentional check ins rooted in consent, communication, and care, which added depth to Alayah’s journey instead of distracting from it.
Another quote that captured that perfectly was, “A man who talks you through it takes cues from your body. They listen and pay attention. Sex with them isn’t just for their pleasure. It’s for yours too. Whatever negative headspace you find yourself in, he’ll bring you out of it. You just have to trust him.”
Overall, Kimberly Brown did an amazing job with this story, and I would absolutely love to see Where Secrets Find Solace adapted into a film. I could easily see this as a Lifetime movie or a Netflix original. The story is absolutely there!