Not sure how to rate this one. I devoured it in a few days. Truly could not put it down. Joe Matt lays all the worst, most vulnerable, confidential, sad, pathetic, abusive, delusional, and gross parts of himself on these pages and then dials them up or down. It’s all here: the good (his cartooning), the bad (his behavior and outlook), and the ugly (the sad trajectory of his life). He left a trail of panels in the wake of his life, for us to learn about him? ourselves? life? I dunno.
A lot of folks read this and probably feel way better about themselves, but I don’t think that should be the point. I can identify with aspects of him (I think most folks can if they’re honest with themselves), and it feels important to reflect what that looks like and learn from him. I love this book the same way I love Crumb (1994). It leaves me with a sadness and empathy that I cherish because it shows humanity and all its flaws. However, I also don’t think being a piece of shit and drawing it well with a “well at least I’m honest’” mentality is that admirable though I do appreciate it. We see him try to change or at least think about changing but we also see him on the hamster wheel of addiction and self-isolation. He really is some version of Crumb that found less success and ultimately lost the drive to pursue his work.
I don’t know what to rate this. It feels important. He is repulsive and he admits to it by literally drawing it out, but I don’t think that is necessarily a virtue. But I don’t think I should judge this based on his character? More on its literary merits? How I do so…? I have no idea.