This book was more plot than I was expecting, and I was really happy to discover that. This book opens with an interesting and dramatic situation of a recovering addict going "home" to spend her Christmas with her best friend and her BFs older brother, whom she's always struggled with, and walks right into a highly traumatic situation at the home when he friend is stranded elsewhere not making it home, and ending up spending some one on one time with said friends older brother after his ex is carted away in handcuffs and he's left cleaning up the last crash out she's had in his home all in front of their 5 year old daughter. This leads to Bell helping comfort the little girl and ending up in a close proximity kitchen situation with Kit as they confront new emotions they've never experienced with one another after being enemies their entire lives, and ultimately ending up in his bedroom as our first play scene together. And boy, is it an intense play scene. This book doesn't mess around as these two navigate an intimate and aggressive free for all with one another, diving into personal pleasures that both struggle to find responding partners, and have found that the other seems to play right into their true desires. It leads to shocking revelations between them and newfound feelings they never anticipated considering their history with one another.
The spice in this book hits fast, hard, and dirty. It isn't sweet, and it's definitely messy. To say it's a... Fistful of fun would be right on track, lol. Our two mains have traumatic and painful pasts of abuse and parental pains that run deep. Together, they seem to quiet the demons and soften the scars, finding an oddly soothing balance in a pleasure dynamic both of them need to be satisfied. Because of this intense first interaction, I almost forgot there was an entire kidnap plot of Kit's daughter to unfold, and when they wake up the next morning after their intense session with one another, and find her missing, this plot takes a dramatic turn. One I was thankful to see.
Our story starts moving fast and aggressive when Kit calls in his old recon buddies, and they put their special skills to the test to try and desperately locate his little girl. All while Bell is trying to find her place amongst the panic and keeping a dark secret of her own that all the boys are missing... She's a serial killer of a special kind. When Bell decides to take it upon herself to hunt down Kit's attackers and dive straight into the den of serpents, she is faced with several issues she didn't anticipate that come on the heels of her messy execution that lands her in several bad spots during her rescue mission, but truly shows she is a female force to be reckoned with at all costs and will do whatever it takes to save the 5 year old little girl that belongs to the man she seems so deeply tied to suddenly.
Overall, this book was heavily entertaining. It didn't have a heavy Christmas vibe outside of some Santa roll playing and a black Christmas tree situation, but the Santa thing was well used. There were some moments that had me choke up, mostly in regards to Bells sobriety and a situation that happens when she's captured that just breaks your heart for her but it's mostly level toned throughout. Kit and Bells chemistry was fun, as well as their banter, although her dialog in regards to her own sexual preferences at times were a little cringy but stayed with her character identity overall. There was a scene at the end that I wasn't a fan of. It held some reason for happening to intensify the feeling of being chosen fully but also just seemed placed for the sake of extra spice that seemed awkward more than not. There is a lot of aggression in the spice at times but balanced well for our characters.
It was a fun read in the end. The action and suspense was my favorite part and although it started with heavy spice right away, I was happy that the majority of the book was more focused on the high emotion situation and the action of how that transpires more than nonstop spice, which I was worried would be our main plotline carry but was not. It was a good time.