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My Captain

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He Calls Me Pup. I Call Him God.
Elias Mercer is twenty, reckless, and the newest rookie center for the Ravensburg Reapers. He runs his mouth like he’s untouchable—until the captain walks in.

Damian Kade is a legend. Thirty-two, enforcer, team captain, terrifying both on and off the ice. Everyone respects him. No one crosses him. When his mismatched eyes pin Elias, it isn’t just obsession. It’s possession.

What starts as one brutal Halloween night in a hotel room turns into a season-long addiction—bloodied knuckles, bruised kisses, whispered orders in the dark. On the ice, Damian wrecks anyone who dares touch his rookie. Off it, Elias can’t stop crawling back to him, no matter how much it ruins him.

Hockey is war. Love is worse.
And Elias Mercer is about to learn exactly what it means to belong to his captain.

My Captain is a standalone dark hockey romance filled with obsession, violence, and dangerous devotion. Perfect for fans of brutal age gaps, possessive captains, and rookies who can’t keep their mouths shut even when they should.

451 pages, Paperback

Published September 18, 2025

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187 reviews1 follower
October 21, 2025
⭐️⭐️ bro there was not a single cute moment in this book. i know it’s a dark romance but not even one cute moment? wild. not once did they say “i love you” which is bizarre since this is a romance book. there was no real plot. besides one story about elias’ past, there was nothing about who they are as people. i’ve never seen the word “chirp” as much as in this book it’s practically every page. the whole thing was just very repetitive honestly. idk how this thing was 481 pages. and not once did elias say damien’s name, it was always sir. which is fine but also a little weird. whatever man it just wasn’t for me.
78 reviews2 followers
October 21, 2025
lots of chirping…

I have read about 30% and I just can’t. I hate leaving a book midway through but this is so awful.
What’s with the chirping? Do we find out in the end that this is actually an abstract story about birds?
The writing is repetitive. I’d be surprised if this wasn’t written in 40 minutes with nary an editor in sight.
The characters are 2D and unlikeable. At this point I simply don’t care if the MMC’s chirp right off the page. Meh DNF…
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39 reviews1 follower
December 30, 2025
Pros:
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Cons:
- AI garbage.
- ChatGPT 4o garbage, more specifically.
- A lot of people fell for this.

Comments:
ChatGPT 4o garbage. The kind where the prompter prompts something about making a witty character which results in an obnoxious unlikable asshole, and idiots who laugh at comebacks that'd be embarrassing to even think in your head.
You also got:
* "Not X, just Y's" and muttering on page one.
* Whispers and rooms that breathe by page two.
* Murmurs, snorts, and raised eyebrows by page three and four.
* Barks, echoes, and noise don't make it till page five.
* Your first grunt is on page seven.

If you're wondering, why tf I'm bringing these up like they matter, it's because ChatGPT (again, the awful 4o in particular) absolutely cannot help itself from using these. Ever. Throw in a male character, and you're guaranteed they'll bark, snort, and grunt like a doghorse in no time flat.

See all of these in a "book"? Often? It's a safe bet you're reading AI generated garbage, fished straight from the toilet. Worthless.
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94 reviews
November 14, 2025
two things
1.) this book did not feel like 500 pages
2.) i’m gagged by the ending

rip me

jk.

okay so there’s some editing issues. so there’s a lot of chirping. so the smut isn’t great. so I’m annoyed that Elias never got to call Damian by his name. so every time i heard Hollywood i thought of walker “Disney” davis. point is, once you get through that stuff and just immerse yourself into the book its not bad. I think I really liked this book because it reminded me of my old Wattpad days and the nostalgia took over.

it’s not a “cute” or a “dark” romance either. there’s rough sex and possessiveness but it’s not dark
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
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313 reviews2 followers
December 15, 2025
My Captain is a brutal, intoxicating descent into obsession, power, and devotion set against the unforgiving backdrop of professional hockey. This is not a love story built on tenderness—it’s forged in violence, hierarchy, and the kind of hunger that leaves bruises behind.

Elias Mercer is chaos wrapped in talent: twenty years old, reckless, and incapable of keeping his mouth shut even when it puts him in danger. As the newest rookie center for the Ravensburg Reapers, he thinks he’s untouchable—until Damian Kade steps into his orbit. Damian is everything Elias isn’t prepared for: older, dominant, and feared both on and off the ice. A legendary enforcer and team captain, Damian doesn’t ask for loyalty. He takes it.

What begins as a single, explosive Halloween night quickly spirals into a season-long addiction neither man can escape. Their connection is raw and consuming, built on whispered commands, bloodied knuckles, and an unspoken understanding that Elias belongs to Damian in ways that go far beyond the rink. On the ice, Damian’s protectiveness is ruthless; off it, the line between desire and destruction blurs until Elias is willingly crawling back for more, even as it threatens to ruin him.

The novel excels at portraying power imbalance and obsession without softening the edges. The age gap, the captain-rookie dynamic, and the unrelenting intensity of Damian’s possession create a relationship that feels dangerous, compelling, and deliberately uncomfortable. Hockey isn’t just a setting here—it’s a war zone that mirrors the emotional brutality of the romance itself.

My Captain is unapologetically dark, filled with violence, fixation, and devotion that borders on worship. It will not be for everyone, but readers who crave possessive captains, defiant rookies, and relationships that burn hotter the more they hurt will find it impossible to look away.

This is a story about belonging taken to its extreme—and the cost of surrendering to someone who feels less like a lover and more like a god.
1 review
October 14, 2025
best book

I loved this story because of how possessive Damian was for Elias. Please please make another one with these two, I really want to see what happens after the puck dropped at the end of the story.
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November 5, 2025
dnf @ 30%. came here to see if it was just me. decided not to finish.
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1 review
September 30, 2025
I enjoyed the story but…

The writing itself is lackluster, repetitive, and poorly edited. Also, I can’t tell if the ending is meant to be a cliffhanger or just something thrown together to meet a deadline. I loved the dynamic between Damian and Elias, and I enjoyed Cole’s presence and personality, but at some point along the chapters the writing became monotonous.
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234 reviews
December 30, 2025
What was that???

I try really hard to never DNF. But boy did I come close numerous times with this one. There is nothing I hate more than reading the same words/sayings on repeat. Super annoying. And I’m not even sure they were being used correctly at times. First, what is the plot here? Why is there a sequel? I’m alllllll for the smut. No such thing as too much. However, you need to either commit to no plot, or make a solid kinda plot. Here, we have the longest dirty scenes in all the land, and then some plot breadcrumbs sprinkled in between. No context, no full detail. Then … Can’t keep out spoilers, so warning! 1. Why did the entire team seem to have been on this ride before? Is Elias not the first to be in Cap’s clutches? 😳😳 2. We’re reciting vows without an “I love you”??? 3. With the exception of Elias telling Cap the story about his brother and the accident, not one convo was had. These two don’t know a thing about each other! So we’re putting a ring, and collar, on it already? 4. Where the f were families? Parents? My 20 year old son gets onto a pro team and I’m not at every game? Never! 5. Is Cole gay? That airplane bathroom trip was odd. 6. Which reminds me - there was zero talk of sexuality. Which, cool! No one has a problem with it? Perfect! But how did Elias know Cap was? How did anyone know they were together if no one knew either was gay? I just felt there should have been something. Even a casual, quick convo. But nothing. 7. And most importantly……. No lube?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? I just don’t think Elias is going to do well longterm under these conditions.
With this being said … I will read the next book just to find out if they win the cup.
2 reviews
December 27, 2025
This was hard to keep reading I kept thinking the story would turn but it never did.
If you want to read something with repetive spicy scenes and very very few sweet moments you may love this.

The captain (Damian) kept making references about how the vets on the team knew when he'd "claimed" someone and made comments like "my boys" to possible people he had "claimed" in the past. How many rookie players has he "claimed" before Elias ..... it felt more like grooming and less like romance even for a "dark romance". Damian being 32 and Elias being 20 isn't an issue, it's the way he calls him his "his boy" that is more creepy than cute, he even referrs to him as a kid multiple times and I'm sorry but calling the guy your f*cking kid is also a bit cringey.

Elias at no point in almost 500 pages is allowed yes allowed to call Damian by his name it's Sir or Captain, which is cool in certain situations and scenes but it is throughout the entire book.

The spice is repetitive and for this to be MM there was never any prep.

This story had a lot of potential but just fell flat, the side characters and banter were great. You don't really get to know anything about the characters outside of playing hockey and repetitive sex, we don't get to know the characters and they certainly don't get the know each other.

The wording choices and lack of explanation or context behind certain comments made left me feeling uncomfortable.
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1,451 reviews33 followers
January 14, 2026
Wow! This book wrecked me in the absolute best way. It’s brutal, unapologetic, filthy, honest, and perfectly imperfect. It’s 40% smut, 50% hockey, and 10% plot.

We have Elias, rookie center, about to step on the ice with his hockey idol/god. From the very beginning he wants to give his Captain everything he has to give. Both on and off the ice.

We have Damian, hockey legend, and determined to carve Elias into a legendary center, even when that means leaving Elias’s blood on the ice. He’s protective, he’s obsessive, and he’s utterly domineering. He’s takes all that Elias gives and pushes for more. On and off the ice.

Only two things matter. Each other and hockey. These two are absolute fire together. The spice is spicy and plentiful. It will have you saying “Yes, sir.” “Thank you, sir.” “May I have another?” Or it will put you in the headspace to hear all those things. This story isn’t pretty. It isn’t supposed to be. It’s supposed to make you feel, and think the author nailed that.

If you like some hockey with your smut, and you like BDSM overtones, this book should hit just right for you.
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437 reviews6 followers
October 28, 2025
MM
🌶️🌶️🌶️
Hockey
Age gap

Elias has obsessed over Damian since he was 12. His favorite hockey player. Wants to be just like him. Had his poster above his bed and would jack off to it or his fight reels. Present day, he is signed to the same team. Instantly Damian “claims” him. And the team knows….so I am assuming this has happened before? He is very dominant. Very demanding.

The story wasn’t horrible. It just had zero depth. The MMCs didn’t even get to know one another. Just had a Dom/sub sexual relationship. And there were so many repeated phrases, sentences, paragraphs. We were constantly told how each of the teammates reacted to every situation. No need. The book could’ve been so much shorter. I wanted to DNF before 50% but thought maybe it would get better. Alas, I should’ve known because the novella I read by the author was exactly the same.

And this book popped up when I searched for MM Halloween romance. Why? Because their first game was played on Halloween. And they wore vampire mouth guards for it. That’s it.
7 reviews
November 24, 2025
Bravo 👏👏

One star taken off for some inconsistencies that took me out of the story (character having underwear off one moment, it's back on the next, Character living in an apartment and the next living in a house, etc.)

The writing style for this book is one of my favorites that I have ever read. The descriptions are great and the way they are worded was very enjoyable to read. The characters were raw and funny. I loved how side characters were described more by their actions than anything else. How their actions are portrayed somehow managed to highlight and distinguish all of the characters from each other.

The spice was spicing. Like full on made me blush.

Overall I loved the book so much that the small inconsistencies don't even really matter to me. I would highly recommend if you're into dark romance, dom/sub vibes, mm romance and enjoy reading about hockey.
471 reviews2 followers
October 22, 2025
Dark and seductive! Rent free living at its finest!!!😍😍😍

GAH!... Sage Riven bled me out! This creation is "perfect".😁 I couldn't put it down and my eyes are like I washed them with sand but I loved this raging, obsessive and downright filthy world! My heart was pumping hard throughout every kinky deed. These MC's are seductive, mind-blowing and desperate for each other. In other words..." perfect for one another". Beautifully broken!!!😏 This is a hardcore slice of the human condition and I am a fan for life! I highly recommend reading this crazy ride!😘 Beware your triggers!😶
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149 reviews1 follower
November 18, 2025
No more chirps to give

I almost never give a book 1 star in fact I’m not sure I ever have but My Captain gets a big hell no from me. I don’t think the author knows the difference between a captain and a coach, if this was titled My Coach it would’ve made a lot more sense but even suspending disbelief the “steam” was horrible. Things like “But my boys know patience” and so many “pups” and “sirs”, I could not. MC1 doesn’t even use MC2s name, it’s just “sir”. I didn’t feel an ounce of relationship development in the 26% I made it through. Suffice it to say this one wasn’t for me.
2 reviews
December 11, 2025
The True Meaning of Possession and Obsession

I prefer not to review the books I read because sometimes I like to keep my own thoughts and opinions to myself. Most people always take things the wrong way no matter how you say it, either in a positive way or a negative way. Anyway, this book is the embodiment of possession, control, and obsession. The way Elias melted for Damian shows how much he truly worshipped/loved him. I really loved the witty humor of the rest of the Reapers which played along in the relationship between Damian and Elijah. This a book where you can’t forget how dynamic the characters are. 5/5
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December 13, 2025
I liked this story, but I had a major concern...

I like this story, but I had a major concern.
I really enjoyed the love story between the MCs. I liked the other teammates I would like to see them get their own books.
I can even overlook the minor inconsistencies.
But I think the author should have done more research. In all of the gay sex in the book, lube is never mentioned once. Without lube, there can be microtears, bleeding, and extreme pain. There is also no mention of being tested for HIV, before not using condoms.
I am looking forward to reading more novels by this author. I just hope that in future novels, the author corrects these issues.
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123 reviews1 follower
December 5, 2025
DNF at 54%
I've never seen a book where main characters didn't have a personality. Like not at all. They just fuck. I was so tired of their repetitive fucking and maybe thought the reviews would show whether they have some cute moments or not. And yeah, they don't. And that's why I'm DNFing this book. Sad cuz the blurb had so much potential. The characters had so much potential. And it's ruined by the author
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512 reviews14 followers
December 17, 2025
Chirp chirp chirp chirp chirp good boy chirp chirp.

I will say one good thing about this book. The sub actually wants so bad to be dominated. I’ve never read anything like this where I said at the end yep I believe it.

Questions, I have questions

Why is everyone afraid of Damien?
Why can’t the public say Damien’s name?
Where is the plot?
Where is the dark as in dark romance?
And fucking hell why is there a second part?

Not recommended.

30 reviews
January 13, 2026
Going on my Favorite’s shelf!

I very rarely feel the need to write comments but then I saw how few followers the writer has and felt the need. This book has no right to both be such a good hockey book and such a freaking good d/s dark romance. Never stop writing because this world is amazing and now I want every player on this damn team to want a love this insane and all fine queer love till the whole team is just queer af.
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7 reviews
October 10, 2025
My Captain

I really enjoyed this book. I love the absolute obsession Elias has with Damian, and I love how possessive Damian is. This was a great book of pure lust and domination. All do the side characters are great too, and Cole has my heart. I hope we get more stories about this hockey team. The ending killed me though. I wanted more.
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64 reviews1 follower
October 15, 2025
This book wasn’t 4 star writing - I definitely struggled with how repetitive some do the characters tonight’s were throughout the book… I’d usually give it 3 stars but these characters!!

The 4 stars is because I genuinely loved these two characters and was rooting for them. Even when yet again Damian was saying the same three phrases…I didn’t really care much.


381 reviews1 follower
November 23, 2025
Hot & Steamy

This is definitely a steamy 🌶🌶🌶🌶🌶 read with control triggers so be warned ⚠️

It does get a little repetitive at times but overall a solid Dar MM read.

The however, wtf was that. It ends without really ending. That's why 4⭐️. One more chapter could have had a more relevant ending. Yea its an HEA...I think. Just a mic drop moment. Strange
8 reviews
December 3, 2025
I think I hate the word “chirp” after reading this book. Get an editor, because there were so many glaring inconsistencies in this book as well as a frustrating amount of repetition. Nothing happens. They have sex, play hockey, they “chirp” at each other, Damien glares, and Elias begs. Everyone is annoying. End of book.
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46 reviews
December 3, 2025
This book was so repetitive. So much chirping 🐥
The author would say back ground characters were doing something then the main characters had a slight moment (a pages worth) and then it would say what the background characters were doing…again. This happened so much and ultimately was why I decided to DNF
5 reviews
December 7, 2025
I started the book with so much enthusiasm. I was a little disappointed. The beginning was good. I kept waiting for the plot to develop but there was none whatsoever(in my opinion). The was just repetition of events the entire book. Also I didn’t see any relationship developments between the MMCs. They just seemed like FWBs till the very end.
1 review
December 31, 2025
great book 4 stars

Loveddd this book so much! Would have loved a little more back story on both characters more about their families but it was a great book! Great banter between “Hollywood” and “curls”. Tons and tons of spice! Just a fantastic read! It was long but it keeper me interested all the way through! Stood up all just to finish it and read it in one evening!
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684 reviews7 followers
October 15, 2025
MM/ age gap/ sports romance/ BDSM/ forced proximity/ touch him and die/ no OM drama/ no third act breakup/ HEA

Trigger warning: dubcon/ violence/ death of a loved one/ anxiety/ public sex

This book was extremely repetitive and there really wasn’t much character depth in my opinion.
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188 reviews3 followers
October 22, 2025
2.5 stars. Oh. My. God. This book dragged on for way too long. It felt like I was walking through molasses in January trying to get through it.

It had a good concept and deceit character development, but the rest of this book was a snooze fest.
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