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Free Me From The Girl I Used To Be
Rose Parker’s life in New York City is over with and dead. She fled the city looking to leave her life behind, including a toxic ex and an assault that she pledges never to remember.
Moving to Austin, Texas is supposed to be her new start, far away from her mistakes of the past. That’s where she meets Robert Alexander, a devilishly handsome man 20 years her senior.
While at first Rose has no idea he's a founder of one of the most successful tech companies in America, Rose is intrigued, and she falls fast. However, as the weeks pass, Rose realizes their love story is not without conditions, and she will have to risk losing herself to submit to his rules.
Rose tells herself that love isn’t supposed to look like this. But Rob makes it easy to forget. Until his past begins to come back to haunt him.
Perhaps Rob's long lost love, the wife he said was murdered in his home, was not actually taken away from him by her alleged killer. After an investigator finds Rose, she must face the facts and decide if she can ever truly trust a man again...and what exactly Rob did to his ex wife. Is it a far cry from what he would do to Rose?
FREE ME FROM THE GIRL I USED TO BE is an 84,000-word romance turned thriller that will appeal to fans of E.L. James’ Fifty Shades of Grey and Gillian Flynn's Gone Girl.
Moving to Austin, Texas is supposed to be her new start, far away from her mistakes of the past. That’s where she meets Robert Alexander, a devilishly handsome man 20 years her senior.
While at first Rose has no idea he's a founder of one of the most successful tech companies in America, Rose is intrigued, and she falls fast. However, as the weeks pass, Rose realizes their love story is not without conditions, and she will have to risk losing herself to submit to his rules.
Rose tells herself that love isn’t supposed to look like this. But Rob makes it easy to forget. Until his past begins to come back to haunt him.
Perhaps Rob's long lost love, the wife he said was murdered in his home, was not actually taken away from him by her alleged killer. After an investigator finds Rose, she must face the facts and decide if she can ever truly trust a man again...and what exactly Rob did to his ex wife. Is it a far cry from what he would do to Rose?
FREE ME FROM THE GIRL I USED TO BE is an 84,000-word romance turned thriller that will appeal to fans of E.L. James’ Fifty Shades of Grey and Gillian Flynn's Gone Girl.
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242 pages, Kindle Edition
Published November 21, 2025
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Sabrina Black
2 books16 followersSabrina Black is an Austin-based author of dark romance and psychological thrillers. She is the creator of the gripping series that begins with Free Me From the Girl I Used to Be, followed by A Beautiful Lie and Guilty as Sin.
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December 28, 2025
I was blessed with the opportunity to be an ARC reader and wow!
Please know just about every tigger you can think of will pop up in this book! I love that Rose is writing a letter to Rob, however I wish there was one more chapter where it says what she is doing with the letter.
I think a lot of women can relate to some or all of this very well written story. So many of hide our insecurities and trauma from childhood and the way this story line plays out gives you hope that there is someone for all of us that will listen and give a poop. I have preordered book 2 already and can’t wait to read it!
It does give a 50 shades vibe but not deep dive it takes it a different way and I love that!
Please know just about every tigger you can think of will pop up in this book! I love that Rose is writing a letter to Rob, however I wish there was one more chapter where it says what she is doing with the letter.
I think a lot of women can relate to some or all of this very well written story. So many of hide our insecurities and trauma from childhood and the way this story line plays out gives you hope that there is someone for all of us that will listen and give a poop. I have preordered book 2 already and can’t wait to read it!
It does give a 50 shades vibe but not deep dive it takes it a different way and I love that!
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
December 13, 2025
This was a really good book. It’s got dark themes also so if you got triggers, check those before you start. There’s child abuse, sexual assault, etc.
It’s starts very slow. It’s takes a bit to get into but the beginning is like learning the past of the FMC and MMC and getting to know them as a character. It’s definitely needed so prepare for that going in.
Overall, I enjoyed it. I was on the Threads app and asked for book recommendations and the author commented so that’s why I picked it up.
Also, you’re left with a lot of unanswered questions, but from seeing the authors IG, she mentioned a second book coming in February that will resolve those.
It’s starts very slow. It’s takes a bit to get into but the beginning is like learning the past of the FMC and MMC and getting to know them as a character. It’s definitely needed so prepare for that going in.
Overall, I enjoyed it. I was on the Threads app and asked for book recommendations and the author commented so that’s why I picked it up.
Also, you’re left with a lot of unanswered questions, but from seeing the authors IG, she mentioned a second book coming in February that will resolve those.
December 5, 2025
This book starts off painfully slow however it’s necessary to understand Rose and her background…. The way Rob was written I just knew I would love him……..WRONG!!!!! The manipulation and abuse was WILD!! And not in a good way, the best part/ strongest plot was with like 100 pages left
January 15, 2026
DNFing this… I really really struggled to start this book and keep reading it, the author was kind enough to send it to me and i really appreciate it.
The thing is, I couldn’t follow and keep up with the writing style. The age gape usually doesn’t bother me when reading a book but in this one it really did, the SA was not something to just read it and move on, i really got disgusted by it. I felt sad and pitied Rose for what happened to her but I didn’t really enjoy the book.
The thing is, I couldn’t follow and keep up with the writing style. The age gape usually doesn’t bother me when reading a book but in this one it really did, the SA was not something to just read it and move on, i really got disgusted by it. I felt sad and pitied Rose for what happened to her but I didn’t really enjoy the book.
January 26, 2026
**ARC review**
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️½ | Dark Romance / Psychological Thriller
Free Me From the Girl I Used to Be completely caught me off guard — in the best way.
The story follows Rose, a woman fleeing a deeply traumatic past and trying to rebuild herself from the ground up. From the opening chapters, her trust issues aren’t just implied — they actively shape every decision she makes. When she relocates to Texas and meets Rob at a local bar, their connection unfolds slowly and deliberately, with Rose setting firm emotional and physical boundaries.
Rob is twenty years her senior, recently widowed, and immediately framed as a protector — a role Rose instinctively clings to. What stood out to me is that Rose isn’t reckless. She questions the age gap, resists the pull, and makes him earn every inch of trust. When their relationship finally turns romantic, it feels almost fairy-tale adjacent: extravagant dates, immense wealth, and the unmistakable reveal that Rob is a powerful tech mogul living an obscenely luxurious life.
But once Rose finally feels safe enough to surrender control, the story takes a sharp and unsettling turn.
What begins as intimacy quickly expands into total submission — not just sexually, but psychologically and emotionally. Rob’s need for control bleeds into every aspect of Rose’s life, and the dynamic becomes increasingly disturbing as she’s asked to give up agency in ways she never anticipated. The mystery surrounding Rob’s past — particularly the circumstances of his late wife Amelia — deepens the tension and keeps the reader questioning what’s real, what’s earned, and what’s being carefully engineered.
One of the strongest elements of this book is the dual POV, especially the way Sabrina Black writes internal thought processes. You’re not just switching perspectives — you’re dropped directly into each character’s mind. Conversations are layered with intention, manipulation, fear, and desire, and understanding what a character is thinking versus what they’re saying adds an incredible psychological depth to the story.
This was my first book by Sabrina Black, and I was genuinely impressed. The romance-to-thriller shift is bold, the power dynamics are uncomfortable in an intentional way, and the execution feels deliberate rather than gratuitous. It’s dark, twisty, and surprisingly thoughtful — a book that stays with you long after you finish it.
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️½ | Dark Romance / Psychological Thriller
Free Me From the Girl I Used to Be completely caught me off guard — in the best way.
The story follows Rose, a woman fleeing a deeply traumatic past and trying to rebuild herself from the ground up. From the opening chapters, her trust issues aren’t just implied — they actively shape every decision she makes. When she relocates to Texas and meets Rob at a local bar, their connection unfolds slowly and deliberately, with Rose setting firm emotional and physical boundaries.
Rob is twenty years her senior, recently widowed, and immediately framed as a protector — a role Rose instinctively clings to. What stood out to me is that Rose isn’t reckless. She questions the age gap, resists the pull, and makes him earn every inch of trust. When their relationship finally turns romantic, it feels almost fairy-tale adjacent: extravagant dates, immense wealth, and the unmistakable reveal that Rob is a powerful tech mogul living an obscenely luxurious life.
But once Rose finally feels safe enough to surrender control, the story takes a sharp and unsettling turn.
What begins as intimacy quickly expands into total submission — not just sexually, but psychologically and emotionally. Rob’s need for control bleeds into every aspect of Rose’s life, and the dynamic becomes increasingly disturbing as she’s asked to give up agency in ways she never anticipated. The mystery surrounding Rob’s past — particularly the circumstances of his late wife Amelia — deepens the tension and keeps the reader questioning what’s real, what’s earned, and what’s being carefully engineered.
One of the strongest elements of this book is the dual POV, especially the way Sabrina Black writes internal thought processes. You’re not just switching perspectives — you’re dropped directly into each character’s mind. Conversations are layered with intention, manipulation, fear, and desire, and understanding what a character is thinking versus what they’re saying adds an incredible psychological depth to the story.
This was my first book by Sabrina Black, and I was genuinely impressed. The romance-to-thriller shift is bold, the power dynamics are uncomfortable in an intentional way, and the execution feels deliberate rather than gratuitous. It’s dark, twisty, and surprisingly thoughtful — a book that stays with you long after you finish it.
January 22, 2026
Rating: 4.5/5
Free Me From The Girl I Used To Be is described as a dark romance and thriller. The story does have a slow build-up, but much of it is filled with details and emotion, and it's critical to the plot. Uniquely, the story is told in the form of narration. Rose is telling us, the reader, the story of what happened and how it started. Why is she the way she is? Her relationships with other men? And what led to her meeting Rob? Then Rob comes in with his part. It did take me a bit to get used to it, but once I was engrossed in the story, I was flowing with it.
As mentioned, Rose’s story is quite dark and emotional, and Rob has his own stuff too. Their relationship is non-traditional as Rob convinces her that he knows what’s best. And though this is the healthiest relationship she’s ever had and she’s the happiest, her spidey senses go off. And mine were too!
It was really interesting to see how the author developed the thriller portion of the story. How much of the narration's uniqueness shaped my, as the reader, connection with the characters. This, in turn, led me to get pulled in by Rob, just as Rose is—and question everything, just like Rose. I did read the sneak peek at the end of the book. I’m not sure if I should have, because now I have even more questions.
Note: This story may not be for everyone. It may contain Triggers for some. I don’t see any listed. It could be on the author’s site though. There is SA, Eating Disorder, Pyschological trauma, Childhood Aßuse, Violence w/ weapons, ß∂sm/power dynamics, drink gets tampered
Free Me From The Girl I Used To Be is described as a dark romance and thriller. The story does have a slow build-up, but much of it is filled with details and emotion, and it's critical to the plot. Uniquely, the story is told in the form of narration. Rose is telling us, the reader, the story of what happened and how it started. Why is she the way she is? Her relationships with other men? And what led to her meeting Rob? Then Rob comes in with his part. It did take me a bit to get used to it, but once I was engrossed in the story, I was flowing with it.
As mentioned, Rose’s story is quite dark and emotional, and Rob has his own stuff too. Their relationship is non-traditional as Rob convinces her that he knows what’s best. And though this is the healthiest relationship she’s ever had and she’s the happiest, her spidey senses go off. And mine were too!
It was really interesting to see how the author developed the thriller portion of the story. How much of the narration's uniqueness shaped my, as the reader, connection with the characters. This, in turn, led me to get pulled in by Rob, just as Rose is—and question everything, just like Rose. I did read the sneak peek at the end of the book. I’m not sure if I should have, because now I have even more questions.
Note: This story may not be for everyone. It may contain Triggers for some. I don’t see any listed. It could be on the author’s site though. There is SA, Eating Disorder, Pyschological trauma, Childhood Aßuse, Violence w/ weapons, ß∂sm/power dynamics, drink gets tampered
January 7, 2026
I had no idea what to expect with this book going in. I knew it was a dark romance, but that was really about it. I wasn't familiar with this book or this author so it was a complete blind read for me.
Initially I wasn't sure if I was able to connect and relate to Rose, as a character. She carried a lot of trauma that she experienced ups and downs with. Personally, I felt removed from her at first. Rob, right from the get go, I was fully on board with. He was a character that, though I am not like him and don't personally know anyone who is, I could understand him a lot more.
I liked this dynamic. It had me questioning a bit of why her, and what he saw in her, but in reality, that's what a lot of relationships look like to people on the outside. There is something there that clicks and works for the people involved and it doesn't have to make sense to anyone else.
After a few chapters I found I was hooked and becoming more and more invested with the story and I hadn't even realized when that had happened, just that it had.
I will tell you, the mystery, and the suspense, really had me for the last half of the book. I am not a big thriller reader but this one I had to know the outcome. I like to assess characters, situations, and the plot overall and make predictions for the end of the book. I did that many times but I did not see the end of this book coming. Being surprised like that isn't always easy for me and I loved it!
I enjoyed this book, a lot more than I thought I would in the beginning of the book. I am so glad I didn't get deterred early in and walk away. I can't wait to read the other books in the series.
Initially I wasn't sure if I was able to connect and relate to Rose, as a character. She carried a lot of trauma that she experienced ups and downs with. Personally, I felt removed from her at first. Rob, right from the get go, I was fully on board with. He was a character that, though I am not like him and don't personally know anyone who is, I could understand him a lot more.
I liked this dynamic. It had me questioning a bit of why her, and what he saw in her, but in reality, that's what a lot of relationships look like to people on the outside. There is something there that clicks and works for the people involved and it doesn't have to make sense to anyone else.
After a few chapters I found I was hooked and becoming more and more invested with the story and I hadn't even realized when that had happened, just that it had.
I will tell you, the mystery, and the suspense, really had me for the last half of the book. I am not a big thriller reader but this one I had to know the outcome. I like to assess characters, situations, and the plot overall and make predictions for the end of the book. I did that many times but I did not see the end of this book coming. Being surprised like that isn't always easy for me and I loved it!
I enjoyed this book, a lot more than I thought I would in the beginning of the book. I am so glad I didn't get deterred early in and walk away. I can't wait to read the other books in the series.
January 11, 2026
**Please read the trigger warnings before reading, touches on slightly dark topics**
This book had a slow start to develop the characters in the first half but picks up in the second half as new information came to be revealed, I was really on edge when some new characters came in, wondering what was real and what wasn’t. There was a moment for sure when we learned more about Amelia that had me in tears while I was reading.
Rose was relatable for me with her some of her traumas, view of herself and of men. I understood Rob was kind, patient and gentle with Rose when it came to her traumas but once the relationship got more... deep with how their dynamic changed, I feel it was a lot for me to read sometimes.
I feel like a lesson I got from this book is that no matter how messed up and unlovable you think you are or that you deserve the worst, there is a person out there who can see all your scars and pain but still love you and wants to bring out the best of you or help you heal.
I can’t wait for the second book to come out and learn more about everything!
This book had a slow start to develop the characters in the first half but picks up in the second half as new information came to be revealed, I was really on edge when some new characters came in, wondering what was real and what wasn’t. There was a moment for sure when we learned more about Amelia that had me in tears while I was reading.
Rose was relatable for me with her some of her traumas, view of herself and of men. I understood Rob was kind, patient and gentle with Rose when it came to her traumas but once the relationship got more... deep with how their dynamic changed, I feel it was a lot for me to read sometimes.
I feel like a lesson I got from this book is that no matter how messed up and unlovable you think you are or that you deserve the worst, there is a person out there who can see all your scars and pain but still love you and wants to bring out the best of you or help you heal.
I can’t wait for the second book to come out and learn more about everything!
December 7, 2025
Okay so I have thoughts on this one, so buckle up because my feelings were all over the place! I landed on 3 stars purely because I’m still processing what this book wanted me to feel.
First off, Rose. Sweet, chaotic, beautifully messy Rose. My heart genuinely cracked for her. The way her past destroyed her self-worth? Brutal, and yeah, her vanity got on my nerves a bit, but once I realised it's due to how broken she is, it makes sense.
Then we have Rob, the supposed knight in shining armour except, he’s also a 40-year-old man obsessed with someone much younger, and that definitely had me raising a brow. He felt heroic at times, but also... red flag with a nice body.
The writing style threw me for a loop too, it felt as if Rose was writing to Rob about their love story and it had me thinking the ending was going to go a completely different direction, and honestly? I kind of wish it did. I was rooting for a twist that never came.
First off, Rose. Sweet, chaotic, beautifully messy Rose. My heart genuinely cracked for her. The way her past destroyed her self-worth? Brutal, and yeah, her vanity got on my nerves a bit, but once I realised it's due to how broken she is, it makes sense.
Then we have Rob, the supposed knight in shining armour except, he’s also a 40-year-old man obsessed with someone much younger, and that definitely had me raising a brow. He felt heroic at times, but also... red flag with a nice body.
The writing style threw me for a loop too, it felt as if Rose was writing to Rob about their love story and it had me thinking the ending was going to go a completely different direction, and honestly? I kind of wish it did. I was rooting for a twist that never came.
December 5, 2025
Not What I Expected!
The author really gives you a deep dive into the psychological makeup of the FMC and MMC. There is no heroine in this story, but rather two very broken people looking to find that dream of love. Do they find it? I'm not sure this story gives a precise answer to that. The relationship is all kinds of ways unhealthy and toxic, but it does pose the question that maybe healing is different for people, or that maybe they just manipulate and enable each other than actually seek real treatment from professionals.
I'm not going to lie, the book really starts off slow. I get why - the author had to give background into why each of these characters were "broken". If you are sensitive to triggers - don't read this book. The author delves into many various mental illnesses and trauma.
The FMC - Rose I honestly didn't like that much. She suffered from growing up watching her mother abused by her father, until they divorced. She also develops " Daddy Issues" because even while married to her mother, her father never showed her love or attention, and after the divorce even less. You get the feeling even though he was well off - saw his children (she has a sister) - he didn't supply any financial support because it's mentioned she went hungry many times. She goes through a string of men that have used and abused her, has been sexually assaulted, CPTSD, drugged, is anorexic, maybe some bulimia, degraded, dehumanized, extreme low self esteem, and several other issues. The reason I honestly didn't like her is she seemed a little overly whiny. She also seemed to flip out a little too much, and at many times judgemental and hypocritical. I don't want to give out any spoilers because I hate spoiling the story for others - so I won't go into specific scenes displaying those examples.
The MMC, Rob, comes with his own set of baggage and mental illness. In their first few encounters, after he saves Rose from a drugging - the story - to me - was foreshadowing he was leading her into pretty much grooming her - and I do think he was in some ways - to the "Extreme" BDSM lifestyle he desires. That's where the story borrows some things from "50 Shades Of Grey", he's a " billionaire with a sex toy/BDSM Room", but minus the contract and detailed "spicyness". In fact, if you are looking for a book that has a medium to high spice rating - you won't find that here. He's more like Christian Grey on steroids. He was beaten and abused by his mother and her various boyfriends, his mother was a methhead, and I strongly get the feeling - no not really spelled out - that because of that he has some deep rooted hatred for women.
About 40% in the book, after you get the background stories on the two main characters, the book picks up with the mystery of what really happened to Rob's first wife Amelia. That's when I didn't want to put the book down. You find out that maybe he isn't what he appeared to be. It really remains a mystery to the end for many reasons and leaves you wondering what the facts actually are. Is Rob lying and manipulating the facts still? Did he finally come clean? The author leaves us pondering that question to the end.
I'm not sure is I completely like the ending - it still leaves you with plenty of questions - and though I think the FMC is being blind, naive, and gullible at the end with her final decision it does leave you with a good lead into the next book which I will patiently be waiting for and look forward to reading.
The author really gives you a deep dive into the psychological makeup of the FMC and MMC. There is no heroine in this story, but rather two very broken people looking to find that dream of love. Do they find it? I'm not sure this story gives a precise answer to that. The relationship is all kinds of ways unhealthy and toxic, but it does pose the question that maybe healing is different for people, or that maybe they just manipulate and enable each other than actually seek real treatment from professionals.
I'm not going to lie, the book really starts off slow. I get why - the author had to give background into why each of these characters were "broken". If you are sensitive to triggers - don't read this book. The author delves into many various mental illnesses and trauma.
The FMC - Rose I honestly didn't like that much. She suffered from growing up watching her mother abused by her father, until they divorced. She also develops " Daddy Issues" because even while married to her mother, her father never showed her love or attention, and after the divorce even less. You get the feeling even though he was well off - saw his children (she has a sister) - he didn't supply any financial support because it's mentioned she went hungry many times. She goes through a string of men that have used and abused her, has been sexually assaulted, CPTSD, drugged, is anorexic, maybe some bulimia, degraded, dehumanized, extreme low self esteem, and several other issues. The reason I honestly didn't like her is she seemed a little overly whiny. She also seemed to flip out a little too much, and at many times judgemental and hypocritical. I don't want to give out any spoilers because I hate spoiling the story for others - so I won't go into specific scenes displaying those examples.
The MMC, Rob, comes with his own set of baggage and mental illness. In their first few encounters, after he saves Rose from a drugging - the story - to me - was foreshadowing he was leading her into pretty much grooming her - and I do think he was in some ways - to the "Extreme" BDSM lifestyle he desires. That's where the story borrows some things from "50 Shades Of Grey", he's a " billionaire with a sex toy/BDSM Room", but minus the contract and detailed "spicyness". In fact, if you are looking for a book that has a medium to high spice rating - you won't find that here. He's more like Christian Grey on steroids. He was beaten and abused by his mother and her various boyfriends, his mother was a methhead, and I strongly get the feeling - no not really spelled out - that because of that he has some deep rooted hatred for women.
About 40% in the book, after you get the background stories on the two main characters, the book picks up with the mystery of what really happened to Rob's first wife Amelia. That's when I didn't want to put the book down. You find out that maybe he isn't what he appeared to be. It really remains a mystery to the end for many reasons and leaves you wondering what the facts actually are. Is Rob lying and manipulating the facts still? Did he finally come clean? The author leaves us pondering that question to the end.
I'm not sure is I completely like the ending - it still leaves you with plenty of questions - and though I think the FMC is being blind, naive, and gullible at the end with her final decision it does leave you with a good lead into the next book which I will patiently be waiting for and look forward to reading.
January 26, 2026
Free Me from the Girl I Used to Be was a powerful, emotionally devastating read. This dark romantic thriller dives deep into the toxicity of relationships and the lasting impact of trauma.
The book does start slowly, but that pacing felt necessary to fully explore Rose as a character. Her story is layered with abuse and trauma stemming from both her childhood and past relationships. Raised in a home filled with emotional abuse and a toxic parental dynamic, Rose grows up never knowing what real love looks like — something that tragically carries into her adult relationships.
The story is told through narration, primarily from Rose’s perspective, with additional chapters from Rob’s point of view. It took me a little time to adjust to this format, but once I did, it became incredibly effective. Rose is deeply broken and trauma-ridden, with years of emotional damage, low self-worth, and an eating disorder shaped by the men who have hurt her. I honestly don’t know how she keeps moving forward, still hoping to find love after everything she’s endured.
Enter Rob — an older man she meets at a bar, who initially appears to be her safe place. He watches over her, saves her one night after she’s been drugged, and presents himself as protective, gentle, and trustworthy. Rob is also grieving the loss of his wife, whom he claims was murdered by an abusive ex, which makes his pain feel very real.
What unfolds is a deeply toxic relationship. Rob becomes increasingly controlling, but Rose interprets this as safety — something she’s willing to accept because her greatest fear is abandonment. Reading Rob’s chapters often made me want to believe he was a good man, but his actions quickly contradicted his words. The manipulation, control, and physical abuse had me internally screaming for Rose to run — even as the book painfully shows how victims rationalise abuse to survive.
The novel does explore Rob’s trauma and explains why he behaves the way he does — and while those reasons are revealed, they never excuse his actions. Abuse is still abuse.
As the story progresses, it shifts into a gripping mystery surrounding what truly happened to Rob’s late wife. I was completely enthralled, constantly questioning whether he could be trusted and whether the truth would be even darker than expected. I genuinely did not see the truth coming.
This book will absolutely not be for everyone, and trigger warnings are essential. It contains:
⚠️ Sexual assault
⚠️ Child abuse
⚠️ Eating disorders
⚠️ Domestic violence
⚠️ Emotional and physical abuse
That said, I did enjoy this book for how deeply it examines difficult, uncomfortable topics. It asks hard questions about why people stay in unhealthy relationships, how trauma reshapes perception, and how much abuse a person can endure before it fundamentally changes them — and whether it’s possible to ever truly return to who you once were.
A heavy, thought-provoking read from Sabrina Black that stays with you long after the final page.
Spice Rating: 🌶️
The book does start slowly, but that pacing felt necessary to fully explore Rose as a character. Her story is layered with abuse and trauma stemming from both her childhood and past relationships. Raised in a home filled with emotional abuse and a toxic parental dynamic, Rose grows up never knowing what real love looks like — something that tragically carries into her adult relationships.
The story is told through narration, primarily from Rose’s perspective, with additional chapters from Rob’s point of view. It took me a little time to adjust to this format, but once I did, it became incredibly effective. Rose is deeply broken and trauma-ridden, with years of emotional damage, low self-worth, and an eating disorder shaped by the men who have hurt her. I honestly don’t know how she keeps moving forward, still hoping to find love after everything she’s endured.
Enter Rob — an older man she meets at a bar, who initially appears to be her safe place. He watches over her, saves her one night after she’s been drugged, and presents himself as protective, gentle, and trustworthy. Rob is also grieving the loss of his wife, whom he claims was murdered by an abusive ex, which makes his pain feel very real.
What unfolds is a deeply toxic relationship. Rob becomes increasingly controlling, but Rose interprets this as safety — something she’s willing to accept because her greatest fear is abandonment. Reading Rob’s chapters often made me want to believe he was a good man, but his actions quickly contradicted his words. The manipulation, control, and physical abuse had me internally screaming for Rose to run — even as the book painfully shows how victims rationalise abuse to survive.
The novel does explore Rob’s trauma and explains why he behaves the way he does — and while those reasons are revealed, they never excuse his actions. Abuse is still abuse.
As the story progresses, it shifts into a gripping mystery surrounding what truly happened to Rob’s late wife. I was completely enthralled, constantly questioning whether he could be trusted and whether the truth would be even darker than expected. I genuinely did not see the truth coming.
This book will absolutely not be for everyone, and trigger warnings are essential. It contains:
⚠️ Sexual assault
⚠️ Child abuse
⚠️ Eating disorders
⚠️ Domestic violence
⚠️ Emotional and physical abuse
That said, I did enjoy this book for how deeply it examines difficult, uncomfortable topics. It asks hard questions about why people stay in unhealthy relationships, how trauma reshapes perception, and how much abuse a person can endure before it fundamentally changes them — and whether it’s possible to ever truly return to who you once were.
A heavy, thought-provoking read from Sabrina Black that stays with you long after the final page.
Spice Rating: 🌶️
January 31, 2026
I received a copy of this book from the author in exchange for my honest thoughts on it. So, here they are:
The story begins with Rose, the protagonist, moving to Austin, Texas for a new start in life. She is running from her toxic past that keeps ensnaring her and filling her life with misery. She has developed all kinds of issues because of this. She has incredibly low self-esteem, can’t seem to move on from her ex and tends to attract a rather bad sort of partners in her life.
She needs help, therapy, to be more accurate. And guess what? She actually gets it! She takes therapy, everyone! She is not one of those psychologically traumatised female leads who do anything but seek help. But… that doesn’t mean that Rose makes good decisions. Therapy has only made her aware, not wise, so she makes bad decisions while being aware that they’re bad and the writing makes it hilarious in a dark way. She is incredibly relatable, only I wish she wasn’t because boy, do I not want to relate to her. She’s the kind of person to know someone is a red flag and to be avoided but runs towards them at full speed while chanting “Oh crap, oh crap, oh crap”.
But she is finally ready to stop this behaviour and start anew in a new town. She does not want her past follow her from New York. Or from any other place where she’s had romantic adventures. But her ex, with whom she’s had an on again off again relationship of 4 years, is determined to not let her move on. While she is going through this turmoil, she finds a certain gentleman in a drinking establishment who seems oddly enchanted with her. He is older, much older, than Rose and since New York, she has sworn off from men of his age but his charm is staggering and Rose is in fact a sucker for them.
I loved Rose’s awareness about her behaviour and her surroundings but I did despair when she jumped head first into situations which she knows to avoid without any regard. She is stuck in a pattern of attracting toxic people and hopes to be free. She then meets Rob who quickly proves himself to be completely different than the rest. I found him really charming in the beginning, that was until he revealed certain things about himself. Then I started seeing him as a yellow flag, not quite red, not quite green. But still alarming. He introduced a very different life to Rose and she seemed to enjoy it and then the twist happened. I was on the edge of my seat. I wasn’t able to put the book down before and now it was so much worse, I was reading and pacing, speed picking up with every page, desperately waiting for the reveal, to be proven right. And then… it absolutely did not go in the direction I was hoping for but that doesn’t mean it was disappointing. It was still very interesting.
In short, this is a story about second-chance at life, new beginnings, and healing. With of course, a twist. And I really enjoyed reading it.
The story begins with Rose, the protagonist, moving to Austin, Texas for a new start in life. She is running from her toxic past that keeps ensnaring her and filling her life with misery. She has developed all kinds of issues because of this. She has incredibly low self-esteem, can’t seem to move on from her ex and tends to attract a rather bad sort of partners in her life.
She needs help, therapy, to be more accurate. And guess what? She actually gets it! She takes therapy, everyone! She is not one of those psychologically traumatised female leads who do anything but seek help. But… that doesn’t mean that Rose makes good decisions. Therapy has only made her aware, not wise, so she makes bad decisions while being aware that they’re bad and the writing makes it hilarious in a dark way. She is incredibly relatable, only I wish she wasn’t because boy, do I not want to relate to her. She’s the kind of person to know someone is a red flag and to be avoided but runs towards them at full speed while chanting “Oh crap, oh crap, oh crap”.
But she is finally ready to stop this behaviour and start anew in a new town. She does not want her past follow her from New York. Or from any other place where she’s had romantic adventures. But her ex, with whom she’s had an on again off again relationship of 4 years, is determined to not let her move on. While she is going through this turmoil, she finds a certain gentleman in a drinking establishment who seems oddly enchanted with her. He is older, much older, than Rose and since New York, she has sworn off from men of his age but his charm is staggering and Rose is in fact a sucker for them.
I loved Rose’s awareness about her behaviour and her surroundings but I did despair when she jumped head first into situations which she knows to avoid without any regard. She is stuck in a pattern of attracting toxic people and hopes to be free. She then meets Rob who quickly proves himself to be completely different than the rest. I found him really charming in the beginning, that was until he revealed certain things about himself. Then I started seeing him as a yellow flag, not quite red, not quite green. But still alarming. He introduced a very different life to Rose and she seemed to enjoy it and then the twist happened. I was on the edge of my seat. I wasn’t able to put the book down before and now it was so much worse, I was reading and pacing, speed picking up with every page, desperately waiting for the reveal, to be proven right. And then… it absolutely did not go in the direction I was hoping for but that doesn’t mean it was disappointing. It was still very interesting.
In short, this is a story about second-chance at life, new beginnings, and healing. With of course, a twist. And I really enjoyed reading it.
December 4, 2025
Sabrina Black’s Free Me From The Girl I Used to Be is a raw, unflinching novel about trauma, survival, and the slow, jagged work of reclaiming a life. Told primarily through Rose’s experience while often cutting to Rob’s perspective, the book follows a woman who chases love across North Carolina, NYC, and Austin — only to encounter one controlling, dangerous partner after another. The Steel Horse Tavern is the fulcrum where Rose’s story pivots; it’s where choices are made, secrets surface, and consequences land.
Black treats intimate-partner violence and sexual assault with a steadiness that never sensationalizes. The narrative doesn’t shy from predatory drugging, attempted sexual assault, and ultimately murder — the latter becoming a devastating plot turn that reframes what survival costs and who gets to judge it. Equally important are the quieter, corrosive moments of gaslighting and manipulation that erode Rose’s sense of self. The novel spares no detail of the aftermath: repeated starting over, crippling self-doubt, and the hard, nonlinear rebuilding of confidence and identity.
The book culminates in an act of violence that upends Rose’s life and forces Rob and others to confront their roles and responsibilities. The fallout is messy and honest; Rose doesn’t become “fixed” overnight, but the ending leans toward the cautious hope of starting again with boundaries, self-worth, and new strength. I look forward to the next novel to continue Rose’s story.
Why it worked for me:
- Complex POV work: shifting to Rob’s view adds moral ambiguity and emotional texture without stealing Rose’s agency.
- Nuanced depiction of abuse: the book captures how abusers isolate and gaslight, and how survivors internalize blame.
- Emotional truth: Black conveys the small daily victories of rebuilding — therapy, boundaries, tentative trust — in believable, moving detail.
For survivors and allies: this book is validating and painful in equal measure. As a survivor, Black wrote scenes that made me feel like she had interviewed myself or others to capture Rose through her various cycles of trauma and evolution. If you’re triggered by sexual violence and intimate-partner abuse, read with care. That said, Black’s compassionate, clear-eyed storytelling makes this a necessary novel about trauma, responsibility, and the hard path to healing.
Black treats intimate-partner violence and sexual assault with a steadiness that never sensationalizes. The narrative doesn’t shy from predatory drugging, attempted sexual assault, and ultimately murder — the latter becoming a devastating plot turn that reframes what survival costs and who gets to judge it. Equally important are the quieter, corrosive moments of gaslighting and manipulation that erode Rose’s sense of self. The novel spares no detail of the aftermath: repeated starting over, crippling self-doubt, and the hard, nonlinear rebuilding of confidence and identity.
The book culminates in an act of violence that upends Rose’s life and forces Rob and others to confront their roles and responsibilities. The fallout is messy and honest; Rose doesn’t become “fixed” overnight, but the ending leans toward the cautious hope of starting again with boundaries, self-worth, and new strength. I look forward to the next novel to continue Rose’s story.
Why it worked for me:
- Complex POV work: shifting to Rob’s view adds moral ambiguity and emotional texture without stealing Rose’s agency.
- Nuanced depiction of abuse: the book captures how abusers isolate and gaslight, and how survivors internalize blame.
- Emotional truth: Black conveys the small daily victories of rebuilding — therapy, boundaries, tentative trust — in believable, moving detail.
For survivors and allies: this book is validating and painful in equal measure. As a survivor, Black wrote scenes that made me feel like she had interviewed myself or others to capture Rose through her various cycles of trauma and evolution. If you’re triggered by sexual violence and intimate-partner abuse, read with care. That said, Black’s compassionate, clear-eyed storytelling makes this a necessary novel about trauma, responsibility, and the hard path to healing.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
January 2, 2026
3.5/5 ★
I'd like to first say that the title for this book is honestly so fitting with everything we learn about Rose's background, to questioning whether she's truly "free" at the end of it. Please go into this reading the triggers as this book does discuss heavy themes with both the FMC and MMC.
The first portion of the book is slower due to understanding the background and traumas endured by Rose, contributing to her character as distrustful of men and her heavy focus on female objectivity from the male lens. This influences her relationship dynamic with MMC Robert (who has also endured his fair share of trauma through his mother in childhood) which is interesting in balancing nuances of power and consent. It definitely leads you to question whether our MCs are truly healing each other in this relationship full of grey areas contrasting love versus obsession (trauma-bonding? Co-dependency?). The same applies with personal growth for our FMC when comparing her previous relationships to her relationship with Robert. The second half of the book definitely picks up once starting to explore Robert's relationship with Amelia, I could not put the book down as I was hooked to learn more!
I honestly went into this thinking I would love Robert with how he was presented at the beginning. He was communicative (!!) and cared about Rose in helping her explore her mental health but we quickly come to realize things aren't what they seem. I don't want to divulge too much into this and spoil anything but it truly leaves the reader thinking about power imbalances and control in the relationship. Is Robert manipulative? Is Rose a reliable narrator? I came out questioning a lot of things.
I think the reason I didn't push this into a 4 ★ was because of the use of repetition throughout the book and bracketed inner thoughts of our FMC, I felt that it ruined my immersion in the book slightly. It was interesting to see how self-aware the MCs are though, especially when it came to concerns such as the age gap between them (which was well highlighted through discourses of generational differences). I was honestly surprised and feel bittersweet by the ending, I thought it would have taken a different turn given the use of second person perspective but I'm staying open minded with the fact there is a second book planned.
Thank you to the author for a copy of the book!
I'd like to first say that the title for this book is honestly so fitting with everything we learn about Rose's background, to questioning whether she's truly "free" at the end of it. Please go into this reading the triggers as this book does discuss heavy themes with both the FMC and MMC.
The first portion of the book is slower due to understanding the background and traumas endured by Rose, contributing to her character as distrustful of men and her heavy focus on female objectivity from the male lens. This influences her relationship dynamic with MMC Robert (who has also endured his fair share of trauma through his mother in childhood) which is interesting in balancing nuances of power and consent. It definitely leads you to question whether our MCs are truly healing each other in this relationship full of grey areas contrasting love versus obsession (trauma-bonding? Co-dependency?). The same applies with personal growth for our FMC when comparing her previous relationships to her relationship with Robert. The second half of the book definitely picks up once starting to explore Robert's relationship with Amelia, I could not put the book down as I was hooked to learn more!
I honestly went into this thinking I would love Robert with how he was presented at the beginning. He was communicative (!!) and cared about Rose in helping her explore her mental health but we quickly come to realize things aren't what they seem. I don't want to divulge too much into this and spoil anything but it truly leaves the reader thinking about power imbalances and control in the relationship. Is Robert manipulative? Is Rose a reliable narrator? I came out questioning a lot of things.
I think the reason I didn't push this into a 4 ★ was because of the use of repetition throughout the book and bracketed inner thoughts of our FMC, I felt that it ruined my immersion in the book slightly. It was interesting to see how self-aware the MCs are though, especially when it came to concerns such as the age gap between them (which was well highlighted through discourses of generational differences). I was honestly surprised and feel bittersweet by the ending, I thought it would have taken a different turn given the use of second person perspective but I'm staying open minded with the fact there is a second book planned.
Thank you to the author for a copy of the book!
January 13, 2026
I started this book with the intention of reading a few chapters and continuing the next day with a few more… well let me tell you, that did NOT happen. I couldn’t put it down. I read the whole book in one sitting. As far as books go, this thing has it all. It is a darker romance and touches on a lot of various life issues that could be triggering to some. So please check your trigger warnings before reading.
The character building was done very well. The author touched on a good amount of both of the main character’s back stories and I really appreciated that. It helped me not only understand where the characters were coming from (such as past life experiences and traumas, etc.) but also helped me to better understand current thought processes and reactions to new hurdles and twists throughout the book. We never know where someone else is in life.
Not only was there a caring and protective love story, this book had a great presentation of exposing and working through the lies of unworthiness we often tell ourselves when having experienced dark trauma. I also appreciated the author shedding light on what it means to work through traumas and the struggles of learning to truly value who we are as people despite our baggage. I loved how the FMC was vulnerable to another human who she cares about and allowed him really see her and help pick up her broken pieces. Her healing triggered his healing and that was so great!
My career allows me to work with survivors of similar experiences this FMC went through and so it really hit home for me. Her self-loathing, her fear of trusting again, the things she was unconsciously but intentionally depriving herself of because of seeing herself as undeserving really struck a chord… I see beautiful people living that life everyday and it breaks my heart. It was a great reminder for all of us… YOU are beautiful, YOU are special and there is only one YOU. YOU deserve perfect happiness despite an imperfect past.
Thank you, Sabrina Black for this beautiful story of love and self-healing. Can’t wait to read more.
The character building was done very well. The author touched on a good amount of both of the main character’s back stories and I really appreciated that. It helped me not only understand where the characters were coming from (such as past life experiences and traumas, etc.) but also helped me to better understand current thought processes and reactions to new hurdles and twists throughout the book. We never know where someone else is in life.
Not only was there a caring and protective love story, this book had a great presentation of exposing and working through the lies of unworthiness we often tell ourselves when having experienced dark trauma. I also appreciated the author shedding light on what it means to work through traumas and the struggles of learning to truly value who we are as people despite our baggage. I loved how the FMC was vulnerable to another human who she cares about and allowed him really see her and help pick up her broken pieces. Her healing triggered his healing and that was so great!
My career allows me to work with survivors of similar experiences this FMC went through and so it really hit home for me. Her self-loathing, her fear of trusting again, the things she was unconsciously but intentionally depriving herself of because of seeing herself as undeserving really struck a chord… I see beautiful people living that life everyday and it breaks my heart. It was a great reminder for all of us… YOU are beautiful, YOU are special and there is only one YOU. YOU deserve perfect happiness despite an imperfect past.
Thank you, Sabrina Black for this beautiful story of love and self-healing. Can’t wait to read more.
January 21, 2026
In the very beginning I felt sympathy for the Main Character Rose. All of her insecurities and anxieties revolving around not only her prior relationships yet also horrible stuff in her past and her low self-worth. However, after a few chapters I started feeling SO ANGRY at her! I felt like telling her that life sucks for many people, to go get help and STOP moaning all the time! That many people go through horrible, horrible things in their lives yet work hard to come through it. To tell Rose to STOP second guessing herself and start the work towards life. It seemed as if every page was 2/3 Rose saying the same things over and over and 1/3 new content. Don’t get me wrong, I have sympathy for her yet hated the repetition.
Yet at one point partway through, after Rose gave the Main Male Character Rob a chance and started seeing him, she started to change. Change for the better, better in a way for her. As we learned more about Rose, and Rob himself, we learned that they are two people who had been through H#^^ and had not made it back yet.
This is a true to life love story. It is gritty and raw. Full of the ups, downs, and sideways actions that are realistic in so many ways. This book takes the reader through a variety of emotions- anger, fear, sadness, love, hate, and more. One feels what the characters are feeling. Even in the beginning when I was angry and wishing I could yell at Rose I was feeling her own anger at herself and my own anger as I have felt very similar so many times in my life.
Please read the tropes though. This book deals with many hard issues and will trigger intense feelings.
For me, this book receives 5 stars as it made me face many of my own insecurities yet at the end see how this amazing couple made a new life that works for THEM. That love exists in many different ways. What matters is that your relationship is healthy for both of you. This book gives us that hope. That love IS out there for everyone. Even those fighting their way back to life.
I received a free copy of this book as an ARC and am voluntarily leaving a review.
Yet at one point partway through, after Rose gave the Main Male Character Rob a chance and started seeing him, she started to change. Change for the better, better in a way for her. As we learned more about Rose, and Rob himself, we learned that they are two people who had been through H#^^ and had not made it back yet.
This is a true to life love story. It is gritty and raw. Full of the ups, downs, and sideways actions that are realistic in so many ways. This book takes the reader through a variety of emotions- anger, fear, sadness, love, hate, and more. One feels what the characters are feeling. Even in the beginning when I was angry and wishing I could yell at Rose I was feeling her own anger at herself and my own anger as I have felt very similar so many times in my life.
Please read the tropes though. This book deals with many hard issues and will trigger intense feelings.
For me, this book receives 5 stars as it made me face many of my own insecurities yet at the end see how this amazing couple made a new life that works for THEM. That love exists in many different ways. What matters is that your relationship is healthy for both of you. This book gives us that hope. That love IS out there for everyone. Even those fighting their way back to life.
I received a free copy of this book as an ARC and am voluntarily leaving a review.
December 2, 2025
This book was an emotional roller coaster. Traumas can shape a person and not in a good way. It takes courage to want to change for the better. Rose a beautiful young woman runs away to Austin TX where after multiple failed dates, she’s drugged by one of her dates. The co owner of the bar steps in and rescues her. From there on out this story focuses on Rob and Rose and the challenges they face. Along this journey of learning each others past and trying to better themselves for one another, doubts and trust and put on the line. Both Rose and Rob have a path of healing they embark on together for different reasons (both have past traumas) and thanks to Rob, Rose is able to overcome her fears.
The dual pov is always a great way to see inside both the main characters heads. It makes you question their motives and choices and why they are the way they are. I try not to post spoilers but if you have triggers for age gaps (25-45), date rape/rape, implied abuse/domestic violence, BDSM and heavier alcohol use/ eating disorder. You might not appreciate this book as much. No triggers? No problems! It was a quick read and I enjoyed the pace of the story development. It was a slow steady first half the second half was much suspenseful to the point I couldn’t put it down and when I did I kept thinking about what was going to happen next. The way the book was laid out I was worried with how the ending was going to turn out but I’m glad it went the way it did. There is a second book coming out that is a prequel to this one and focuses on Rob’s past and I’m looking forward to reading that as well. Keep in mind when reading the path that Rose chooses in order to heal her past may not be for you. Everyone has their own way they need/want help in their journey to healing their minds and souls.
The dual pov is always a great way to see inside both the main characters heads. It makes you question their motives and choices and why they are the way they are. I try not to post spoilers but if you have triggers for age gaps (25-45), date rape/rape, implied abuse/domestic violence, BDSM and heavier alcohol use/ eating disorder. You might not appreciate this book as much. No triggers? No problems! It was a quick read and I enjoyed the pace of the story development. It was a slow steady first half the second half was much suspenseful to the point I couldn’t put it down and when I did I kept thinking about what was going to happen next. The way the book was laid out I was worried with how the ending was going to turn out but I’m glad it went the way it did. There is a second book coming out that is a prequel to this one and focuses on Rob’s past and I’m looking forward to reading that as well. Keep in mind when reading the path that Rose chooses in order to heal her past may not be for you. Everyone has their own way they need/want help in their journey to healing their minds and souls.
December 4, 2025
4 stars and 3 peppers
**Please read the trigger warnings**
When I tell you that I have so many words AND no words at all I am I being 100% serious. The story was well written and you can tell that the author put her heart and soul into the writing. If you have been through trauma/ abuse as a man or woman then you are able to understand the characters on such a level that it almost seems like you are looking into a mirror…or at least that was me.
The FMC (Rose) is someone who has been burned by every single man that was in her life without fail. She felt undeserving of genuine love and care. She has never seen what it looks like and she doesn’t know what it supposed to feel like. She was assaulted and called names. She dreaded the thought of someone touching her (rightfully so). She moves around a lot to outrun her past until she lands in Austin, TX. The MMC (Rob) is not much better due to the fact that his mother was a junkie and he never met/ knew his father. He ended up getting out of situation but growing up in that space takes a toll on you even without your knowing. Rob was able to find love but his wife ends up passing and years later he finds Rose. Together they find solace in each other but then things start to pop and people from the past start to come in to try and tear them apart.
You can see the gradual shift from Romantic love story to thriller. Omg please read. I was at the edge of my seat and my interest was peaked from beginning to end. Also I feel the need to explain my spicy rating…while the sex ventured on a typical dom/sub BDSM relationship it was not overly graphic. Like you knew it happened and there was some light description but nothing crazy so that’s why I did 3 peppers. Sabrina…amazing. Thank you for coming to me Ted talk.
**Please read the trigger warnings**
When I tell you that I have so many words AND no words at all I am I being 100% serious. The story was well written and you can tell that the author put her heart and soul into the writing. If you have been through trauma/ abuse as a man or woman then you are able to understand the characters on such a level that it almost seems like you are looking into a mirror…or at least that was me.
The FMC (Rose) is someone who has been burned by every single man that was in her life without fail. She felt undeserving of genuine love and care. She has never seen what it looks like and she doesn’t know what it supposed to feel like. She was assaulted and called names. She dreaded the thought of someone touching her (rightfully so). She moves around a lot to outrun her past until she lands in Austin, TX. The MMC (Rob) is not much better due to the fact that his mother was a junkie and he never met/ knew his father. He ended up getting out of situation but growing up in that space takes a toll on you even without your knowing. Rob was able to find love but his wife ends up passing and years later he finds Rose. Together they find solace in each other but then things start to pop and people from the past start to come in to try and tear them apart.
You can see the gradual shift from Romantic love story to thriller. Omg please read. I was at the edge of my seat and my interest was peaked from beginning to end. Also I feel the need to explain my spicy rating…while the sex ventured on a typical dom/sub BDSM relationship it was not overly graphic. Like you knew it happened and there was some light description but nothing crazy so that’s why I did 3 peppers. Sabrina…amazing. Thank you for coming to me Ted talk.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
December 27, 2025
**Thank you to the author for kindly providing me with an ecopy of this book**
Free me From the Girl I Used to be follows the story of Rose and Rob. Rose, after moving to distance herself from a traumatic past and on the heels of a breakup, meets Rob—the co-worker of the local bar she begins to frequent. Rob is (seemingly) set-up to be the poignant love interest who (seemingly) swoops in to rewrite Rose’s apprehension in face of love and relationships. Though the more we find out about Rose and Rob, both as a couple and as characters with their own unique pasts, the further we venture from this being a love story to this being a story about one’s obsession with love.
This was truly a unique read for me that took me to surprisingly enjoyable places. The story lingered for me; the more I thought about it, the more I appreciated it. I found myself feeling incredibly close to our FMC Rose—she reminded me a lot of myself and felt very real. I was invested in her, rooting for her, and found myself wanting to continue to know how things were going to turn out for her.
Overall, I really enjoyed the dynamism and brutal approachability of this story. I’m excited to see the other stories this author writes and am definitely invested in reading the interconnected story that focuses on Rob which releases in 2026!
This book features:
✨ Dual POV
✨ Genre-Bending
✨ Age-Gap Relationship
✨ FMC on a journey of self-discovery and recovery
✨ An exploration of kink
You may like this book if you enjoy:
✨ Intimate/ journal-like narration
✨ Short reads under 300 pages
✨ Psychological thrillers with romance
✨ Are looking for books that have a similar atmosphere to stores like: My Dark Vanessa, The Silent Patient, Never Lie, The Boyfriend
3.75 ⭐️💫
Spice 🌶️🌶️
Dark Content ⚫️⚫️⚫️
Free me From the Girl I Used to be follows the story of Rose and Rob. Rose, after moving to distance herself from a traumatic past and on the heels of a breakup, meets Rob—the co-worker of the local bar she begins to frequent. Rob is (seemingly) set-up to be the poignant love interest who (seemingly) swoops in to rewrite Rose’s apprehension in face of love and relationships. Though the more we find out about Rose and Rob, both as a couple and as characters with their own unique pasts, the further we venture from this being a love story to this being a story about one’s obsession with love.
This was truly a unique read for me that took me to surprisingly enjoyable places. The story lingered for me; the more I thought about it, the more I appreciated it. I found myself feeling incredibly close to our FMC Rose—she reminded me a lot of myself and felt very real. I was invested in her, rooting for her, and found myself wanting to continue to know how things were going to turn out for her.
Overall, I really enjoyed the dynamism and brutal approachability of this story. I’m excited to see the other stories this author writes and am definitely invested in reading the interconnected story that focuses on Rob which releases in 2026!
This book features:
✨ Dual POV
✨ Genre-Bending
✨ Age-Gap Relationship
✨ FMC on a journey of self-discovery and recovery
✨ An exploration of kink
You may like this book if you enjoy:
✨ Intimate/ journal-like narration
✨ Short reads under 300 pages
✨ Psychological thrillers with romance
✨ Are looking for books that have a similar atmosphere to stores like: My Dark Vanessa, The Silent Patient, Never Lie, The Boyfriend
3.75 ⭐️💫
Spice 🌶️🌶️
Dark Content ⚫️⚫️⚫️
January 11, 2026
The first three pages will reel you in and grab your attention to find out more about what is going on. In this book, you will meet characters you will absolutely hate and a few that you feel bad for. This book will keep you on your toes with all the sexual and physical abuse. MAKE SURE YOU READ THE TRIGGER WARNINGS!!
I will admit that in around 40% of the book it finally started to get serious between the FMC(Rose) and the MMC(Rob) and she finally gets to experience his "playroom". This is also where you need to be aware of all the abuse she will go through at the hands of Rob even though she thinks he does it out of love for her. I really disliked these scenes
I had so many hopes and dreams that Rob wasn't like the others before him but like other men in his book, he disappointed me big time.
Some of the scenes I read made my anxiety go crazy. I wasn't expecting her to want punishment and to want to be hurt by him. Then for her to call it love... I should have since she explained she was damaged in the first half of the book but damn that was gutwrenching.
It's heartbreaking to read that he uses her trauma against her. He knows she has abandonment issues and he plays it against her just because she won't do what he is telling her to do.
There is a surprise right before the end of the book that will take your breath away when you find out what really happens.
All in all, this was an amazing book to read... I give this book 4 stars.
Before you read this book check the TW!!
I will admit that in around 40% of the book it finally started to get serious between the FMC(Rose) and the MMC(Rob) and she finally gets to experience his "playroom". This is also where you need to be aware of all the abuse she will go through at the hands of Rob even though she thinks he does it out of love for her. I really disliked these scenes
I had so many hopes and dreams that Rob wasn't like the others before him but like other men in his book, he disappointed me big time.
Some of the scenes I read made my anxiety go crazy. I wasn't expecting her to want punishment and to want to be hurt by him. Then for her to call it love... I should have since she explained she was damaged in the first half of the book but damn that was gutwrenching.
It's heartbreaking to read that he uses her trauma against her. He knows she has abandonment issues and he plays it against her just because she won't do what he is telling her to do.
There is a surprise right before the end of the book that will take your breath away when you find out what really happens.
All in all, this was an amazing book to read... I give this book 4 stars.
Before you read this book check the TW!!
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
December 20, 2025
First book I’ve read from this author and… I loved it. This was an age gap romance that I wasn’t sure I was going to enjoy but it came together perfectly. The twists and turns, the trauma on both sides.. I was hooked.
Rose, the broken girl jumping from state to state to find herself ends up finding much more than she anticipated both in good and bad ways. Rob, the hot “daddy” figure that came into her life and gave her the structure and love she desperately needed. Neither of them had happy backgrounds. In fact, they both were came from chaotic backgrounds. Rose with her daddy wound, Rob with his mommy wounds… finding comfort in one another’s darkness.
Without giving away too much, I felt for Rose. I’ve felt for her wounds, her pain.. her desire to love unconditionally even if it hurt. That resonated with me heavily to the point where I even messaged the author to tell her I was crying about it haha. Rob I wasn’t sure about and there were several moments where I thought “omg is this guy going to make her the next Amelia?” but he understood what she needed. Even if it’s outside of what would be considered conventional or normal to a “regular” or non-traumatized mind.
Rob’s retelling of what happened to Amelia… ugh my heart. I don’t think he was wrong for what he did. He protected her memory and I fully support that. I’m glad Rob & Rose got their HEA and I can’t wait to read the next book.
Rose, the broken girl jumping from state to state to find herself ends up finding much more than she anticipated both in good and bad ways. Rob, the hot “daddy” figure that came into her life and gave her the structure and love she desperately needed. Neither of them had happy backgrounds. In fact, they both were came from chaotic backgrounds. Rose with her daddy wound, Rob with his mommy wounds… finding comfort in one another’s darkness.
Without giving away too much, I felt for Rose. I’ve felt for her wounds, her pain.. her desire to love unconditionally even if it hurt. That resonated with me heavily to the point where I even messaged the author to tell her I was crying about it haha. Rob I wasn’t sure about and there were several moments where I thought “omg is this guy going to make her the next Amelia?” but he understood what she needed. Even if it’s outside of what would be considered conventional or normal to a “regular” or non-traumatized mind.
Rob’s retelling of what happened to Amelia… ugh my heart. I don’t think he was wrong for what he did. He protected her memory and I fully support that. I’m glad Rob & Rose got their HEA and I can’t wait to read the next book.
December 5, 2025
📚 Free Me From the Girl I Used to Be by Sabrina Black
⭐ 4.2/5 — Dark. Twisted. Addictive.
This is a dark psychological thriller/romance, so definitely check your triggers before diving in. The writing? Phenomenal. This story hit a very particular spot for me — gripping from start to finish and constantly making you question everything.
Both the MMC and FMC are deeply damaged, shaped by traumatic pasts that give the story so much depth. Rose is such a complicated FMC — you’ll want to shake her half the time as she spirals into bad decision after bad decision, but her self-awareness and resilience make her impossible not to love. And Rob… well, he’s an entire puzzle on his own. Love him? Hate him? Run from him? Your choice.
We’ve also got a 20-year age gap, so if that’s not your vibe, fair warning. And yes, there’s daddy kink — not personally my thing, but if it’s yours, you’ll eat this up.
I’m giving this one a solid 4.2 for its incredible writing, layered characters, and the intricate storyline that kept me hooked. And of course… I need the next book immediately. Manifesting this as one of my future ARC reads 🙏📖
For all my dark, psychological, unhinged-MMC girlies — if you’re craving an obsessive man, heavy past trauma, healing, chaos, and trying to find your place in this “f*cked-up thing” called life and love… this needs to be on your TBR. Highly recommend.
⭐ 4.2/5 — Dark. Twisted. Addictive.
This is a dark psychological thriller/romance, so definitely check your triggers before diving in. The writing? Phenomenal. This story hit a very particular spot for me — gripping from start to finish and constantly making you question everything.
Both the MMC and FMC are deeply damaged, shaped by traumatic pasts that give the story so much depth. Rose is such a complicated FMC — you’ll want to shake her half the time as she spirals into bad decision after bad decision, but her self-awareness and resilience make her impossible not to love. And Rob… well, he’s an entire puzzle on his own. Love him? Hate him? Run from him? Your choice.
We’ve also got a 20-year age gap, so if that’s not your vibe, fair warning. And yes, there’s daddy kink — not personally my thing, but if it’s yours, you’ll eat this up.
I’m giving this one a solid 4.2 for its incredible writing, layered characters, and the intricate storyline that kept me hooked. And of course… I need the next book immediately. Manifesting this as one of my future ARC reads 🙏📖
For all my dark, psychological, unhinged-MMC girlies — if you’re craving an obsessive man, heavy past trauma, healing, chaos, and trying to find your place in this “f*cked-up thing” called life and love… this needs to be on your TBR. Highly recommend.
December 8, 2025
This book delves deeply into scenes of trauma-please read the trigger warnings carefully. It contains depictions of rape, attempted assault, physical and mental abuse, gaslighting, manipulation, drugging, murder, suicidal ideation, and age gap relationships.
Sabrina Black offers a raw, unflitching portrayal of experiences that, while rarely spoken about are all too real for many. The way she brings her characters to life-their pain, their resilience, and the painstaking journey toward reclaiming their lives-is both heartbreaking and breathtaking.
Told primarily from Rose's perspective, with occasional insights from Rob, the story follows Rose as she leaves North Carolina to New York, where tragedy strikes. Seeking a fresh start, She relocates to Austin, determined to rebuild and to believe in love again. What begins as a romance with a bar owner soon reveals deeper complexities, while she discovers he is, in fact, a billionaire tech mogul.
The novel's first half carefully develops its characters and explores how love cann blossom for those brave enough to embrace it after trauma. The pace quickens in the second half becoming a true page-turner as secrets emerge and the past resurfaces, prompting the reader to question everything they thought they knew.
I am eagerly anticipating this sequel, Beautiful Lies, set for release in 2026.
Sabrina Black offers a raw, unflitching portrayal of experiences that, while rarely spoken about are all too real for many. The way she brings her characters to life-their pain, their resilience, and the painstaking journey toward reclaiming their lives-is both heartbreaking and breathtaking.
Told primarily from Rose's perspective, with occasional insights from Rob, the story follows Rose as she leaves North Carolina to New York, where tragedy strikes. Seeking a fresh start, She relocates to Austin, determined to rebuild and to believe in love again. What begins as a romance with a bar owner soon reveals deeper complexities, while she discovers he is, in fact, a billionaire tech mogul.
The novel's first half carefully develops its characters and explores how love cann blossom for those brave enough to embrace it after trauma. The pace quickens in the second half becoming a true page-turner as secrets emerge and the past resurfaces, prompting the reader to question everything they thought they knew.
I am eagerly anticipating this sequel, Beautiful Lies, set for release in 2026.
January 19, 2026
Free Me From the Girl I Used to Be by Sabrina Black is raw, aching, and deeply healing in the quietest way possible.
This book feels less like something you read and more like something you confess alongside. Every page carries the weight of growth, grief, self-reflection, and the painful beauty of becoming someone new. Sabrina Black’s writing is vulnerable without being performative—honest without being preachy. It captures the internal battles we don’t always have words for: outgrowing versions of ourselves, releasing old pain, and learning how to choose peace over familiarity.
What really hit me was how seen this book made me feel. It speaks to anyone who has had to unlearn survival mode, rewrite their story, or grieve the person they once were just to move forward. The prose is simple yet powerful, emotional but grounding. You’ll want to underline passages, reread lines, and sit with certain pages long after you’ve closed the book.
This is a book for healing seasons. For quiet nights. For people who are doing the work, even when it hurts.
Highly recommend. Absolutely a 5/5. 💔✨
If you’re ready to let go of who you were to make room for who you’re becoming—this book will hold your hand through it.
This book feels less like something you read and more like something you confess alongside. Every page carries the weight of growth, grief, self-reflection, and the painful beauty of becoming someone new. Sabrina Black’s writing is vulnerable without being performative—honest without being preachy. It captures the internal battles we don’t always have words for: outgrowing versions of ourselves, releasing old pain, and learning how to choose peace over familiarity.
What really hit me was how seen this book made me feel. It speaks to anyone who has had to unlearn survival mode, rewrite their story, or grieve the person they once were just to move forward. The prose is simple yet powerful, emotional but grounding. You’ll want to underline passages, reread lines, and sit with certain pages long after you’ve closed the book.
This is a book for healing seasons. For quiet nights. For people who are doing the work, even when it hurts.
Highly recommend. Absolutely a 5/5. 💔✨
If you’re ready to let go of who you were to make room for who you’re becoming—this book will hold your hand through it.
February 2, 2026
Free Me From The Girl I Used To Be by Sabrina Black
The author reached out to me on TikTok to read and honestly review this book, and I appreciate the opportunity to discover a newer voice in this genre.
Free Me From The Girl I Used To Be is a dark psychological thriller-romance following Rose Parker as she moves to Austin to escape a traumatic past in NYC. As she begins a relationship with a tech founder, the story explores control, power dynamics, and emotionally complex relationships. The author describes it as Gone Girl meets Fifty Shades of Grey, which sets the tone well.
The pacing starts slower but helps establish Rose’s character and the emotional weight she carries. As the story unfolds, unexpected twists kept me engaged—especially with the introduction of Rob, a morally complex MMC whose dark past adds depth to the narrative.
This book includes an age gap and heavy themes, so reader discretion is advised. While this genre isn’t usually my go-to, I appreciated the ambition of the story and the psychological elements throughout. Some questions remain unanswered, but with a second book planned, I’m interested to see where the story goes next.
4 - stars for a strong concept, intriguing twists, and an engaging read.
The author reached out to me on TikTok to read and honestly review this book, and I appreciate the opportunity to discover a newer voice in this genre.
Free Me From The Girl I Used To Be is a dark psychological thriller-romance following Rose Parker as she moves to Austin to escape a traumatic past in NYC. As she begins a relationship with a tech founder, the story explores control, power dynamics, and emotionally complex relationships. The author describes it as Gone Girl meets Fifty Shades of Grey, which sets the tone well.
The pacing starts slower but helps establish Rose’s character and the emotional weight she carries. As the story unfolds, unexpected twists kept me engaged—especially with the introduction of Rob, a morally complex MMC whose dark past adds depth to the narrative.
This book includes an age gap and heavy themes, so reader discretion is advised. While this genre isn’t usually my go-to, I appreciated the ambition of the story and the psychological elements throughout. Some questions remain unanswered, but with a second book planned, I’m interested to see where the story goes next.
4 - stars for a strong concept, intriguing twists, and an engaging read.
January 1, 2026
This is a contemporary dark romance-thriller novel by Sabrina Black, this is my first time reading Santana books. I would say I will definitely be reading more by her, and here’s why!
Rose’s life isn’t great by a long shot, she has to leave her now ex before it gets even more toxic. She goes to Texas to start over, find stability and put herself first. Well that’s until she meets Robert Alexander!!
Robert has everything Rose wants, but what she doesn’t know is he has many layers (think peeling an onion) to his life and personality!! Now I don’t want to give away anything…but let’s just say things are not what they seem!
Starting with mysterious death of his ‘dead wife??’🙄 Then you have an investigator finding clues, I think that would make Rose feel uneasy!! But Rose has to confront with what Robert could have done, and also is she able she to trust him?? Well would you?
Not only that, Rose has to start complying with Robert’s rules and boundaries! Is she really wanting to do that. After all, she moved away from her toxic ex for a reason!!
If you want to read something that will having you guessing and questioning everything…this is your book! 💯recommend!!!
Rose’s life isn’t great by a long shot, she has to leave her now ex before it gets even more toxic. She goes to Texas to start over, find stability and put herself first. Well that’s until she meets Robert Alexander!!
Robert has everything Rose wants, but what she doesn’t know is he has many layers (think peeling an onion) to his life and personality!! Now I don’t want to give away anything…but let’s just say things are not what they seem!
Starting with mysterious death of his ‘dead wife??’🙄 Then you have an investigator finding clues, I think that would make Rose feel uneasy!! But Rose has to confront with what Robert could have done, and also is she able she to trust him?? Well would you?
Not only that, Rose has to start complying with Robert’s rules and boundaries! Is she really wanting to do that. After all, she moved away from her toxic ex for a reason!!
If you want to read something that will having you guessing and questioning everything…this is your book! 💯recommend!!!
December 8, 2025
I received this book as an ARC!
This book is written almost like a letter from Rose to Rob detailing their story.
Rose is haunted by her past traumas, and is written so well in all her “broken” glory. The depth that is portrayed with her insecurities and troubled past put me in her shoes in a way that made me beautifully uncomfortable. Rose’s character opens the door to conversations that people don’t normally have, forcing us to come face to face with a reality that we don’t like to acknowledge.
Rob is a complex character, in the best way. Trying to figure him out throughout the book is like a side quest while you’re on this wild journey between Rose and Rob. His devotion borders on obsession, and that fluctuates between a great thing and concerning through the book.
It’s a wild ride from start to finish.
The background given in the beginning can make you think it’s slow, but it’s so necessary! You’ll be so grateful by the second half for all of the information.
A great read, and one I think everyone can gain some perspective from.
This book is written almost like a letter from Rose to Rob detailing their story.
Rose is haunted by her past traumas, and is written so well in all her “broken” glory. The depth that is portrayed with her insecurities and troubled past put me in her shoes in a way that made me beautifully uncomfortable. Rose’s character opens the door to conversations that people don’t normally have, forcing us to come face to face with a reality that we don’t like to acknowledge.
Rob is a complex character, in the best way. Trying to figure him out throughout the book is like a side quest while you’re on this wild journey between Rose and Rob. His devotion borders on obsession, and that fluctuates between a great thing and concerning through the book.
It’s a wild ride from start to finish.
The background given in the beginning can make you think it’s slow, but it’s so necessary! You’ll be so grateful by the second half for all of the information.
A great read, and one I think everyone can gain some perspective from.
December 8, 2025
Sabrina Black’s Free Me From the Girl I Used to Be is a dark, emotionally complex exploration of trauma, love, and toxic attachment. Written predominantly from Rose’s viewpoint, it feels as though she is speaking directly to Rob, her unlikely hero—or perhaps her captor.
Rose is a young woman broken by her past: underweight to please men, haunted by “daddy issues,” and convinced that pain is the price of love. Rob, twenty years older, rescues her from danger but quickly reveals his own scars—abuse, grief, and a need for control. Together, they form a co-dependent bond that is both destructive and strangely functional.
This is not a spicy romance. While intimacy is acknowledged, the focus is on the psychological push-and-pull between two damaged people. The book is heavy with triggers and unflinching in its portrayal of toxic love, yet it’s compelling in its honesty. It challenges the reader to question what love means when self-worth is fractured.
I found myself unsettled yet deeply engaged, and I’m eager to see Rob and Amelia's story in book two.
Rose is a young woman broken by her past: underweight to please men, haunted by “daddy issues,” and convinced that pain is the price of love. Rob, twenty years older, rescues her from danger but quickly reveals his own scars—abuse, grief, and a need for control. Together, they form a co-dependent bond that is both destructive and strangely functional.
This is not a spicy romance. While intimacy is acknowledged, the focus is on the psychological push-and-pull between two damaged people. The book is heavy with triggers and unflinching in its portrayal of toxic love, yet it’s compelling in its honesty. It challenges the reader to question what love means when self-worth is fractured.
I found myself unsettled yet deeply engaged, and I’m eager to see Rob and Amelia's story in book two.
December 9, 2025
Free Me From the Girl I Used to Be is one of those books that grabs you eventually and refuses to let go. It does start off a bit slow, but only so you can really understand the background of each character. Once that foundation is set, the story takes off and keeps you on your feet the whole way through.
Some moments hit incredibly close to home, which made me even more invested in the characters’ journeys. The way the author captures certain emotions feels so personal, almost like you’re reading pieces of her own experiences. That authenticity gives the story a depth that sticks with you.
The writing is beautiful and well-crafted, and it has you falling in and out of love with the characters as they grow, stumble, and reveal more of themselves. Even when you’re frustrated with them, you’re still hooked.
It’s worth noting that the book does include some triggers, so readers should be mindful going in. But overall, it’s a heartfelt, compelling read that lingers long after you finish it.
Some moments hit incredibly close to home, which made me even more invested in the characters’ journeys. The way the author captures certain emotions feels so personal, almost like you’re reading pieces of her own experiences. That authenticity gives the story a depth that sticks with you.
The writing is beautiful and well-crafted, and it has you falling in and out of love with the characters as they grow, stumble, and reveal more of themselves. Even when you’re frustrated with them, you’re still hooked.
It’s worth noting that the book does include some triggers, so readers should be mindful going in. But overall, it’s a heartfelt, compelling read that lingers long after you finish it.
November 17, 2025
I was lucky enough to get an advance copy of this book and I loved it! The first half of the book, you really get to know Rose and Rob and how their love story starts to unfold. You’ll see firsthand how prior trauma can directly impact someone’s ability to trust in a partner again.
I would say the first part is still very fun to read but definitely moves at a slightly slower pace compared to the second half of the book which I don’t think is a bad thing because this really adds to the character development.
But then BAM!, the second part of the book is in true thriller fashion where little things from the past start showing their ugly face and making you question everything. Even now that I’m done with the book, I’m still not sure what I can believe to be true and if I can really trust in what I’ve been told.
There will be a sequel to this book and I’m very much looking forward to reading it and seeing where this story goes!
I would say the first part is still very fun to read but definitely moves at a slightly slower pace compared to the second half of the book which I don’t think is a bad thing because this really adds to the character development.
But then BAM!, the second part of the book is in true thriller fashion where little things from the past start showing their ugly face and making you question everything. Even now that I’m done with the book, I’m still not sure what I can believe to be true and if I can really trust in what I’ve been told.
There will be a sequel to this book and I’m very much looking forward to reading it and seeing where this story goes!
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