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Free Me From The Girl I Used To Be
Rose Parker’s life in New York City is over with and dead. She fled the city looking to leave her life behind, including a toxic ex and an assault that she pledges never to remember.
Moving to Austin, Texas is supposed to be her new start, far away from her mistakes of the past. That’s where she meets Robert Alexander, a devilishly handsome man 20 years her senior.
While at first Rose has no idea he's a founder of one of the most successful tech companies in America, Rose is intrigued, and she falls fast. However, as the weeks pass, Rose realizes their love story is not without conditions, and she will have to risk losing herself to submit to his rules.
Rose tells herself that love isn’t supposed to look like this. But Rob makes it easy to forget. Until his past begins to come back to haunt him.
Perhaps Rob's long lost love, the wife he said was murdered in his home, was not actually taken away from him by her alleged killer. After an investigator finds Rose, she must face the facts and decide if she can ever truly trust a man again...and what exactly Rob did to his ex wife. Is it a far cry from what he would do to Rose?
FREE ME FROM THE GIRL I USED TO BE is an 84,000-word romance turned thriller that will appeal to fans of E.L. James’ Fifty Shades of Grey and Gillian Flynn's Gone Girl.
Moving to Austin, Texas is supposed to be her new start, far away from her mistakes of the past. That’s where she meets Robert Alexander, a devilishly handsome man 20 years her senior.
While at first Rose has no idea he's a founder of one of the most successful tech companies in America, Rose is intrigued, and she falls fast. However, as the weeks pass, Rose realizes their love story is not without conditions, and she will have to risk losing herself to submit to his rules.
Rose tells herself that love isn’t supposed to look like this. But Rob makes it easy to forget. Until his past begins to come back to haunt him.
Perhaps Rob's long lost love, the wife he said was murdered in his home, was not actually taken away from him by her alleged killer. After an investigator finds Rose, she must face the facts and decide if she can ever truly trust a man again...and what exactly Rob did to his ex wife. Is it a far cry from what he would do to Rose?
FREE ME FROM THE GIRL I USED TO BE is an 84,000-word romance turned thriller that will appeal to fans of E.L. James’ Fifty Shades of Grey and Gillian Flynn's Gone Girl.
- GenresDark Romance
242 pages, Kindle Edition
Published November 21, 2025
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Sabrina Black
4 books43 followersSabrina Black is an Austin-based author of dark romance and psychological thrillers. She is the creator of the gripping series that begins with Free Me From the Girl I Used to Be, followed by A Beautiful Lie and Guilty as Sin.
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December 28, 2025
I was blessed with the opportunity to be an ARC reader and wow!
Please know just about every tigger you can think of will pop up in this book! I love that Rose is writing a letter to Rob, however I wish there was one more chapter where it says what she is doing with the letter.
I think a lot of women can relate to some or all of this very well written story. So many of hide our insecurities and trauma from childhood and the way this story line plays out gives you hope that there is someone for all of us that will listen and give a poop. I have preordered book 2 already and can’t wait to read it!
It does give a 50 shades vibe but not deep dive it takes it a different way and I love that!
Please know just about every tigger you can think of will pop up in this book! I love that Rose is writing a letter to Rob, however I wish there was one more chapter where it says what she is doing with the letter.
I think a lot of women can relate to some or all of this very well written story. So many of hide our insecurities and trauma from childhood and the way this story line plays out gives you hope that there is someone for all of us that will listen and give a poop. I have preordered book 2 already and can’t wait to read it!
It does give a 50 shades vibe but not deep dive it takes it a different way and I love that!
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
January 15, 2026
DNFing this… I really really struggled to start this book and keep reading it, the author was kind enough to send it to me and i really appreciate it.
The thing is, I couldn’t follow and keep up with the writing style. The age gape usually doesn’t bother me when reading a book but in this one it really did, the SA was not something to just read it and move on, i really got disgusted by it. I felt sad and pitied Rose for what happened to her but I didn’t really enjoy the book.
The thing is, I couldn’t follow and keep up with the writing style. The age gape usually doesn’t bother me when reading a book but in this one it really did, the SA was not something to just read it and move on, i really got disgusted by it. I felt sad and pitied Rose for what happened to her but I didn’t really enjoy the book.
February 25, 2026
« 𝙋𝙚𝙤𝙥𝙡𝙚 𝙬𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙨𝙖𝙮 𝙞𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙚𝙣𝙙, 𝙣𝙤 𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙘𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙨 𝙩𝙤 𝙨𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪. 𝙏𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙟𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙩𝙤 𝙨𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧𝙨𝙚𝙡𝙛. 𝙏𝙝𝙚𝙮’𝙧𝙚 𝙤𝙣𝙡𝙮 𝙝𝙖𝙡𝙛 𝙧𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝. 𝘽𝙚𝙘𝙖𝙪𝙨𝙚 𝙝𝙤𝙬 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙬𝙚 𝙨𝙪𝙥𝙥𝙤𝙨𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙗𝙚𝙡𝙞𝙚𝙫𝙚 𝙞𝙣 𝙨𝙚𝙡𝙛 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙨𝙚𝙚𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙞𝙩 𝙧𝙚𝙛𝙡𝙚𝙘𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙗𝙖𝙘𝙠 𝙖𝙩 𝙪𝙨.ᐣ 𝙃𝙤𝙬 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙬𝙚 𝙨𝙪𝙥𝙥𝙤𝙨𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙛𝙖𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙢 𝙨𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙬𝙚’𝙫𝙚 𝙣𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙨𝙚𝙚𝙣 𝙚𝙭𝙞𝙨𝙩.ᐣ »
Before anything else, please read the trigger warnings. This story deals with eating disorders, childhood trauma, emotional abuse, and heavy mental health themes, and I truly think it’s necessary to be in the right headspace before starting it. It had been quite a while since I last picked up a dark romance, and I wasn’t sure what to expect going in, but this one ended up being a much more intense and personal reading experience than I anticipated.
One of the first things I struggled with was the plot itself. There is a lot happening at once, and I often found myself unsure of what the main storyline was supposed to be. At times I was deeply invested in the relationship between Rose and Rob, and at others I felt pulled toward the mystery surrounding Amelie, unsure which thread was meant to anchor the book. That slight confusion made the narrative feel scattered in places, yet somehow it also added to its intrigue. Even when I felt disoriented, I was still engaged. The emotional weight of the themes kept me turning the pages.
Rose is, without question, the strongest element of this novel. She is complicated in a way that feels painfully real. Her struggles with food, body image, insecurity, and unresolved family trauma are written with a vulnerability that makes her hard not to empathize with. There are moments where you see how deeply she is hurting, how much of herself she hides, and it becomes impossible not to recognize parts of that pain. I think many women will relate to some aspect of her story: the quiet calorie counting, the fixation on perceived flaws, the lingering wounds from childhood that shape adult relationships. And despite everything, Rose is incredibly strong. Not in a loud, dramatic way, but in the quiet persistence of someone who keeps surviving herself.
Rob, on the other hand, was much harder for me to connect with. There were moments where he came across as charming and attentive, but other times he felt controlling, manipulative, and even uncomfortable. I understand that his character is meant to be complex and somewhat mysterious, and by the end there is context that explains some of his behavior, but emotionally I never fully settled into him. He felt distant, sometimes even hollow, and that made the central romance harder for me to completely believe in. The secondary characters, unfortunately, felt more like narrative devices than fully developed individuals; at times it seemed like they existed primarily to push the plot forward rather than to stand on their own.
What stayed with me most, though, was not the romance but the raw exploration of insecurity and trauma. The book doesn’t only focus on Rose’s eating disorder; it digs into the deeper roots of her self-worth, her need for control, and the way family dynamics can quietly shape the way we see ourselves. There is something painfully honest about watching her try to reconcile the girl she used to be with the woman she is trying to become. The story feels messy because healing is messy. It feels confusing because trauma often is. And in that sense, the book succeeds in capturing something very real.
Overall, this is not a light or easy read, but it is a brave one. It’s imperfect, sometimes chaotic, and emotionally heavy, yet it lingers. Rose lingers. And even when I questioned parts of the structure or certain character dynamics, I couldn’t deny that the story left an impression on me long after I turned the final page.
Before anything else, please read the trigger warnings. This story deals with eating disorders, childhood trauma, emotional abuse, and heavy mental health themes, and I truly think it’s necessary to be in the right headspace before starting it. It had been quite a while since I last picked up a dark romance, and I wasn’t sure what to expect going in, but this one ended up being a much more intense and personal reading experience than I anticipated.
One of the first things I struggled with was the plot itself. There is a lot happening at once, and I often found myself unsure of what the main storyline was supposed to be. At times I was deeply invested in the relationship between Rose and Rob, and at others I felt pulled toward the mystery surrounding Amelie, unsure which thread was meant to anchor the book. That slight confusion made the narrative feel scattered in places, yet somehow it also added to its intrigue. Even when I felt disoriented, I was still engaged. The emotional weight of the themes kept me turning the pages.
Rose is, without question, the strongest element of this novel. She is complicated in a way that feels painfully real. Her struggles with food, body image, insecurity, and unresolved family trauma are written with a vulnerability that makes her hard not to empathize with. There are moments where you see how deeply she is hurting, how much of herself she hides, and it becomes impossible not to recognize parts of that pain. I think many women will relate to some aspect of her story: the quiet calorie counting, the fixation on perceived flaws, the lingering wounds from childhood that shape adult relationships. And despite everything, Rose is incredibly strong. Not in a loud, dramatic way, but in the quiet persistence of someone who keeps surviving herself.
Rob, on the other hand, was much harder for me to connect with. There were moments where he came across as charming and attentive, but other times he felt controlling, manipulative, and even uncomfortable. I understand that his character is meant to be complex and somewhat mysterious, and by the end there is context that explains some of his behavior, but emotionally I never fully settled into him. He felt distant, sometimes even hollow, and that made the central romance harder for me to completely believe in. The secondary characters, unfortunately, felt more like narrative devices than fully developed individuals; at times it seemed like they existed primarily to push the plot forward rather than to stand on their own.
What stayed with me most, though, was not the romance but the raw exploration of insecurity and trauma. The book doesn’t only focus on Rose’s eating disorder; it digs into the deeper roots of her self-worth, her need for control, and the way family dynamics can quietly shape the way we see ourselves. There is something painfully honest about watching her try to reconcile the girl she used to be with the woman she is trying to become. The story feels messy because healing is messy. It feels confusing because trauma often is. And in that sense, the book succeeds in capturing something very real.
Overall, this is not a light or easy read, but it is a brave one. It’s imperfect, sometimes chaotic, and emotionally heavy, yet it lingers. Rose lingers. And even when I questioned parts of the structure or certain character dynamics, I couldn’t deny that the story left an impression on me long after I turned the final page.
December 13, 2025
This was a really good book. It’s got dark themes also so if you got triggers, check those before you start. There’s child abuse, sexual assault, etc.
It’s starts very slow. It’s takes a bit to get into but the beginning is like learning the past of the FMC and MMC and getting to know them as a character. It’s definitely needed so prepare for that going in.
Overall, I enjoyed it. I was on the Threads app and asked for book recommendations and the author commented so that’s why I picked it up.
Also, you’re left with a lot of unanswered questions, but from seeing the authors IG, she mentioned a second book coming in February that will resolve those.
It’s starts very slow. It’s takes a bit to get into but the beginning is like learning the past of the FMC and MMC and getting to know them as a character. It’s definitely needed so prepare for that going in.
Overall, I enjoyed it. I was on the Threads app and asked for book recommendations and the author commented so that’s why I picked it up.
Also, you’re left with a lot of unanswered questions, but from seeing the authors IG, she mentioned a second book coming in February that will resolve those.
February 14, 2026
I was pleasantly surprised by this one! I actually really liked the writing style and I absolutely adored Rose! I related and sympathized with her so much. I was so invested in her story!
my main issue was with Rob. I don't know how to feel about him lol on one hand he's very charming and kind, but he came across as super controlling and manipulative. Sure, I understood his reasoning by the very end of the book but Idk. He needs some therapy.
I also didn't like how he referred to Rose as "my little girl" lol wasn't a fan of that nickname
my main issue was with Rob. I don't know how to feel about him lol on one hand he's very charming and kind, but he came across as super controlling and manipulative. Sure, I understood his reasoning by the very end of the book but Idk. He needs some therapy.
I also didn't like how he referred to Rose as "my little girl" lol wasn't a fan of that nickname
April 24, 2026
First and foremost please read trigger warnings. This book contains heavy traumatic themes, I.e. childhood trauma, rape, domestic abuse, eating disorder, and mental health struggles.
I was invested in the characters and the relationship that was evolving. Rob the main male character seemed quite manipulative at times and once the mystery with Amelie came about, I expected it go down a different path. The trauma, self confidence and internal monologue of Rose all seemed to come from a very personal place. Don’t know if that’s the case and none of my business. Some things I think a lot of women can relate to which is why I was invested in these characters.
I’m a huge fan of the age gap but not so much of the manipulation aspect and what occurs to “make Rose feel wanted and loved.”
I was able to get an ARC of book three in this series and felt I needed to get the full scope of the characters before being able to give an honest review of three. On to book two. By the titles of two and three, I’m terrified of where this is going to go.
I was invested in the characters and the relationship that was evolving. Rob the main male character seemed quite manipulative at times and once the mystery with Amelie came about, I expected it go down a different path. The trauma, self confidence and internal monologue of Rose all seemed to come from a very personal place. Don’t know if that’s the case and none of my business. Some things I think a lot of women can relate to which is why I was invested in these characters.
I’m a huge fan of the age gap but not so much of the manipulation aspect and what occurs to “make Rose feel wanted and loved.”
I was able to get an ARC of book three in this series and felt I needed to get the full scope of the characters before being able to give an honest review of three. On to book two. By the titles of two and three, I’m terrified of where this is going to go.
December 5, 2025
This book starts off painfully slow however it’s necessary to understand Rose and her background…. The way Rob was written I just knew I would love him……..WRONG!!!!! The manipulation and abuse was WILD!! And not in a good way, the best part/ strongest plot was with like 100 pages left
January 26, 2026
**ARC review**
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️½ | Dark Romance / Psychological Thriller
Free Me From the Girl I Used to Be completely caught me off guard — in the best way.
The story follows Rose, a woman fleeing a deeply traumatic past and trying to rebuild herself from the ground up. From the opening chapters, her trust issues aren’t just implied — they actively shape every decision she makes. When she relocates to Texas and meets Rob at a local bar, their connection unfolds slowly and deliberately, with Rose setting firm emotional and physical boundaries.
Rob is twenty years her senior, recently widowed, and immediately framed as a protector — a role Rose instinctively clings to. What stood out to me is that Rose isn’t reckless. She questions the age gap, resists the pull, and makes him earn every inch of trust. When their relationship finally turns romantic, it feels almost fairy-tale adjacent: extravagant dates, immense wealth, and the unmistakable reveal that Rob is a powerful tech mogul living an obscenely luxurious life.
But once Rose finally feels safe enough to surrender control, the story takes a sharp and unsettling turn.
What begins as intimacy quickly expands into total submission — not just sexually, but psychologically and emotionally. Rob’s need for control bleeds into every aspect of Rose’s life, and the dynamic becomes increasingly disturbing as she’s asked to give up agency in ways she never anticipated. The mystery surrounding Rob’s past — particularly the circumstances of his late wife Amelia — deepens the tension and keeps the reader questioning what’s real, what’s earned, and what’s being carefully engineered.
One of the strongest elements of this book is the dual POV, especially the way Sabrina Black writes internal thought processes. You’re not just switching perspectives — you’re dropped directly into each character’s mind. Conversations are layered with intention, manipulation, fear, and desire, and understanding what a character is thinking versus what they’re saying adds an incredible psychological depth to the story.
This was my first book by Sabrina Black, and I was genuinely impressed. The romance-to-thriller shift is bold, the power dynamics are uncomfortable in an intentional way, and the execution feels deliberate rather than gratuitous. It’s dark, twisty, and surprisingly thoughtful — a book that stays with you long after you finish it.
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️½ | Dark Romance / Psychological Thriller
Free Me From the Girl I Used to Be completely caught me off guard — in the best way.
The story follows Rose, a woman fleeing a deeply traumatic past and trying to rebuild herself from the ground up. From the opening chapters, her trust issues aren’t just implied — they actively shape every decision she makes. When she relocates to Texas and meets Rob at a local bar, their connection unfolds slowly and deliberately, with Rose setting firm emotional and physical boundaries.
Rob is twenty years her senior, recently widowed, and immediately framed as a protector — a role Rose instinctively clings to. What stood out to me is that Rose isn’t reckless. She questions the age gap, resists the pull, and makes him earn every inch of trust. When their relationship finally turns romantic, it feels almost fairy-tale adjacent: extravagant dates, immense wealth, and the unmistakable reveal that Rob is a powerful tech mogul living an obscenely luxurious life.
But once Rose finally feels safe enough to surrender control, the story takes a sharp and unsettling turn.
What begins as intimacy quickly expands into total submission — not just sexually, but psychologically and emotionally. Rob’s need for control bleeds into every aspect of Rose’s life, and the dynamic becomes increasingly disturbing as she’s asked to give up agency in ways she never anticipated. The mystery surrounding Rob’s past — particularly the circumstances of his late wife Amelia — deepens the tension and keeps the reader questioning what’s real, what’s earned, and what’s being carefully engineered.
One of the strongest elements of this book is the dual POV, especially the way Sabrina Black writes internal thought processes. You’re not just switching perspectives — you’re dropped directly into each character’s mind. Conversations are layered with intention, manipulation, fear, and desire, and understanding what a character is thinking versus what they’re saying adds an incredible psychological depth to the story.
This was my first book by Sabrina Black, and I was genuinely impressed. The romance-to-thriller shift is bold, the power dynamics are uncomfortable in an intentional way, and the execution feels deliberate rather than gratuitous. It’s dark, twisty, and surprisingly thoughtful — a book that stays with you long after you finish it.
February 7, 2026
MAJOR TW!!
Unfortunately this book did not work for me. I went in with the understanding it was a 50 shades of gray meets gone girl but I didn’t get either of that from this novel. The pov changed from first to third person randomly which messed with the pace. The topics were very dark and at points it felt like it was glorifying DV. The premise was good but overall the plot was very slow and repetitive with no thrill or enjoyment until 75% in. The overwhelming mention of the age gap as well as constant talk of abuse in all forms made me very uncomfortable and I really struggled getting through this one.
Unfortunately this book did not work for me. I went in with the understanding it was a 50 shades of gray meets gone girl but I didn’t get either of that from this novel. The pov changed from first to third person randomly which messed with the pace. The topics were very dark and at points it felt like it was glorifying DV. The premise was good but overall the plot was very slow and repetitive with no thrill or enjoyment until 75% in. The overwhelming mention of the age gap as well as constant talk of abuse in all forms made me very uncomfortable and I really struggled getting through this one.
January 22, 2026
Rating: 4.5/5
Free Me From The Girl I Used To Be is described as a dark romance and thriller. The story does have a slow build-up, but much of it is filled with details and emotion, and it's critical to the plot. Uniquely, the story is told in the form of narration. Rose is telling us, the reader, the story of what happened and how it started. Why is she the way she is? Her relationships with other men? And what led to her meeting Rob? Then Rob comes in with his part. It did take me a bit to get used to it, but once I was engrossed in the story, I was flowing with it.
As mentioned, Rose’s story is quite dark and emotional, and Rob has his own stuff too. Their relationship is non-traditional as Rob convinces her that he knows what’s best. And though this is the healthiest relationship she’s ever had and she’s the happiest, her spidey senses go off. And mine were too!
It was really interesting to see how the author developed the thriller portion of the story. How much of the narration's uniqueness shaped my, as the reader, connection with the characters. This, in turn, led me to get pulled in by Rob, just as Rose is—and question everything, just like Rose. I did read the sneak peek at the end of the book. I’m not sure if I should have, because now I have even more questions.
Note: This story may not be for everyone. It may contain Triggers for some. I don’t see any listed. It could be on the author’s site though. There is SA, Eating Disorder, Pyschological trauma, Childhood Aßuse, Violence w/ weapons, ß∂sm/power dynamics, drink gets tampered
Free Me From The Girl I Used To Be is described as a dark romance and thriller. The story does have a slow build-up, but much of it is filled with details and emotion, and it's critical to the plot. Uniquely, the story is told in the form of narration. Rose is telling us, the reader, the story of what happened and how it started. Why is she the way she is? Her relationships with other men? And what led to her meeting Rob? Then Rob comes in with his part. It did take me a bit to get used to it, but once I was engrossed in the story, I was flowing with it.
As mentioned, Rose’s story is quite dark and emotional, and Rob has his own stuff too. Their relationship is non-traditional as Rob convinces her that he knows what’s best. And though this is the healthiest relationship she’s ever had and she’s the happiest, her spidey senses go off. And mine were too!
It was really interesting to see how the author developed the thriller portion of the story. How much of the narration's uniqueness shaped my, as the reader, connection with the characters. This, in turn, led me to get pulled in by Rob, just as Rose is—and question everything, just like Rose. I did read the sneak peek at the end of the book. I’m not sure if I should have, because now I have even more questions.
Note: This story may not be for everyone. It may contain Triggers for some. I don’t see any listed. It could be on the author’s site though. There is SA, Eating Disorder, Pyschological trauma, Childhood Aßuse, Violence w/ weapons, ß∂sm/power dynamics, drink gets tampered
January 7, 2026
I had no idea what to expect with this book going in. I knew it was a dark romance, but that was really about it. I wasn't familiar with this book or this author so it was a complete blind read for me.
Initially I wasn't sure if I was able to connect and relate to Rose, as a character. She carried a lot of trauma that she experienced ups and downs with. Personally, I felt removed from her at first. Rob, right from the get go, I was fully on board with. He was a character that, though I am not like him and don't personally know anyone who is, I could understand him a lot more.
I liked this dynamic. It had me questioning a bit of why her, and what he saw in her, but in reality, that's what a lot of relationships look like to people on the outside. There is something there that clicks and works for the people involved and it doesn't have to make sense to anyone else.
After a few chapters I found I was hooked and becoming more and more invested with the story and I hadn't even realized when that had happened, just that it had.
I will tell you, the mystery, and the suspense, really had me for the last half of the book. I am not a big thriller reader but this one I had to know the outcome. I like to assess characters, situations, and the plot overall and make predictions for the end of the book. I did that many times but I did not see the end of this book coming. Being surprised like that isn't always easy for me and I loved it!
I enjoyed this book, a lot more than I thought I would in the beginning of the book. I am so glad I didn't get deterred early in and walk away. I can't wait to read the other books in the series.
Initially I wasn't sure if I was able to connect and relate to Rose, as a character. She carried a lot of trauma that she experienced ups and downs with. Personally, I felt removed from her at first. Rob, right from the get go, I was fully on board with. He was a character that, though I am not like him and don't personally know anyone who is, I could understand him a lot more.
I liked this dynamic. It had me questioning a bit of why her, and what he saw in her, but in reality, that's what a lot of relationships look like to people on the outside. There is something there that clicks and works for the people involved and it doesn't have to make sense to anyone else.
After a few chapters I found I was hooked and becoming more and more invested with the story and I hadn't even realized when that had happened, just that it had.
I will tell you, the mystery, and the suspense, really had me for the last half of the book. I am not a big thriller reader but this one I had to know the outcome. I like to assess characters, situations, and the plot overall and make predictions for the end of the book. I did that many times but I did not see the end of this book coming. Being surprised like that isn't always easy for me and I loved it!
I enjoyed this book, a lot more than I thought I would in the beginning of the book. I am so glad I didn't get deterred early in and walk away. I can't wait to read the other books in the series.
January 11, 2026
**Please read the trigger warnings before reading, touches on slightly dark topics**
This book had a slow start to develop the characters in the first half but picks up in the second half as new information came to be revealed, I was really on edge when some new characters came in, wondering what was real and what wasn’t. There was a moment for sure when we learned more about Amelia that had me in tears while I was reading.
Rose was relatable for me with her some of her traumas, view of herself and of men. I understood Rob was kind, patient and gentle with Rose when it came to her traumas but once the relationship got more... deep with how their dynamic changed, I feel it was a lot for me to read sometimes.
I feel like a lesson I got from this book is that no matter how messed up and unlovable you think you are or that you deserve the worst, there is a person out there who can see all your scars and pain but still love you and wants to bring out the best of you or help you heal.
I can’t wait for the second book to come out and learn more about everything!
This book had a slow start to develop the characters in the first half but picks up in the second half as new information came to be revealed, I was really on edge when some new characters came in, wondering what was real and what wasn’t. There was a moment for sure when we learned more about Amelia that had me in tears while I was reading.
Rose was relatable for me with her some of her traumas, view of herself and of men. I understood Rob was kind, patient and gentle with Rose when it came to her traumas but once the relationship got more... deep with how their dynamic changed, I feel it was a lot for me to read sometimes.
I feel like a lesson I got from this book is that no matter how messed up and unlovable you think you are or that you deserve the worst, there is a person out there who can see all your scars and pain but still love you and wants to bring out the best of you or help you heal.
I can’t wait for the second book to come out and learn more about everything!
December 7, 2025
Okay so I have thoughts on this one, so buckle up because my feelings were all over the place! I landed on 3 stars purely because I’m still processing what this book wanted me to feel.
First off, Rose. Sweet, chaotic, beautifully messy Rose. My heart genuinely cracked for her. The way her past destroyed her self-worth? Brutal, and yeah, her vanity got on my nerves a bit, but once I realised it's due to how broken she is, it makes sense.
Then we have Rob, the supposed knight in shining armour except, he’s also a 40-year-old man obsessed with someone much younger, and that definitely had me raising a brow. He felt heroic at times, but also... red flag with a nice body.
The writing style threw me for a loop too, it felt as if Rose was writing to Rob about their love story and it had me thinking the ending was going to go a completely different direction, and honestly? I kind of wish it did. I was rooting for a twist that never came.
First off, Rose. Sweet, chaotic, beautifully messy Rose. My heart genuinely cracked for her. The way her past destroyed her self-worth? Brutal, and yeah, her vanity got on my nerves a bit, but once I realised it's due to how broken she is, it makes sense.
Then we have Rob, the supposed knight in shining armour except, he’s also a 40-year-old man obsessed with someone much younger, and that definitely had me raising a brow. He felt heroic at times, but also... red flag with a nice body.
The writing style threw me for a loop too, it felt as if Rose was writing to Rob about their love story and it had me thinking the ending was going to go a completely different direction, and honestly? I kind of wish it did. I was rooting for a twist that never came.
March 2, 2026
The copy I was given to read from the author did not contain any trigger warnings, there should be an extensive list of trigger warnings for this book.
The beginning of this book was painfully slow, I had such a hard time keeping focused, that although a short read, it took me much longer than it should have. Having said that, the book did pick up in some parts that kept me intrigued enough to finish. I had picked up some early hints and thought I figured out the plot but was pleasantly surprised that I was wrong in the end. Overall, a good read, pacing could be better to keep readers flipping pages.
A love story of trauma and abuse. A young girl stumbles in to a dom relationship and continues to find herself in some pretty rough situations. Each character has a childhood of trauma that is explained to give reason for how they act now. Rose wants to escape herself but isn't sure how. Is losing herself to another life of trauma the answer? Is it trauma? Is this what she wants?
The beginning of this book was painfully slow, I had such a hard time keeping focused, that although a short read, it took me much longer than it should have. Having said that, the book did pick up in some parts that kept me intrigued enough to finish. I had picked up some early hints and thought I figured out the plot but was pleasantly surprised that I was wrong in the end. Overall, a good read, pacing could be better to keep readers flipping pages.
A love story of trauma and abuse. A young girl stumbles in to a dom relationship and continues to find herself in some pretty rough situations. Each character has a childhood of trauma that is explained to give reason for how they act now. Rose wants to escape herself but isn't sure how. Is losing herself to another life of trauma the answer? Is it trauma? Is this what she wants?
February 25, 2026
Emotional Journey
This is a raw and emotionally open journey through heartbreak, self-blame, and eventual self-forgiveness. The story gently reveals the process of letting go of a past love and a former version of yourself that stayed too long. While the writing is simple, it carries genuine emotion and relatability, making it comforting for readers in a healing phase. A reflective and empowering read, especially for those learning to choose themselves again.
This is a raw and emotionally open journey through heartbreak, self-blame, and eventual self-forgiveness. The story gently reveals the process of letting go of a past love and a former version of yourself that stayed too long. While the writing is simple, it carries genuine emotion and relatability, making it comforting for readers in a healing phase. A reflective and empowering read, especially for those learning to choose themselves again.
February 18, 2026
Overall, I liked this book a lot. There were definitely some dark parts. Probably need to check triggers before reading. I did not like the amount of control Rob demanded from Rose. I enjoyed the depth of the characters. I liked the way their histories were explained. Really enjoyed the ending. I like it when the truth of the situation is revealed in the end. Starting book 2 today!
March 12, 2026
Such an amazing read so heartbreaking, so much trauma, so much love 💕 and oh my gosh does it have some thrilling moments in there 😳 this one is a must read! 🙌 thank you so much to the author for providing me a copy of this book 🫶💕 #rose #rob #amelia #freemefromthegirliusedtobe #sabrinablack
December 14, 2025
I struggled to complete this book. The writing style was confusing. The plot was predictable and I found myself wanting more twists or drama. I feel like all the big moments that should’ve had more story time had such swift resolution that it was hard to believe. Also, I hate that I was able to mark progress throughout the book by the personality trait that Rose made her entire persona. Bad dating decisions Rose. ED/Control issues Rose. Detective Rose. I found it difficult to relate to her character and found Rob to be a generic/stereotypical older MMC.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
March 21, 2026
Let me start by saying I was pleasantly surprised by this book. It's not my typical read. I am a romance girly through and through, and romance was a subplot in this book. But the author took me on such a tumultuous journey, romance was the least of my needs. I don't normally read thrillers. In fact, I perused my library and I think I've only read one thriller in my past 200 books, so this book was definitely new and adventurous for me. All that to say, I really enjoyed it.
The book starts off with Rose, the FMC, fleeing her past to start anew in Austin. While trying to make friends in Austin, Rose stumbles into a local bar where Rob is bartending. The connection is established between Rose and Rob right away. I found Rob to be mysterious and intriguing while reading some of their first interactions, but I wasn't sure of his role at first (the author kept me guessing for a while). It's clear from the beginning that Rose is desperate to leave her past trauma behind while also struggling to fully leave the trauma behind - she's caught in the perpetual loop of codependency with one of her past relationships. FYI - This book focuses heavy on the FMC devaluing her self-worth due to past trauma...and there was a lot of trauma. In her quest for moving forward, Rose finds herself in precarious situations that could also be wildly traumatic. Fortunately, Rob is there to save the day. It's safe to say Rose has major trust issues and for good reasons.
Rob is 20 years older than Rose and widowed. He is patient with Rose, doesn't take advantage, does everything right to try to earn Rose's trust. Rose is guarded in her "friendship" with Rob. She sets very clear boundaries with Rob - mentally, emotionally and physically - and he respects her boundaries. The relationship between Rose and Rob happens slowly which is intentional and required for believability. Rose struggles with the age gap between her and Rob, but over time, she ultimately succumbs to his charm....and he is charming. Rob is wealthy, extravagant, a great friend to those in need, and Rose finds herself unable to stay away. But Rose's trust in Rob is very hard earned.
The author then takes us on a journey through Rose's trauma (read the TWs). Rob is there for every step of Rose's healing process. The relationship between Rob and Rose did turn very controlling. Rob is a very controlling man, but I didn't hate it (I normally do) because Rob made it very clear from the beginning his need for "ownership and control" and Rose agreed to it. I just want to say, the level of control Rob needed would be considered VERY DISTURBING in the real world (hence my 4 stars) and some of the pet names are normal icks for me. But I looked past them because I enjoyed the journey this book took me on. Also, Rose accepted it, so why shouldn't I? Through the relationship building, we learn more about Rob's relationship with his deceased wife and the mystery surrounding her death. This is why Rob's control was key to the story. The book starts by making you love Rob (I gave him all my trust). Then he turns controlling (I revoked some of that trust). Then the mystery of his wife is brought up (I started questioning everything about Rob). The author just set the stage so perfectly.
One side note, the POVs in this book were so cool. There are times Rose's internal thought processes were written like letters from Rose to Rob. I have NEVER read a POV like that and I loved it. The way Sabrina Black gave us a glimpse into Rose's mind through this unique POV truly stood out to me.
Wrapping up, I was guessing the plot until the very end. I didn't know if I should love or hate Rob until the bitter end, truly. The tense, toxic, emotional, unpredictable path I walked while reading this book kept me interested from the first page through the last. Now I realize, I love romance turned thriller books, so I will read more. I am excited to continue through this series.
The book starts off with Rose, the FMC, fleeing her past to start anew in Austin. While trying to make friends in Austin, Rose stumbles into a local bar where Rob is bartending. The connection is established between Rose and Rob right away. I found Rob to be mysterious and intriguing while reading some of their first interactions, but I wasn't sure of his role at first (the author kept me guessing for a while). It's clear from the beginning that Rose is desperate to leave her past trauma behind while also struggling to fully leave the trauma behind - she's caught in the perpetual loop of codependency with one of her past relationships. FYI - This book focuses heavy on the FMC devaluing her self-worth due to past trauma...and there was a lot of trauma. In her quest for moving forward, Rose finds herself in precarious situations that could also be wildly traumatic. Fortunately, Rob is there to save the day. It's safe to say Rose has major trust issues and for good reasons.
Rob is 20 years older than Rose and widowed. He is patient with Rose, doesn't take advantage, does everything right to try to earn Rose's trust. Rose is guarded in her "friendship" with Rob. She sets very clear boundaries with Rob - mentally, emotionally and physically - and he respects her boundaries. The relationship between Rose and Rob happens slowly which is intentional and required for believability. Rose struggles with the age gap between her and Rob, but over time, she ultimately succumbs to his charm....and he is charming. Rob is wealthy, extravagant, a great friend to those in need, and Rose finds herself unable to stay away. But Rose's trust in Rob is very hard earned.
The author then takes us on a journey through Rose's trauma (read the TWs). Rob is there for every step of Rose's healing process. The relationship between Rob and Rose did turn very controlling. Rob is a very controlling man, but I didn't hate it (I normally do) because Rob made it very clear from the beginning his need for "ownership and control" and Rose agreed to it. I just want to say, the level of control Rob needed would be considered VERY DISTURBING in the real world (hence my 4 stars) and some of the pet names are normal icks for me. But I looked past them because I enjoyed the journey this book took me on. Also, Rose accepted it, so why shouldn't I? Through the relationship building, we learn more about Rob's relationship with his deceased wife and the mystery surrounding her death. This is why Rob's control was key to the story. The book starts by making you love Rob (I gave him all my trust). Then he turns controlling (I revoked some of that trust). Then the mystery of his wife is brought up (I started questioning everything about Rob). The author just set the stage so perfectly.
One side note, the POVs in this book were so cool. There are times Rose's internal thought processes were written like letters from Rose to Rob. I have NEVER read a POV like that and I loved it. The way Sabrina Black gave us a glimpse into Rose's mind through this unique POV truly stood out to me.
Wrapping up, I was guessing the plot until the very end. I didn't know if I should love or hate Rob until the bitter end, truly. The tense, toxic, emotional, unpredictable path I walked while reading this book kept me interested from the first page through the last. Now I realize, I love romance turned thriller books, so I will read more. I am excited to continue through this series.
December 5, 2025
Not What I Expected!
The author really gives you a deep dive into the psychological makeup of the FMC and MMC. There is no heroine in this story, but rather two very broken people looking to find that dream of love. Do they find it? I'm not sure this story gives a precise answer to that. The relationship is all kinds of ways unhealthy and toxic, but it does pose the question that maybe healing is different for people, or that maybe they just manipulate and enable each other than actually seek real treatment from professionals.
I'm not going to lie, the book really starts off slow. I get why - the author had to give background into why each of these characters were "broken". If you are sensitive to triggers - don't read this book. The author delves into many various mental illnesses and trauma.
The FMC - Rose I honestly didn't like that much. She suffered from growing up watching her mother abused by her father, until they divorced. She also develops " Daddy Issues" because even while married to her mother, her father never showed her love or attention, and after the divorce even less. You get the feeling even though he was well off - saw his children (she has a sister) - he didn't supply any financial support because it's mentioned she went hungry many times. She goes through a string of men that have used and abused her, has been sexually assaulted, CPTSD, drugged, is anorexic, maybe some bulimia, degraded, dehumanized, extreme low self esteem, and several other issues. The reason I honestly didn't like her is she seemed a little overly whiny. She also seemed to flip out a little too much, and at many times judgemental and hypocritical. I don't want to give out any spoilers because I hate spoiling the story for others - so I won't go into specific scenes displaying those examples.
The MMC, Rob, comes with his own set of baggage and mental illness. In their first few encounters, after he saves Rose from a drugging - the story - to me - was foreshadowing he was leading her into pretty much grooming her - and I do think he was in some ways - to the "Extreme" BDSM lifestyle he desires. That's where the story borrows some things from "50 Shades Of Grey", he's a " billionaire with a sex toy/BDSM Room", but minus the contract and detailed "spicyness". In fact, if you are looking for a book that has a medium to high spice rating - you won't find that here. He's more like Christian Grey on steroids. He was beaten and abused by his mother and her various boyfriends, his mother was a methhead, and I strongly get the feeling - no not really spelled out - that because of that he has some deep rooted hatred for women.
About 40% in the book, after you get the background stories on the two main characters, the book picks up with the mystery of what really happened to Rob's first wife Amelia. That's when I didn't want to put the book down. You find out that maybe he isn't what he appeared to be. It really remains a mystery to the end for many reasons and leaves you wondering what the facts actually are. Is Rob lying and manipulating the facts still? Did he finally come clean? The author leaves us pondering that question to the end.
I'm not sure is I completely like the ending - it still leaves you with plenty of questions - and though I think the FMC is being blind, naive, and gullible at the end with her final decision it does leave you with a good lead into the next book which I will patiently be waiting for and look forward to reading.
The author really gives you a deep dive into the psychological makeup of the FMC and MMC. There is no heroine in this story, but rather two very broken people looking to find that dream of love. Do they find it? I'm not sure this story gives a precise answer to that. The relationship is all kinds of ways unhealthy and toxic, but it does pose the question that maybe healing is different for people, or that maybe they just manipulate and enable each other than actually seek real treatment from professionals.
I'm not going to lie, the book really starts off slow. I get why - the author had to give background into why each of these characters were "broken". If you are sensitive to triggers - don't read this book. The author delves into many various mental illnesses and trauma.
The FMC - Rose I honestly didn't like that much. She suffered from growing up watching her mother abused by her father, until they divorced. She also develops " Daddy Issues" because even while married to her mother, her father never showed her love or attention, and after the divorce even less. You get the feeling even though he was well off - saw his children (she has a sister) - he didn't supply any financial support because it's mentioned she went hungry many times. She goes through a string of men that have used and abused her, has been sexually assaulted, CPTSD, drugged, is anorexic, maybe some bulimia, degraded, dehumanized, extreme low self esteem, and several other issues. The reason I honestly didn't like her is she seemed a little overly whiny. She also seemed to flip out a little too much, and at many times judgemental and hypocritical. I don't want to give out any spoilers because I hate spoiling the story for others - so I won't go into specific scenes displaying those examples.
The MMC, Rob, comes with his own set of baggage and mental illness. In their first few encounters, after he saves Rose from a drugging - the story - to me - was foreshadowing he was leading her into pretty much grooming her - and I do think he was in some ways - to the "Extreme" BDSM lifestyle he desires. That's where the story borrows some things from "50 Shades Of Grey", he's a " billionaire with a sex toy/BDSM Room", but minus the contract and detailed "spicyness". In fact, if you are looking for a book that has a medium to high spice rating - you won't find that here. He's more like Christian Grey on steroids. He was beaten and abused by his mother and her various boyfriends, his mother was a methhead, and I strongly get the feeling - no not really spelled out - that because of that he has some deep rooted hatred for women.
About 40% in the book, after you get the background stories on the two main characters, the book picks up with the mystery of what really happened to Rob's first wife Amelia. That's when I didn't want to put the book down. You find out that maybe he isn't what he appeared to be. It really remains a mystery to the end for many reasons and leaves you wondering what the facts actually are. Is Rob lying and manipulating the facts still? Did he finally come clean? The author leaves us pondering that question to the end.
I'm not sure is I completely like the ending - it still leaves you with plenty of questions - and though I think the FMC is being blind, naive, and gullible at the end with her final decision it does leave you with a good lead into the next book which I will patiently be waiting for and look forward to reading.
February 11, 2026
This author reached out to me and sent me a copy of this read in exchange for my honest review.
Free Me From the Girl I Used to Be
**An intense, raw look at trauma—but come prepared.**
I’m so conflicted on this one. I couldn't put it down because the emotional stakes were so high, but it was a very heavy read. I have read a wide variety of dark romances and this one was somehow different than any of them!
⚠️Content Warning: This book is filled with triggers that I wish I had been prepared for, as the emotional toll is significant.
*Elements of BDSM, especially sadism and masochism, DDLG dynamics, abuse, childhood trauma, SA, manipulation EDs, etc. are prevalent throughout. Also be aware that the preview for book two, at the end of this book, has animal abuse in the first few pages.
The characters:
The FMC’s cycle of trusting the wrong men was frustrating, but it felt heartbreakingly realistic given her background. It wasn't 'bad character writing'; it was a painful, honest portrayal of how trauma can warp someone's judgment. She was just looking for love in all the wrong places.
The MMC was questionable at times and his ability to flip from protective and loving to threatening and possessive was jarring for me. I’ve read many posssive MMC’s but the dynamic with these two characters added another layer of complexity that was hard to process. His brand of care and possessiveness felt incredibly toxic, yet it walked a very thin line because it was what the FMC felt like she needed from him. It was a deeply intense and dangerous kind of love on both ends.
The plot:
The story is written in a first-person POV where the FMC speaks directly to the MMC. This direct address made the narrative feel incredibly intimate and confessional—almost like I was reading a private letter I wasn't supposed to see. Because the tone was so raw, it kept me waiting for a jaw-dropping, twisted moment at the end that I felt was being teased…
The story explores a level of sadism, masochism, and a desire for physical pain in intimacy that was difficult for me to wrap my head around. It made the relationship feel both deeply misunderstood but also somewhat unsettling.
While the build-up to the climax was a bit slow for me, the ending felt right for the story. I felt it lacked the shock factor I was expecting after such a long, intense build-up from that first person POV. But the ending was deeply emotional and I felt it answered all the questions the FMC had us asking.
The writing:
Sabrina Black has a very specific narrative voice. I’m the type of reader who tends to notice little details in phrasing, and I found the sentence structures a bit unconventional at times. Some common sayings were worded in ways I wasn’t used to, which occasionally pulled me out of the story’s intensity. It’s a very specific style and the way it stood out might just be a 'me' thing, but it was something I noticed throughout the read.
In conclusion:
Overall this is a powerful story and I HAD to know how it all worked out for the characters. Even if it was a difficult read for me personally, with all the trauma it entails, it was also very difficult to put down. In the end, solving the mystery of what really happened to the MMC’s ex wife gave me the closure I wanted but the Book 2 preview leaves you wondering if there’s still more to the mystery.
(However, I’m still deciding if I have the emotional energy to pick up Book 2).
Free Me From the Girl I Used to Be
**An intense, raw look at trauma—but come prepared.**
I’m so conflicted on this one. I couldn't put it down because the emotional stakes were so high, but it was a very heavy read. I have read a wide variety of dark romances and this one was somehow different than any of them!
⚠️Content Warning: This book is filled with triggers that I wish I had been prepared for, as the emotional toll is significant.
*Elements of BDSM, especially sadism and masochism, DDLG dynamics, abuse, childhood trauma, SA, manipulation EDs, etc. are prevalent throughout. Also be aware that the preview for book two, at the end of this book, has animal abuse in the first few pages.
The characters:
The FMC’s cycle of trusting the wrong men was frustrating, but it felt heartbreakingly realistic given her background. It wasn't 'bad character writing'; it was a painful, honest portrayal of how trauma can warp someone's judgment. She was just looking for love in all the wrong places.
The MMC was questionable at times and his ability to flip from protective and loving to threatening and possessive was jarring for me. I’ve read many posssive MMC’s but the dynamic with these two characters added another layer of complexity that was hard to process. His brand of care and possessiveness felt incredibly toxic, yet it walked a very thin line because it was what the FMC felt like she needed from him. It was a deeply intense and dangerous kind of love on both ends.
The plot:
The story is written in a first-person POV where the FMC speaks directly to the MMC. This direct address made the narrative feel incredibly intimate and confessional—almost like I was reading a private letter I wasn't supposed to see. Because the tone was so raw, it kept me waiting for a jaw-dropping, twisted moment at the end that I felt was being teased…
The story explores a level of sadism, masochism, and a desire for physical pain in intimacy that was difficult for me to wrap my head around. It made the relationship feel both deeply misunderstood but also somewhat unsettling.
While the build-up to the climax was a bit slow for me, the ending felt right for the story. I felt it lacked the shock factor I was expecting after such a long, intense build-up from that first person POV. But the ending was deeply emotional and I felt it answered all the questions the FMC had us asking.
The writing:
Sabrina Black has a very specific narrative voice. I’m the type of reader who tends to notice little details in phrasing, and I found the sentence structures a bit unconventional at times. Some common sayings were worded in ways I wasn’t used to, which occasionally pulled me out of the story’s intensity. It’s a very specific style and the way it stood out might just be a 'me' thing, but it was something I noticed throughout the read.
In conclusion:
Overall this is a powerful story and I HAD to know how it all worked out for the characters. Even if it was a difficult read for me personally, with all the trauma it entails, it was also very difficult to put down. In the end, solving the mystery of what really happened to the MMC’s ex wife gave me the closure I wanted but the Book 2 preview leaves you wondering if there’s still more to the mystery.
(However, I’m still deciding if I have the emotional energy to pick up Book 2).
February 4, 2026
Free Me from the Girl I Used to Be was an incredibly heavy, emotionally wrecking read.
This dark romantic thriller really digs into toxic relationships and the long-lasting damage trauma can leave behind.
The story does start off slow, but that pacing felt intentional. It gives you the space to truly understand Rose and where she comes from.
Her life is shaped by layers of abuse and trauma, beginning in childhood and continuing through her past relationships. She grows up in a home filled with emotional abuse and a toxic parental dynamic, never seeing what healthy love looks like - and that lack follows her into adulthood in heartbreaking ways.
The book is told mostly through Rose's narration, with a few chapters from Rob's point of view. It took me a bit to get used to this style, but once I did, it really worked and added depth to the story.
Rose is deeply broken, carrying years of emotional damage, low self-esteem, and an eating disorder influenced by the men who've hurt her. It's honestly devastating to see everything she's endured, and I couldn't help but wonder how she still manages to keep going - or why she still hopes love might exist for her at all.
Then there's Rob. An older man she meets at a bar who initially feels like her safe place. He looks out for her, saves her after she's been drugged, and presents himselt as protective, gentle, and trustworthy. He's also grieving the loss of his wife, who he claims was murdered by her abusive ex, which makes his pain feel very real and believable.
What unfolds is a deeply toxic relationship. Rob becomes more and more controlling, but Rose mistakes this for safety - something she's willing to accept because her biggest fear is being abandoned. Reading Rob's chapters sometimes made me want to believe he was a good man, but his actions quickly proved otherwise. The manipulation, control, and physical abuse had me internally screaming for Rose to run, even as the book painfully shows how victims rationalise abuse just to survive.
The novel does explore Rob's trauma and explains how he became the way he is, but it never excuses his behaviour. Abuse is still abuse.
As the story goes on, it turns into a gripping mystery surrounding what really happened to Rob's late wife. I was completely hooked, constantly questioning whether he could be trusted and bracing myself for the truth - which I genuinely did not see coming.
This book definitely isn't for everyone, and trigger warnings are absolutely necessary. It includes:
• Sexual assault
• Child abuse
• Eating disorders
• Domestic violence
• Emotional and physical abuse
Despite how difficult this book is at times, l appreciated how honest and unflinching it is. It doesn't offer easy answers or soften the reality of trauma and survival - instead, it forces you to sit with the discomfort. It made me reflect on why people stay in toxic relationships, how abuse becomes normalised, and whether someone can ever truly heal from that level of damage. I was also incredibly grateful to have been gifted this book, and I'm thankful for the opportunity to read and reflect on such a powerful, challenging story. A dark, thought-provoking novel from Sabrina Black that stayed with me long after the final page.
I cannot wait to read the next book!!!
Spice level: 🌶️
This dark romantic thriller really digs into toxic relationships and the long-lasting damage trauma can leave behind.
The story does start off slow, but that pacing felt intentional. It gives you the space to truly understand Rose and where she comes from.
Her life is shaped by layers of abuse and trauma, beginning in childhood and continuing through her past relationships. She grows up in a home filled with emotional abuse and a toxic parental dynamic, never seeing what healthy love looks like - and that lack follows her into adulthood in heartbreaking ways.
The book is told mostly through Rose's narration, with a few chapters from Rob's point of view. It took me a bit to get used to this style, but once I did, it really worked and added depth to the story.
Rose is deeply broken, carrying years of emotional damage, low self-esteem, and an eating disorder influenced by the men who've hurt her. It's honestly devastating to see everything she's endured, and I couldn't help but wonder how she still manages to keep going - or why she still hopes love might exist for her at all.
Then there's Rob. An older man she meets at a bar who initially feels like her safe place. He looks out for her, saves her after she's been drugged, and presents himselt as protective, gentle, and trustworthy. He's also grieving the loss of his wife, who he claims was murdered by her abusive ex, which makes his pain feel very real and believable.
What unfolds is a deeply toxic relationship. Rob becomes more and more controlling, but Rose mistakes this for safety - something she's willing to accept because her biggest fear is being abandoned. Reading Rob's chapters sometimes made me want to believe he was a good man, but his actions quickly proved otherwise. The manipulation, control, and physical abuse had me internally screaming for Rose to run, even as the book painfully shows how victims rationalise abuse just to survive.
The novel does explore Rob's trauma and explains how he became the way he is, but it never excuses his behaviour. Abuse is still abuse.
As the story goes on, it turns into a gripping mystery surrounding what really happened to Rob's late wife. I was completely hooked, constantly questioning whether he could be trusted and bracing myself for the truth - which I genuinely did not see coming.
This book definitely isn't for everyone, and trigger warnings are absolutely necessary. It includes:
• Sexual assault
• Child abuse
• Eating disorders
• Domestic violence
• Emotional and physical abuse
Despite how difficult this book is at times, l appreciated how honest and unflinching it is. It doesn't offer easy answers or soften the reality of trauma and survival - instead, it forces you to sit with the discomfort. It made me reflect on why people stay in toxic relationships, how abuse becomes normalised, and whether someone can ever truly heal from that level of damage. I was also incredibly grateful to have been gifted this book, and I'm thankful for the opportunity to read and reflect on such a powerful, challenging story. A dark, thought-provoking novel from Sabrina Black that stayed with me long after the final page.
I cannot wait to read the next book!!!
Spice level: 🌶️
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
January 26, 2026
Free Me from the Girl I Used to Be was a powerful, emotionally devastating read. This dark romantic thriller dives deep into the toxicity of relationships and the lasting impact of trauma.
The book does start slowly, but that pacing felt necessary to fully explore Rose as a character. Her story is layered with abuse and trauma stemming from both her childhood and past relationships. Raised in a home filled with emotional abuse and a toxic parental dynamic, Rose grows up never knowing what real love looks like — something that tragically carries into her adult relationships.
The story is told through narration, primarily from Rose’s perspective, with additional chapters from Rob’s point of view. It took me a little time to adjust to this format, but once I did, it became incredibly effective. Rose is deeply broken and trauma-ridden, with years of emotional damage, low self-worth, and an eating disorder shaped by the men who have hurt her. I honestly don’t know how she keeps moving forward, still hoping to find love after everything she’s endured.
Enter Rob — an older man she meets at a bar, who initially appears to be her safe place. He watches over her, saves her one night after she’s been drugged, and presents himself as protective, gentle, and trustworthy. Rob is also grieving the loss of his wife, whom he claims was murdered by an abusive ex, which makes his pain feel very real.
What unfolds is a deeply toxic relationship. Rob becomes increasingly controlling, but Rose interprets this as safety — something she’s willing to accept because her greatest fear is abandonment. Reading Rob’s chapters often made me want to believe he was a good man, but his actions quickly contradicted his words. The manipulation, control, and physical abuse had me internally screaming for Rose to run — even as the book painfully shows how victims rationalise abuse to survive.
The novel does explore Rob’s trauma and explains why he behaves the way he does — and while those reasons are revealed, they never excuse his actions. Abuse is still abuse.
As the story progresses, it shifts into a gripping mystery surrounding what truly happened to Rob’s late wife. I was completely enthralled, constantly questioning whether he could be trusted and whether the truth would be even darker than expected. I genuinely did not see the truth coming.
This book will absolutely not be for everyone, and trigger warnings are essential. It contains:
⚠️ Sexual assault
⚠️ Child abuse
⚠️ Eating disorders
⚠️ Domestic violence
⚠️ Emotional and physical abuse
That said, I did enjoy this book for how deeply it examines difficult, uncomfortable topics. It asks hard questions about why people stay in unhealthy relationships, how trauma reshapes perception, and how much abuse a person can endure before it fundamentally changes them — and whether it’s possible to ever truly return to who you once were.
A heavy, thought-provoking read from Sabrina Black that stays with you long after the final page.
Spice Rating: 🌶️
The book does start slowly, but that pacing felt necessary to fully explore Rose as a character. Her story is layered with abuse and trauma stemming from both her childhood and past relationships. Raised in a home filled with emotional abuse and a toxic parental dynamic, Rose grows up never knowing what real love looks like — something that tragically carries into her adult relationships.
The story is told through narration, primarily from Rose’s perspective, with additional chapters from Rob’s point of view. It took me a little time to adjust to this format, but once I did, it became incredibly effective. Rose is deeply broken and trauma-ridden, with years of emotional damage, low self-worth, and an eating disorder shaped by the men who have hurt her. I honestly don’t know how she keeps moving forward, still hoping to find love after everything she’s endured.
Enter Rob — an older man she meets at a bar, who initially appears to be her safe place. He watches over her, saves her one night after she’s been drugged, and presents himself as protective, gentle, and trustworthy. Rob is also grieving the loss of his wife, whom he claims was murdered by an abusive ex, which makes his pain feel very real.
What unfolds is a deeply toxic relationship. Rob becomes increasingly controlling, but Rose interprets this as safety — something she’s willing to accept because her greatest fear is abandonment. Reading Rob’s chapters often made me want to believe he was a good man, but his actions quickly contradicted his words. The manipulation, control, and physical abuse had me internally screaming for Rose to run — even as the book painfully shows how victims rationalise abuse to survive.
The novel does explore Rob’s trauma and explains why he behaves the way he does — and while those reasons are revealed, they never excuse his actions. Abuse is still abuse.
As the story progresses, it shifts into a gripping mystery surrounding what truly happened to Rob’s late wife. I was completely enthralled, constantly questioning whether he could be trusted and whether the truth would be even darker than expected. I genuinely did not see the truth coming.
This book will absolutely not be for everyone, and trigger warnings are essential. It contains:
⚠️ Sexual assault
⚠️ Child abuse
⚠️ Eating disorders
⚠️ Domestic violence
⚠️ Emotional and physical abuse
That said, I did enjoy this book for how deeply it examines difficult, uncomfortable topics. It asks hard questions about why people stay in unhealthy relationships, how trauma reshapes perception, and how much abuse a person can endure before it fundamentally changes them — and whether it’s possible to ever truly return to who you once were.
A heavy, thought-provoking read from Sabrina Black that stays with you long after the final page.
Spice Rating: 🌶️
January 31, 2026
I received a copy of this book from the author in exchange for my honest thoughts on it. So, here they are:
The story begins with Rose, the protagonist, moving to Austin, Texas for a new start in life. She is running from her toxic past that keeps ensnaring her and filling her life with misery. She has developed all kinds of issues because of this. She has incredibly low self-esteem, can’t seem to move on from her ex and tends to attract a rather bad sort of partners in her life.
She needs help, therapy, to be more accurate. And guess what? She actually gets it! She takes therapy, everyone! She is not one of those psychologically traumatised female leads who do anything but seek help. But… that doesn’t mean that Rose makes good decisions. Therapy has only made her aware, not wise, so she makes bad decisions while being aware that they’re bad and the writing makes it hilarious in a dark way. She is incredibly relatable, only I wish she wasn’t because boy, do I not want to relate to her. She’s the kind of person to know someone is a red flag and to be avoided but runs towards them at full speed while chanting “Oh crap, oh crap, oh crap”.
But she is finally ready to stop this behaviour and start anew in a new town. She does not want her past follow her from New York. Or from any other place where she’s had romantic adventures. But her ex, with whom she’s had an on again off again relationship of 4 years, is determined to not let her move on. While she is going through this turmoil, she finds a certain gentleman in a drinking establishment who seems oddly enchanted with her. He is older, much older, than Rose and since New York, she has sworn off from men of his age but his charm is staggering and Rose is in fact a sucker for them.
I loved Rose’s awareness about her behaviour and her surroundings but I did despair when she jumped head first into situations which she knows to avoid without any regard. She is stuck in a pattern of attracting toxic people and hopes to be free. She then meets Rob who quickly proves himself to be completely different than the rest. I found him really charming in the beginning, that was until he revealed certain things about himself. Then I started seeing him as a yellow flag, not quite red, not quite green. But still alarming. He introduced a very different life to Rose and she seemed to enjoy it and then the twist happened. I was on the edge of my seat. I wasn’t able to put the book down before and now it was so much worse, I was reading and pacing, speed picking up with every page, desperately waiting for the reveal, to be proven right. And then… it absolutely did not go in the direction I was hoping for but that doesn’t mean it was disappointing. It was still very interesting.
In short, this is a story about second-chance at life, new beginnings, and healing. With of course, a twist. And I really enjoyed reading it.
The story begins with Rose, the protagonist, moving to Austin, Texas for a new start in life. She is running from her toxic past that keeps ensnaring her and filling her life with misery. She has developed all kinds of issues because of this. She has incredibly low self-esteem, can’t seem to move on from her ex and tends to attract a rather bad sort of partners in her life.
She needs help, therapy, to be more accurate. And guess what? She actually gets it! She takes therapy, everyone! She is not one of those psychologically traumatised female leads who do anything but seek help. But… that doesn’t mean that Rose makes good decisions. Therapy has only made her aware, not wise, so she makes bad decisions while being aware that they’re bad and the writing makes it hilarious in a dark way. She is incredibly relatable, only I wish she wasn’t because boy, do I not want to relate to her. She’s the kind of person to know someone is a red flag and to be avoided but runs towards them at full speed while chanting “Oh crap, oh crap, oh crap”.
But she is finally ready to stop this behaviour and start anew in a new town. She does not want her past follow her from New York. Or from any other place where she’s had romantic adventures. But her ex, with whom she’s had an on again off again relationship of 4 years, is determined to not let her move on. While she is going through this turmoil, she finds a certain gentleman in a drinking establishment who seems oddly enchanted with her. He is older, much older, than Rose and since New York, she has sworn off from men of his age but his charm is staggering and Rose is in fact a sucker for them.
I loved Rose’s awareness about her behaviour and her surroundings but I did despair when she jumped head first into situations which she knows to avoid without any regard. She is stuck in a pattern of attracting toxic people and hopes to be free. She then meets Rob who quickly proves himself to be completely different than the rest. I found him really charming in the beginning, that was until he revealed certain things about himself. Then I started seeing him as a yellow flag, not quite red, not quite green. But still alarming. He introduced a very different life to Rose and she seemed to enjoy it and then the twist happened. I was on the edge of my seat. I wasn’t able to put the book down before and now it was so much worse, I was reading and pacing, speed picking up with every page, desperately waiting for the reveal, to be proven right. And then… it absolutely did not go in the direction I was hoping for but that doesn’t mean it was disappointing. It was still very interesting.
In short, this is a story about second-chance at life, new beginnings, and healing. With of course, a twist. And I really enjoyed reading it.
December 4, 2025
Sabrina Black’s Free Me From The Girl I Used to Be is a raw, unflinching novel about trauma, survival, and the slow, jagged work of reclaiming a life. Told primarily through Rose’s experience while often cutting to Rob’s perspective, the book follows a woman who chases love across North Carolina, NYC, and Austin — only to encounter one controlling, dangerous partner after another. The Steel Horse Tavern is the fulcrum where Rose’s story pivots; it’s where choices are made, secrets surface, and consequences land.
Black treats intimate-partner violence and sexual assault with a steadiness that never sensationalizes. The narrative doesn’t shy from predatory drugging, attempted sexual assault, and ultimately murder — the latter becoming a devastating plot turn that reframes what survival costs and who gets to judge it. Equally important are the quieter, corrosive moments of gaslighting and manipulation that erode Rose’s sense of self. The novel spares no detail of the aftermath: repeated starting over, crippling self-doubt, and the hard, nonlinear rebuilding of confidence and identity.
The book culminates in an act of violence that upends Rose’s life and forces Rob and others to confront their roles and responsibilities. The fallout is messy and honest; Rose doesn’t become “fixed” overnight, but the ending leans toward the cautious hope of starting again with boundaries, self-worth, and new strength. I look forward to the next novel to continue Rose’s story.
Why it worked for me:
- Complex POV work: shifting to Rob’s view adds moral ambiguity and emotional texture without stealing Rose’s agency.
- Nuanced depiction of abuse: the book captures how abusers isolate and gaslight, and how survivors internalize blame.
- Emotional truth: Black conveys the small daily victories of rebuilding — therapy, boundaries, tentative trust — in believable, moving detail.
For survivors and allies: this book is validating and painful in equal measure. As a survivor, Black wrote scenes that made me feel like she had interviewed myself or others to capture Rose through her various cycles of trauma and evolution. If you’re triggered by sexual violence and intimate-partner abuse, read with care. That said, Black’s compassionate, clear-eyed storytelling makes this a necessary novel about trauma, responsibility, and the hard path to healing.
Black treats intimate-partner violence and sexual assault with a steadiness that never sensationalizes. The narrative doesn’t shy from predatory drugging, attempted sexual assault, and ultimately murder — the latter becoming a devastating plot turn that reframes what survival costs and who gets to judge it. Equally important are the quieter, corrosive moments of gaslighting and manipulation that erode Rose’s sense of self. The novel spares no detail of the aftermath: repeated starting over, crippling self-doubt, and the hard, nonlinear rebuilding of confidence and identity.
The book culminates in an act of violence that upends Rose’s life and forces Rob and others to confront their roles and responsibilities. The fallout is messy and honest; Rose doesn’t become “fixed” overnight, but the ending leans toward the cautious hope of starting again with boundaries, self-worth, and new strength. I look forward to the next novel to continue Rose’s story.
Why it worked for me:
- Complex POV work: shifting to Rob’s view adds moral ambiguity and emotional texture without stealing Rose’s agency.
- Nuanced depiction of abuse: the book captures how abusers isolate and gaslight, and how survivors internalize blame.
- Emotional truth: Black conveys the small daily victories of rebuilding — therapy, boundaries, tentative trust — in believable, moving detail.
For survivors and allies: this book is validating and painful in equal measure. As a survivor, Black wrote scenes that made me feel like she had interviewed myself or others to capture Rose through her various cycles of trauma and evolution. If you’re triggered by sexual violence and intimate-partner abuse, read with care. That said, Black’s compassionate, clear-eyed storytelling makes this a necessary novel about trauma, responsibility, and the hard path to healing.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
January 2, 2026
3.5/5 ★
I'd like to first say that the title for this book is honestly so fitting with everything we learn about Rose's background, to questioning whether she's truly "free" at the end of it. Please go into this reading the triggers as this book does discuss heavy themes with both the FMC and MMC.
The first portion of the book is slower due to understanding the background and traumas endured by Rose, contributing to her character as distrustful of men and her heavy focus on female objectivity from the male lens. This influences her relationship dynamic with MMC Robert (who has also endured his fair share of trauma through his mother in childhood) which is interesting in balancing nuances of power and consent. It definitely leads you to question whether our MCs are truly healing each other in this relationship full of grey areas contrasting love versus obsession (trauma-bonding? Co-dependency?). The same applies with personal growth for our FMC when comparing her previous relationships to her relationship with Robert. The second half of the book definitely picks up once starting to explore Robert's relationship with Amelia, I could not put the book down as I was hooked to learn more!
I honestly went into this thinking I would love Robert with how he was presented at the beginning. He was communicative (!!) and cared about Rose in helping her explore her mental health but we quickly come to realize things aren't what they seem. I don't want to divulge too much into this and spoil anything but it truly leaves the reader thinking about power imbalances and control in the relationship. Is Robert manipulative? Is Rose a reliable narrator? I came out questioning a lot of things.
I think the reason I didn't push this into a 4 ★ was because of the use of repetition throughout the book and bracketed inner thoughts of our FMC, I felt that it ruined my immersion in the book slightly. It was interesting to see how self-aware the MCs are though, especially when it came to concerns such as the age gap between them (which was well highlighted through discourses of generational differences). I was honestly surprised and feel bittersweet by the ending, I thought it would have taken a different turn given the use of second person perspective but I'm staying open minded with the fact there is a second book planned.
Thank you to the author for a copy of the book!
I'd like to first say that the title for this book is honestly so fitting with everything we learn about Rose's background, to questioning whether she's truly "free" at the end of it. Please go into this reading the triggers as this book does discuss heavy themes with both the FMC and MMC.
The first portion of the book is slower due to understanding the background and traumas endured by Rose, contributing to her character as distrustful of men and her heavy focus on female objectivity from the male lens. This influences her relationship dynamic with MMC Robert (who has also endured his fair share of trauma through his mother in childhood) which is interesting in balancing nuances of power and consent. It definitely leads you to question whether our MCs are truly healing each other in this relationship full of grey areas contrasting love versus obsession (trauma-bonding? Co-dependency?). The same applies with personal growth for our FMC when comparing her previous relationships to her relationship with Robert. The second half of the book definitely picks up once starting to explore Robert's relationship with Amelia, I could not put the book down as I was hooked to learn more!
I honestly went into this thinking I would love Robert with how he was presented at the beginning. He was communicative (!!) and cared about Rose in helping her explore her mental health but we quickly come to realize things aren't what they seem. I don't want to divulge too much into this and spoil anything but it truly leaves the reader thinking about power imbalances and control in the relationship. Is Robert manipulative? Is Rose a reliable narrator? I came out questioning a lot of things.
I think the reason I didn't push this into a 4 ★ was because of the use of repetition throughout the book and bracketed inner thoughts of our FMC, I felt that it ruined my immersion in the book slightly. It was interesting to see how self-aware the MCs are though, especially when it came to concerns such as the age gap between them (which was well highlighted through discourses of generational differences). I was honestly surprised and feel bittersweet by the ending, I thought it would have taken a different turn given the use of second person perspective but I'm staying open minded with the fact there is a second book planned.
Thank you to the author for a copy of the book!
January 13, 2026
I started this book with the intention of reading a few chapters and continuing the next day with a few more… well let me tell you, that did NOT happen. I couldn’t put it down. I read the whole book in one sitting. As far as books go, this thing has it all. It is a darker romance and touches on a lot of various life issues that could be triggering to some. So please check your trigger warnings before reading.
The character building was done very well. The author touched on a good amount of both of the main character’s back stories and I really appreciated that. It helped me not only understand where the characters were coming from (such as past life experiences and traumas, etc.) but also helped me to better understand current thought processes and reactions to new hurdles and twists throughout the book. We never know where someone else is in life.
Not only was there a caring and protective love story, this book had a great presentation of exposing and working through the lies of unworthiness we often tell ourselves when having experienced dark trauma. I also appreciated the author shedding light on what it means to work through traumas and the struggles of learning to truly value who we are as people despite our baggage. I loved how the FMC was vulnerable to another human who she cares about and allowed him really see her and help pick up her broken pieces. Her healing triggered his healing and that was so great!
My career allows me to work with survivors of similar experiences this FMC went through and so it really hit home for me. Her self-loathing, her fear of trusting again, the things she was unconsciously but intentionally depriving herself of because of seeing herself as undeserving really struck a chord… I see beautiful people living that life everyday and it breaks my heart. It was a great reminder for all of us… YOU are beautiful, YOU are special and there is only one YOU. YOU deserve perfect happiness despite an imperfect past.
Thank you, Sabrina Black for this beautiful story of love and self-healing. Can’t wait to read more.
The character building was done very well. The author touched on a good amount of both of the main character’s back stories and I really appreciated that. It helped me not only understand where the characters were coming from (such as past life experiences and traumas, etc.) but also helped me to better understand current thought processes and reactions to new hurdles and twists throughout the book. We never know where someone else is in life.
Not only was there a caring and protective love story, this book had a great presentation of exposing and working through the lies of unworthiness we often tell ourselves when having experienced dark trauma. I also appreciated the author shedding light on what it means to work through traumas and the struggles of learning to truly value who we are as people despite our baggage. I loved how the FMC was vulnerable to another human who she cares about and allowed him really see her and help pick up her broken pieces. Her healing triggered his healing and that was so great!
My career allows me to work with survivors of similar experiences this FMC went through and so it really hit home for me. Her self-loathing, her fear of trusting again, the things she was unconsciously but intentionally depriving herself of because of seeing herself as undeserving really struck a chord… I see beautiful people living that life everyday and it breaks my heart. It was a great reminder for all of us… YOU are beautiful, YOU are special and there is only one YOU. YOU deserve perfect happiness despite an imperfect past.
Thank you, Sabrina Black for this beautiful story of love and self-healing. Can’t wait to read more.
January 21, 2026
In the very beginning I felt sympathy for the Main Character Rose. All of her insecurities and anxieties revolving around not only her prior relationships yet also horrible stuff in her past and her low self-worth. However, after a few chapters I started feeling SO ANGRY at her! I felt like telling her that life sucks for many people, to go get help and STOP moaning all the time! That many people go through horrible, horrible things in their lives yet work hard to come through it. To tell Rose to STOP second guessing herself and start the work towards life. It seemed as if every page was 2/3 Rose saying the same things over and over and 1/3 new content. Don’t get me wrong, I have sympathy for her yet hated the repetition.
Yet at one point partway through, after Rose gave the Main Male Character Rob a chance and started seeing him, she started to change. Change for the better, better in a way for her. As we learned more about Rose, and Rob himself, we learned that they are two people who had been through H#^^ and had not made it back yet.
This is a true to life love story. It is gritty and raw. Full of the ups, downs, and sideways actions that are realistic in so many ways. This book takes the reader through a variety of emotions- anger, fear, sadness, love, hate, and more. One feels what the characters are feeling. Even in the beginning when I was angry and wishing I could yell at Rose I was feeling her own anger at herself and my own anger as I have felt very similar so many times in my life.
Please read the tropes though. This book deals with many hard issues and will trigger intense feelings.
For me, this book receives 5 stars as it made me face many of my own insecurities yet at the end see how this amazing couple made a new life that works for THEM. That love exists in many different ways. What matters is that your relationship is healthy for both of you. This book gives us that hope. That love IS out there for everyone. Even those fighting their way back to life.
I received a free copy of this book as an ARC and am voluntarily leaving a review.
Yet at one point partway through, after Rose gave the Main Male Character Rob a chance and started seeing him, she started to change. Change for the better, better in a way for her. As we learned more about Rose, and Rob himself, we learned that they are two people who had been through H#^^ and had not made it back yet.
This is a true to life love story. It is gritty and raw. Full of the ups, downs, and sideways actions that are realistic in so many ways. This book takes the reader through a variety of emotions- anger, fear, sadness, love, hate, and more. One feels what the characters are feeling. Even in the beginning when I was angry and wishing I could yell at Rose I was feeling her own anger at herself and my own anger as I have felt very similar so many times in my life.
Please read the tropes though. This book deals with many hard issues and will trigger intense feelings.
For me, this book receives 5 stars as it made me face many of my own insecurities yet at the end see how this amazing couple made a new life that works for THEM. That love exists in many different ways. What matters is that your relationship is healthy for both of you. This book gives us that hope. That love IS out there for everyone. Even those fighting their way back to life.
I received a free copy of this book as an ARC and am voluntarily leaving a review.
February 15, 2026
Book Review: Free Me From the Girl I Used to Be by Sabrina Black
Free Me From the Girl I Used to Be tells the powerful and deeply moving story of Rose, the female lead character, whose life is shaped by trauma, abuse, and profound emotional pain. Through Rose’s journey, the author explores the long-term impact of violence, shame, and distorted self-worth, and the difficult but transformative process of healing.
The book is raw, honest, and at times confronting. Rose’s experiences are described with emotional depth, allowing readers to see both the brokenness she endured and the strength it took to confront her past. The narrative does not soften the reality of her experiences — particularly the trauma of rape and the way it shaped her identity and relationships. It also addresses eating disorders and the ways trauma can manifest in harmful coping mechanisms.
I found this book a good read, but also quite triggering at times, which meant it took me longer to finish. Some parts were emotionally heavy and required space to process. However, I appreciated the honesty and the hope woven throughout the story.
A strong theme throughout the book is healing — emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. There is an emphasis on accountability, faith, and personal growth, offering hope that freedom from the past is possible, even after significant harm. The journey toward restoration is not instant or simple; it is layered, painful, and deeply personal.
Trigger warnings are important for this book. It contains references to:
• Rape and sexual violence
• Emotional and physical abuse
• Eating disorders
• Trauma and its psychological effects
• Dysfunctional family dynamics
Some sections are intense and may be difficult for readers who have experienced similar trauma. While the overall message is ultimately hopeful, readers should be aware that the content is emotionally heavy.
Overall, Free Me From the Girl I Used to Be is a powerful and impactful read about breaking free from the girl shaped by trauma and stepping into healing and identity. It is not an easy book, but it is a meaningful one.
Free Me From the Girl I Used to Be tells the powerful and deeply moving story of Rose, the female lead character, whose life is shaped by trauma, abuse, and profound emotional pain. Through Rose’s journey, the author explores the long-term impact of violence, shame, and distorted self-worth, and the difficult but transformative process of healing.
The book is raw, honest, and at times confronting. Rose’s experiences are described with emotional depth, allowing readers to see both the brokenness she endured and the strength it took to confront her past. The narrative does not soften the reality of her experiences — particularly the trauma of rape and the way it shaped her identity and relationships. It also addresses eating disorders and the ways trauma can manifest in harmful coping mechanisms.
I found this book a good read, but also quite triggering at times, which meant it took me longer to finish. Some parts were emotionally heavy and required space to process. However, I appreciated the honesty and the hope woven throughout the story.
A strong theme throughout the book is healing — emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. There is an emphasis on accountability, faith, and personal growth, offering hope that freedom from the past is possible, even after significant harm. The journey toward restoration is not instant or simple; it is layered, painful, and deeply personal.
Trigger warnings are important for this book. It contains references to:
• Rape and sexual violence
• Emotional and physical abuse
• Eating disorders
• Trauma and its psychological effects
• Dysfunctional family dynamics
Some sections are intense and may be difficult for readers who have experienced similar trauma. While the overall message is ultimately hopeful, readers should be aware that the content is emotionally heavy.
Overall, Free Me From the Girl I Used to Be is a powerful and impactful read about breaking free from the girl shaped by trauma and stepping into healing and identity. It is not an easy book, but it is a meaningful one.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
February 28, 2026
I was very fortunate to have been given this book to review from the Author, thank you very much for reaching out, and giving me this opportunity.
Think ‘50 shades of grey’ meets ‘gone girl’, that’s how the author described this book in a nutshell, and I’d say it was a bit pretty apt comparison.
I found this book to be very relatable, as a woman we’ve all gone through the experience of toxic relationships. I would say this story is an in-depth analysis of this, by the end, you understand how people can get trapped in this cycle of abuse.
This story follows Rose & Rob, and is about their relationship and needs of control in their own ways, as they explore a BDSM relationship. However, not everything is as it seems, Rob has a past that Rose soon gets swept up in. Was Rob’s deceased wife really murdered by a jealous ex…? Or did Rob have something to do with it…?
‘Free me’ is a book that is a devastating but captivating read, with heavy themes such as Domestic abuse, Eating disorders and many more. This may be a triggering read for some readers, so please take into account any trigger warnings before proceeding. The writing style of Sabrina is very descriptive, you literally feel like you are the characters, she has a very immersive style.
The only reason this is not a 5 star review is due to the slow-burn beginning, I do like to be thrust straight into the action as a reader. It takes around 50 pages to get into the main story, but I do understand why it’s a slow-burn beginning, as we go right into the characters past to get a full understanding of Rose’s trauma’s.
Sabrina this is a fantastic read, I really enjoyed Rob & Rose’s story, and the thriller element really gripped me, I didn’t expect the story to go in the way it did. Can’t wait for book 2 ‘A beautiful lie’ which can be accessed through Amazon for purchase, or downloaded for free if you have Kindle Unlimited.
If you like spice & a bit of a thriller, read this, you won’t regret it.
Think ‘50 shades of grey’ meets ‘gone girl’, that’s how the author described this book in a nutshell, and I’d say it was a bit pretty apt comparison.
I found this book to be very relatable, as a woman we’ve all gone through the experience of toxic relationships. I would say this story is an in-depth analysis of this, by the end, you understand how people can get trapped in this cycle of abuse.
This story follows Rose & Rob, and is about their relationship and needs of control in their own ways, as they explore a BDSM relationship. However, not everything is as it seems, Rob has a past that Rose soon gets swept up in. Was Rob’s deceased wife really murdered by a jealous ex…? Or did Rob have something to do with it…?
‘Free me’ is a book that is a devastating but captivating read, with heavy themes such as Domestic abuse, Eating disorders and many more. This may be a triggering read for some readers, so please take into account any trigger warnings before proceeding. The writing style of Sabrina is very descriptive, you literally feel like you are the characters, she has a very immersive style.
The only reason this is not a 5 star review is due to the slow-burn beginning, I do like to be thrust straight into the action as a reader. It takes around 50 pages to get into the main story, but I do understand why it’s a slow-burn beginning, as we go right into the characters past to get a full understanding of Rose’s trauma’s.
Sabrina this is a fantastic read, I really enjoyed Rob & Rose’s story, and the thriller element really gripped me, I didn’t expect the story to go in the way it did. Can’t wait for book 2 ‘A beautiful lie’ which can be accessed through Amazon for purchase, or downloaded for free if you have Kindle Unlimited.
If you like spice & a bit of a thriller, read this, you won’t regret it.
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