Dating. Marriage. Baby carriage. Happily ever after. After all, wasn't that what she'd been taught her entire life? These were things Kaycee Kingsley expected of her future. She never expected to find her fiancé in bed with another woman. One devastating heartbreak leads to one impulsive decision in a local bar.
Working. Providing. Family. These were things Nash Taylor wanted from life until he discovered his girlfriend had other plans, plans that meant he'd have to leave behind the life and people he loved. His dreams for the future seemed out of reach until he met her–the blonde with the sparkling personality, sad eyes, and a laugh like sunshine. Then, he made the mistake of letting her walk away.
But when life brings them together again, Kaycee and Nash must face the consequences of one impulsive night and the implications of it in their small, southern town. As Kaycee faces guilt, shame, and abandonment from the people she trusted, she must face the darkness in her own mind and attempt to untangle her worth from their expectations. Sometimes, unsuspecting grace and acceptance can sweep through the lies and lead you home.
S. C. Selby writes fantasy and contemporary romance laden with heavier themes and a lot of hope. Her romance is steamy, but usually closed door and she has a firm belief that if it's not happy or hopeful, it's not the end.
She lives in the South with her amazing husband/best friend, heathen puppy dogs, and her adult daughter. In her free time, she's a mood reader and you can find her on Instagram posting about her favorite books under @vannahreadsalot.
Kaycee catches her fiancé having sex with another woman, when they’d both promised to wait for sex until after they were married. Well, he’s blown that all to hell, though he does try to get back with her more than once. Loved the “excuse” that he just needed to get it all out of his system so he could be fully committed to her. Gross. And does he face any retribution in public? In their church? Nope.
Fleeing from her cheating ex, Kaycee meets Nash in a local bar, they enjoy each other’s company enough that they talk and play darts for hours. She decides she wants to go home with him, and you can probably guess where things go from there. (BTW, I LOVE NASH, HE IS THE BEST PERSON FOR KAYCEE.)
Nash is a good man, and he doesn’t do one night stands. He’s only ever been with one other woman, and they were planning to get married, but it fell apart and they went their separate ways. He feels very differently about Kaycee, though, wanting to have more than just their one night together, and when she finally contacts him again and wants to see him, he had no idea what’s coming. Because Kaycee is pregnant, with his baby.
This book shines a needed spotlight on purity culture, and how it affects girls. It teaches them that they must achieve impossible standards, and if they fail, they’re whores. There is no grace, no in-between. Kaycee is a victim of these impossible standards, and it takes her some time, and a lot of great support—sadly, not from her family—to understand that she is not evil, or fallen, or any of those things the bible thumpers want her to believe.
Kaycee’s negative self-talk is all too familiar to me — I have heard that nasty little voice many times. I am autistic and have bipolar disorder, so my mind is never quiet. When I was growing up, that purity culture made me feel sick, as time after time, I’d see the boys get away with things that the girls were shunned for. Even kissing a boy was shocking. And the guilt-tripping…oh my, so much guilt-tripping. From elders. Family. Friends. I am now no longer a part of any religion, and am much happier for it.
This really is a beautiful story, and a difficult one, and that is a compliment. I appreciated that there were no punches pulled. This book made me laugh out loud, and made me cry several times — sometimes in joy, sometimes in sorrow. The emotional journey it took me on was engrossing, to the point that I had to finish the book in one day because I was so invested in the plot and the characters. So, bottom line—get the book!
This had me in all my feels. What a roller coaster. Anger. Mischief. Confusion. Hatred. Grief. Love. There was so much emotion packed into every page.
I absolutely loved how Nash and Kayce grew together in everything they experienced. I absolutely hated the non support shown from those that should support you no matter what. I definitely loathed the excuse of having to get it of your system to be able to truly commit to someone. Parts were hard to handle.
Great read. It shines a light on the purity culture and the extremes some go to, or through, when it comes to life decisions.
OMG!! This book had me feeling all of the feelings. It made me smile, angry and sad. As someone who lived through something similar to the FMC, it broke my heart reading the story and took me back to that time in my life. S. C. Selby really nailed the emotions that come with unplanned pregnancies and mental health. I absolutely loved this book.
I really loved the book! It was very emotional; I teared up but in the best way! Nash is great! A total green flag guy. Kaycee was so relatable! I loved their story! ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️🌶️🌶️