**Many thanks to NetGalley, Atria, and Alison Cochrun for a DRC of this book in exchange for an honest review!**
Sadie Wells isn't quite sure what is missing from her life...but at 35 and at a crossroads, maybe Portugal's Camino de Santiago can go the Peter Frampton route and Show Her the Way. After her sister Vi suffers an injury that renders her unable to make this famous trek and blog about it, Sadie thinks this is a prime opportunity to escape the slew of bad dates, family business drama, and general uncertainty that have been plaguing her lately and agrees to go on the trip. Once she gets on the plane, though, a bout of turbulence and a hefty dose of alcohol leaves her fearing for her life - and ready to spill her guts in more ways than one. Her quirky, pretty seatmate, Mal, not only intrigues her and calms her...but manages to steer her to a conclusion that Sadie has been dancing around for some time: Sadie is not straight.
Once the plane lands safely and Sadie settles in, the hits just keep on coming: this Camino is SPECIFICALLY for queer people, meaning she has to come face to face with her new reality and finding her identity amidst a group who is VERY solid in their own identities. And guess who just so happens to be on the tour too? (Duh. The fact Sadie didn't even CONSIDER this possibility on the plane based on their conversation was pretty obtuse on her part...
but after getting to know her character better, not too surprising.
) Mal considers herself to be Sadie's 'gay mentor' of sorts, and makes it her personal mission to allow Sadie to have her gay adolescence...in her mid-thirties. Along the way she has to 'teach her how to kiss' (among...other things) and yet, these two are JUST roommates...right? After Mal receives an unexpected financial windfall and subsequently struggles with her own family troubles, the two still can't deny their blossoming feelings. But when the trail winds down and they reach their final destination, will Sadie go back to her old life solo? Or has the Camino TRULY been transformative for both of these characters...in more ways than one?
I've had an Alison Cochrun sapphic romance sitting on my shelf for ages, but when the opportunity to grab an ARC of this one popped up, the lure of a good romantic travel-tinged adventure was too strong to ignore, and I eagerly snapped it up. I had no idea what to expect from Cochrun but had heard others singing her praises for a while, so I figured this was the opportunity for my own Long Walk through Portugal. (Or as close as I am going to get for a LONG time, anyway!)
But unfortunately, I felt like I twisted my ankle on day one and spent the rest of my proverbial trip stuck in a hotel next to noisy neighbors...and it left me positively ACHING to go home again.
First off, these are once again MCs that are SUPPOSEDLY in their mid-thirties and read exactly like they were whiny 24 year olds...and I'm not sure where along the way this became the norm in so many romance novels, but it once again left me ACHING for a good Sophie Cousens MC and their ACTUAL thirty-something problems. I get that Sadie is 'young' in her queerness journey, but frankly, this immaturity starts from pretty much page one and only gets worse as the book progresses. She has trouble being honest with anyone (even herself!) and I found her tendency to hit the sauce constantly to excess (and her 'buddy' Mal and the rest of their Camino group isn't much better) to be much more indicative of the twenty-something set. Even the rest of their group and the ancillary characters who were supposed to be significantly older didn't really read that way and felt more like a bunch of sorority sisters on a Vision Quest or something equally inane.
And then there's Mal, who is supposedly standing in JUST as a mentor to 'teach' Sadie about what it means to be gay. I know the author had the best of intentions with this plot line and it was more about support and understanding, but it was completely RIDICULOUS for the audience to expect that she could be sort of an impartial guide in this scenario. I mean, she was having to FORCE herself not to kiss this woman THE MINUTE THEY MET. How on earth are we supposed to believe she was going to have the sort of self control required not to fall head over heels for her when she had to oh, I don't know, TEACH her how she would be in a theoretical queer relationship? 🤦♀️ Kissing your crush platonically is pretty much NOT a thing, to my knowledge...so that took a lot of 'oomph' out of the story line, to say the least.
But boy oh boy is Sadie apparently a FAST learner. Not only is she tossing around verbiage like 'hetero-normative' with ease after, uh, just being introduced to these concepts and the entire spectrum of bi, pan, poly, asexual, etc, she goes from having literally ZERO experience with women (she is actually convinced she might not even BE queer at more than one point in the book because she is ONLY attracted to Mal), to being an apparent MASTER at uh, relations, with said partner mere pages later. 🫣 Not only is this cognitively dissonant, it's also just a bit odd. For this to feel like an 'adolescence', shouldn't there be lots of fumbling and bumbling as she figures things out? I'm not saying I wanted to watch her struggle or feel awkward, but the fact that everything came so naturally (
pun NOT intended this time...I promise!
🙈) was just a bit off-putting.
Mal's family drama is also sort of shoehorned in to give her character some depth, but all it told ME is that she wasn't ready to be in a real relationship...with ANYONE. These passages also are sort of long and between the traveling, the budding feelings between Sadie and Mal, and trying to occasionally reference Vi and the all-important blogging, there was a lot going on and none of it really got the real estate it deserved. Most of the ancillary characters on the Camino are also just sort of defined by their sexual preferences rather than anything else, and sadly, this also took away from getting to KNOW them fully as complete people. All of this eventually winds up in a completely corny and predictable ending (one that was sort of borrowed on a smaller scale from Never Been Kissed, I might add!) that left me feeling a bit deflated...and also just relieved it was over. The author's note confirms what I had already suspected: the author went on her OWN Camino (the details she used throughout made this not exactly surprising) and although I'm glad this was probably a fun and cathartic writing experience for her, I'm sad to say it was far LESS fun for me as a reader. (But it DID make me desperate to try a pastel de nata! 😋)
And while I'd hoped to end this book with a bit of a post-5k runner's high, in the end I was just as relieved to FINALLY be able to take my shoes off. 👟👟
3.5 stars